Had others in mind
Not talking about you
Another guilty conscience
Being defensive trying to trip
Avoiding hungry egos that need to be fed
Talked everyone up seen good within
While they talk down with judgement
Been respectful through all the disrespect
Told one thing actions say another
Listened while others spoke
Ignored trying to help do what's right

Arguing with myself to figure it out
Find away to make this dream
Become a reality the truth
Years passed coping with change
One day reunited as friends
Probably not possible but an idea
All these changes all unexpected
Some forced not ready to grow
Trying to live enjoy life

Did my thing got no support
Stood tall on my own nothing but hate
Always happy for others
Got made fun of but kept focused
Told I ****** and been doing it more
Every win was mine thankful
Appreciate everyone who helped me
Ruined the moment seen as a lost
Been proving people wrong
Not a cheater accused of being one
Earned my way not a thief acting righteous
Kept my mouth shut seen as a snob
Opened my mouth always the bad guy
Not using people taking them for granted
I'm not afraid to lose or back down
Been ganged up on talked about
I walk away doing what I love
Stayed away from negative people
Settling my goals trying to achieve them
My dreams will become the reality

Another night hard to sleep
Deep in thought feeling nothing
Let go of the bad avoiding toxic vibes
Friends to foes people once known
Appreciated others feelings not returned
Not overwhelmed worked up by others
Learned to love being alone
Enjoy time alone to write
Especially restless late nights
Music to soothe the souls
Natural glow of happiness
A comfy chair to relax the body
A pen to spell out the emotions
Thoughts into perspective

Around the redwoods
A place that was home
Left thinking about going back
Had it all something is missing
Started over lost it all
What's missing what matters
Away from family missing home
Closer to home still not near family
Don't know how to act
What to say so divided driven apart
Words won't come out
Losing strength a weak voice
Not many choices
Decisions had to be made
Trying to be better for family
Came up short failed
Still trying to redeem a dream

He stopped thinking about her
The girl who broke his heart
Thinking it was love but lust
She claimed to love him
Now with someone else
He moved on couldn't wait anymore
He thought she'd come back
His heart said there is no going back
He fear rejection denied his feelings
Always assumed the worse

Started to share projects
Don't know how to finish them
Need to feel it be able to see it
Really like the creative process
Playing scenarios in the mind
Conversations and dialog playing out
Comedy to make other smile
Romance to feed a hungry heart
Fluttered emotions composed

Woke up tired
Too much on the mind
Be this way
Act like that
This mind came to terms
The body reached it's limits
Things are not the same anymore
Why is it okay now
Told don't do this
That's bad for some reason
It gets you no where
All these made up rules
Why is one struggle more important

Always putting others first
Give them the best
Allowed the worse
******* this soul
Dried up inside to outside
Withering away
Consumed by pain
Redeem nothing seems right

Writing to express these bottled thoughts
So much on my mind can't focus
Trying to relax unwind from it all
Came to terms with the outcome
Not the first pick, one day be the first choice
Kept my mind occupied not coping
Bottled stress that won't go
Hurt echoes through the body going numb
Body doesn't want to fight, rest find peace
Took a beating never the same anymore
Face swelled up got fired from the job
A job that never honored their word
Wasting my day, wasting my time
Miserable people not letting them knock me down
Don't want to be like them, that's why I laugh
I'm one who smiles while others wallow in pity
Work hard to improve, hate the situation
Loving life while others hold onto the past
Trying to get ahead a live inside
Over going through the motions dead inside
Anger comes out can't hide it anymore

The hardest part of sobriety
You thought you'd never get clean
Detoxing is the hardest
Part of the process
Say somethings it was wrong
Alcohol altered the state of mind
Wanted to feel like a whole
Felt empty wanted fill this hole
Changed my behavior for others
Wanted to be forgiven
Now I'm clean for me
Feeling better about myself
Staying positive in a negative situation
From the bottom to the top
Things leveled out

Came to me in a dream
Had it once, will do it again
Lost it, earning it all back
Afraid to be alone always solo
Looking for love to be neglected
Friendships that are one sided
Living life not comparing
Loving myself others careless
Not competing for a spot
On my way to somewhere better
Not settling for less
Tired of lowering my standards
Others want so much
But it's never enough
Eventually shut down the bad
Overwhelming had enough

Making fun of the situation
Cracking jokes with a dry sense of humor
Dark comedy with an awkward bromance
Never had a support group it's all brand new
Most wait to hear about failure
Another set up not fall into the trap
Assume the worse thinking less of
Proving them wrong worth it
Other times a huge waste of time
A detour side track focus get back on track

This guy decided to jump back into the dating world; after a few years of being single, he gave himself time to grow, and learned about himself.

He dated all the wrong girls; before most of them didn't know, what they wanted, or kept it casual. This was all new to him, since he lacked confidence, but on his first try things would be a successful.
The first girl he would ask out said "yes" they would have a romantic dinner in the college community; where they both attended.

He remembered going to prom alone, on this date things felt right. He grew up less fortunate, so he didn't date much. He was private person, most all didn't want others thinking less of him.

A very late bloomer, who didn't drive because his friends would drive him. On this date they would walk to this establishment; hand in hand talking to get one another. Sharing stories getting to know one another.

Not that skin tone matters, but he grew up in an all brown community. this girl he was dating was half black and white such a beautiful mixture in his eyes. His family was traditional sounds racist, stay with your people, he did not agree or believe it should be that way.

She was into him, but this was all new to him. Most of the time, if he was into anyone; they'd friend zone him. He always heard them complain or comfort them about their current relationship; he knew how to listen, and keep a secret.

This date was all new

Know who I am
Where I come from
That's all I know
Be myself it makes sense
Keep it real be genuine
Protect your heart
Build trust with others
A loyal heart with the right one
An honest mouth for the truth
Respect others differences

Under the lamppost
Talking to one another
A nice refreshing breeze
Two strangers meeting up
Getting to know one another
Talking about their life
Funny moments sharing stories
Planning to make new ones
Spent an evening under the stars
Felt like it was all going to line up
Talked on the phone nightly
Prior to the evening planned
Silence felt right together
Lots of smiles with quality time

By the mic thinking what to say
Dividing personal life and feelings
Inform the listener and stay positive
Upbeat set a tone so much has occured
A way with words how to speak
Have an opinion most of all have fun
Talk about what you're passionate about
Things that make you laugh and smile
Be open with a heart not fake or phony
This show is a voice a cheap form of therapy