Big on being yourself some try to box you in change you because they arent happy with themselves. Those people are fake pretending to be someone they are not. They can't beat you one one so they talk about you get Every one to hate you because they are useless alone.
I question their logic because they always get their way even if it means hurting or ******* people. I've learned to not empower these kind of people. So many times it's about them with hidden agendas.

Learning to communicate
Have an adult conversation
Without hatred as aftermath
Mutual respect still friends
Able to debate over differences
Open to learn most of all understand
Do not impose with silly demands
Don't point out flaws making it personal
The topic lacked support in the discussion
Talking loud doesn't make you right
Overeating making a scene draw attention
Doesn't help the cause make it better

There was no going back
Had to come up with something
Did everything possible came up short
Ran out of moves stuck moving still
Part of the progress getting better
Not one to settle for less sharp focus
Trying not to obsess on the wrong
Still working for it doing what's right
Not about crowds a true rebel
Everyone out for their own

He never said anything to them because all they did was talk about everyone. He never talked about anyone, if he has something to say he would said it to their face. They want everyone to chang, but never want to change themselves. He knew he wasn't perfect, so he never said anything about anyone.
He loved them but kept a distance since they wanted him to alter himself. He was over the fact they would pick and choose when to accept him. He went through change they dk his history or back story. He just wanted to be accepted for him out respect for his elders he kept his mouth shut.

The roaring thunder in the distance
Flashing lightening in the sky rain clouds
Rain pouring hard sounds like the showers on
The smell of wet dirt soaked in rain drops
Rainy days set the mood live in the moment
Calls for a cup of hot chocolate with a good book
A cold night so fresh making it easy to rest
Grab a blanket stare out the window fall a sleep
Sweet dreams filled with peace overcome it all

Not into drinking staying sober it was no longer fun. The crowds drank to drown their misery the problem is that it could swim. He like to drink and have fun as he got older things became a buzz ****.
Some complaining about a girl that wants nothing to do with them. Doing bad things to sabotage the relationship blaming everyone, but themselves. Drinking wasn't fun it just became a sausage fest before there was females that hung out. Once they got a boyfriend they became loyal cutting everyone off. Acting like they don't know anyone same for the fellas that got a partner as well.

He seen the error of his ways through someone else he was sorry and embarrassed for his actions sometimes they mean well other times other times it's a conflict of interest. Speaking up does cause conflict bumping heads and egos inflated and deflated clashing with one another.
Experience versus knowledge are factors that make or break the process two perspective that can't find a leveled ground.

Rumors spread he was suicidal
He's been living life to the fullest
Private with his relationship
Not knowing anything make it up
Assumed the worse about him
He had manners and formal
Talked about not talking about anyone
His presents rubbed others wrong
Minding his mouth staying quiet
Mostly his business by himself
Hard to trust since everyone gossips

He didn't know, how to make the wrong right. He said sorry it wasn't enough. After being excluded and kept out; there was no going back. Trying to make it better things declined and got worse.
Trying to talk it out things got sour fast. From friends to foes; now strangers that no longer talk; while growing apart living divided lives

Learned to make sure everything is right on my end; before talking about anyone. Mindful and respect when it comes to others. They are quick to judge without knowing the whole story or think they know; what's going on in this racing mind.
He loves his family but they don't accept him. He refused to give up who he is what he feels to be taken into consideration. He's quick to forgive even when they did him wrong.

I've been to myself haven't had any opinions. Changing is good after a while you stop caring what others think they made up their mind. I respect their opinion but disagree. It doesn't matter because I know the truth it's my story to tell and not letting anyone dictate my future.
I've been respectful and treat people right because someone said how you treat people makes a difference. I try to be helpful and resourceful. During my recovery I see things different things I wanted I have but know it's not meant to be so it's better to keep focus.

Writing has been therapy able to express without judgement. Have an opinion without others knocking you for being different. They expect so much but give so little. Thankful for the people who appreciate you even though you'd been through, so much to be where you are at.
Not always forced to commitment because it's not always what it's made out to be anymore. Ready for a career change starting over at the bottom ***** but being stuck in the transition is the worse

Disappointed for expecting more
Stuck with less refuse to lower the bar
Never been one to be selfish
Willing to help bring others along
Learned to cut the cord
Not feeding into toxic energy
Tired of getting burned
Another lie still surprised

He was tired of hiding his skills and talent because he didn't like anyone talking about him or being the center of attention. No matter what he did others were threatened by him still coming at him sour. Lots of twisted people trying to bring him down with them. They saw good in him but didn't want him doing better than them

His life was an open book
No one cared or showed any interest
He closed his book became private
All of a sudden they showed interest
He pursued the girl she shut him down
When someone else showed interest
She tried to get involved he moved on
He reached out to friends
That left him hanging
Now hes doing more things
Now they are calling showing concern
Learned to let go not an option
But a priority with the right people
Now he's changing trying to rise
He wanted to bring others with him
But learned he had to do it on his own

What's next has been the big question? Not being the person others made you out to be. Asking what do you want to do with your life letting go of those judgemental people who made up their mind about you don't waste your time trying to prove or redeem yourself since its a one sided debate with stubborn mind that changes everything making in negative and against you so they could feel superior.

Over a misunderstanding conflict occured. He didn't get his way his demeanor changed. Willing to bad mouth your character. make you out to be the bad guy since his life was in shambles. Sad how the respect went out the window from close to distant. The ties were cut family or not you don't try to expose a person because things aren't going your way.
Another scapegoat instead of owning up. More lies more betrayal and shady scandals going on. Better to walk away than be involved. Its heart breaking they say never again but its not the first or last time.
Neglecting responsibility making this appear worthless a lost cause. The value was gone meaningless not holding any value used it up then away with it onto the next.
Another reason to not get involved or care no remorse or sympathy.

The people he loved the ones that mattered made him feel like a failure. A needy gf nothing was good enough. A family that rushed him but did everything late.
The double standards they made him feel bad for a mistake held it against him to keep him out. When they made a mistake he didn't care because the heat would be dumped on his lap.
He was done with being silent he knew the consequences. They'd try to make him look ghetto because called them on it. Talk about him gain numbers because they can't do it alone or in their own. Either way they made him feel awkward and uncomfortable. He stayed quiet they run their mouth or he spoke up and they had more reasons to talk

He was reliable others flaked stuck stepping it up. Running out of things to say choosing peace over arguing stopped comparing, everyone does their own thing. Minding my mouth and business making remarks to be funny but making people mad. Not hard to do just having an opinion. Writing to tell stories get out. Trying to heal be a whole over the empty pass that tried to steal joy of the present. Not use to people being nice but it's the best feeling ever. Doing the right thing even when no one is looking is rewarding.

you asked for help, and it was hard to do
You're sharing a moment to have it ruined
Not contributing anything to case
The nerve to complain about things
Controlling the mood, making everyone miserable
Taking over the TV talking loud
Not able to sleep, keeping everyone up
No one asked or cares about your opinion
Trying to take credit shoveling the BS heavy
Failed since day one couldn't be alone
Bringing your partner all you do is argue
around a couple with bad habits
stuck with a **** relationship
a squatter trying to control a formal gang banger
how does a person munch on food
Knock out in the middle of eating
hard to sleep with snoring and bad sleep apnea from the terrible roommates
The caretakers from hell
Expected the best dealing with the worst
They aren't going to take care of you
So you take your health in your own hands
when you want to do things, they make it ****
stuck doing their bs agenda because they are bored
it's never in your best interest but their own

Trying not to over react
Showing interest being fair
Even if I don't agree
Having an opinion gets you divided
Use to being isolated not giving in
Walked away don't care for drama
Not holding a grudge its too heavy
Carrying that burden is draining
When the other person doesn't care
After they use you up
They give the 3rd degree
Only when they want something
They are in your personal space
Things don't turn out accordingly
Not expect in much giving your all
Not saying much but everyone talks
Everyone has an opinion that's respected
No one asked while its being given
He's just minding his mouth because he's the bad guy when he speaks up

Trying to get it right no more covering for others in the end it falls on you. The stress could be overwhelming and the pressure crushing your heart because you want to do right make it better. No one cares they want it done only focused on the results. Instead of the steps and process it took to get there. For some doing the work is a must there's no short cut or hand out along the way. It's about maintaining everything finding balance to have some peace and closure.

Quick to close of this heart
The cruel world falling apart
Starting over once again
Another wicked chapter ends
From hurt to glory the healing begun
Another wild journey to pursue
Everything has changed turn the page
Things fades with time wise with age
The unsung hero story needs to be told
A loving heart never gets old
Open to new growing with experience
Each encounter building character

A cold lonely night
Kids out on the hunt
Trick or treat
Some dressed as characters
Masks and costumes
Knocking on doors for candy
Outside is dandy with fun
Pumpkins carved candles lit
Decor on every house and corner
Don't be scared flirting with fear
Monsters and ghouls are near
Pretend to be some fun
After tonight back to normal
Happy Halloween

Being called delusional for having an opinion
Called prideful for standing up when no one else did.
He learned not everyone would like him because he was different
He was a rebel did his own thing not a follower
Walking alone he was tired of conditional love
Why should he compromise himself to be liked to be accepted
The people who opposed him was family it hurt the most
Becoming immune to pain
but didn't have to take it
The right people would accept him flaw and all
They won't cheer for him he had to cheer for himself
Stay motivated shut mouths prove them wrong
All the talking and they did nothing
Piggy back on others accomplishments
Knocking others to feel secure about themselves
Stopped letting toxic people drain him
Refused to empower lazy people that took his credit
Told he had a bad attitude
He didn't let himself be taken for granted
So many people trying to narrate his story but he was the hero and writing his journey

Done with manipulators
Over being used being talked about
No one is talking about anyone
Learned to mind your mouth
Stay out of the drama not feed into it
Focused on the work not the people
Always under pressure trying to be normal
Doing extra trying to be resourceful
Jokes about being the chosen one
Just trying to be part of the team
Play off one another everyone has strength and weaknesses build one another up
Not take swings or set each other back

Tired of being told how to live
By people that settled right away
Who don't take their own advice
Use to care too much being excluded
Hoping they'd be accepting one day
More rules on how to behave
While their kids ran a muck
Doing things expecting favors repaid
Telling them how you feel and think
They can't comprehend it's dismissed
Turning everyone trying to control
Not playing walking away from this
Been there before didn't care for it
Not empowering hatred staying strong
A trail blazing leader not a follower
Use to being alone people go away
Hard to get close with an open heart
Not attached expecting them to stay
Live life on the go not waiting around