Somedays I feel too much
Others I feel nothing
Hard to say " I love you"
Most of them bail
No regard for my feelings
Acting I have none
Live what was doesn't matter
Or mean anything anymore
Woke up trying to understand
Most of the time confuse
No reason, answer to WHY
Protect the heart it won't hurt
Learning to love again
Most of all trust so much deciet
Loving again refuse to accept defeat
Broken trust not looking for a lust
lost for days finding a way back
Starting over again being a friend
Gave away part of myself to the wrong
Getting to know you for the truth
Light shines through a crack
Not blinded by lies, a controlling lush
Find someone real and accepting
Not trying to spread the hate
Slow love and allow us both to be great
Wake up next to true love
Hugged by someone who's for real
Respects feelings not used to hold a grudge
Or throw a fit over not getting things one way
Passive aggressive because too obsessive

Friends come and go
Worried more about them
Than your own being
Some made it well off
Others struggled within
Lost love from the past
Others remember your smile
Some don't think highly of your personal
The heart treasure few and grew with
While the mind wonders where it went wrong
How to compromise the situation
What could've been done differently
Everything turned out accordingly
Some fade away with time
While others leave without reason
After all the events that occurred
A room full of people the meshed
Standing tall through it all
Each encounter was a lesson
Every experience lead to growth
Time passed the layers peep away
Every white hair the mind wised up
Wrinkles from ****** expressions felt
The true friends keep contact
While the rest find what they need to be happy
Every move onto the next chapter
A place to call home that feels right

Woke up already over the day
Thinking of ways to make my next move
All angels multiple perspectives
Not so wild anymore more selective
Over thinking can be overwhelming
Things are calm it's easy to be positive
When one thing goes wrong
Feels like my world is crashing
Burning up in flames no time to panic
Stay calm composed tamed
Breaking inside not showing emotions
Smile hides everything falling a part
Praying for the moment to happen
Can feel it come to life feels so real
See it happening imagination stimulated
Blood rushing to the face making it warm
Hairs standing skin tingling with goosebumps
Feels so right why can it be real already

Faith over fear
Not afraid or backing down
Can't do it alone
Been going strong
Learning to love again
It's not wrong
With the right person
Love starts from within
Grows for everyone that's true

Learning to love again
Appreciate life with laughter
Smiled daily live in the moment
A scooter ride going fast
Wearing shades in the sun
Reading for inspiration
Taking in the story
Seeing it come to life
Turning the page lost in words

Consumed by imagination
Heart spins like a top
Vibrating through the body
Going through the motions
Numb going through the motions
Haven't felt connected
A drifter looking in
Shaken confidence
Starting over yet again

Never give up
They won't let up
Put down not staying there
Pushed around still standing
Ganged up on by fam again
Then is blew up then bam
Life came with a ***** slap
Didn't happen the right way
Done it many times clarification
Before without certifications
Practice what you preacher
Learn the hard life lesson
Before you can teach be an example

Use to go out
Someone was always mad
Staying home older now
Someone is always mad
Had a difference of opinion
Someone gets offended
Spoke the truth kept it real
Now someone is getting defensive
Trying to debate a topic
Now its a grudge more personal attacks
No logic involved fueled by anger
All this hatred for being different

Mixed emotions some days
Thinking too much runs me down
Other days we coexsist with one another
My emotions are my strength weaken me
The heart means well the brain conflicts
Just do without thought or hesitation
Many trusts fall into love proves me wrong
She would complain about her BF
I'd hear her problems
She swore to be better
Her heartached but kept going back
She knew he was wrong for her
Her good friend loved talking to her
Even if it was her problems
The connection that brought them closer
She could never be single
It's hard to not love her charm
She always belonged to someone else
He cared for her deeply from a distance
She made bad choices but respected them
He always lovered her unconditionally
Saw through her bold front when she hurt