He entered the bus a 12 hour ride to a new life and location. Every mile close to a new life while the old is forgotten. Leaving the past for the future old friends made their decisions while he pursued his.  Everyone has their story he was pursuing a new life.
Sometimes things come natural while other times it's a struggle an argument to be heard
To be understood wondering why or what was next? After a while it hit a wall and hard. He thought about his new and the old lots of change. Being able to adjust and adapt to the situation. He was glad for change while somethings never changed remained the same.

He was down for his working to survive
Back up his crew when needed
Friends come and go like the seasons
No longer attached. Just let go of the past
Use to be a shoulder to crying on
Fighting for the weak, spoke for the voiceless
The weak got strong and turned their back
Called them a friend, and now they are a foe
Acting like they dk you hate you over a girl
Faded out, wasn't myself anymore
Went home, hoping to find peace
Lost direction, filled with regret left with doubt
No longer happy with the situation
Unable to move focused on distractions Needed closure more questions than answers
You want to know "why"  there's no reason
Trying to make sense of puzzle pieces
That won't link all these clues still not resolved

Mood ring

You struggle being YOU
Trying to have a good day
Set the vibe feel alive
Put out positive energy
Only to be drained by bad
Usually a people person  
Being boxed/labeled judged harshly
Not the one in evil eyes
Made out to be a threat
So many twisted lies seen as truth
False promise being spoken
But prefer to be alone running solo
Listening to music feeling complete
Dealing with others bad habit
Toxic attitudes that place blame
Walk away leave the heartaches and pains
Clock in and out then back to living
Doing what's right avoiding the wrong
Always giving from the heart
Digging deep down from the soul
Trying to be a whole most of all selfless
While the negativity is black hole

They made him feel bad for working out. All they did was criticize him but they did nothing. He once valued them but had to put his guard up. He did all the giving all they did was expect. Only when they needed something he became a thought.
After being ignored and treated different he stayed in his lane they smothered him with their nonsense controlling ways. He gained more confidence called the BS in the end they'd ignore him or make him out to have a problem.
Never once did they think their attitude or behavior was a factor. He was admit his wrongs he hated how he had to walk egg shells to be considered. He did favors now they are talking and bad mouthing.

He smiled looked into her eyes
He wanted to rush the time wasn't right
He could missed the opportunity
Letting the suspense build up
Intentions mean well with love
Making his move could lead to more
Possible ruin things between them
He preferred an old friend over an ex

Called selfish or stubborn for not asking for help but they expect results without them your feelings or opinion means nothing. When you did it no one gave a **** other people get praised and worshipped. They don't believe in you that's infuriating. Everything they told you not to do everyone is doing. When you did it they talked bad about you for trying to be an individual. Never been a follower a leader a trail blazer finding away because not able to rely or depend on anyone unless multiple favors are done

His plan was to get hired since the job helps pay for school. He's been one to pick up the slack his hopes up past due. Wondering if it would ever happen, walking away from certain people he felt shame, didn't want to let others down. Trying to take on too much its never enough or he lightens up on his effort feeling cheated. He thought he knew things got blurred had no clue.
Trying to rest mind racing mentally the body tired trying to get back in this routine. He asked and wondered what he should be doing tired frustrated running out of moves. Feeling out of places to go burnt out feeling excluded left out a team player with no team.

He was on the outs glad everyone was getting alone. Didn't care for their approval since anything he did was never good enough. It wasn't his life or his problem anymore. Having other ideas kept him out not a fan of being told how to act or who to be. The idea of being watered down infuriated him.   Being rejected didn't bother him but all the expectation of others they didn't have his back but wanted a favor. It was insulting the nerve to insult a person and assume you are cool with a person.
It was easier to avoid and ignore a person than bother wasting your time. Sad how the hidden agendas are for their own personal gain. Smashing others ******* people to get their way.

He asked why can't we be friends? She said if you get with someone I might get jealous. Who knew there was someone else on her end. After things crumbled she did everything she said she'd never do. She claimed she didn't want kids or to get married. she did all that with someone else.
She wanted a relationship but not with him. After being lead on he learned the lesson and moved on.
He became a workaholic so he could better himself. Relationships were complicated. He was told put yourself out there so much rejection and he could see through the act trying to get to know a person. He stayed true to himself when trying to get to know a person.

You can't keep living off past experiences
Time to create new stories to tell
New experiences fresh encounters
Go on new adventures live life
Journey into new realms new people
Take on personalities that stimulate the mind
Let go of old friends that lost contact
Be in the scene get lost in the crowd
Stand out not losing yourself
Challenge yourself to do better
Be more stop settling for less
The growth results so much progress

He welcomed her into his world hoped, she wouldn't ruin him. All the things she liked about him that she'd try to change or it all turns into hatred.
He didn't read minds, she was passive instead of talking about things with him. She would be supportive instead of doubting him. Making him feel bad because her values and focus was different from his.
He wasn't the same in the relationship barely able to focus on himself, how can he function for two. He didn't get complements so he wasn't use to giving them out.

Written on by family proving them wrong is easy but they'll never give you props. Those made up standards no one is living up to over all the talking.
Be this way do that most are not happy just going through the motions.
Breaking bad habits changing to avoid falling into the vicious cycle. The fear of being like people that loathe you.

Fight to stay alive to be heard
Everyday a life or death situation
Hard to live pursue the dream
Dead inside become immune to toxic
Trying to escape hate give into faith
Others trying to dictate your fate
Pouring it into the universe
See what comeback this way
Energy levels draining slow
Good vibes positivity on the rise

Was tired of being used over the scam
Once he opened his mouth
No one bothered with him anymore
He was willing to help always doing extra
Once he said NO he never hear from her again
He question her logic
She tried to play him for a fool
He said no to covering a shift
He didn't do favors for lazy people
After cleaning up doing others jobs
He had no sympathy or remorse
Being over looked was common
When he finally made it still doesn't believe it happened or real

Wake up thankful asking why me
I want it but worried it hasn't happened yet
Hard to forget don't want to live with regret
Trying to find a way to make it
Don't want to fake it can't take it anymore
We use to be close now we aren't close anymore
I don't want to mess up or ***** things up
Only a matter of time till it happens
Hard to settle when I deserve better
Been taking what I can get even if it's no much or what I want
Looking out the window and this cold breeze
Use to family giving the 3rd degree
Just want to be set free be me not what you made me out to be

Been down been out tired of going with
All the sacrifice was a huge waste of time
Gave up in what was mine I'll never get it back
Just want to be me not act like you
My beliefs maybe different they wont treat me the same
I hide who I am so I can be accepted even though part of me is rejected
Trying to figure out a way that works I fel and hit rock bottom don't want to be here anymore
Thought about pursuing the girl but fear her thinking less of me
Went after the job and it did not happen

He didn't expect much of others
But gave his all with everything
He opened up no one cared or listened
After a while he was closed off
Wasn't sure what he could do anymore
Joked with people that are too serious
Too serious around jokes that are insults
The dreamer knew what he wanted
Dk what he was looking for in a partner
She was pretty but insecure too needy
He made a mistake chose phony friends
Over a relationship that could of been more
Too much misery dieing to escape feeling drained
Never good enough to keep this love
Spent money on gifts that were belittled
Compared to an ex that was the standard
It wasn't meant to be not trying anymore
A mother cussing over a spoiled daughter

Trying to be normal so many things complicated
Wanting a family coming from a broken home
Working hard to stand out stuck in the background
Showing up with good vibes positive energy
Helping the team trying to keep them motivated
Be in a healthy relationship get to know the person
Not lust and be manipulated
By someone who's insecure causing doubt
Who doesn't care about the real you
Staying positive feeling depressed
Working hard to get in shape
Done it before dieting to get it back
Know what it takes even with health conditions

He loved her she didn't feel the same way back. When he seen her with another guy is destroyed him he felt unworthy. The betrayal was on a whole other level. He didn't fight because she never belong to him when he moved on she'd come back. It really messed with his mind. She told him he was a good friend then got into a relationship. She claimed to love him now that she's married he wanted to be friends now he gets why he can't be connected to couples. The frustration and complication.

Sometimes you take the L and learn
Dealing with your emotions is hard
Trying to not be vulnerable trying to help
It ***** when you care more than most
Venting doesn't help being humble
Trying to do what's right no matter
Proved wrong feeling cheated
Robbed of joy doing what you love
On the outside looking in
Holding back tears such agony
Made out to be the bad guy
Trying to be normal never gonna be
Always excluded or treated different
Taking on the burden shaking opening up
People don't care unless you produce results
Quick to point out your flaw
Never happy for your efforts
Waiting to see you fail
Smiling at your down fall
Expecting the worse is normal
Hoping things get better
While you wish them the best

We use to be close you did drugs I turned a blind eye
I made mistakes but don't judge me like I've done worse
We use to be friends now we are strangers
Over a girl who doesn't love anyone but herself
We spent time together got close
Now we act like we dk one another
I saw you like family but now we are strangers
I showed you love and you slandered my name
Talked behind my back while I respected you enough to say it to your face
Stronger than before looking back never more

The anger to destroy others you implode it within destroying yourself
You hold yourself accountable
Living with the guilt tried to make it right
Everything went wrong ***** bad wins
Doing the work and spoke up
All you want is to be happy
Everyone wants you as company for their misery

Woke up feeling great fully revived
Things are not perfect but are great
Feeling the music it can take me away
The vibes within come to life with satisfaction
Live in peaceful not complicating things
Once was mad but let it go
So many bad vibes not empowering them
Love so many not letting them get the best of my heart
I forgive, but learned it's best to stay away
Learning to love myself again
Years of giving myself to the wrong people
Someday I'll be loved appreciated by the right person
Hopeless romantic to feeling hopeless not giving up on love
Love again like I've never been hurt
Feeling all these emotions usually blocking them out
Years of being with the wrong people praying for the right

Working hard to pursue a dream
Head fight hard work for it
Till he made it didn't happen right away
Wanting his family but everyone had their own life to live
Their own struggles to conquer opinions and mindsets
He made it being a contender finally got his shot
Missing family looked at as crazy
Determined to be someone
years of feeling excluded
Being treated like a no body
Prove them wrong doing something right
Years of being discouraged
Always in the back of his mind
Bouncing back from injuries
Failed relationships told he wasn't good enough
They didn't believe in him
But he believed in himself
Found a way ran with opportunity

Living secrets holding on to burden
That have nothing to do with you
Cheater expects you to lie
Liar expects you to keep secrets
Pushed out not going back
Truth comes out not worried
Holding back internal screaming
Seen the front more to the fakes
Pretending to be someone else
A broken home outta the house

He remembers when he didn't have a job but he would do chores or run errands since he had his license. He was mistreated by cousins who thought they knew better but stilled with grandma. They tried to guilt him about paying rent and help with bills. He would feel bad till one day he had a conversation with grandma and the truth would come out. It was him dealing with another family that would take from his shine some how make it about them.
He got use to being in the background most of the time it was a fight to be included. Making him feel not good enough, ready to walk away making himself available was a waste of his time. He never thought bad about family but they never thought highly of him. He had done stuff but he didn't want kids or to get married.
Divorces rates were high in the family and he didn't want to be another statistic. Children used as an excuse while failed relationships putting on a public front.

Always taking lead working
Not I charge but keep it in check
Doing my part than going home
A life outside of work seeking peace
Burnt out prefer to be alone
Working harder to escape
Closer to the finish line going strong
Came up short burned by lazy people
Doing the work under valued
Under appreciated like every job

After being denied the position. He continued to work harder most give up take the job hostage act like they deserved it. He'd worker harder for something better. Not settling he expressed his goals to this unmotivated lead that detoured his goals.
It was a wake up call being better when it came to people that didn't believe in him. He didn't use his recovery from surgery as an excuse. He'd only miss work if it was an intense procedure.
From doing extra to doing his part making his area stand out. Taking time to improve himself having a life outside of work. Being a workaholic was not rewarding when he did the work most will get it without trying that's the frustrating part after this life lesson.

He would hide in his room and write to help him figure it out put things into perspective. He knew he made mistakes and tried to learn from them.
He forgave himself since he usually blamed himself for being over trusting to all the wrong people. Always opened to grow and learn something new. If he couldn't find it there he had to go else where so he can gain from his experiences.
Encounter new people and places he found closure so he was able to move on. He waited by saving their place but realized; they were gone not coming back.
It was time for him to do the same by moving on with his life. The hurt was real eventually immune to it all.

Learning one way
Open to other ways
New school vs old school
Grew up with tough love
Learning to show love
Express emotions show emotions
Without doubt or regret
Being cozy in one's skin
Leaving old structure
Finding new structure
Unlearning bad habits
And relearning skills
Be open to change to grow
Personal growth matter

She called him a player when she was the one playing games. He loved her turns out she's just lusting. His heart got broken for being over trusting. He wanted to win her heart make her the one. He found out he wasn't the one but one of many. She was playing everyone projecting the game on others while she played innocent. Times had changed from wine and dine to romance maybe something more. Now things are not what it appears to be.

Years of experience and knowledge leading to this moment. Every insult creating strength. Every mistake pointed out worked harder towards perfection. Trying to do it right the first time with maximum effort. They told him he didn't belong it made him better not settling for less.
His experience over the years he was ready but never given a chance. When he took it everyone that doubted him rooted for him. His dream was to compete on those mats jujitsu on the back of his mind get his blue belt train harder no surrender working to cross things off his Todo list.

It was over for them and just beginning for him. Picking up all the slack everyone had other plans while he was stuck in the middle of it all. Know for his work didn't care to talk or say much never cared for the politics of the job. They fought for themselves trying to make it seem like they looked out for the majority.
Stayed strong and sober because it got to him mentally wanting to drown out the misery. Needing his spirit recharged so much drama. He tuned out focused on the work and did the extra because it made time fly by faster.