This guy decided to jump back into the dating world; after a few years of being single, he gave himself time to grow, and learned about himself.

He dated all the wrong girls; before most of them didn't know, what they wanted, or kept it casual. This was all new to him, since he lacked confidence, but on his first try things would be a successful.
The first girl he would ask out said "yes" they would have a romantic dinner in the college community; where they both attended.

He remembered going to prom alone, on this date things felt right. He grew up less fortunate, so he didn't date much. He was private person, most all didn't want others thinking less of him.

A very late bloomer, who didn't drive because his friends would drive him. On this date they would walk to this establishment; hand in hand talking to get one another. Sharing stories getting to know one another.

Not that skin tone matters, but he grew up in an all brown community. this girl he was dating was half black and white such a beautiful mixture in his eyes. His family was traditional sounds racist, stay with your people, he did not agree or believe it should be that way.

She was into him, but this was all new to him. Most of the time, if he was into anyone; they'd friend zone him. He always heard them complain or comfort them about their current relationship; he knew how to listen, and keep a secret.

This date was all new

Another night you came to mind
Trying to forget not regret
The choices made to move forward
Drawn back but don't know how to act
Failed before, dk if I can be done anymore
Why repeat expecting a different outcome
We keep running into one another
Hard to move on missed that moment
Would like another chance with you
So much has changed within our lives
Working to get by struggling alone
While she works for her kid
A family bond not sure anymore
Never willing to break that bond
We use to hang enjoyed the moment
Didn't expect much denied my feelings
Never took her for granted
Respected her or took advantage

By the mic thinking what to say
Dividing personal life and feelings
Inform the listener and stay positive
Upbeat set a tone so much has occured
A way with words how to speak
Have an opinion most of all have fun
Talk about what you're passionate about
Things that make you laugh and smile
Be open with a heart not fake or phony
This show is a voice a cheap form of therapy

Broke promises
Leave the heart hollow
Trusting again is hard
Love from a distance
Protect the heart
Time to heal forget the past
Can't be around the hurt
Things never change
Better to stay away
Hurts to be made a fool of
The betrayal cuts deep
Scars left as beauty mark
Remember the good
Mostly shadowed by bad
Look away not seen the same anymore
Life lesson taken for personal growth
Damaged spirit still glowing strong

Feeling provoked, so many double standards learning to forgive move on, while everyone holds a grudge. When its them they expect you to turn a blind eye, if it's you they are quick to blame, or throw you under.
Always focused on doing good or being better. Try to not argue with family but so much contradictions and hypocritical behavior. So much frustration to pardon or justify their action by saying that's who they are. They know what they are doing so much none sense.

Know who I am
Where I come from
That's all I know
Be myself it makes sense
Keep it real be genuine
Protect your heart
Build trust with others
A loyal heart with the right one
An honest mouth for the truth
Respect others differences

In the city of Corona
A hometown to the heart
Now a small town to over populated
Relocating north side of town to South
More overpriced housing lost values
So much destruction to the origins
Abandoning the old community
Use to traditional norms from childhood
While new concepts don't make sense

Diverse time in life
Break the curse to be free
Won't let things be
Everyone lies hard to see the truth
Keep on fighting for a dream
Keep on writing honestly
Never said your name
Always bad mouthing my name
Not the same level up
Never alike anywhere close
No comparison been going strong
Stop with the mind games

Another day looping thoughts
Hard to change, things stay the same
Exhausted from the struggle
Another flopped plan in the works
Not one to judge another person
But dont like when people be
I dont look down on others
Don't treat me like an idiot
I'm respectful to rude people
I'm polite when others are cruel
I respect your situation your choices
Not one to care or compete
I don't care if you are rich or poor
Treat people right that says way more
Usually mind my mouth and business
Some days are good others are hostile
Not one to complain just do a good job
Not responsible for others personal life
Lead by example do the job
Do it right the first time around

Got nothing outside of writing
Thinking what to say how to say it
Lots of growth change is hard to cope with
Change break out of old habits
The same old routine changes up
From facing the world after walking away
So much has changed not the same
A fight to be accepted by others
Tried to fit in got rejected and denied
Became a rebel walked around alone
Seem like better people came into this life
Concerned for your health well being
Check up see how things are going
Being over looked not good enough
Ignored flaws pointed out very infuriating

They said no
Or it couldn't be done
Trying to survive
Stay above water
Made sense within
Showing it can be done

Eyes locked emotionally charged
Nothing into something more
Friend to strangers dangerous vibes
Mysterious full of true love to give
The other lusting not taking it serious
Deep slumber on his arm
Till it went numb tingling sensation
Emotions are deep feels so real
Happiness making it hard to sleep
All that would change
Next chapter turn the page
Already know the outcome
Things changed never the same

Sad over growing up less fortunate
Everyday a struggle to accepted
Others mock your mannerisms
For being different
Provoked for being short
Skin tone another factor
Dressed nice seen as gay
Wore whatever looked down on
Spoke truth got ignored
Hatred came in many forms
Family betrayal hurts the most
Friends cut you off without reason
A crush ends up with your best friend
Trust issues forgiving moving on alone
Anger defused by loving

Scared family won't approve of this new love making it forgiven. All this what if she likes them, but they don't approve of her. Don't need to hear criticism from both ends put in an awkward situation. Being nice but will not be mocked taking disrespected for trying to welcome others in my world.
Her love was part of this heart even if others don't understand. Family means a lot but growing up to be heard over being ignored. An older man still seen as a child trying to survive make it on his own. Worlds collide instead of uniting as one. Not able to please everyone make them happy. It's their life cant intervene but respect their decisions due to choices provided.

A moment written down come to life
Better than imagined while writing it down
A visual that became a reality
Such an intense rewarding feeling
Sober living is hard to fight temptation
Avoid things that make the situation awkward
Changed circles sometimes means rolling solo
Knowing better and can't go back to bad habits
So many decisions to be made in life
Trying to make better choices with satisfaction
Focused on improvement over living in regret

Dating is not the same
Before it was a rush with the one
It becomes sad being one of many
Now everyone wants the perks
All the benefits of a relationship
Without commitment or connection
Relationships can be hard
But open relations are complicated
Someone always catches feelings
Wanting more than being a side piece
Lusting around meaningless ***
One begins to feel love lost meaning
Lusting a person for physical needs
Which will never be anything
Nothing more than a bootycall