We use to be close you did drugs I turned a blind eye
I made mistakes but don't judge me like I've done worse
We use to be friends now we are strangers
Over a girl who doesn't love anyone but herself
We spent time together got close
Now we act like we dk one another
I saw you like family but now we are strangers
I showed you love and you slandered my name
Talked behind my back while I respected you enough to say it to your face
Stronger than before looking back never more

Pondering ideas letting them go
Asking why can't that be me?
Does it matter does anyone care?
The to do list grew and full
Started seeing it and making it a reality
Make it fun heart all in or nothing
Trying to make something outta nothing
Sharing fun stories to make people laugh
Storytelling getting lost in the moment
Reliving the story from the past
Triggering old emotions and feelings

He wanted to have a beer after a long day of beer. One is too many and a lot is not enough. Trying to relax indulge in pizza without feeling guilty. With age taking health cautions. Wanting to date but afraid to make the same mistakes. Love too much or not enough feeling like it's a lost cause rather than health and something serious.
Hang out with someone that is accepting not insecure and jealous. Supportive of one another not opposing becoming rivals. It hurt so bad still recovering. Trying to make moves get out there even if rejected. Be yourself even if they aren't being genuine with you.
New obstacles from a lead that did nothing to a lead that is trying to pass the heat instead of owning up. Staying sober through the frustration and betrayal. Hard to trust since two conflicted employees have you stuck in the middle. Focused on your work and area giving your all doing your best.

He put in work back and forth with the gloves going through the motions. His memory was sharp. He felt free from all those things that burdened him. The people who didn't believe, or think highly of him.
Clearing his mind doing it for himself. Even if he failed, he had to prove it his worth. Prove them wrong shut them up. He knew his abilities was tired of the extra pressure tired of being set up to fail. He gave his all even if it's not enough. They'll call him sensitive because he cared. They'll make him out to be entitled because he had a different perspective.
He questioned things and everyone was mad because he didn't follow or mind his mouth since he didn't agree. He wouldn't turn a blind eye the truth was told now everyone is mad holding a grudge. He didn't want trouble but they came at him when all he wanted was to be fair. He felts wiped out and pushed it did hurt but he learned to be okay with it.

He was friends with the errie darkness
His heart was feeling the soothing cold
Taking in the deep silence feeling relaxed
Away from the world that rejected him
Walking through the life alone
Told never go against the family the family that betrayed his trust
The black sheep that go disrespected
Writing about those who wronged him
Being honest with liars and cheaters
Saw good in others They proved him wrong
Getting older seeing things differently
Looking out for others
The cheater tries to talk to you about  being loyal
They'll gaslight you easier to walk away

Two brothers, who don't get along
Never see eye to eye different lives
The good brother working his way through
The bad brother forces his ways
Trying to take over muscling others
One talked about everyone making drama
The other minded his mouth walked away
Crossing paths treating one another like strangers
Brothers should look out for each other not oppose go against one another

Not happy here
Tired of the lies
Being taken for granted
Time for a change
While most settled
Make time to date find love
Hang with friends what's left
Pursue the dream on hold
Set new goals and challenges
Out of the comfort zone
Unpause start those unfinished
Desires that linger

Frustrated explained the problem. The situation everyone with a blank stare. Feeling like the person is useless and doesn't care. Unable to explain so they'll understand.
Once though highly of them now they are nothing, but a waste of your time. They aren't going to help just being nosey in your business.
Feeling trapped not able to breathe. Stuck trying to find an escape. Need to break away these ******* trying to dictate your  future. They know what you wanted and denied it. Now the need to prove them wrong flip them off. Prove them up for being condescending *******.

Mood ring

You struggle being YOU
Trying to have a good day
Set the vibe feel alive
Put out positive energy
Only to be drained by bad
Usually a people person  
Being boxed/labeled judged harshly
Not the one in evil eyes
Made out to be a threat
So many twisted lies seen as truth
False promise being spoken
But prefer to be alone running solo
Listening to music feeling complete
Dealing with others bad habit
Toxic attitudes that place blame
Walk away leave the heartaches and pains
Clock in and out then back to living
Doing what's right avoiding the wrong
Always giving from the heart
Digging deep down from the soul
Trying to be a whole most of all selfless
While the negativity is black hole

Some days waking up is hard because doing things that are not fun. It was but now it seems like a chore. Gave my all and still they aren't doing anything with me. Thought be the best at it and they'd notice apparently they don't care because they are busy covering their end and not worried about anyone else.
It's been a long day and my shift hasn't started and I want it to be over already. Filling in for someone who doesn't care to be there. I've been raising the bar with my work and the bar is so low barely doing anything is an accomplishment.
Always wanted to be one of the crew of course they like me I do all the stuff they don't want to do since I see it as it needs to be done anyway.
Trying to stay positive focused on work but think I can be doing much more with writing and podcasting trying to find away but always wandering alone no one understands my dream but me.
I've been loyal and honest told the truth seen as crazy or weird for having an idea and knowing what I want not a follower.

On the road going home
So many bad drivers on the road
Staying ahead of the crazy
All the BS doesn't phase anymore
Thick skin numb to the core
Always giving and judged
While the people talking
Make it worse cursed his name
Spreading rumors making up lies
No where to go missing home
Hard to be around family
Need to be doing something
Help out make the situation better
The demotion is an insult
Phony friends not pretending all is well
A new route time for a change

We don't talk or know each other
Everyone thinks assumes the worse
No one gets along not able to coexist
Everyone has problems
Don't dismiss one anothers thoughts
Respect feelings try to understand
Years of denying to be accepted
Bend over backwards standing solid
Working harder than before
Gave up on complicated things
Got over being lied to
Forgiving others for the betrayal
Even though never forgiven
Everyone talks bad feeding into it
Focused on the good staying positive

We had a romance now it's over
Worked the hardest got burned
Treated wrong did nothing but right
Tried harder than most went all out
Did everything possible to make it better
Looked at with hate feeling regret
Angered because the loss of self respect
Told the truth got nothing but lies
Moving forward no turning back
All the betrayal left with broken trust
Silence with an emotionless start
Feelings are numb no longer phased
The good times fade away all the pain
Lingering bad intentions trying to escape
Damage is done no longer fun lost virtue
Can't make it right love yourself again
Time to find another way start over new

He was down for his working to survive
Back up his crew when needed
Friends come and go like the seasons
No longer attached. Just let go of the past
Use to be a shoulder to crying on
Fighting for the weak, spoke for the voiceless
The weak got strong and turned their back
Called them a friend, and now they are a foe
Acting like they dk you hate you over a girl
Faded out, wasn't myself anymore
Went home, hoping to find peace
Lost direction, filled with regret left with doubt
No longer happy with the situation
Unable to move focused on distractions Needed closure more questions than answers
You want to know "why"  there's no reason
Trying to make sense of puzzle pieces
That won't link all these clues still not resolved

Tired from pushing through
Not one to quit or surrender
No pressure no diamond
Trying to survive burnt out
Working harder to feel alive
Back up from being down
Set the tone grinding through
Breaking the rules making your own
Loyal to the wrong people
A moral code still doing whats right
Against the odds still surpassing
Thriving through to the end
Not one to complain just do the work
Make the most of the situation
Don't pretending like it's fine
Being denied set aside by doubters
Taking credit for what is mine
Did the work over being criticized

Once you lie trust is broken
Not bothering with fake keep it real
Lost in your ways, why must I pay
Always open to change everyday
while you choose to stay the same
Memories fade away becoming a blur
Moving on not looking back
Brighter days sun shines
Over this phase clear from the daze

He entered the bus a 12 hour ride to a new life and location. Every mile close to a new life while the old is forgotten. Leaving the past for the future old friends made their decisions while he pursued his.  Everyone has their story he was pursuing a new life.
Sometimes things come natural while other times it's a struggle an argument to be heard
To be understood wondering why or what was next? After a while it hit a wall and hard. He thought about his new and the old lots of change. Being able to adjust and adapt to the situation. He was glad for change while somethings never changed remained the same.

He went for it and come up short every time this time it might actually happen come true. Thought he was out because they found someone better on the side lines staying loyal and true. Felt like one part of the crew something real something true. Wasn't the best but always there on deck showing nothing but love and respect ready to work and get it done.
Didn't like to say anything that's why writing is important became his voice. No one seemed to care or listening his only choice to express his thoughts and feelings. Changing his mind wasn't a debate but he was always open to learn and grow. He didn't always make it right away when his time came he felt better about not being rushed took time to improve and grow reflect and change things that needed to be worked on

Monty grew up with that mobster never go against the family. As he got older family would go against him. Cousins that would give him attitude because they ******* up their life.
Monty was single and some of his cousins stayed in bad relationships because they had history or used the kids as an excuse. He didn't have much, but helped out his grandma paying rent.
When Monty struggled to get a a job everyone was mean, and disrespected him. He would find out the truth everyone that gave him crap, never contributed a cent. He took pride in paying rent to help his grandma.
As he got older he was more responsible and reliable while the next generation would try to talk down on him.
He wasn't a dead beat father with three babies mommas. He worked for his, while everyone talked like he owed them or like they did him favors. He worked hard and busted his *** earned everything he owns.
Monty was never materialistic a cousin who owns a house doesn't have the right to talk down or bad on anyone. He respected they own a house but it's about how you treat people. His grandpa cosigned when he passed everything was a nightmare.
Everyone thought they could fill his shoes but no one has the right. His grandfather united everyone would resolve conflict where these power hungry ******* divided everyone.

Use to be scared not afraid anymore
Valued your negative opinion
Tried to put me in my place
Than allow me to grow
Questioned you intentions now your mad
Years of criticism being knocked down
Crazy enough to get back up for more
Staying away gave this mind peace
The mental struggle became a strength
Toxic voices have gone mute
Faded away in the spacey distance
Taking in the silence feeling calm collected
Never understood the logic in this beef
A once sided argument wasting time
Feeling disrespected devalued by an elder
What happened to being an example
A role model for those trying to make it
Move up in the world not knock'em down
Times are different changed over the years
Once came to you for advice
An opinion isn't always needed
Sometimes an ear helps you figure it out
The thought process might click
Make sense to the person opening up
Don't tell others how to live their life
Who to be let them be cozy in their skin

Why don't you talk to (insert name)
Lost friends over girl
Someone made up lies that got believed
Jealous because one's on the rise
The other made no effort and stuck
All the talk behind your back
Would respect a face to face more
A friend speaks up tells the truth
Even if your voice shakes
The fear of losing a friend hurts
The loss of a friend should never happen
An apology that's not forgiven
A grudge that's held as a divider
This awkward silence not helping
A cold stare: why worry? why care?
Told the truth out of respect
It was out of love even if it went wrong
Miss your friendship not toxic behavior
Enjoyed your company learned it was all fake
Seen as family once a mistake is made
Do you treat family with hate
Not going to argue or debate
Minds made up written off
The hearts gone dark no more love
No point in trying to change it

You can't keep living off past experiences
Time to create new stories to tell
New experiences fresh encounters
Go on new adventures live life
Journey into new realms new people
Take on personalities that stimulate the mind
Let go of old friends that lost contact
Be in the scene get lost in the crowd
Stand out not losing yourself
Challenge yourself to do better
Be more stop settling for less
The growth results so much progress

Sometimes you have to cut ppl not because they are bad but because they try to knock everything you stand for. The toxic behavior and attitude bringing bad vibes when you work for good vibes. Lots of growth no room for set backs, or helping others that don't want to change. Expect you to give up, who you are when they aren't happy. Tell you that you are no good to feed their ego. Call you crazy for not giving into their demands. Delusional because you don't care for their way. Trying to say we are alike playing mind games. Trying to take control when you don't give in they try to influence, how others see you.
They try to tell you how to live, but not living the life they are try to instruct. Talk about everyone being two faced. Not bothering with all that ******* easier to walk away not feed or empower the foolish ego.
Thinking they can tell people, but don't like when people speak up; have an opinion of their own. Ignorance makes a scene while selfless stays calm and collected.

Everyday is a new day can't complain sooner or later I'll get it right
Been working for mine telling myself everything will be fine
Some days are out of wack but see it as a comeback
Other times it's about maintaining keep going strong
Others point out your flaws when you gave your all but did nothing wrong
Been doing what I love for years so I've been happy
Annoyed others can be rude treat one another so ******
Full of trust most mistake love for lust a failed crush gone sour
From feeling great over dealing with all the hate
From dark to light overcome the fear of night
Hard to express but never settle for less
Focused on the future not looking back at the past
Fought for them to stay but the fled
Now you let go why are they coming back
After betrayal not sure how to act but things will never be the same
Lots of growth overcome the pain writing keeps me sane

He looked in the mirror asking "*** happened?" Lots of curve ***** and detours. He had one victory after many losses. He got too old for things the things that gave him joy lost meaning.
Putting others first made him feel worthless trying to be selfless. Doing what's right focused on bettering his life and situation. The crazy world he lived in killed him off. What's existing didn't make sense or matter anymore.

He was annoyed he didn't need to be fixed. Minding his mouth most of all his business trying to be good made out to be bad.
While the wicked would lie and heat to get ahead. Knocking others claiming credit being a lazy soul ******* *******.
Never been materialistic valued people
They doubted him all the time
Told him there was someone better
When he was hired on it was insulting
Now hes the only while the originals
Looked out for their own some bailed
Others had health issues get well
He was left doing it alone dependable
Standing tall no help being reliable
Not sure how to feel or react
Giving his all and extra better change
Making it better the right thing to do
So many mad set in their way
Still mad when change is going on
Never had it all or together earning it
Made the most of things thankful
Some have it all given and handed
Miserable when one thing goes wrong
Its never enough complicated
Doesn't make sense always grateful

Breaking free from this fake person's crap
Gave then too much power going numb
Showing no emotions blocked it out
No longer empowering what hurts
Finding strength else where able to feel
Going where it's worthy as a whole
The emotional time blocking it out
Valued by peers that have more going on
Changing how things get done
Never the same rid of this draining pain
Made it fun once again with a smile
Made it to the end mild achievement

Open to change willing to grow
Do the work not the drama
Stop comparing or blaming
Ask what you want and apply
Writing it out with feelings
Cope with those emotions
Let it free from within
Free from the past life lessons
Live in the present
Analyze and revise the plan

Been down been out tired of going with
All the sacrifice was a huge waste of time
Gave up in what was mine I'll never get it back
Just want to be me not act like you
My beliefs maybe different they wont treat me the same
I hide who I am so I can be accepted even though part of me is rejected
Trying to figure out a way that works I fel and hit rock bottom don't want to be here anymore
Thought about pursuing the girl but fear her thinking less of me
Went after the job and it did not happen

Already stressed from over thinking
My worse critic harder on myself
Do not like being put in the hot seat
Got to get it done in a timely manner
Stop being the x factor with burdens
Mocking workers adding to things
Was a pleasure working with you
Letting go going strong just started
Sad to see you go but enjoy life
Live make the most of retirement
Still got years to go barely started
Trying to stand alone and have grown
Not staying at the bottom forever
Moving up in ranks no one wants it
Not a leader but being an example
Helping the team doing my part
Being an example doing extra

The days are long never ending
Never enough bad leadership
Planning another move
To escape the evil ways
All the pain bad memories remain
Onto to better not settling for less
Healing up after surgery feeling drained
False promise the betrayal

From having a team to doing it alone
The loyalty gone talked "being there"
Doing the work to make it better
Missing doesn't help anyone
Trying to make it better for everyone
All this team work talk working solo
Being proactive room to grow improve
Turning weaknesses into strengths
Can't rely on anyone lead by example
Focused on the work 8 hours in 5
One man doing 2 jobs in 1
Finish in a timely manner
Everyone expects so much
Don't want to fail being there helps
Counted out by the boss is insulting
Don't want to let anyone down
Hurt production hard to function
Body aches and sore maximum effort
Once a team player got burned hard
Looked out for others feeling betrayed
Now a rebel going solo getting it done
Use to being alone no longer afraid