Being able to vent have a voice into of focusing on work where its never ending trying to have a personal life outside of that. Trying to please never satisfied people gets old. Dealing with ungrateful being not wanting to do it anymore. its not enough the worse feeling or good enough when you gave maximum effort where your exhausted burnt out to still be criticized by the people whom put you down instead of bring you up

Wanting forbidden love
Showing love getting none back
No longer associating with Haters
Loved a cheater don't blame yourself
Young love mistakes made
Fake friends you seen the truth
Sometimes you have to start over
It doesn't mean you've lost
People come and go like the season
Start a new chapter keep the story moving
Its a cleared path to something better

Listening to 90s R&B people talked about love and showing it. Now a days no one want to commit but wants all the perks of a relationship.
Lust is mistaken for love things get ruined go wrong to the point of no redemption. Always one sided love one wants more while the other doesn't want anything serious. Rejection leads to a broken heart the friendship is jeopardized due to the high hopes of this lustful situation becoming a relationship. Expectation leads to disappointed false hope that shatters emotions and feeling hopeless thinking the person who broke

Learning to trust again
Hard to trust so many are broken
The girl you like ends up with your friend
A friend wouldn't do that
The girl you love says no to being your gf
A week later end up with another guy
People you love slander your name
All this talk behind your back is cowardly
Honest to their face that's true respect
A true friend will listen be open to your face
Bad mouth over a girl passing through
Secrets are kept in this ear mouth is silent
My secrets told right away
Thought it was safe to share
Not able to vent but write it all out

you asked for help, and it was hard to do
You're sharing a moment to have it ruined
Not contributing anything to case
The nerve to complain about things
Controlling the mood, making everyone miserable
Taking over the TV talking loud
Not able to sleep, keeping everyone up
No one asked or cares about your opinion
Trying to take credit shoveling the BS heavy
Failed since day one couldn't be alone
Bringing your partner all you do is argue
around a couple with bad habits
stuck with a **** relationship
a squatter trying to control a formal gang banger
how does a person munch on food
Knock out in the middle of eating
hard to sleep with snoring and bad sleep apnea from the terrible roommates
The caretakers from hell
Expected the best dealing with the worst
They aren't going to take care of you
So you take your health in your own hands
when you want to do things, they make it ****
stuck doing their bs agenda because they are bored
it's never in your best interest but their own

Banged up from training back up
So much training to remember
Giving your all to the sport
Taking the good cutting off the bad
Trying to progress compete against others
Earn a stripe rise to the next level
Working hard to challenge yourself
Camp mode dieting watch what you eat
Improve by repeating applying technique
Take downs by grabbing a leg or double
Grips to restrain the opponent
Find the dominate position with control
Frame up the move for points
Find an escape in a tough situation
Keep moving go strong go hard
Piecing together the moves to get success

Older now not feeling the same
Everyday something new
Time for some change
Family divided not always getting along
Thought about relocating
Never needed until you're gone
But things never change
Always forgotten felt invisible at the time
Missed them but there's no going back

Walked away from crazy environment
Gave it all not going anywhere fading away
Phasing out moving on the next chapter
Old friends thanks for the memories
Failed relationships learned the life lessons
An equal partner a healthy connection
Use to the 3rd degree from others
Seeking a college degree better the situation
So much chaos in this struggle
Frustrated with the twisted outcomes
Bouncing back from the sidelines
Spoke the truth so many are angry foes
Over the sad stories not listening anymore
Focused on that life placed on hold

Able to let it out able to share so many not talking about it. Pretending to be normal been a while no one communicates stuck in their own insanity. Show some feeling emotion all it does is fester up. Ready to explode can't take it or hold on anymore ready to fall leap of faith. Always making the most of things working with what's given. Life's never going to play out as planned make it work keep trying when its not your favor. Moments come and go make them count by making the most of things. Living it while others are giving up.

Been told never get comfortable always rushing and missing out. More to life than work things never turned out as planned but make the most of everything. Earned every cent. Passion for writing the only time emotions can come out and shine. Show feelings without doubt, or regret sharing. It's hard to trust others feel safe because they'll try to get the best of you.

Wanting to talk no ones listening
Not wanting to talk use to being alone
Everyone expects you to open up
You to spill your heart making it hard
After being ignored hard to trust
Don't want to do the job anymore
At the bottom with no options or say
Gave an opinion not being heard
Doing 8 hours of work in 5
Trying to survive not motivate
Proving them wrong doing it better
Told there was someone qualified
That deserved the job giving it all
Not good enough while doing extra
Falling out with the old loved it all
Not to fond of the new plowing thru

He was glad he made those cuts because they'll never change. He changed on his own terms and stayed away. They didn't help him all they did was criticize him make him feel out of place not welcomed.
He was tired of a one sided friendships and family members. If he didn't follow their rules they would slander him.
He just went away from them tire of feeling shamed and disappointed.
The high expectations no one was living up to. All the hurt he healed over time. They'll blame you for their wrong doing. Like if it's justified this freedom saying he's never go back. Never let anyone abuse his kindness. When he spoke up everyone made him out to be the crazy one. Everyone claimed to be over it when he told his side of the story.
All the false narratives were believed when the truth came everyone turned a blind eye. It was frustrating changed his ways he past due but collecting. Life was better without them.

His heart and soul began to grow
They couldn't dull his shine
Still growing not being limited
Trying to be himself not a product
Didn't want false mentors trying to shadow his growth
Saying they discovered him all of a sudden
When they didn't bother with him
Claiming to take him under their wing
Trying to take credit for his talent
His skills that empowered others to be great
Motivation for everyone, who was uninspired

I get sometimes people stress out but never help their situation. I don't have kids but id put them first over drinking. People don't mind helping but some take advantage. More excuses and lies tired of hearing them. A child asking for her daddy and not sure how to answer.
He got off work but not home or back yet. More lies and broken promises most fed up, and don't want to do it anymore. Always forgiving but never willing to change for anyone. Chosing to smoke and not able to function without a drink. Eventually everyone turns away; keeps a distance hard to trust not bothering anymore. Respect is lost and gone in the process.
Stealing from family more lies, forgiven but still holding a grudge against others. Expecting others to change but set in the same bad habits.

He remained positive lost in his work
Writing to clear his heart and soul
Music to help him cope feel
When he was going numb
Good vibes over bad praying for better
Staying positive always looking at both sides
Laughing through the tough time
He worked went the extra mile
Took control at work making it better
Put in a position of trust in charge of things

Big on being yourself some try to box you in change you because they arent happy with themselves. Those people are fake pretending to be someone they are not. They can't beat you one one so they talk about you get Every one to hate you because they are useless alone.
I question their logic because they always get their way even if it means hurting or ******* people. I've learned to not empower these kind of people. So many times it's about them with hidden agendas.

Feel in love was so young
It was new to me why can't we be
Hard for me to see through this lust
You took my heart you broke it too
Never us treated me cruel
All this love turned to hate
Though being you was fate
The day we made love took my breath away
You went away why can't you stay
Now it's over nights are restless
Moving on is hard to do
Forgetting you is denying myself
Moved on being strong
Learning to love again
Can't fake it or pretend
looking for the real thing
True love means everything

How you going to bad mouth a person
Then ask for a favor the nerve of some
Always been a worker
Don't care about labels
Get my work done
Out work me get on my level
Not about to drop my standards
Don't have much but earning mine
Thought I was an equal
Your not better than me
Slow your role you dk me
What I'm about used my story
Once I'm out working on something better
Behind the scenes the sight of you sickening

Put on music and write
Makes everything fill alright
All the frustration within comes out
Able to tell stories without interruption
Express myself without influence
Not dealing lies or contradiction
From my perspective, how I see it
Getting older more selective about participation
Not empowering deceitful manipulators
Been betrayed before cut the cord
Detached from bad vibes left alone
Live life to the fullest
Hard to get ahead, barely come out even
Made mistakes, learned the lesson
Failed many times, coming back for more
Found peace within a loud mind
A simple life that complicated
Known by many not understood

He walked up to her asked her to dinner she wasn't sure turns out, she just got out of a divorce trying to figure it out. She had to get her priorities in check. He wasn't trying to rush anything but was interested. He didn't get close or open up he would make assumptions which he was wrong about. He was wrong and apologized. A new perspective and mind set on how he did things.

Trying to motivate myself
Be strong things falling apart
Not be consumed by hate
Give it to God not lose faith
Told never go against family
Fam quick to judge and oppose
Not one to impose always alone
Take pride, work get it done
Use to go out, prefers to stay home
Part of being grown, showing up
Take a chance make it happen
Work because it's not given for free

Never too late still doing it, always improving not the favorite or going to get recognition. Willing to work for it use to get depressed missed the moment glad to be around it. It's about trusting the processes building up. As a coach, being able to see strengths improve the weaknesses. change it up working on offense hoping to build up speed. Working on a defensive plan with reactions.

Lies
Betrayal
Anger

How do you steal from someone and blame others
You want respect but treat others like *****
Biting my lip ready to rip you a new one, trying to make it better always embraced a solution
Why do you play the victim when you are causing the problems
Young and dumb, talking back; trying to tell your elders
I protect you all you do is disrespect, neglect those who mean well
Everyone had been through something, no one owes you anything
Usually one to pull the trigger but you pulled it first
Not one to go against friends or family they seem to come at me not expecting the double cross

He worked hard finally appreciated
Dealing with people that work
Makes sense things are better
Instead of dealing with lazy people
Talks of sabotage for a career
For someone who wants to move up
Talks of becoming a lead to a lead
He knew that this was a big move knowing this persons a top prospect
Keeping things balanced going strong
A major role compared to before
Ignored treated bad no one's listening
An outside looking in not the place
Not going to find it in another person
Never materialistic seeking wisdom
Neglected feeling like a nobody
Determined to become a somebody

Changed his mindset because everyone makes drama and can't get along. You can't say anything but they think they have the right to judge everyone. They get use to disrespecting everyone acting like people owe them. Would rather be an outcast than pretend to be someone else. Not going through them for other things that go on. Strongly dislike when other people's crap becomes others problems which has nothing to do with them.

Waking up sore not young anymore
Pushing hard fighting back
Not recovering the same
Immune to all the pain
Hustling strong to stay sane
Been broke before never again
Wide away body tired and sore
Mind racing wheels turning
Tender laying in bed trying to rest

Sitting in a dark quiet room, trying to compose these wild thoughts, not lose sanity over stuff that's beyond ones control. The mind can't comprehend the transition, all these changes. No say, or chance to contribute, things end before they get started.
Used and abused till something better comes along; always get the short end of the stick.

I'm not that guy you remember I've changed over the years. I said sorry it wasn't enough. I got sober for me but did change my behavior. I've made mistakes but learned to forgive myself holding on to that crushed my spirit.
I tried to make it right but made it worse. I've learned to walk away from things and cut certain family members off. I'll always love them but they are constantly knocking me or trying to bring out the worse.
I've done good but you hold my mistakes over my head when you've done worse. I'm not playing the blame game or going to strike back because you'll play the victim. That flapping mouth will backfire only a matter of time.

I never understood how a person could give you crap for being around. Now that you backed out doing your own thing they think they could give you crap for not being around. Make up your mind why is it you can hold everyone accountable but when someone has an opinion or calls you on things you try to destroy your rep by trying to turn the family against someone thats holding you accountable.
Trying to discredit a person by calling them delusional and dismissive. It's always what everyone does never what you did or how you played a roll in that situation.
When others have a problem "It's an issue" but when you have a problem "it's serious an important manner" as I get older I just pray forgive and walk away from

He got emotional he could taste the stomach acid in his throat. Not sure how to feel someone always provoked him to get a reaction. After a while it felt like it wasn't worth it.
He wanted support had it a few times but didn't last long. Years of betrayal made him feel unworthy. Everyday he would prove himself someone would point out one flaw/mistake discrediting his hard working efforts.
He was a big dreamer so much on his mind. Hard for him to commit to others but learning to commit to himself. Asking what he wants or how can he do it with his flare added to the mix.