Have you ever talked to a person and they don't care. It ***** to be ignored or being told they agree just to shut you up.
You proved yourself and do the work. While others **** up and brown nose to move up.
It's been rough when they make you out to be the crazy one you spoke up they don't listen. Then have the nerve to blame the team which they are not apart of because they **** off the higher ups.
The infuriating part is they didn't promote you and demoted you. You've been loyal and they failed you the betrayal is real intense fueling anger and frustration.

Owe it to them to be better
Don't want to leave them
Want to give them more
Take risks to better the situation
Grasp opportunity to help them
They always helped when needed
Time to return the favor
Miss the mat room
A place away from home
Coaching softball dealing with talent
Working has lost the spark
Time for change instead of missing
Should be doing living to the fullest
An oath made to lost loved one
Doing things to the full potential

I've been asked, "why do you work so hard?" I've worked jobs where people don't do any work and have the nerve to complain.
I took pride in my work work etiquette is important. I'm that person you notice when I'm off or given the day off. I've been told I make people look bad they make themselves look bad for not doing their part.
I've lost a job because the guy who does nothing tried to pull rank because of his age. I don't care who you are or your age. If you are working hard or hard as me don't tell me anything.
Sometimes you have to take charge and hold yourself accountable. I try to work as a team but sometimes you have to do it yourself.
I never got mad because I seen it as training know everything so you don't have to rely or wait on anyone. I work hard because I can't be at work doing nothing for 8 hours. I've seen it done mind my mouth and business.
I never talk about anyone but my mouth is always being mentioned if you don't like why are you talking about me. That never made any sense.
Pushing through because I know what it's like to not have a job and be judged hard. If you had more than me why does what I'm doing bother you. I don't get why people make things personal when you don't say anything.
If I spoke up I'd still disappoint someone or make some one mad because I called them on the lie and they act like I'm trying to expose them. I have nothing to say they way they run their mouth it will get them caught up so I'm not worried or making a fuss

It was college he thought she was the one
He wanted to spend the rest of his life
But once school ended it would be back to reality
The future would divide them
He wanted more she told him
She didn't want a relationship
A week later his emotional eyes seen
She would be with someone new.
He felt like he missed his chance
He didn't want to rush emotions intense
But held back saying how he felt
Those bottled up feelings got the best of him
He spoke up not great at expressing himself
Saying nothing the emotions ate him up
He let go when he wanted to fight for her
She made up her mind so he let go
Not forcing love but feeling not enough
Unworthy of something that was never there

She went out on him, and knew he loved her. She wondered if he would take her back. She made it so complicated to go back would he embrace her return.
After meeting in college both went in their separate direction. He chased his career while she settled down had kids now divorced. They cross paths once again so much change.

Exhausted mentally from overthinking
Burnt out from a job not appreciated
On a steady decline losing value
Spoke up made out to be crazy
Excluded from the conversation
Expected to do everything by haters
Trying not to stress the liars in charge
Focused on the work get it done
Go home have a life outside of that
Searching another outlet to decompress

Tired of all the hazing the only one who toughed it out went through it all. Made more effort to be kept out feeling like, he didn't matter, or belong. Asking himself, "why did he stay," they obviously didn't like him, and he didn't always agree with how things were handled. Another made up standard to live up to when they didn't have it together.
He had another life before they crossed paths they can't take credit for him and all his efforts. They can't tell him, how to feel, or think.
They dk what's going on in his head. He may not argue, say much but refused to let them take advantage of his kindness. Once he spoke up that's when everyone kept him out. Before they'd taunt him, let him think, he could be one of them. He was okay and moved on. No reason to stay felt it wasn't worth it anymore.

Writing the truth coming to terms moving on trying to shake this funky mood. All the double standards they got it all trying to control others life making them miserable with their opinion no one asked. Pretending to do a good deed in it for their own selfish gain.
Making a scene because they think, they are right. walking away not trying to argue or fight. They are toxic trying to justify their wrong. Fuming from the frustration all the anger stood tall won nothing just a waste of time same old BS a fool for expecting change

Rather than listen you cause chaos
Vilified for being different
Asking questions to understand
Some logic to make sense
I respect your protest not interested
Cancel others because your way is flawed
It's okay to be wrong just own up
Better than living a lie mistakes happen
Do the work inform others
Create propositions don't complain
Say what you need or want
Make a stand with a purpose
Submit a proposal being heard isn't enough

Looking for inspiration to inspire
Music setting a tone to write
Enjoying the creative process
Trying to get that writers high
It's never enough striving for more
Find that connection for that fix
Building it like legos it comes together
Seeing it in the mind trying to share
Bring the vision to life on the page
Every detail from memory explained
The eyes took in so many moments
Felt so many emotions during it
The tones adding the shades
Many shapes size colors

Being himself is all he needed. They expected him to change. He knew who he was and what he wanted. She had these wild ideas and assumptions about him. He knew she would never be happy by denying himself pretend to be someone he's not. All he wanted was for her to like him it was too much and overwhelmed.

He learned to work on delivery how he said things usually straight forward told to think how the other person would feel.
It was hard because he was blunt and honest with his peeps. His temper pushed people away because he was tired of being used and his kindness being taken for granted. He was always taking the blame owned up when he was wrong. Most wont admit they are wrong but quick to strip his efforts and credibility away.
Took criticism with a grain of salt most insulted or offended when he had an opinion calling them on their misconduct. He was over one way streets. He loves people but they made him out to he the bad guy for saying NO or standing his ground.

Writing from the heart allows you to feel
Thinking to much blocks  out emotions
Trying to do what's right be the best
Made mistakes learned for them to grow
Improving yourself over the years
Missing old friends the cord was cut
Meeting the right people on the journey
Thankful for deep conversations
Being told the truth not what needs to be heard
In a crowded room learning from others
Some add perspectives others self indulgent
People care a smile shows they care
The tough love is obstacles failure to get noticed
Take a breath blow out the bad take in the good
Not that person anymore or in that place anymore
Look up be proud and happy for the blessings
Sometimes head down ******* up ego can be a downer
Remember for doing right
Over being reminded the for wrong done

Played with the bass thought of grandpa inspired to learn. Play the songs played with the band. Feeling connected figuring it all out starts to feel natural as it comes together. Each riff comes together from the tabs trying to make them proud. Believe in yourself since everyone doesn't always believe. Keep bring open to learn and grow. Over grieving from the hurt. The pain vibrates up feel it in those bass strings. Writing lyrics to share a story. Show emotions after being criticized for caring. Feeling it all melt away each strum nice and slow starting to play faster.

Back in that space, feeling safe. Trying not to argue make a scene. Don't let those personal issues effect your work. Keep them separate not one of your kids watch your tone. Don't want to go making it easier to leave.
I respect you go through stuff not my problem while at work. Trying to provide a solution for work more inconvenience dealing with nonsense that has nothing to do with work.

They don't like you anymore still keeping tabs on your actions. Friend to foe acting like they dk you anymore. Always changing they can be right in that one. Can't be the same or play those games already made those mistakes. Going forward not back writing it because saying it gets clustered up. The tongue disconnected from the mouth. Saying the truth and real stuff people hate and don't like your opinion. Especially when they asked. Learned to speak when spoken to other than that minding my own.

Too old to be doing that
Too young for all that
No one is happy for you
While pointing flaws
Prefer to be alone
Helping others to grow

Walked away from emotion hurt
Tired of carrying the physical pain
Growing spiritually healed with hope
Proving it to myself no one else
Someone is always talking noise
The voices are loud missing silence
Instead of trying to be more
Becoming a mental distraction
Not feeding those starved egos
Refuse to empowered false pride
Out grew the old life letting go moving on
Embracing the new not looking back
Writing to feel able share from within
Let the flow go from the heart
Loving the personal growth
Words from a passionate soul

Trying not offend or upset anyone
Minding your mouth and business
Annoyed how my silence has everyone talking
Once I speak up everyone is quiet
Called them out on what was said
Now nothing was said all of a sudden
Trying to flip it they got caught up
Bringing good vibes while others ruin it

He hated the holidays because he lost loved ones. Everyone gets socially awkward copes differently. He just remembered the good times. While others got drunk or belittled others to feel secure about themselves.
He couldn't honor their death everyone cracked beers at the cemetery.
He went on his own time and randomly. He enjoyed the quiet remembering loved ones praying to God for peace and closure. Preferred to be alone than be around people; who tried to tell him, how to act, or feel. It was insulting to be around people; who thought less of him. Ignored him because the focused on material possessions than intellect.

Ready for the new year
A new liver, ready to go
Recovering from the transplant
Going crazy with the downtime
Use to doing something that matters
Working to get ahead cash flow
Hard to spend ready to hustle
Trying to get all the things denied
On the sidelines observing everything
Need to get back into it rise up
The hardest part is starting
Told never get comfortable
Keep busy doing something
Finish things that got started
Stopped being distracted by drama
Avoiding negative people
Fueled by toxic behavior
Focused on the goals set the bar
Growing spiritually and mentally

Fought for it now it's gone lost it all
Do who I am anymore, need to find myself
Being lost wandering when I thought I found it all
Fake friends that bad mouth me we don't talk anymore
Lusting girls who be cheating placing blame because they can't be trusted
Owned up to my rights and wrong keep on going strong
Lost the girls who doesn't love me or want me
Mad because I found someone new she dont want me but don't want anyone else to have me
You moved on and I'm holding back too bad we know the failed out come no more tries
Being with you being together means lieing to ourselves
New jobs old job stuck in this transition been writing for years helped me grow over come my fears

It ***** when you're trying to change and you feel provoked. Giving your best while they bring out the worse in you. Just pray and walk away.

Haven't had a good friend for a while most get in a relationship and forget about friendships. Busy with work they are bad at making time for friends. Working graveyard trying to catch up on sleep man. The couple made the relationship work with marriage or kids keeping the bond strong.
Getting older working for it while others are given it all never happy or thankful for what they got. The women that caught his eye are in a bad relationship or not into him. Learning to make himself happy not expect others to do it

He vented about things to clear his mind. All he wanted to say was **** and mind your business. Tired of everyone talking about each other instead of to one another.
Walking eggs shells as everyone did way worse pretending to be better than you. That's on them no one bothers to make it right. They'd rather hold a grudge than make things better.
Everyone talks loud when you aren't around but when you walk up they stare with an awkward silence. He smiled and said hi even when he got the cold shoulder.

Ray would ask his coworker "why me?" Zoe response would be "why not?" Ray would vent bounce ideas of zoe. It helped him grow and come to terms with things because Ray's life wasn't bad but things got out of control. He liked a girl that moved on but never gave him a chance. Saying to himself, she would regret that day. He had dreams and goals trying to utilize his talents within.
Everyone told him it couldn't be done seen him as crazy, but they never tried why did their opinion matters why did they care.
Ray wanted to write comedy and loved MMA he saw contradiction in them. He realized he wouldn't be able to fight/compete his whole life. He'd come back to it doing things people didn't understand, but he didn't get others visions or hidden agendas. Tired of changing for others; while they made no effort to accept his perspective.
It feels like a rap battle he knew how to argue and debate while others make it personal and insult your being since they didn't have a steady foundation.

Dealing with a new lead was refreshing he preferred to focus on the work and be left alone. He open to change but feels insulted when people only contact him when he needs something. Trying to be noble and fair with his peeps. Reaching out being ignored was frustrating now that he's doing his own thing. Formal peeps show up with bad news ruining his day. Trying to stay connected with peeps who mattered while avoid those that made him feel worthless.
Nervous for the change rising taking on more responsibility because it was a younger crew while the old retired. He was use to them making the calls as he followed. He was in the hot seat taking charge taking control of the out of the awkward situations.

Still working for it, doesn't mean, it's not going to happen. Would rather earn it than let it be given or handed out. Working for that promotion fixing the struggle within. Not arguing with people, who use judge and put forth no effort.
They try to cast a shadow but they can't full the light. They may have it all but no one owes them. Applauding their efforts don't knock everyone for trying to achieve their goals. Trying to make their dream a reality. No one needs your opinion to go through to make it to the next level.
Usually running on anger, but coped dealing with all this over being self destructive. Finding faith that's the only way even though it's tough a hard walk life style to live by. Praying trusting in God cant do this alone anymore physically and emotionally drained.

It plays in your mind repetitively
Seeing and believing in a dream
Work hard to get to the next level
The old vs new that's with is developing
Staying strong after being mocked
Looked down on the struggle
Expecting results not helping
Eyes full of judgement gazing hard
Staring from a distance sending bad vibes
Expecting you to fail never happy for anyone
A lurking heart filled with hatred
The worse is his family aims to hurt
Knock an achieve make it meaningless

Talking to you like you're an idiot
Trying to project their BS on you
Listen to them talk in the end
They are wrong they do you
Know your story or what you've done
Your struggles within all the obstacles
Overcome hardship working hard
Plowing down the ******* of life
Mental anguish burning up peace
Thick skin for rough times taking it
Long periods of pain and pressure
No coping or closure onto the next

Praying for lost ones
A formal friend that shared memories
An ex that once was able to tolerate
Failed love no changing the outcome
Silent treatment from siblings hurts
A friend who's health is in decline
Wanting to reach out not sure how
I'm sorry I hurt you meant well
Too bad it all went wrong
Got sober that was my apology
Had to do it for me since things ended
Getting mentally strong this heart torn
Fading away from that toxic scene
Left alone isolated with thoughts
Lonely nights writing it out
Words ran deep hard to sleep
Letting pride get the better of thing
Sorry won't fix the wrong
Altered behavior wasn't enough
Coexisting made it tough
Reaching out being ignored
Not worthy stance was made clear
Tired the grudge being held over head
Faced the truth everyone so ruthless
Miss you all wishing you the best
This hurt will fade over time
Gave it to God prayed for better days

Feeling the vibe down with the best
At the Mike about to spit a line
Clear this mind of others insanity
Down for mine someone always mad
Straight up with the truth (freedom)
So many fueled by hatred (consumed)
Forgiving everyone seeing good in others
Regret walking egg shells
Bad egos acting bold miserable infecting others
Trying to take all your credit
Starting to regret it being nice
Holding back taking the heat
Biting this tongue not my life or problem

Working to pay the bills over the same old routine dealing with others demands after a while he asked what would they do without him. Half the time they dump on him and treat him bad when they don't get their way. Use to being ******* over they talk about him but he's not saying anything because once they are triggered they think they have the right to take him down so they feel secure about themselves.
He just wanted to ask out the girl he had a crush on. Go on a date have fun all he did was work with bossy demanding people. He gave and didn't expect anything in return. He loved to write it made sense he could feel and be himself without judgement or hide himself because they don't care about him just expecting results. He wrote feeling free observed and analyzed his life. He made mistakes and gave up his social life to be sober because most of his friends drank it wouldn't help him get clean.
Stayed single because his relationships got complicated he wanted to balance it out have both but it wouldn't work out in his favor. His needy jealous insecure girlfriend would make him feel bad because he didn't listen or do things her way. Not able to enjoy life with friends because once his friends got in a relationship they chose that over his friendship.

Trying to stay intact loving them hard
Never had your back the betrayal
Unless you're doing favors
In their favor wasting others time
Sad to see them go if their not happy
Better to say good bye than hold on
Wishing them the best nothing less
As they move on did his own thing
He focused on the work every detail
Trying to improve the situation
Making the wrong right with family
Forgiving others hard to trust
All the verbal attacks behind his back
Spoke up now everyone is mad
Open to change with some criticism
Taking advice suggestions that bubble
In the back of the mind cycling away
Memories fading not holding a grudge
Not open to being told how to do so

Not worth getting worked up over easier to talk about it. Process everything thankful for the friends. That listen able to share with open up without feelings and emotions being thrown in your face. Lightened up over others actions and behavior not responsible for them. Been responsible for how I communicate participate doing the job in and out make that money. stay strong positive through those difficult moments.

Some people make it but don't want you passing them up
You keep working and grinding in silence
Learning everything willing to grow
Helping others to keep things productive
While others neglect to keep job security
Some set the bar others break them
Some provide a print out others have to build off that
Sometimes it's easy others get close
Some stay stuck too prideful too ask
Success is measured differently
Others get by without doing the work
Some do the work making it easier

The love was infatuation thinking it was real she wasn't the one. His heart stuck on her. She didn't value or appreciate him he wanted her even more. He couldn't get enough he made excuses for her but he hated being wrong thinking he could fix something that was beyond repair.
He seen her with other men and it gutted him from the inside out. She was lusting a  girl with freedom that took everyone and thing for granted. She didn't explain why it was over but you could feel it. She was cold and heartless after being affectionate open to you. Stirring your feelings and emotions causing confusion and anger due to the lack of communication. Not having a say not responsible for her feelings that left everyone emotional. She cried because she couldn't explain her actions the reasons for her conduct towards lovers who she lusted after leaving them in torment

Waking up having a sip of coffee
Trying to stay warm in the cold
Thinking what's next to start the day
Mentally preparing for things to come
Staring at a blank page soon filled thoughts
Acting normal whatever that means
Praying things wouldn't be so complicated
Thankful for everything and everyone
It was a battle to get there
Taking on an ego with a bs job title
A boss with no respect for others
Due to a docotors degree
Felt connected then everyone transformed
Soon did the same onto new and better
Working to fit into a better place