Stayed away feeling kept out because you run your mouth talking about everyone. You dk their story or situation expecting everyone to explain themselves while you debate all your faults and failures to justify everything. Others have no choice and wear the labels place on them.
It's rare when someone who says NO and denies all the crap. Not taking the group ******* or letting a group of moronic followers influence. Eventually all the egos will conflict with one another. The struggle for power to be right. Making everyone miserable because they want to run the show.

Stupid people are reproducing its sad how others get ******* over working while some tale hand outs and its never enough. Why do the smart people empower complete morons. Their luck will run out. It's not right he knew life wasn't fair.
His health was on the decline but he kept coming back for more refusing to quit. Some gave up and settled for less. He believed in hard work even if it didn't happen right away.
He couldn't walk on the streets so many homeless. They made the city look ****** with shopping carts throwing trash on the ground. What's the solution; how do we fix this problems. It drove him crazy people lost self respect and pride for their city.
All these useless protests that lost credibility and money was stolen all this corruption. These people should be in prison, but people voted making crime a slap on the wrist while criminals are let go and hard working people get charges leading to life sentences.
What happened to the American dream before people could afford homes go to college get better jobs. Now college leads to debt and people lose that chance of getting ahead in life.

Make it fun now it ***** going numb
Terrible leads dk what they are doing
A stupid title given not doing the work
Stepped it up and got set back
Don't care to react or show any emotions
Helped out and it all went bad
Forgiving yourself they did you *****
Trusted all the wrong people
See through the lies hard to trust
Never going to be what they say
Proving them wrong so over all the doubt
Better yourself let them talk
Be the one talked about not the one talking

Writing about it not in that place anymore. Growing up out growing the past. Life is a ride that won't let up going fast.
From missing an ex to asking what's next? Worried about being broke now worried when will it happen?
Why hasn't it happened yet. Trying to live life not in regret so much frustration, and disrespect.
Picking up the slack tired and sore crazy enough to comeback for more. Talking to a girl that shows no interest. Wasting time trying to find common ground. Both from different lives and wanting different things for themselves. Sometimes she's open other times says nothing and not bothering with anyone.
Work is not hard but when people miss you have to dig down deep do the extra and try to balance out energy. Some care too much while others don't care of give a ****.
Trying to stay positive be well rounded instead of closed off and shutting down with irritation caused by all the detours and setbacks. Someday you want to scream and quit others take a breath and get it done.

Hung with an old coworker pretending to be an adult figure quick to tell him what he's doing wrong. Pointing out his flaws bringing up topics from the past. He escaped there was no going back it was over that chapter of his life.
Bringing up the old lead a guy who didn't do anything but pawn his work out on others. Then take the credit like he did it pretending to be a somebody over a job title that made him useless.
He transferred moved onto a new location. He didn't care for drama so he was alone. Blessed thankful he was financially well off.
He tried to put himself first but wasn't conceited about it. He knew people didn't like him. He didn't say anything and still got hatred if he spoke his mind everyone was ******.
Trying to meet his social obligations a year after being exclude it got easy for him to be alone.

Like a mood ring adapting to others
Trying to be positive drained by laziness
Reading the room bad vibes are strong
Trying to do what's right from the heart
Around those doing wrong not my crowd
Not forcing friendships anymore
No longer pretend to care show interest
After being use mostly betrayed
Prefer to be alone over being burned
Open to change most of all learn
New ideas tired of holding back

Family becomes annoyed when you don't show any emotions. Pretending to show interest in your life. No respect for your feelings ignored trying to share. Excluded for not living up to this imaginary hype. All these thoughts circling round. It's a never ending cycle you forgive them but they still hold a grudge waiting for a mistake to feel empowered. Think they are superior while showing vulnerability.

Did the work came up short
Need to come up with a new game plan
Too much on the mind
Pent up frustration so much confusion
Fear of the unknown trying to grow
Change isn't always for the better
Coming up short working harder
Working smarter lots of talk
Should be listening to one voice
Lost in faith not running from hate
Another debate make sense of it all
Show too much emotions worked up
Going numb not able to express feelings
Burning up from within

Thinking what to say it plays in his head. His mind loops, he's rehearsing his lines. He wanted to come off confident and strong. Looking in the mirror; making ****** expressions working on the vocal tone.
Feeling confident about this a nice change in his routine looking for something new and refreshing.

He loved the wrong people
All they did was use him
Never happy for him
He worked hard all the time
It was never enough
They made it rough
It made him tough
Tired of being lied to
Speaking no one listening
Did his own thing
Use to being alone
He missed the good times
Now feels like its all bad
Someone is always arguing
Mad at one another
He prayed they got along
Drained not sure what to say
How to act or respond
He told the truth usually honest
Others triggered making it personal
After asking his opinion
Feeling set up to fail is the worse
Walked into the sabotage
Trying to rise and grow

Older tired trying to make it not get fired. Stay sharp while being yanked in multiple directions. A new boss that appreciates your hard work and efforts. No lead but a new one is being brought over in the process.
Focused on work while others think less of your efforts. Always proving yourself just trying to match energy and be enough for once. Over the obstacles trying to get there even if they are meant to build character shape you.
Asking how much more what else does one have to encounter to find peace and closure wanting more to get lost in it. Not feel like it's over again, how do one get it back dreading starting over. Function without saying now what?

Free from the death grip
Escaped the burdening weight
No longer empowering the evil
Healed from being emotionally crippled
Taking back control feeling free
No longer in the chaos walked away
Not responsible for others actions
Those emotions that dictate behavior
Feelings that are wild with no respect
Never an equal over being ignored
Fighting for a place still don't belong
Family has love but feels forced
Blood means nothing truth is everything

Two brothers, who don't get along
Never see eye to eye different lives
The good brother working his way through
The bad brother forces his ways
Trying to take over muscling others
One talked about everyone making drama
The other minded his mouth walked away
Crossing paths treating one another like strangers
Brothers should look out for each other not oppose go against one another

Trying to feel it see it before trying to make it a reality. Sometimes it can't be seen but does happen. Wondering about that life even though it doesn't happen right away. Was it worth it does it matter anymore. Weighing in on all the burdens the sacrifice that would be made.
Giving up what he loves thinking something better will turn up giving up things that mattered asking what priorities will contribute or cause backsliding moving forward is hard after being anchored down. Free of the back breaking weight learning to move without feeling tormented by the past wanting to move without an coming back to claim him like abandoned territory because someone new came into his life taking him serious not playing games.
Meet new friends that don't talk **** because he was trying to bring them along but they decided to peel off to do their own thing that blew up in their face.
Find a partner family will accept instead of being put in the middle having to play peacemaker while his relationship went to crap trying to keep everyone happy. Making time for everyone but they never made time for him. Expecting him to care for their feelings while they belittled him for opening up speaking the truth.

He waited in the restaurant
It was a blind date
They chatted online
The day came for them to meet
It was his first date in years
A nervous unsettling feeling within
She would walk in the door
Her hair black big brown eyes
They'd hug it out enjoy a meal
Getting to know one another in person
Both giving it a chance for more
After they met online they came together
Over being single trying to find love
Trying something new different

He was late but made there eventually
Years of being told no wanting it
Being insulted told other wise
No one believed in him
Head down plowed through
Broken heart finally heals
Learning to love again over the hurt
Starting with ones self respect
Left to chase the dream in the works
Came back to nothing only wiser
Emotional damage gaining strength
Expecting things to change
He grew mentally and physically
Everything remained the same

Working harder than the rest aiming to be one of the best not like the rest.
Chasing a dream in the heart it means everything
The mind sees things differently, it's not about the destination focus on the journey
Watching this world change with age. From private to everything being exposed no more secrets or behind the scenes
The mystery behind the art is gone no suspense just more given content

Starting to date again getting to know a person is hard
People would rather share their body than open up to another person the fear of being vulnerable
Being physical is stimulating not compare to being mentally and emotionally interested
It's more than holding hands and kissing
Takes time to understand get one another's ticks
If the love is real there will be struggle to make it work
Some break up and make up every other week that's not healthy
Why be with someone if cheating is an option
Stay loyal don't play with someone's heart or waste their time

Somedays you win
Take a beating, love to fight
The victory short-lived
Asking what's next mental stimulation
Looking for a challenge
Never accept defeat out
Sometimes, you lose focus
Gain experience open to learn
Life has plenty of lessons
Focused on the blessings
Live in the moment be present
Don't be consumed by the past

Went backwards took a few L's
Did the work came up short
People trying to change the rules
Can't waste anymore time
Getting older trying to hang
Stay modern while everything fades away
It was your times it's changing
Constant changes hard to keep up
Things that made sense hold no value
No value is given more credit
Old rules are replaced with new
One best friend not many loss loyalty
Cheating is accepted the new norm
While right is overlooked excluded
Left in the void standing against wrong
Perks of a relationship no commitment
Lust is the new love broken trust
Honesty is rejected for ongoing lies

Scared to have those awkward conversations
Sometimes they end is intense silence
Being ignored is frustrating
Speaking up hurts
Not being to speak up because things get personal
Told the truth usually get in trouble
Spoke up nothing got done
Did the work credit was stolen
The rage within builds up
Helping others ******* over in return
Trying not to cuss expressing anger
It all came out the body shook
Feeling it drain left with humiliation
Defeated that those emotion got the best of the moment
***** to be passionate when no one care
Bring good vibes everyone is negative

A Friday night as a teen going to the video store to get a movies and a game for Nintendo 64. An evening with the family then order pizza. Watching movies on vhs   that would later becoming DVD. Playing video games with friends and siblings. It got extremely competitive playing Golden Eye or Mario Kart. Video games use to be fun now a days it's a job to complete a mission.
Use to be confused when my dad would say it use to be better before. Trying to stay modern but everyone is asking what's next instead of making the most of things. Before the internet was an escape but now a days it's become a reality for some.
I remember calling people to make plans chat it up now a days people text and still don't connect so much miscommunication. How do you get to know a person if they won't open up or won't give you a chance because of the assumptions made. Trying to hold onto what is know but losing yourself to keep up.

He had a few drinks got a buzz called it quits before he was the wild one blacked out drunk. Feeling like the world is against him ******* over by his family. It was the worse he got over whelmed went out with some cousins they chatted about the good times they had to grow up but it was good to move up be way more responsible than before. His spring break blew chunks since he had to fill dumpsters with junk not the agenda for spring break.
They never had his back but they expect him to be supportive after all the shady crap they've done.

Woke up early
Went to bed late
Dk why this heart
Feels so much burden
This mind can't figure it out
Trusting God over man
The world's gone crazy out of hand
Crazy terrorising the city
Safe at home in bed
Cant live inside with fear
Need to rise not hide
Each word holding back tears
What happen...
Why has it become this way
How did you end up like this
A huge list of questions
No answers prefer solutions
Over come the problems

An old lead leaving the burden on the up and comers thinking they are doomed but will eventually learn its part of the job. So many want power but don't teach anyone anything so that they could superior.
Everyone wants a job but no one wants to work. Times are changing so has work etiquette most want more money for doing less. While others making top dollar don't care to work dumping it on others.
A leader is someone who helps and in the trenches not redirecting everyone with more responsibilities and everything becomes inconvenient

Just because we are family
You can't tell me
How to live my life
I've grown taken risks
You did things played it safe
I'm working for mine
I respect you had a family
Respect my decisions to pursue a career
I respect who you chose to be
Stay home be a mom that works for you
I might've detoured doing what I love
I'm pursuing my passions
Always writing telling my stories
My side of the story the truth
We are different people different lives
You can't pick or chose to be in my life
Commit fully or don't waste my time
That's all I ask always outta place
Trying to fit in when I should belong
Not just be in the background ignored

He wanted to be someone else since everyone else had a problem with him. All he wanted was to be himself be left alone helping others feeling excluded because he didn't want what everyone had or wanted. Making him feel like he was a threat to anyone he came in contact with.
Asking "what's wrong with me" "why is he like this" but he didn't say, or do anything wrong. They came at him sour and twisted. He didn't need or have much but thankful for what he had. While they had everything still complaining, making others feel bad by pointing out their flaws. It didn't make sense he couldn't wrap his mind around things.

Hate being the jynx
Love sports miss participating
To watch the team lose is frustrating
Trying to be a fan and supportive
But they do better not keeping tabs
The game can be intense
Full of anxiety and excitement
Wanting to win but stuck with a loss
The team wins it was a nerve wrecking game
Use to follow the team and knew stats
Before the job and responsibilities
Had a schedule full of games
Softball use to coach forever a fan
Watching little League World series with family
Basketball season starts up
Use to know the team and players
Trades are made some are improvements
Others trades made the team worse

Somethings will never change someone will always dump their responsibilities on others. Thinking that their life is more important than their child. Not a parent but praying for that day. It would be about them and would do my best to teach them to be good people and treat others right.
Sad that respect and family values are gone. Family is important, don't neglect it because I've learned you get what you put in. Just like anything else done in life.

Tell your story live it to the fullest
Believe in yourself when others do not
Keep going strong see opportunity
Most settled the have the nerve to complain
Another road block with haters
Detoured with doubters in the way
Taking on the journey full of growth
Learned from those encounters
Gained from every experience
Need more inspired role models
Observed who not to be like do better
Loved the wrong people left with regret
Hated by people that got called out
Excluded not alone wiggle room to be free
Life goes on with or without any say
Made it through the day time to reflect
Another moment in time spent floating
Taken away from the numbing pain
Able to heal feel whole again

He loved her but they could never be together there was someone else. He admired her most of all respected her even though she ended up with the wrong guy. She was getting played cheated on but fighting to make it work.
Once she got in a relationship, she gave up on their friendship.
He was there through the tough times he'd learn that his chapter was over in his life forgotten left in the past. They'd cross paths from friends to complete strangers. Both doing their own thing the future divided them. Desired different things instead of each other.

They are bad to you remaining loyal
Told to be a man work hard
Not good with sharing feeling
Going numb than show emotions
Don't let them see your hurt
All the pain toxic masculinity
Hard to open up so much broken trust
Told the truth caught them in a lie
Feeling insulted disrespected
Nothing to hide always pushed out
Showing love respect matching energy
Focused on what needs to be done
Not empowering rude shady people
Be yourself see though the act
Not buying into the phony hype

He knew the truth honored it
Never given a chance took many risks
Going against the odds no one listened
No one believed in his skills
Thought he could do it
Got tired working the hardest
Giving his all seen as a rebel
Speaking up when no one else did
Stood alone while everyone followed
Asking questions not getting answers
Called a tyrant seen as delusional

You cant day anything they try to twist your words. Make you out to be the bad guy when they are doing, or have done worse. Trying to cancel you out change erase history to justify these new made morals and standards. Raised differently compared to today sensitive society. Trying to tell people how to act when they dk how to act right themselves.   Never been one to hide behind a computer screen spoke up said something. If nothing got done just focus on getting your stuff done.  That hard work over political debates because so many can BS their way through trying to dump in on someone else.

Writing about the arguments in his head. Things he wish he said or should've said. He was part of a group of rejects a leader; who got no respect. A number 2 guy who got mistreated but a great worker. The number 3 guy in the group was a wild card who hard working took charge of his area and time. The fourth member has yet to be hired. The sub is a fit but will the district hire this person who filled that void.
This team was younger some had health issues but the insurance would resolve the conflict. The boss let them do the work and didn't get on anyone's case. Everyone was willing to do the work just needed to have the right tools to get the job done.

The snitch gets caught up tries to lie his way out of it instead of owning up.
Trying to call out not show up instead of manning about the situation all the anger and frustration he's causing others.
While the worker is always grinding trying to do it right get it done the first time make it better for everyone and easier by maintaining it everyday. Not a leader but being the number 2 you feel the pressure while the lead doesn't care and dumps it on top of the regular load that needs to be done.

We all have that friend who's a total tool bag when he would drink. Everyone is thankful he got sober. Most people are forgiving because that person made an effort to change.
This person talks like he's righteous making it seem like he was loyal to everyone during his dark times he used and stepped on people to get what he wanted for his own selfish gain.
This guy was easily forgiven never saying sorry while others beg for an apology and never forgiven a second chance. What's annoying is how quick these wrong doers say what others have done instead of admitting what they've done wrong. Trying to remain on a high horse instead of doing the right thing.
Cutting off people with hidden agendas dealing with that has been rough. They'll prosecute others but when it's them it's justified a debate talking their way out of it instead of owning up

The work more important than your emotions
Doing the right thing over what is right
Not there to argue take on egos
They don't value you but keep rising up
To the next level even if against the odd
Be yourself make it count everyday
Be genuine with others with an open heart
Don't hide who you are open to grow
One person was dishonest with your time
Not settling for less make progress
Someone who matters makes a difference