Meet a nice girl who's not materialistic
Someone accepting that
Doesn't change anything about you
Open to grow together feel like an equal
Not be submissive or treat one bad for power
Something natural not forced rewarding
Not soul ******* and toxic with an ego
Seems easy but it's complicated most of the time

Doing what's right because they said it couldn't be done.
Doing extra because you take care of your people.
Not one to use an illness as an excuse
Thankful for the job give it all
Show up ready while everyone else gives up
Tired of hearing the lazy people complain
Be the solution stop being the problem
Bad attitudes ruin the day
This temper will Make it worse
It's better to take walk away
Take a time out focus on the work

More wrinkles on this face
White hairs standing out
****** hair with white patches
Wisdom with time
Letting go to get over things
Use to remember everything
Lost in the daze of life
Another phase with age
The heart melts in love
While the mind avoids
Being consumed by rage
Love for other more than ones self
Feeling complete can be deep
Losing it all can't cause numbness
Eventually the vision becomes real
If not you find another way to achieve
What the mind heart body desires

Things don't happen right away
Overcome many obstacles
Those little victories fuel the fire
Light the fire within personal growth
Empowered to become more
Inspired by greatness moving up
Leads to major gains victories
Rise above all the hate and pain
It's easier to let go of looping thoughts
Then, hold onto deep down rage
Focus on those blessings
Praying for others to heal and forgive
Keep working towards the dream

Powering through the week
From feeling like one of the crew
Use to rolling solo learned to be alone
Made many mistakes still learning
Took multiple risks focused on a dream
Missed out trying to rush slowing down
Set goals came up short still pursuing life
Made a plan never turns out accordingly
An opinion that got twisted than understood
Feelings that aren't respected lost value
Emotions strong get the best of everything

Hard to sleep thinking about the future
Part of a hard working team
Hoping it doesn't get cancelled
Found confidence in the pad work
Glad someone trusted and believed in you
Set aside on the sidelines due to injury
Always looking in thinking about it
Loved the sport gave it everything
Even when he came up short a new role
Opportunity presented itself applied for it
He made those moves needed change
Hoping it wasn't false promise
Trying to finish strong after so many detours
The journey with the roadblocks
Trying to go through come out unscathed
Bounce back after taking a few bumps

A place to show emotions be able to express your feelings without ridicule. Without doubt being able to be free from hate allow yourself to be great. Not have your ego deflated while working on self improvement.
Being told you're nobody by someone that's making no effort. Trying to make you feel like nothing while working hard for everything trying to build while maintaining everything
Find balance dealing with tough scenarios facing complicated people. Not able to please everyone focused on what the heart loves so the mind could stop overthinking

Walked up to the receptionist filled out the paperwork. The fish tank making relaxing noises. Need to talk get these looping thoughts out my head break the cycle. Talked to friends but they have problems; that shadow mine, that are more important apparently.
Really bad at expressing myself usually direct and straight up.

They imposed their way he preferred to not be involved anymore. They'll tell him he's wrong but never notice their wrong doing. Over at ******* hours of the night a cousin that's the younger version of his mother. She imposed he way burdened others with an opinion no one asked.
After a while you block out all the talk all the gossip that has nothing to do with you. Feeling under value not appreciated. He always asked why are these terrible people are given more

Learning to conversate with others
If you could be yourself those are the people that are welcome
I don't care for material possessions it doesn't make you a better person
Treat people right looks don't matter
Getting older rely on personality over time looks fade
Thankful for my friends that accept me
Let go of the people who talk bad behind my back
Not feeding into the nonsense enjoying life

The mind playing tricks on him. All the love for her was gone denying a huge part of himself. He didn't need judges in his life. He was his worse critic dieing inside trying to survive the internal struggle. Memories fading flashbacks going dimming into the darkness.
Everything changed walking through the crazy things are better now. Kept his head up when all he wanted to do was keep it down all those burdens crushing the heart he wore on his sleeve.
He was called crazy for showing emotion. Got lost in his feelings trying to help others. Made out to be an *** for not speaking up or saying anything. Lost in his thoughts made out to be delusional.

The building feels like home
It allowed him to grow
Build confidence over time
Learned to trust in his skills
Believe in himself without doubt
Ready for the next level
It never came but now it's here
Not afraid facing fears can't hold back
With stone cold stare not intimidated
Without flinching or backing down
Being consumed by one filling the void
The other the past heart of memories
Can't deny rich history trying to grow
In the middle of manipulation sighing
Want to break free do what's loved
Feels right without outside factor

He looked out but some let their problems spill over on others
When he cared no one gave a ****
Now that he doesn't everyone fakes interest
They are worse as time progress
He stayed out after being pushed out
Only included at their best interest
They wanted to wipe him out
After he said NO or want able to make their plan work
It wasn't his job to do their work
He wasn't responsible for their happiness
As they tried to **** his joy he was thankful people did favors but hated when It was thrown in his face
When you don't get involved they include you. Before fighting to be included to be ignored

He was worried about the transplant
Lost in his writing being productive
He'd rather live life than be distracted
Picked friendships over his relationships
Both never returned the favor
Dealing with trust issues overcome
Told the truth facing confrontation
His rivals are manipulating cheaters
Trying to take him down No surrender
Not backing down taking on other battles
Stood his ground easier to walk away
Enemies loaded full of lies
In the line of fire taking shots
Now all alone with health issues

Born in California with American values
Stood up for the flag and said the pledge of allegiance
Prayed to God walked strong with faith
Grew up poor worked hard to rise above
Judged by the color of my skin
Not playing the race card working for it
Speaking English polite with manners
Judged my people for not knowing Spanish
Not one to give up on family values and traditions
Breaking away open to growth
Speak when spoken to out of respect
Unconditional love without terms and conditions
It's not always your place to say anything.
Not always heard able to have an opinion
The sense of belonging able to be yourself
With having to fight for a spot
Prove you belong being loyal and true
Lost norms that need to be brought back

All he needed was one chance
An opportunity to seize the moment
Gave his all came up short
Thankful for the strangers
Who believed in him and supportive
While he worked hard to prove
All the doubters and haters wrong
He didn't talk just put his head down
Plowed through with no regret
Didn't like his place changed his role
Open to change and grow

Growing up avoiding eye contact getting mad dogged in the process. As I get older it's hard to make wye contact because I catch myself doing the same. Emotional eyes filled with personality.
Against so many odds trying to break the family curse. Be the one who made it. Never been about knocking others. Trying to bring them up with me. Sometimes I need to do this alone. ***** I'm a private person like if the world is out to get me. Always going to be me not be place in there's boxes. I aged out too old for all these made up rules that limit my motions.
Spoke up now everyone is mad. No one feels bad for you.

It's been a while
Reading more with a new mindset
Learning to do things differently
Getting older can't do it the same
Relying on basics being technical
Sister is getting married happy for her
Nephew and niece are growing up
Dealing with a terrible lead
Loyalty is lost the betrayal is real
Trying to find balance between work
Have a life outside of the drama
Separated from everything feeling isolated
Reading more not holding back
Once near death trying to live
Blessed and humble for a second chance
Trying to be there fear of missing out
Learning to say NO after being used
Burnt out focused on healthy relationships
Starting new friendships positive growth

As I get older I just keep doing my thing and growing in the craft I love. Just because we don't agree or see eye to eye won't stop me because you chose to settle.
I've learned no matter what you do you can't please everyone.
You have an opinion or see different doesn't mean you can make me a target because you got caught up. You come at me with false narratives to distract me others because you've done worse

He wrote to stay sharp
His face showed no emotions
Thinking of his next move
Writing to focus distracted by others
They came at him but he didn't react
He didn't respond to the negativity
Staying positive focused on growth
Stood talk tired of being brought down
Let them do their thing much respect
While focused on his not phased
They made it he was happy for them
He made it got ignored but use to it

They come at you it's whatever
You spoke up against them your crazy
Avoiding the drama all the insanity
Faded out as they pretend to care
When your involved it's a problem
When they make calls keeping you out
Staying humble while everyone is still mad
Holding a grudge a one sided arguments
A conversation that was never had just blaming and pointing fingers
Size doesn't make you smart or better
Intimidating others doesn't get you anywhere
Having money doesn't make you a better person you can't by morals or respect
Don't BS people some see through the act too bad you lie and cheat selling yourself short
Knocking others doesn't make you a better person
Always excluded and ignored he learned to stay out of it not needing anything from anyone since no one was genuine

He loved his family but didn't want to hear all the arguing. No one got alone everyone spoiled and entitled while he worked hard for his. Always felt excluded when things are going well. But never got any love or support for it.
Things were bad everyone would include him when he didn't care or want to be involved. It wasn't his business because he didn't care. If he tried to be supportive he would be ignored and kept out.
He didn't wait around or rely on people open to learn everything. Focused on work not drama trying to leave things better than how he found them. Took pride in his work when his crew did the bare minimum. He wasn't trying to tale anyone's job but he did raise the bar. His job wasn't hard but dealing with an useless ego and power trip made it ****.
He loved his family but never felt like it got better everyone has their way and not happy. They try to tell him when he already knows or been there. Never seen as an equal while everyone tries to take charge telling people when not one asked or trying fix others lives when they don't have it together.

He went his own way
Made his own path
They kept him out
Didn't listen or care
How he felt expressed concern
All he did was look out
What he thought left annoyed
No one listened very irritating
Now they are in his area
His space feels violated
So much intrusive vibes
All imposition no one asked
Everyone talking about one another
Instead of focusing working hard
Comparing lifestyles be grateful
On what they need to be doing
Starting from nothing moving up
Working hard for everything

Blood doesn't make family or true
All the humility bleeds out scars up
Pride battles the ego internal conflict
Destroys another the struggle within
The old life gutted with a knife
Changes over time healing growing strong
Going through the crazy to stay sane
All the hurt and pain fades away
Working hard to finish strong
Took the test open opportunity
Presented itself chasing the dream
After waking from the nightmare

Love of family is strong
But relationships break them
Hard with family members
Soft with their partner
History doesn't help the present
Destroying themselves for love
One to change remaining the same
Hard to leave this insanity
Lust and love a diluted mixture
Start over again trapped going back
Embrace the new give up bad habits
Focus on what could be take a step
Let go of the what was move forward
Grow in the moment positive changes
Failed outcomes lead to opportunities

After the surgery feeling gutted
Pain tolerance high focused on work
Writing to feel mild expression
Sometimes emotions are numb
Trying to stay positive and upbeat
While everyone wallows in misery
Not into drama staying clear
Don't care for the circle ****
Avoiding egos with bad attitudes
Rejecting toxic vines of negativity
Called selfish for being alone
Denied trying to fit in why bother
Over all the contradiction and lies
Hated for being honest being genuine
While the fake try to take you down
Not wishing bad like they do
I pray things get better and stay away

Keep bouncing back. After this surgery a few months on the sidelines I'm humble lots of personal growth. Writing has change trying not to complain and make the most of things. Adjust and adapt. Always fighting but don't care I'm just going to do the right thing.
I don't make anyone look bad, I chose to work hard do my best to do it done. Why you chose to politic about the job doing nothing.  Making it hard for the next guy when you should be the guy.
Make it happen stand out. The right people will appreciate you. Take pride in your work. People will criticize that's when you ask them how do I improve this problem. I try to provide a solution sometimes people want to give you a hard time.
Before I'd get annoyed, talk to me about it. Don't talk about others it will circle back. I meet awesome people but if they are being negative I could be like a mood ring and that bad juju is not for me. I didn't myself focus on my work and writing.

He didn't want her after she was denied and rejected. She chose someone else over him. He knew it was BS and made that mistake before he already knew the outcome. In the end, he would be lying and cheating himself to think it would change.
She had been lied to, cheated on and still went back it made no sense. Why would she spread that pain and misery to others. He saw good in her, but all he got was her worse. From having a crush to being a friend; he eventually shut down, turned his back walked away.
Saved himself from hurt and pain nothing left to remain. Hoping to find someone that loves them self and him as well.

All the wild crazy adventures the journey. I like the chemistry, being able to connect with the right person. Rush fades away same routine in pursue of the real thing. Flings come to an end. The struggle to make a relationship work, now a days most want the perks, but no commitment. The one's who matter stay, and don't try to change you. So many pretend to be someone they are not.

He was tired of the same old thing
Seen the world did things
Now stuck working a job he hate
Some places appreciated him
Others treated like he didn't belong
He wrote about his frustration
Since he didn't want to say
Anything he might regret
His mind and tone changed
Easier to let it out then hold on
Its toxic thoughts that cycle
Hopeless feelings of depression
Pushing through feeling trapped
Stuck not able to move
Joints aching with lower back pain
Trying to make it through the week
Heart at one location different vibes
Mind trapped in another rushing everything

Closed his eyes seeing it in his head
Growing thankful for the mentors
Some believe in your skills work ethic
One on your side feeling secure
Others deny your efforts against you
Ignoring the drama working harder
Chasing a dream means everything
Setting goals making them count
Tell your story set the standards high
Breaking through being denied
Trying to survive being kept out

I'm single I don't need to take on couples problems. Sharing a common area is the worse. I'm not going to argue your mind that is set in old school ways. I could educate, be informative, but it's up to the individual to learn, or process the idea. It could help but it's mostly up to the person what they do with the information.

The roaring thunder in the distance
Flashing lightening in the sky rain clouds
Rain pouring hard sounds like the showers on
The smell of wet dirt soaked in rain drops
Rainy days set the mood live in the moment
Calls for a cup of hot chocolate with a good book
A cold night so fresh making it easy to rest
Grab a blanket stare out the window fall a sleep
Sweet dreams filled with peace overcome it all