The things aren't the way he imagine
Another outcome dealing with backlash
The love he gave everyone lashing out
Trying to be there getting cut out
Fading out not meant to be there
Everything changed drastically
Had no say or control holding on
Everything is gone never the same
Everyone grew up got married
Now divorced or have kids and still together
From no job to a career still single
Working nights to pay the bills

You gain wisdom but lose your youth
Living in the present Observing the new
So much has changed over time
Heart on Golden daze treasured pleasures
The past has rich memories
Success should be rewarding not a punishment
Tired of living in regret got overlooked
From a broken home now married
A hard working man not given any credit
Educated walking with open eyes
Hated for having an opinion
Speaking your mind gets you canceled

Heart racing foot shaking
Trying to remain calm
Eye twitching face feeling hot
Staying centered and composed
Not sure how to act on anxiety meds
Dealing with made up scenarios
Walking away feels like your fading away
Use to fight for a place once belonged
Lost value not the same anymore
Growing more hard to fit in
Doesn't belong just trying be an equal
Excluded from crazy once was phased

The heart of a warrior fighting through. Always a struggle to get by. Use to talk smack seen it like a rap battle. Can't say anything without words getting twisted. Made out to be the bad guy. Always thinking holding back the words.
Some are wrong still talking like if they in it for everyone. Only their own selfish gain. Holding back to keep the peace while they make everyone unsettle and uncomfortable.

He wondered why were they talking about him. He analyzed the situation not the person. He respected what they felt and thought because he had his own things going on to be worried what others were saying about him.
He thought highly of them while they made him out to be crazy for speaking up.
He loved to be involved but since it required him to give up who he was deny himself he couldn't do it. He was making moves in silences behind the scenes. He couldn't be the lead because everything became his fault. He couldn't handle the pressure all he wanted was to work hard get his part done.
The mind is everywhere can't please or make everyone happy. He didn't put his happiness in the hands of others. He down played his ego moving forward was hard since it kept pulling him back. He knew he had to grow and change with the seasons change life was ambiguous. Everything happened late for him it was inevitable

He was trying to be a lead and move up
Motivating others was not his thing
Being responsible for people
He had trust issues it lead to him doing it on his own
Be better than the original work hard
These are things he told himself
He knew if he wanted her have to go out and do it himself
It was frustrating the current lead did everyone favors and ******* over the hardest worker
What an ungrateful *******
Who would snake around pretending to care
Ask for a favor and leave without a thank you
He didn't like people
Who didn't bother but would float around Because they covered their ***

The underdog

Called crazy but coming back for more
Going forward all the support fell off
Believe in yourself pursing the dream
Many said it couldn't be done
Doing more than most doing the work
Those words hurt but give strength
Haters judge and talk dk anything
No one is talking about them
Personal growth shadows their envy
Inspire others to be better by example
Take charge motivate other by leading
Seen as a failure focused on victory
Doing the work putting in the time
People see the old stuck in the past
Never see the new with a promising future

Learning to communicate
Have an adult conversation
Without hatred as aftermath
Mutual respect still friends
Able to debate over differences
Open to learn most of all understand
Do not impose with silly demands
Don't point out flaws making it personal
The topic lacked support in the discussion
Talking loud doesn't make you right
Overeating making a scene draw attention
Doesn't help the cause make it better

She cheated with him
Kept it casual he had no clue
He had been emotionally invested
She talked him out of it
He wasn't ready to settle
Felt like things got worse
His heart broken
Things never got better
He'd give it all up for her
He waited she already moved on
Shattered when he seen
Her with someone new
Once he moved she was mad
He couldn't be with her
But she didn't want him
Or to be with anyone else

Part of him felt dead and showed because he valued and respected them while they told him he wasn't worth it laughed at him treated him like a child belittled his feelings and emotions. He loved them so he took it called him ignorant because he had an opinion. He cut the cord and stayed away because that's, how they felt he respected it and moved onto.
He took the blame he lived with the labels other placed on him as he focused else where. He couldn't voice his opinion so he wrote. He couldn't be that person anymore stop projecting All this nonsense he chose not to give in. They played their mind games.

She claimed to love him
Now she denies knowing him
Acting like it never happened
Hiding a secret like it's *****
He loved her but didn't know
How to say it didn't want to rush
Feared she turn him away
Shut him down she already did
A loving smile to a cold emotionless stare
From a warm touch to lifeless vibe

Make it fun now it ***** going numb
Terrible leads dk what they are doing
A stupid title given not doing the work
Stepped it up and got set back
Don't care to react or show any emotions
Helped out and it all went bad
Forgiving yourself they did you *****
Trusted all the wrong people
See through the lies hard to trust
Never going to be what they say
Proving them wrong so over all the doubt
Better yourself let them talk
Be the one talked about not the one talking

Adapting to medication
Anxiety messes with the mind
Thinking too much
Made up scenarios
Playing the role out of place
Feeling excluded from everything
Most of all ignored by everyone
Mind looping everywhere
Not able to change the past
Prepared better for the future

Went so hard there's on other way
Dk what to say now
Can't live in the moment
Quick to ask what's next
Going strong going hard
Trying to slow down
The rush won't let up
Took it all in got burnt out
Let it all go feeling free
Staying true focused on the gain
Not influenced by others
Working hard than most

Always working for his tired of being denied
Hard to grow when everyone stays the same
Doing his thing they made it about them
Working hard to maintain an uphill bad
No one talking about anyone massive tension
Trying to stir the *** full of resentment
Able to go out not married single no kids
Not liking the guilt trip able to explore
See the world travel not feeding an ego
Not letting them dull this shine
Kills the spirit positive vibes only
Learning to cope deal with family
They'll dismiss, reject everything about you
Make differences out to be the complicated

After the surgery feeling gutted
Pain tolerance high focused on work
Writing to feel mild expression
Sometimes emotions are numb
Trying to stay positive and upbeat
While everyone wallows in misery
Not into drama staying clear
Don't care for the circle ****
Avoiding egos with bad attitudes
Rejecting toxic vines of negativity
Called selfish for being alone
Denied trying to fit in why bother
Over all the contradiction and lies
Hated for being honest being genuine
While the fake try to take you down
Not wishing bad like they do
I pray things get better and stay away

He loved her but it was over. She didn't believe in his dream. She told him he wasn't good enough it tore him up from the inside out. The anger didn't resonate with him. He did what he loved while everyone else gave up on their dreams.
He was pursuing it behind the scenes working his craft. Getting better educating himself trying to apply what was being learned to better his situation. His family didn't get or understand him since he didn't listen to NO or like being told that he couldn't do it. Giving his all even though it wasn't good enough staying positive working it from all angles and directions eventually it would work out fall into place.
He wanted to write stand up and sitcoms tell his story. He took those steps shared with friends and did his podcast that gave him a voice. He broke free of his family they called him delusional and kept him out for being single and not having a family. He was smart didn't want to do that with just anyone.

He was tired of arguing with everyone
Someone is holding a grudge keeping tabs
Talking about everyone
Being a two faced phony
He didn't have the time
The energy for all that
He was loyal and true
Dealing with phony and fake
He kept his mouth shut stayed away
They raided and imposed his area Acting like they did more not even close
Talking like they actually contribute
He was tired of all the bad mouthing Everyone was loud talking not right
Never to each other rambling on
Behind one another's back
Quiet once they entered the room
Mumbling the things they said
To someone else never to the person

She won't admit she's wrong
She got caught be held accountable
Trying to slip out flip and place blame
Terrorizing others with her bad behavior
Praying God protects those who did right
He trusted her, She broke his trust
Trying to tell him he's over reacting
Laughing thinking her toxic behavior is cute
That's why no one bothers with you anymore
Playing others in the end you played yourself
People dump their bad vibes on you
Rob your peace because misery needs company
In public everyone sees through your act
That's why you hide run from the truth
All the things you complain about
You did it to yourself making others insecure

Playing many roles all he wanted was to be himself. All he did was give about to tap out but refusing to quit. Trying to honor his commitments it was important to him trying to find balance instead of go over the edge. He fought to be the hero in his story. Made out to be the bad guy depending who's giving the narrative.
Trying to do right things go wrong dealing with the consequences. Things go well no one cares he got ******* over one area is well while another is crumbling trying to restore it all.
Help out others struggling to save himself feeling like a failure over one error one mistake. All the good and effort goes unnoticed.
Setting goals outside of work feeling neglected by those he respected. Preferred to stay away instead of getting close. His feelings hurt trying to stay composed. Never one to judge others he's been down and got back up. Stood in silence still being judged. Always honest told the truth because its easier than lying. Called blunt because most want everything but the truth.

More wrinkles on this face
White hairs standing out
****** hair with white patches
Wisdom with time
Letting go to get over things
Use to remember everything
Lost in the daze of life
Another phase with age
The heart melts in love
While the mind avoids
Being consumed by rage
Love for other more than ones self
Feeling complete can be deep
Losing it all can't cause numbness
Eventually the vision becomes real
If not you find another way to achieve
What the mind heart body desires

The love in the light
Lust at night romantic moon lighting
Secret love doesn't feel right
Things didn't work out
Being single things will be alright

Finding peace and comfort
Reading his bible helped
Through tough times
Praying for strength
Praying for everyone's safety
For everyone's health
This year has been tough for all
Hard to sleep at night
Exhausted all day
Slowing down inhale
Exhale calming all that's within
Usually going strong

Sad how some mock others for their believes
Some will toll you trying to get a reaction
The stupid smirk on their face pointing out the problem
That doesn't help how about providing a solution
Once you call them on their misconduct they try to come at you
Trying to be a bully online not saying anything in person
Once you learn who they are and what about you don't bother with them anymore.
Respecting their decisions it's okay to not see eye to eye
Sad how they disrespect everyone and expect respect
Looking down on others like its a right
Not contributing talking acting like the world evolves around them
Quick to place the blame for their short comings
Your way doesn't work for you why would you think it's better for others
From close to distant because no one communicates and thinks they are right
Rather than talk things out they'll make it personal.
Trying to cancel you out erase your existence for being different
Thinking they could beat you up bit not doing anything just running there mouth like always
Trying to turn everyone it doesn't matter anymore use to being alone

Mom's blaming everyone but herself
Son is a thief always mad at something
Running her mouth over nothing
All this talk no do mad at the truth
Called ruthless blunt not holding back
Writing this story from the people
Who's drama ruins my day
Healing from pain ******* up memories remain
Sober living getting cussed out by a drunk
Confronted the hunger over not talking anymore
Always on trial for being myself
While others are praised for being fake
Talking about others doesn't make you better
On the way one day it will all fade away

Made out to be the crazy one
Spoke up games being played
Don't care for the drama
Not in it for the glory
Doing what's right
You can be lazy
Your problem not mine
Doesn't phase me
Made out to be crazy
Don't pick a fight
Not being heard
Able to speak up
I have your attention
Now your mad told the truth
Time to walk away
Pointless conversations
Wasting our time
Bounce back from this
Head up high you'll be just fine