Stepping out of the comfort zone
Seemed scary been doing it
Haven't gone anywhere with it
Been learning behind the scenes
Not sure when to use ot apply it
Everyone wants results
But don't want to do the work
Expect more from you than themselves
After a while its just a way to escape
Feel free not be consumed
By others imposition still not accepted

No one bother with him so he decided to do whatever made him happy. They made him out to be the bad when did nothing wrong. He showed them love and respect while they made him feel like he didn't belong or matter. He didn't take it to heart because in the end he was alone with or without he would live his life to the fullest. Without others trying to influence him or talk to him like he was an idiot. He didn't always know but open to learn so he didn't have to rely or depend on anyone.

Made out to be the crazy one
Spoke up games being played
Don't care for the drama
Not in it for the glory
Doing what's right
You can be lazy
Your problem not mine
Doesn't phase me
Made out to be crazy
Don't pick a fight
Not being heard
Able to speak up
I have your attention
Now your mad told the truth
Time to walk away
Pointless conversations
Wasting our time
Bounce back from this
Head up high you'll be just fine

Sleep deprived, waking up early to go fishing.
Wearing layers because it was a cold wet morning.
Using the fishing rods that were gifted by a coworker
Out by the lake taking in the scenery
The sun would shine nice and bright
Making the day feel right almost perfect
Hoping the fish would bite the hook
Not sure what bait best for the catch
Well prepared with variety
Casting in the line loaded with bait
Reel in to reduce the slack
Wait for the fish to bite tug on the line
Reel in the fish as they resist
Trying to escape the line breaks
The fish bite steal the bait swim away
Reeling in the fish the rod begins to bend
The fish wiggles being brought in closer
Lifted out of the water by the line grabbing the net to secure instead of dropping the catch back in the water

Been writing over all the fighting
You don't understand me stop trying to change me
Been loyal and true while you are evil and cruel
Woke up to be great you always late don't need the nonsense or the hate
Over all the fakeness fake to my face
Think you are real I see through the front

All the rage within is tiring
Spoke up told the truth honestly
Seen as crazy overreacting
Made eye contact the look of anger
Avoid eye contact made out to be afraid
Insulted by the lies seeking the truth
Odds against your determination
Trying to even it out push out corruption
Life lessons are hard to learn against evil
Discrimination regardless of medical status

He was trusting to the wrong person it all came out. She was triggered ready to make the **** shot. He surrendered just wanted peace it was never ending no pretending. He didn't care to prove himself even when provoked. Walking away from all the sadness not letting them knock you rebuilding yourself up. From a crowded path to being a trail blazer scared to drift but journeying onto new leaving the old.

Did the work came up short
Need to come up with a new game plan
Too much on the mind
Pent up frustration so much confusion
Fear of the unknown trying to grow
Change isn't always for the better
Coming up short working harder
Working smarter lots of talk
Should be listening to one voice
Lost in faith not running from hate
Another debate make sense of it all
Show too much emotions worked up
Going numb not able to express feelings
Burning up from within

He wanted to be someone else since everyone else had a problem with him. All he wanted was to be himself be left alone helping others feeling excluded because he didn't want what everyone had or wanted. Making him feel like he was a threat to anyone he came in contact with.
Asking "what's wrong with me" "why is he like this" but he didn't say, or do anything wrong. They came at him sour and twisted. He didn't need or have much but thankful for what he had. While they had everything still complaining, making others feel bad by pointing out their flaws. It didn't make sense he couldn't wrap his mind around things.

In my mind I find peace make sense of everything
I hate to fail but come up short
Try to stay on time and consistent with all the resistance
I'm getting older everyone feels more distant
All I do is listen to people who set me up to fail
All I want to do is make it and prevail
One to fight and Bite now all I do is tuck my tail
Not arguing with useless people who take me for granted
So numb I feel life less feel my soul leave my body
Mistake for dead emotionless in my head
Stare off into the distance block it out
The sounds around me becomes white noise
Feeling trapped can't escape over all the hate
Faced my fears no one knows wipe the tears
Smile like the hurt isn't there
Hide it all be strong for others
In the end it catches up you want to leave it behind
comes back not ready for the attack
Hard to breathe what's next
can't keep living of the same good deeds

Two brothers, who don't get along
Never see eye to eye different lives
The good brother working his way through
The bad brother forces his ways
Trying to take over muscling others
One talked about everyone making drama
The other minded his mouth walked away
Crossing paths treating one another like strangers
Brothers should look out for each other not oppose go against one another

You want to matter but your forcing your way in. You got hurt so you don't let anyone in. Once your in if you don't like what you see you bail. Trying to fall in love with a drug addict who loves drugs more than you.
You don't love this person all you want is to change them. Thinking your love is stronger than the drugs she won't give up on. Thinking your middle name matters even though you claim to hate it. Thinking she knows you but you don't enjoy people's company thinking they are going to take in everything you say.
Sad how you are nice when you need something other than that you won't bother with anyone. All the smack you talked making it personal because you didn't get your way or thinking you could use their weakness against them to get them to do your evil biddings.
Idk what you think or how you feel but you can't treat people the way you do. You insult them thinking you deserve respect. Don't use people act like they owe you. Not able to debate an argument so you make things personal talk about things that have nothing to do with the situation.

Feeling regret made a stand
Taking the insults had enough
Hoping to transfer soon start over
Looked out now filled in willingly
Now feeling left out being rebellious
Called them out proved a point
Wasn't the one got hired
Told there was better candidates
Got insulted gained thick skin
Told the job was a stepping stone
Working harder than everyone
Trying to make it through probation

Learning to eat serving sizes not indulge because of stress. Divide up the meal not consume it all in one serving. Lightened load less stress focused on the change up. From the bottom to the top working on being better.
Looking back but never going back
Better in the moment forget the past
All the change was rewarding
Finally made it while others gave it up
Breaking rules knocking down walls
Rising up against the odds going strong
Striving towards greatness over the tardiness
Friends turn rivals not making it personal
Stayed loyal withing true to self
Taking on another fake persona than before

Said sorry and still not forgiven
Don't want to regret walking away
So much betrayal, no need to stay
Another hangout with awkward silence
Too much pride you keep blaming me
Spoke my mind said the truth
I'm not telling lies or buying the hype
or saying what you want to hear

Writing everyday like its a matter of life and death. Sometimes it comes easy feels natural. Other times seek deep inside asking why? Trying to relate usually misunderstood another side nothing to hide. Taking things apart reconstructing them trying to make sense of it each piece plays a role. Rewired trying to make it work when others are quick to replace. Wide awake not able to sleep nerves are calm before needed a drink to unwind easier to open up closed up and closed off holding onto too much.

They are bad to you remaining loyal
Told to be a man work hard
Not good with sharing feeling
Going numb than show emotions
Don't let them see your hurt
All the pain toxic masculinity
Hard to open up so much broken trust
Told the truth caught them in a lie
Feeling insulted disrespected
Nothing to hide always pushed out
Showing love respect matching energy
Focused on what needs to be done
Not empowering rude shady people
Be yourself see though the act
Not buying into the phony hype

Poetry is not dead
The beauty within
Defines the world you live in
Some days are hard
Some days are blessed
Open to grow more than the rest

No one takes pride in your work they are quick to snitch you out throw you under. Not falling for the bait or putting up with the hate. Team work to get it done usually one sided the truth is everyone bitter divided going to write about it.
Hard to remember so much that needs to be done have some fun and write it all down a check list racing time feeling calm after making it half way through.

The music flowing through the mind
Things that need to be said talked about
Feeling the energy and vibe the technique
Drilling hard treat it like the real thing
Wanting to move up committed
Keep working building up from practice
Pain cause by family calling you sensitive
Insulting your intelligence not being accountable
Trying to break your spirit not giving a chance to do so
Don't expect them to fix just destroy
Acting like the criticism did you a favor
Providing a strong argument with reason
Talking loud not listening being one sided
Shouting false narrative mostly lies
Doesn't make your opinion right

No one wanted it now everyone is ******* he went for it.
No one took a chance or opportunity he went for it all everyone did was talk
He was a doer not into talking anymore
Always supportive and respectful of others
They were quick to slander him and expected him to fail
He'd separate himself being sober was the best thing but it led him towards being isolated
His mental health became a priority not listening to people
He was doing it the nerve of them to criticize
All the people talking didn't do anything staying within their limitations
Working harder doing more than most what did they know.
He did the work and results showed all they did was talk full of excuses he was over it

Writing has been therapy clearing the mind of extra stress being able to vent without others twisting your words. Always taking in the bad while focusing on the good. Its therapeutic while listening to metal music the drums and fast pace tempo is so comforting.
Using colored pens to fill each page writing for closure to let go of the things that don't matter trying to stay sharp more focused composed on things that will help better the situation. Fell off trying to get back on track.

Just because we are family
You can't tell me
How to live my life
I've grown taken risks
You did things played it safe
I'm working for mine
I respect you had a family
Respect my decisions to pursue a career
I respect who you chose to be
Stay home be a mom that works for you
I might've detoured doing what I love
I'm pursuing my passions
Always writing telling my stories
My side of the story the truth
We are different people different lives
You can't pick or chose to be in my life
Commit fully or don't waste my time
That's all I ask always outta place
Trying to fit in when I should belong
Not just be in the background ignored

Music brings back memories
Reminded of that person
An intimate moment together
On the road a long adventure home
Songs shared among friends
Flashback to better times
Upbeat bass matches the heart
A numb soul begins to heal
Hurt filled with hopeful melodies
Feeling emotions connected to lyrics

Grew up hood not acting ghetto
Some have it all still ungrateful
Working for it nothing is given
Pursuing a dream nothing else matters
She cheated trying to pass the blame
Homie talking bad not a friend anymore
Did wrong can't carry the burden
Forgave who did their ***** deeds
Never forgiven walked away intact
Loyal to the wrong people
Bunch of two faced jerks
Watched them go away
Not accepting defeat from traitors
Everyone fades away focused on goals
Focused on doing right rising up
Knife in the back take it back
Full force going strong all heart

Some still have it going strong
Others are fighting for it on the level
Getting older not the same
The mind adjusting to new ideals
Body going through change
Elders passing away with time
Loved ones no longer talking
Praying everyone would get along
All the pride doesn't make ot right
Saying sorry doing the same stuff
Instead of changed behavior
Holding a grudge isn't an apology
Not talking to keep the peace
Both to stubborn to compromise
One telling lies to justify things
The other not saying nothing getting heat
Everything could be made right with talking
Both offended making it personal and deep

Woke up early
Went to bed late
Dk why this heart
Feels so much burden
This mind can't figure it out
Trusting God over man
The world's gone crazy out of hand
Crazy terrorising the city
Safe at home in bed
Cant live inside with fear
Need to rise not hide
Each word holding back tears
What happen...
Why has it become this way
How did you end up like this
A huge list of questions
No answers prefer solutions
Over come the problems

Always writing, the thoughts flow
Not use to the words being spoken
Never bass in the voice, flat and soft
One to talk, no reason to yell to be heard
The words come out low, important to project
Always listening to others advice
Asked for guidance got no response
Found away, it's wrong decide to speak up
No one asked all of a sudden something to say
Consideration return the favor trying to help
Stubborn mindset blocks out other perspective
Writing is expression only way to be heard
Find feelings emotions in every word
Flying free wild bird, escape this cage
See the world meant to be heard

Looking for peace
Trying to find purpose
Work use to be fun
Everything has hit rock bottom
The new leadership doesn't care
There was community
Now it's lacking tired of lies
Spoke up nothing was done
Not feeding into it turned away
Focused on life not going to settle
No longer asking just doing
Divided workers who care get it done
Lazy that have no right to complain
Go burned never again
Hard to trust due to betrayal
Keep going forward is a must

All the tears all the pain
Trying to live be normal
Working with complications
Trying to balance out the sanity
Striving through only if others knew
Some so cruel making it hard
Others evil that's their truth
Trying not to fail your supporters
Not fail yourself dealing with intensity
Writing to feel praying it gets better
Express these hard words to speak
Staying positive about the situation
While things are at their worse
Being the love that was neglected
Supporting those who feel alone
Praying for those dealing with mental torment

The work more important than your emotions
Doing the right thing over what is right
Not there to argue take on egos
They don't value you but keep rising up
To the next level even if against the odd
Be yourself make it count everyday
Be genuine with others with an open heart
Don't hide who you are open to grow
One person was dishonest with your time
Not settling for less make progress
Someone who matters makes a difference

Like a mood ring adapting to others
Trying to be positive drained by laziness
Reading the room bad vibes are strong
Trying to do what's right from the heart
Around those doing wrong not my crowd
Not forcing friendships anymore
No longer pretend to care show interest
After being use mostly betrayed
Prefer to be alone over being burned
Open to change most of all learn
New ideas tired of holding back

Make it fun now it ***** going numb
Terrible leads dk what they are doing
A stupid title given not doing the work
Stepped it up and got set back
Don't care to react or show any emotions
Helped out and it all went bad
Forgiving yourself they did you *****
Trusted all the wrong people
See through the lies hard to trust
Never going to be what they say
Proving them wrong so over all the doubt
Better yourself let them talk
Be the one talked about not the one talking

The date ended it go weird
From friend to strangers
Love blurred with lust
Forgiveness over broken trust
Made the most of the moment
Now it's over not meant to be
Desired more hard to see
True love hard to fine
Blinded by starved emotions
Feelings of confusion from the heart