Don't let your assumptions hold you back
Sometimes you need to start your own traditions
You can't keep alter yourself to make others happy
Haters will continue to talk about you Some minds are made up why bother
Don't waste your time on the head strong
Always proving one's self worthy
Tired of fighting because playing those games
Push to hard roles switch the bully becomes the victim
Taking the bullies misconduct to keep the peace doesn't stop
Love for others and his people
Being genuine with others
This idea of who you think they are is exposed
Giving the benefit of the doubt once exposed it's a lie
Pretending to be someone they are not is disheartening
But human behavior is twisted heart Broken dealing with those wicked ways

Ready to pounce
Just needed a reason
Fuel to the burning fire
Already had it mind
Ready to tell others
Never listening ready to argue
Assuming they are in the right
Looking down rather than help up
If you're not doing favors kept out
Have to act or be a certain way
Denying yourself to be accepted
Not breaking up the fame
Divided from the pack
The black sheep looking in
Staying away doing his own thing
Tired of pretending it okay being dogged
Over the third degree feeling robbed
Making his own way happen in peace

after I woke up from the transplant
I was in ICU the beginning of recovery
The catheter tube would come out
Each day would consist of a task
a cut across my gut I'd pray everyday
My abdominal muscle lacking core strength
A huge cut stapled shut metal stitches
Extremely anxious to get out of bed
Having to page the nurse for assistance
Getting out of bed was difficult
I felt like a turtle on its back
I learned techniques during physical therapy
I had to urinate one of the first tasks
A process that took a few hours
After being assigned was a flow
I'd get up and walk after every meal
trying to keep strong physically
mentally missing work and home
Mostly grandma, her words echoed
"mijo, no one is going to do it for you, you need to do it yourself."
Next, I'd be asked to pass gas ripping a few.
A bowel movement, which was my final task so I could be released to be out patient staying a local to AZ

Family is tough but that love is real. Cousins get mad and worry for you. Told not to cry, don't be a *****. As we grow older it's hard to express yourself. Show emotions to your partner. Life should get easier but childhood habits complicate things.
Always looked up to them and ended up disappointed telling yourself to be better. Do better seeking a role model not another don't be like that life lesson. Open to grow change for the better life is full of lessons Be open to grow and learn.
Only if it was easy to unlearn and relearn these bad habits that have been normal. Always the outsider looking in. Once inside you do your best to survive. Someone is always threatened or sees you as the bad one when they've done worse. Quick to throw you under to cover their ***.

He respected his elders
Even though they had no respect for him
His mistake seeing them like an equal
He accepted them flaw and all
He knew his breathe wasn't minty fresh
When she'd talk loud with yuck mouth
Dealing with an annoying laugh
It's not genuine it drowns out the silence
An opinion spoken no one asked
Everything leads to a random story
That makes everyone uncomfortable
He saw good in the wrong people
Disappointed once again proved wrong

Defused the bomb within ready to explode
No one gets hurt just self destruction
Malfunctions the right was wrong the wrong was right no justification
Putting it to rest letting it blow away in the wind fade in the sunlight
Not going back to the darkness empowering those causing pain
Out work the lazy gain extra integrity
The voice in the mind goes silent
Feeling revived onto to a new chapter of life
Cant keep doing the same thing anymore
All the insanity not letting it **** the soul
Triggered minds ready to attach a clear heart
Protect the heart that beats in the cage
Not into the fit of rage turning the page
The extra defense a guilty conscience
Not a favorite or liked e
Everything works out will be alright
Dealing with others emotions struggling with his own
Not sure how to act not going back
The resistance causing friction

you asked for help, and it was hard to do
You're sharing a moment to have it ruined
Not contributing anything to case
The nerve to complain about things
Controlling the mood, making everyone miserable
Taking over the TV talking loud
Not able to sleep, keeping everyone up
No one asked or cares about your opinion
Trying to take credit shoveling the BS heavy
Failed since day one couldn't be alone
Bringing your partner all you do is argue
around a couple with bad habits
stuck with a **** relationship
a squatter trying to control a formal gang banger
how does a person munch on food
Knock out in the middle of eating
hard to sleep with snoring and bad sleep apnea from the terrible roommates
The caretakers from hell
Expected the best dealing with the worst
They aren't going to take care of you
So you take your health in your own hands
when you want to do things, they make it ****
stuck doing their bs agenda because they are bored
it's never in your best interest

Everyone is going through something
Some understand while others assume
Called ignorant for having an opinion
Sensitive for showing emotions
Called entitled and dismissed
Those comments stood out
Took the criticism somethings made sense
Others he questioned where it came from
A tough time and transition not taking things personal
Forgiving and moving on this isn't the first or the last time
Shouldn't be surprised all the attacks are personal
But those assumptions are the truth
Don't let toxic words influence your behavior
He liked being alone when in a mood
Didn't keep anyone out of their personal space
Some mean well others have their own evil intention
Confrontation is not worth it someone end up mad or offended
They'll hurt your feelings or hurt them
Because theirs more to the story
That ones not aware of multiple factors
That could explain or be an excuse for justification

Focused on the prize social life fading away
Use to go out not fun or the same anymore
Always following rules most kept him out
Being pulled in many directions any but back
The guilt clouded his mind staying strong
Heavy burdens crushing the caring heart
Beating strong for them never selfish
Still moving forward with the pain
Can't do it the same not that person
Old emotions and thoughts have risen
Can't be that person live that way anymore
Out grew this the past labels don't fit
Overtime lost meaning not in that place
Those old ways not going back there

He walked on the pier thinking about his life. Staring at the sunset so he can forget his worries and be free for the moment. Life wasn't bad but he wanted to be better. He missed and thought about his grandpa. Trying to live life for both be better something was missing on the outside looking in.

Be this way just trying to be himself
Act that way minding his mouth
Mostly his business kept out
Once in it wasn't anything special
He was over people so much betrayal
Who didn't follow their own advice
He anger got the best of him
No one listens but expects everything
Told he had a bad attitude
Frustrated his schedule ruined to fill-in
Last minute notice had prior commitments
Felt disrespected can't do it anymore
Tried to keep quiet being provoked
Just doing all the ***** work
Feeling robbed cheated
COVID making short staff more complicated
Trying to stay physically healthy
While mentally drained burnt out
Working towards new over the old
Usually ignored getting the 3rd degree
Lurking to cover for their own gain
So much frustration and pain from a bad leader
His way dictating work on the team
No other way expects from others
Never looking out dumping the load
Will never admit a mistake
Quick to point out the flaw

They pushed you out
Made up rules in their favor
You went away to keep the peace
Now they are in your world
Talking like you owe them
Acting like their approval matters
He held his head up feeling dead inside
Showing no emotion turning away
Showed them respect
As they disrespect everyone trying to take over
He stayed in his lane overcame the pain
Not much to give but gained strength
Tired of being told no one asked
Being genuine better than being fake
Minded his mouth and business kept them out
Drama and problem able to do without
The consequences waiting as the tab builds up

Some people complain but don't contribute anything
While others pay for everything and never complain
How does a one who relies on another person treat them so bad
Some bs others and have the nerve to get mad
Once you question their logic they start to treat you different
Exclude you because their dictator ways don't work on sharp minded individuals
These bullies are sensitive but act tough especially when they try to manipulate others

Stuck on a thought, running with ideas that might or might not work. Telling the truth should lead to good feels like things got worse. Not sure why it becomes a conflict of interest maybe being around the wrong people doesn't help.
Use to be a wild one life was different after sobriety. People stop calling when you don't drink anymore.
Made efforts to keep a friendship going it soon became one sided. Stopped caring let go of those people. Sad to see them go, but a way to stay true and grow.

Wrapping his fist taking breaths getting mentally prepped for the drills. Clearing his mind getting in the zone. Focused on foot work and throwing punches efficiently. Telling his older body to move his feet don't be flat footed. Be your best help your cousin prepare for his next fight.
Working hard to be prepared for this combat battle. Every strike must be precise. Landing kicks to chop down this opponent get inside and out keeping a distance. Punches that connect breaking away from the clench throwing strikes that cause the hands to drop then react in a strategic manner.

He didn't want the responsibility care all the burden all the slack. Picking up his guitar coming up with lyric melodies coming together as the world came apart but rebuilding itself. People leaving never feeling permanent.
Couldn't fight the change occurring. All these weird feelings and emotions learning to cope. Deal with them without losing it over reacting. The music soothed his heart his soul burned without burning out.
The vibration of the strings echoing through out his body. His raspy voice wanting to sing hold a note find a time. Trying to connect relate to the melodies.

He blocked out the haters they told him NO it made him want it more. He was obsessed eyes locked on his goals his success so many detours he didn't lose faith eventually he got there and was thankful. It didn't happen right away when it did he was grateful never looked back he just sees the people who doubted him and proving them wrong. Shutting down those that mocked him after being injured and depressed anxious to get back on the mats. Being harassed for missing practice because he had to work. Taunted by people that had it given to them while he had to work for his way. Never fit in or cared for gym politics but one who focused on the technique and drills.

Love family but they always make you pick and choose them or what you like and love. Why do you have to compromise yourself to be accepted. No one is against them but they come at you like if you owe them something. Telling you what to do when no one asked for their opinion. The times you needed them they said nothing and no where to be found.
You start feeling better about yourself and they try to knock you down a few levels. Its the worse especially when its family instead of united everyone divided, so much ego and pride; it's easier to walk away.
You forgive and forgive its easier to walk away while they hold a grudge because they made you out to be someone your not painting you out to be a monster. While they keep doing shady stuff. Trying to turn the family on you because you had your own plans and they include you in shenanigans.

Seen them as a crew now they want nothing to do with you
Made a name for yourself old peeps bad mouthing slandering you
Trying to discredit all your hard work and effort
Told you it couldn't be done but doing it
Said it couldn't be done to excuse their laziness
Made so much progress not falling back into old drama
Bad habits dealing with people stuck on the past it was long ago
Let it go not there or that person anymore
Acting like nothing happened they know what they did to you
Wishing you the best as we depart

Great up poor hard working
Help out or get out of the way
No longer seek your approval
Or care for others thoughts
More lies and rumors being said
Listening to negativity putting out good
That BS ruins the day focused on work
Busting **** to live the best life possible
Going hard all in or nothing
Trying to be somebody treated like nobody
Talked about hated on made out to be the bad guy
Doing what's right following this heart
Minding this mouth it will ruin everything
Destroyed everything gave it to God things got better
Staying sober saving mental health
Physical health body scared and recovering
Not afraid of self destruction struggle brought me down
Bounced back with faith detailed not afraid to do great things for others

He started to feel his dream
Started to see it in his mind
Own a home a life on the ranch
Making money doing what he loved
It came together finding the one
No more false promises
Trying make more happen
Wanted kids and a family
Feared being a single parent
Having it all just for it to be taken away

You believed in me
When no one else did
Trying to move up to far
Working hard to get better
Always there giving it all
Caring more than most
Fear of missing out dreaming big
Keeping busy from the drama
Lost in the work not obsessing
Overcome doubt cut the toxic cord
Starting over sounds insane
Rebuilding wiser than before

sometimes you'll love a girl who doesn't love herself. you got intimate and fell in love while she was lusting around. not caring who she hurt. broken hearts and broken trust over a lush. you felt special, but other guys are getting the same treatment. you wanted to be the only one while everyone treated her badly. you treated her well, and she dropped you like the rest. God's not done with you. thinking of going back to school to get back in the medical field. learn all that you can. you have a good memory tired of playing dumb pretending, not care. Mostly afraid of being judged by people who don't know me. No matter what I do, they are going to judge me. look down on me or say something bad about me. major in psychology, and become a counselor to helping people. I'd get them into writing for therapy so they can express their feelings.

Broke free onto a new job a new chapter fresh beginnings.
Leaving the job you have and job that's loved working at two locations. Now a permanent full time not having to worry about covering or missing one job to fill the void at the other. One job one location one area instead 2 regular or 2 because you cover for those who miss. Well rounded able to adapt and adjust.

The things aren't the way he imagine
Another outcome dealing with backlash
The love he gave everyone lashing out
Trying to be there getting cut out
Fading out not meant to be there
Everything changed drastically
Had no say or control holding on
Everything is gone never the same
Everyone grew up got married
Now divorced or have kids and still together
From no job to a career still single
Working nights to pay the bills