The date ended it go weird
From friend to strangers
Love blurred with lust
Forgiveness over broken trust
Made the most of the moment
Now it's over not meant to be
Desired more hard to see
True love hard to fine
Blinded by starved emotions
Feelings of confusion from the heart

He kept quiet because anything he said would be twisted and used against him. He had respect while they dissed him behind his back. He told them straight up and they said nothing speechless because they didn't expect him to take a stance.
He wasn't afraid to be alone and eventually his opposers would turn on one another because the truth comes out in the fortress of lies.
Everyone with their own hidden agendas he was genuine and didn't bother with anyone's drama the insanity they caused trying to make everyone miserable like them.

Not going to overreact after being burned
Have nothing to say the truth is out
No longer listening to lies called to the conference room by the lead who claimed to be a friend. I feeling like a man who got set up to be wacked instead of being made.
Betrayal tastes like baja blast mountain dew. Overwhelmed with same false promise stuck facing the person who took the spot that was said to be mine.

Known for all the wrong reasons not that person or living that lifestyle the party life came to an end. Wanted something meaningful he was over casual ***. He wanted the real thing over making excuses trying to justify everything that was clearly a lie.
He was being truthful while everything around deceived him. His friendships ended the only one making an effort.
Women messing around on him because their was no commitment. He usually blamed himself. He stopped welcoming people because he didn't impose his beliefs on others like they did to him

Not happy here
Tired of the lies
Being taken for granted
Time for a change
While most settled
Make time to date find love
Hang with friends what's left
Pursue the dream on hold
Set new goals and challenges
Out of the comfort zone
Unpause start those unfinished
Desires that linger

No one bother with him so he decided to do whatever made him happy. They made him out to be the bad when did nothing wrong. He showed them love and respect while they made him feel like he didn't belong or matter. He didn't take it to heart because in the end he was alone with or without he would live his life to the fullest. Without others trying to influence him or talk to him like he was an idiot. He didn't always know but open to learn so he didn't have to rely or depend on anyone.

She told him why didn't you ever ask me out? He was puzzled and never knew that was an option. He didn't consider it since the guys she dated was nothing like him.
He didn't cross that boundary line. He didn't date close friends or within his circle of peers. He didn't date friends family members or exes of people he hung out with.
This would anger them and they would distance themselves. Mad holding a grudge if the friendship failed how could it be a relationship. He had a hard time opening up since his feelings would be used against him. Staying single because his emotions would get the best of him. Dating was fun at the beginning it was easier to get physical than get to know a person.

He observed tried to understand but didn't get why others acted, or did the things they do. Some people can look you in the eyes and lie to you. Others have bright ideas trying to dump their work on you. Take all the credit dumping on the workers; who made them look good.
He dealt with self centered entitled ******; no matter, what happen it always became about them. If you didn't make it about them they don't care or give a **** about you. He protected them and loved them but didn't agree with their behavior and attitude.
He stood his ground after years of having their back. They didn't like him for having an opinion or speaking his mind. They'd throw him under to hide the fact they are doing worse.
He took a step back and walked away. He didn't care to be judged but that's their way of trying to be controlling.

Trying to find true love
Anxious for it been deceived before
Fell in love with her soul addicted
Her smile could make his day better
Not able to get enough once it ended
Couldn't get that fix
Expecting the person fix a tampered heart that's broken
Moving on was hard not using the new to get over the one
Once rushed trying to heal getting over one by getting under another
Took time alone got away reading and writing to get new perspective
Fell out of that world ventured in another

Some still have it going strong
Others are fighting for it on the level
Getting older not the same
The mind adjusting to new ideals
Body going through change
Elders passing away with time
Loved ones no longer talking
Praying everyone would get along
All the pride doesn't make ot right
Saying sorry doing the same stuff
Instead of changed behavior
Holding a grudge isn't an apology
Not talking to keep the peace
Both to stubborn to compromise
One telling lies to justify things
The other not saying nothing getting heat
Everything could be made right with talking
Both offended making it personal and deep

Rebuild yourself since you has major surgery
From a big boy to slim embrace the new
Not able to bend dropping anything is embarrassing
Can't lift more than 10 pounds
The fear of getting sick avoiding people
Ready to be back in the crowd
Recover first bounce back from setbacks
Letting the wound heal

Been writing over all the fighting
You don't understand me stop trying to change me
Been loyal and true while you are evil and cruel
Woke up to be great you always late don't need the nonsense or the hate
Over all the fakeness fake to my face
Think you are real I see through the front

Observing everyday I don't agree but once I see bad and shady I want no part of that. One lie is too many because you don't know what to believe anymore. That's disrespectful and credibility is lost holding that person accountable the betrayal ***** when it's from a lead. The job title doesn't mean anything when you are not for the people who work.

Loving you and kept out
Your hatred pushing everyone away
Talking about everyone like it's right
Causing division among friends
Putting out positive vibes
Trying motivate others to enjoy life
Stop being stuck on an ex
They moved on do the same
Quit blaming yourself they chose to cheat
Forced it failed because it didn't work out
Loved too much only one sided
The passionate kiss lost its charge
Hand holding gave life now soul *******
Being selfless for others feeling ignored
Helping others

He felt lost without his grandpa the family was being taken over by bad leadership. Coping was hard so many imposed their way of life on others. Talking like if they are righteous and know what's best for others. All they was pry in others business when no one asked.
Sad what they've become than have the nerve to judge others. Putting them in the hot seat like they do to everyone else who tried to live an average joe life.
You'd think it would humble them but the greed for control makes them think they are superior.

Watching it happen and go down. Need to get it done adding more to the to-do list than crossing stuff off the list. So much progress no long settling for less. Never visualized till now instead of listening to people saying otherwise. Asking this heart what's next when it happen all go according to plan.

Picking fights in my mind
Fake scenarios playing out
What if this happened
I could say that what is the reaction
Should say this what's the point
This plays out different from what's happened
When it happens it doesn't play out
******* over a for a promotion
Set backs feel like a demotion

He was told be a man get your **** done
Sharp when it came to hustling but dealing with his emotions
Sometimes he wanted to cry but had to work for his money
People were ******* him and expected too much he hated letting people down.
He knew what it was like when people lied to his face gave him a hard time.
He wanted to be better than those who wronged him and did him *****.
Never talked about people behind their back usually to to face
He didn't like people speaking on his behalf. He didn't need representation by someone who didn't help the situation.

Some days I dk what to write other days the words flow right through me.
Sometimes I feel like I write the same thing from another angel
other times the word play can be changed up
I always think about what I want to say and how I'd like to say it it can make a huge difference
Things I'd like to say but no one is listening
Thoughts so deep and dark don't want to offend or be misunderstood
Always holding back because the truth is like a blade cutting deep drawing first blood
Told myself to write every day and night
I feel off when I don't make time to write
Post or pen to the pad clears mind instead of holding it all in

Asked to drink can do it
It's like giving up lost in a bottle
Part of yourself drowning in liquor
Being strong not weak
No one understands quick to dismiss
Standing alone avoiding temptation
Toxics people trying too hard
Trying to bring you down with them
The smell brought bad memories
Old feelings and doubts bad toughts
Don't want to be that way ever again

Everything came to a halt now he's helping family. Not use to being home always working doing something. Writing helped maintain insanity put things in to perspective dhe to a series of unfortunate events.
Never about money and treated people. Always doing favors never expecting anything in return the moment you aren't able to, they treat you different. Act like you've never been there the whole time. Its the worse feeling after helping them and never took a cent.
Made time to be there to help them now they put you on the outside looking in. Waited on deck to claim the wrong make it right. Moved on now they try to tell you when they wanted nothing to do with you.
Thinking they care but only when its at their own selfish benefit. Then send you packing.

The struggle within was real encountering others make things more complicated sorry there is conflict at home. Not taking or dealing with your frustration.
All the blessings making you an ungrateful ******* who is quick to throw shade at others. Everyone has problems but focused on my own

Time to move on over the painp
Growing strong from the hurt
It's 2024 you're remembering from 2008
Forgive moved on stop carrying the hate
Near death never lost faith
One day be great never settle for less
Not letting the past dictate my fate
Living with the guilt and tripping
Dropping the burden to be free
Use to be friends now strangers
Sorry things had to end can't pretend
Made effort to change to be better
You'll never know fade away
Our friendship is the past fading away

Said sorry and still not forgiven
Don't want to regret walking away
So much betrayal, no need to stay
Another hangout with awkward silence
Too much pride you keep blaming me
Spoke my mind said the truth
I'm not telling lies or buying the hype
or saying what you want to hear

Told you I loved you from the heart
All you did was run away
Told I wasn't the one rejected
Replaced with someone else
Love wasn't enough to stay together
Feelings didn't matter a crumbling end
Two lover to complete strangers
A passionate kiss gone numb
Emotionless no longer a connection
No more feelings shared wedged apart
Deep hurt within no reasons given
Hard to make sense of the situation
Obsessed walking in denial seeking truth

From the bottom to the top not use to this push. Use to fight to be heard struggle to have a say. All these barriers are gone faded away. Thought one way told to be another. Staying grounded and leveled while others were keeping you down unless you became part of their scam otherwise they wanted nothing to do with you.
Provoked and pushed to hard once you struck back the tone changed. Getting older been doing this getting better trying to overcome being the whipping boy doing others work for years don't need a voice telling you what to do. Especially when you're the one doing all the labor taking on the duties of the unwilling to cooperate.

Loud thoughts a quiet mouth
A racing mind full of emotions
Trying to find the words
Say it right Be professional
Opened up not use to be heard
Not use to being understood
Excluded appreciation for solitude
Focused on writing to calm the nerves
Organized the clutter that's pent up
Should've said this or done that
Lots of conversations looping
Had a moment to speak a load off
Dk if anyone heard but told the truth

He laid in bed wondering if he'd find the one. After one day relationship he decided to do what he loves. He was happy not looking for approval. He just did when all he received was criticism. Feeling like he couldn't do anything right. Someone was always mad or offended. He always took shots from his loved ones the truth came. It feel like another enemy got close to hurt him so much betrayal. Instead of owning up they'd blame him for play the victim because others neglected them or ******* over stuck receiving the backlash.

We had a romance now it's over
Worked the hardest got burned
Treated wrong did nothing but right
Tried harder than most went all out
Did everything possible to make it better
Looked at with hate feeling regret
Angered because the loss of self respect
Told the truth got nothing but lies
Moving forward no turning back
All the betrayal left with broken trust
Silence with an emotionless start
Feelings are numb no longer phased
The good times fade away all the pain
Lingering bad intentions trying to escape
Damage is done no longer fun lost virtue
Can't make it right love yourself again
Time to find another way start over new

He felt bad for not being there but didn't like all the slander spread about his name. From the old to new he didn't like change but he was changing. Thankful and glad to to be growing. He couldn't stay the same. While others hold onto his past thinking it will be a tool to be used against him.
Not his crowd anymore not part of that life. He'd fight for them and they'd fight against him in a heart beat waiting for the moment. They'd use the numbers against him rather talk to him individually.

A cheater who acted innocent
Love was never enough
Playing with others emotions
Lust mistaken for love
Thoughts a long term relationship
Leading to marriage much more
A one night stand with lustful confusion
Always truthful given lies
Going crazy can't make sense of it all
Wanting a second chance to start over
There's no going back or do overs
A one sided love with no pair