A few years out of high school they hung out in his friends car. Catching up talking everyone grew up and apart they use to be close. She always belong to someone else while they were friends.
She knew he had a crush but he was respectful of her. He had gone off to school experienced the world. She was finally single she was enjoying a few drinks and would kiss him on the cheek.
He was glad that happened but didn't take advantage since he didn't drink anymore overprotective of his sobriety.
He got lost in his mind asking questions wondering what it meant? She was finally single but he had other ideas on how things would go between them.

Bought a bass to join a band it was suppose to be a Christian band but the guy who organized it would have many hidden agendas. It wasn't fun or a group project trying to control everyone and everything eventually it would end.
He joined to help write music hoping to learn and grow in his faith. Everything was misguided not going well or according to plan. Not able to fix the situation he'd look for other ways to learn other ways.

Writing had been therapy
Cant say much most grt offended
Or they try to twist your words
Able to cope show emotions
Without them being used against you
Usually say the wrong thing
Trying to do right no hidden agendas
Hard to open up to others
Someones sad story is a contest
Just trying to vent bounce ideas
Come to terms from within
Find a solution to the problem

Claiming to love quick to move on
Picking fights expecting communication
Keeping Secrets been open and honest
Couldn't have female friends got jealous
Respected your feelings no regards for mine
But you could have male friends sneaking around
A guilty conscience projecting to justify wrong doing
Never made false promises honored words if spoken
Mouth saying one thing actions contradicting
Told to be a man take charge all credibility taken away
Fed up gave up walked away from this toxic love
Being called a narcissistic for not giving in
Trying to be open not have it used to be manipulated
Isolated trying to balance out a relationship and friendships
Everyone is gone faded away focused on being better
Got use to be alone doing everything not expecting much in return
Living on borrowed time making the most of things

Sad to see them go retirement earned
From youthful to old wisdom of a mentor
Those white hairs take over
Wrinkles adding to ****** feature
Doing what they love for a living
Now pursuing hobbies time with family
The time has passed enjoy the freedom
Make the most with what remains
Free from the routine and stress
A job well done time to live life to the fullest

On the road going home
So many bad drivers on the road
Staying ahead of the crazy
All the BS doesn't phase anymore
Thick skin numb to the core
Always giving and judged
While the people talking
Make it worse cursed his name
Spreading rumors making up lies
No where to go missing home
Hard to be around family
Need to be doing something
Help out make the situation better
The demotion is an insult
Phony friends not pretending all is well
A new route time for a change

Have you ever talked to a person and they don't care. It ***** to be ignored or being told they agree just to shut you up.
You proved yourself and do the work. While others **** up and brown nose to move up.
It's been rough when they make you out to be the crazy one you spoke up they don't listen. Then have the nerve to blame the team which they are not apart of because they **** off the higher ups.
The infuriating part is they didn't promote you and demoted you. You've been loyal and they failed you the betrayal is real intense fueling anger and frustration.

Do what you love others might not get it. Somethings are harder than other stuff
It might bring out the best in you
The intensity could cause love hate relationship
It might tire you out but it makes you better
It's tough most are there for the success
Most are no where to be found when you fail
All the effort to win when it's short lived
While a loss has so much to learn from
Bouncing back coming up with a new plan
Focus on techniques work into the plan
Build on what you know and grow

Wide awake thinking about the day what's next? Staying clear of drama things that hurt him or made him mad. He didn't feed into toxic vibes or empower negative idiots.
He sat in his room writing thinking about the plan before jumping into action. Having an idea instead of assuming the outcome usually trying to make it through the day.
Dating is fun but he was private everyone tried to tell him how to live and who to be he didn't like that. Mean while dealing the younger generation trying to tell him when he had done way more. Everyone was quick to judge he didn't say or do anything to anyone.
He gave relationship advice to help but he was single. Gave parent advice for the kids best interest but the parent only card about feeding those bad habits. He meant well positive intensions while they tried to throw him under making him the scapegoat.

Found joy in writing got a complement reread the material. Surprised myself with my words. Always in a different mindset. Told to publish something not sure who my audience is because use to being an outcast kept out looking in.

As time passes things change along with age. From wanting to being young and dumb. Now older and wiser than before telling stories from mistakes and failures life experiences. Always deep thought coping and reflecting on life. Telling those funny stories. now being more cautious and seeking opportunities.

Stopped reviving dieing friendships. Love family but not able to be yourself makes it easy to leave things behind cut ties. One sided friendships

I didn't want to believe what I heard
All the stories hoped they weren't true
Let you in the betrayal was deep
Should've listened to the warning signs
Thought things wouldn't end
Seen it differently being foolish
Already told the outcome going in
Results given by previously used fools
Slammed into the wall of failure
Being optimistic left feeling naive
Treated just like everyone else
Never the same above the pain
So many games not playing anymore

Some days you want to hide
Disappear fade away from it all
Hard to write hard to be okay
An older man struggles
Can't help but cry
Wanting to provide
Can't run away of hide
Wanting it to end
Dk where to start or begin
Trying to be better still going wrong

Monty grew up with that mobster never go against the family. As he got older family would go against him. Cousins that would give him attitude because they ******* up their life.
Monty was single and some of his cousins stayed in bad relationships because they had history or used the kids as an excuse. He didn't have much, but helped out his grandma paying rent.
When Monty struggled to get a a job everyone was mean, and disrespected him. He would find out the truth everyone that gave him crap, never contributed a cent. He took pride in paying rent to help his grandma.
As he got older he was more responsible and reliable while the next generation would try to talk down on him.
He wasn't a dead beat father with three babies mommas. He worked for his, while everyone talked like he owed them or like they did him favors. He worked hard and busted his *** earned everything he owns.
Monty was never materialistic a cousin who owns a house doesn't have the right to talk down or bad on anyone. He respected they own a house but it's about how you treat people. His grandpa cosigned when he passed everything was a nightmare.
Everyone thought they could fill his shoes but no one has the right. His grandfather united everyone would resolve conflict where these power hungry ******* divided everyone.

Showed up to work ready to get it done
Too many are miserable with attitudes
He avoids people to keep from ruining his day
He's usually upbeat positive about life
Loud music while finishing his route
Writing on his down time clears his mind
Trying to live in the moment
Craving changing unsatisfied
Forgetting the past to be present
Praying all the sacrifice pays off
Overall the pain ready to heal
Enjoy a meal without worrying
Be in a healthy relationship with the right person
Tired of holding back biting the tongue
Speak without being ridiculed
Words being twisted used against you
All the wrong people empowered
Having no respect for others efforts
Wasting everyone's time One sided
Talking about entitled and delusional
While projecting on others trying
Never happy whenever others rise up

Hard to trust when they are spreading lies. You forgave them but they aren't forgiving you. Trying to explain while being ignored and talked over. Giving them silence so they have no reason to talk as they continue to run their mouth.
Might make a fussy broken trust thought highly of them. Not going to let them talk down on you. Always been loyal and honest. While the lies and deceit are being served to everyone strong. One talks about leaving while the other points out everyone's flaws. Giving people crap but not doing any of the stuff that's being complained about.

Trying  to please your elders
They've done it with experience
Many times before it's second nature
You like to learn from them
Too bad you have other ideas
The plans are similar different times
Experienced passing wisdom
The inexperienced gaining perspective
Find a place to call home feel safe
Passed up so much inconvenienced
Asking what if wanting that moment
Scared of missing on that opportunity
Hoping for a chance not always sure
On the edge Trying to easy in
Cope to feel whole with emotions
feelings to fill the hole within

Being punched by an older man
Who was lazy he called him on it
He lost his job over the altercation
Working hard doing more than the rest.
Never enough time barely getting by focused on getting it done. Next day start over playing the game trying to beat the clock.
Being the chosen one can't let up the pressure is on not afraid to try; while most hide instead of stepping it up. Learning to lead and being an example tire of being talked down to letting others steal the credit.

Complain doesn't nothing
Talking about it things get ignored
Back to old habits trying to make changes
Destroying yourself in the process
It's a lost cause your like to give purpose
Feeling depressed dk how to act
Doing better health wise
Not into people feeling sorry
Overall the doubt tired of being shrank to fit in
Giving up who I am to be liked at work
Everyone talks bad about one another
Then fake to their face acting like buddies

Always helping others
Time to help yourself
Ignored trying to be supportive
Once you do your thing
All of a sudden everyone needs you
Learning to say no
The sacrifice didn't have benefits
Feeling used and ******* over
Treated bad so much expectation
Turned to stone showing no emotions
Going numb with all the disrespect
False promise trying to rise up
Being knocked down sent backwards

How long will this hate go on
Will we ever get along
So much betrayal broken hearts
Can't be fixed by an apology
From romance not able to do exist
Can't see eye to eye broken heart
Friendship over torn apart
From a dream coming true
Now a paralyzing nightmare
Now it doesn't mean anything

He felt misplaced working to fit in and belong to be kept out. Tired of being ignored denied he stood tall walking alone. He was called a rebel focused on his work his life time projects. He wanted to help but couldn't get involve but did listen to understand. Learned listen but most observant. A mouth full of tangents tell one story while deceitful actions with alternative motive.
He crossed paths hoping not to bump heads due to conflict of interest. His opinion always became a problem questioning failing authority figures

These have been confessions all these heavy burdens off my heart
From fighting to tired no longer wired
Gave up trying to please everyone eventually they hate me and bad mouth me
Got to know them or so I thought now they are pretending to be someone else
I've always been me they make me out to be the bad guy in their story
Never said anything behind their back to their face
They don't like my honesty I'm the first they will replace for a yes man
Showed you love over all the disrespect neglect blame me for your faults
Had to cut ties say good bye no need for the lies protecting a heart that cries
I forgive you while you hold a grudge judge everyone pointing a finger like a loaded gun.

it's okay to get away easier to be alone
you don't think or feel like others
you have your own ideas and thoughts
not one to use or go through others
breaking away from toxic people
be the solution, not the problem

Forgive Them and go on
All they do is talk loud
Creating problems for others
More excuses than solutions
Broken promises shatter trust
One lie is too many to tolerate
Better to turn away from evil
Trying to help begins to drain
Abused kindness is never enough
A favor never asked violated personal space
Another guilt trips spread hard
Always working for this dream
Every cent earned through hard work
Some given it all except work etiquette
Told to be a man provide for family
Pull your own weight rise above hate

Trying to be normal so many things complicated
Wanting a family coming from a broken home
Working hard to stand out stuck in the background
Showing up with good vibes positive energy
Helping the team trying to keep them motivated
Be in a healthy relationship get to know the person
Not lust and be manipulated
By someone who's insecure causing doubt
Who doesn't care about the real you
Staying positive feeling depressed
Working hard to get in shape
Done it before dieting to get it back
Know what it takes even with health conditions

Written on by family proving them wrong is easy but they'll never give you props. Those made up standards no one is living up to over all the talking.
Be this way do that most are not happy just going through the motions.
Breaking bad habits changing to avoid falling into the vicious cycle. The fear of being like people that loathe you.

They believed in him he didn't always believe in himself. He looked in the mirror an older man with white hair. Asking what's his purpose trying to find meaning in his life. Things came and went with the season. Something's he fought for things he thought was worth it. while he let go of the damaged beyond repair trying to understand learn from the crazy by being better

Called selfish or stubborn for not asking for help but they expect results without them your feelings or opinion means nothing. When you did it no one gave a **** other people get praised and worshipped. They don't believe in you that's infuriating. Everything they told you not to do everyone is doing. When you did it they talked bad about you for trying to be an individual. Never been a follower a leader a trail blazer finding away because not able to rely or depend on anyone unless multiple favors are done

Exhausted mentally from overthinking
Burnt out from a job not appreciated
On a steady decline losing value
Spoke up made out to be crazy
Excluded from the conversation
Expected to do everything by haters
Trying not to stress the liars in charge
Focused on the work get it done
Go home have a life outside of that
Searching another outlet to decompress

They made him feel bad for working out. All they did was criticize him but they did nothing. He once valued them but had to put his guard up. He did all the giving all they did was expect. Only when they needed something he became a thought.
After being ignored and treated different he stayed in his lane they smothered him with their nonsense controlling ways. He gained more confidence called the BS in the end they'd ignore him or make him out to have a problem.
Never once did they think their attitude or behavior was a factor. He was admit his wrongs he hated how he had to walk egg shells to be considered. He did favors now they are talking and bad mouthing.

Been down been out tired of going with
All the sacrifice was a huge waste of time
Gave up in what was mine I'll never get it back
Just want to be me not act like you
My beliefs maybe different they wont treat me the same
I hide who I am so I can be accepted even though part of me is rejected
Trying to figure out a way that works I fel and hit rock bottom don't want to be here anymore
Thought about pursuing the girl but fear her thinking less of me
Went after the job and it did not happen

He asked why can't we be friends? She said if you get with someone I might get jealous. Who knew there was someone else on her end. After things crumbled she did everything she said she'd never do. She claimed she didn't want kids or to get married. she did all that with someone else.
She wanted a relationship but not with him. After being lead on he learned the lesson and moved on.
He became a workaholic so he could better himself. Relationships were complicated. He was told put yourself out there so much rejection and he could see through the act trying to get to know a person. He stayed true to himself when trying to get to know a person.