Stupid people are reproducing its sad how others get ******* over working while some tale hand outs and its never enough. Why do the smart people empower complete morons. Their luck will run out. It's not right he knew life wasn't fair.
His health was on the decline but he kept coming back for more refusing to quit. Some gave up and settled for less. He believed in hard work even if it didn't happen right away.
He couldn't walk on the streets so many homeless. They made the city look ****** with shopping carts throwing trash on the ground. What's the solution; how do we fix this problems. It drove him crazy people lost self respect and pride for their city.
All these useless protests that lost credibility and money was stolen all this corruption. These people should be in prison, but people voted making crime a slap on the wrist while criminals are let go and hard working people get charges leading to life sentences.
What happened to the American dream before people could afford homes go to college get better jobs. Now college leads to debt and people lose that chance of getting ahead in life.

Hung with an old coworker pretending to be an adult figure quick to tell him what he's doing wrong. Pointing out his flaws bringing up topics from the past. He escaped there was no going back it was over that chapter of his life.
Bringing up the old lead a guy who didn't do anything but pawn his work out on others. Then take the credit like he did it pretending to be a somebody over a job title that made him useless.
He transferred moved onto a new location. He didn't care for drama so he was alone. Blessed thankful he was financially well off.
He tried to put himself first but wasn't conceited about it. He knew people didn't like him. He didn't say anything and still got hatred if he spoke his mind everyone was ******.
Trying to meet his social obligations a year after being exclude it got easy for him to be alone.

Somethings will never change someone will always dump their responsibilities on others. Thinking that their life is more important than their child. Not a parent but praying for that day. It would be about them and would do my best to teach them to be good people and treat others right.
Sad that respect and family values are gone. Family is important, don't neglect it because I've learned you get what you put in. Just like anything else done in life.

He was worried why are bad people who lie and cheat the system reward. While hard working people are ******* over. The people who run their mouth; don't contribute, and quick to make more problems.
We have that family member with a hunch of kids and talks like you owe them because of their bad decisions. They will hanging you by your neck if you make one mistake.
They'll judge me harder than others but expect everyone to cater to their needs when others are trying to live their life and barely getting by. Some live with their decisions and the consequences of their actions.
Don't tell anyone, how to live their life, if you dk their story,  or what they've been through. Why are these social standards Dividing people and ridiculous made up rules. Follow the law or the 10 commandments not man made BS.

Working harder than the rest aiming to be one of the best not like the rest.
Chasing a dream in the heart it means everything
The mind sees things differently, it's not about the destination focus on the journey
Watching this world change with age. From private to everything being exposed no more secrets or behind the scenes
The mystery behind the art is gone no suspense just more given content

You create a new way of doing things
It clashes with the old way of life
Far from the past, but it's well known
Scared of the future unknown territory
Not knowing what's next, a clear mind
Afraid to fail one-shot opportunity
Holding onto what's left is a fight
Lost so much overtime, never again
Old friends fade away, memories
Scared to start over somewhere new
Not sure where to start anymore
Bounced back many times before
Faced those fears inflated with hype
Taking on maniputive egos
Toxic mouths continue to run
Eventually, signing a death wish

Everyday a fight to be heard
A struggle to be seen as an equal
Being kept out and silenced
An internal struggle within
A loud mind a quiet mouth
Words flow out with emotions
A way of expression able to feel
That love was an addiction
All the hurt is healing up
Found inner peace and closure
Learned to go with out
Not be included
Do your own thing
Its okay to be alone

An old lead leaving the burden on the up and comers thinking they are doomed but will eventually learn its part of the job. So many want power but don't teach anyone anything so that they could superior.
Everyone wants a job but no one wants to work. Times are changing so has work etiquette most want more money for doing less. While others making top dollar don't care to work dumping it on others.
A leader is someone who helps and in the trenches not redirecting everyone with more responsibilities and everything becomes inconvenient

Stayed away feeling kept out because you run your mouth talking about everyone. You dk their story or situation expecting everyone to explain themselves while you debate all your faults and failures to justify everything. Others have no choice and wear the labels place on them.
It's rare when someone who says NO and denies all the crap. Not taking the group ******* or letting a group of moronic followers influence. Eventually all the egos will conflict with one another. The struggle for power to be right. Making everyone miserable because they want to run the show.

The snitch gets caught up tries to lie his way out of it instead of owning up.
Trying to call out not show up instead of manning about the situation all the anger and frustration he's causing others.
While the worker is always grinding trying to do it right get it done the first time make it better for everyone and easier by maintaining it everyday. Not a leader but being the number 2 you feel the pressure while the lead doesn't care and dumps it on top of the regular load that needs to be done.

He showed up giving his all
Trying to make a difference
Giving his all with limited time
Covering their *** expecting it done
Not caring about him or his schedule
Life outside of work his struggle
All the pain caused taking its toll
On other work relationships
Usually reliable loves the site
Now in an awkward situation
Made moves exploring new areas
Now stuck limited movement

He loved her but they could never be together there was someone else. He admired her most of all respected her even though she ended up with the wrong guy. She was getting played cheated on but fighting to make it work.
Once she got in a relationship, she gave up on their friendship.
He was there through the tough times he'd learn that his chapter was over in his life forgotten left in the past. They'd cross paths from friends to complete strangers. Both doing their own thing the future divided them. Desired different things instead of each other.

A Friday night as a teen going to the video store to get a movies and a game for Nintendo 64. An evening with the family then order pizza. Watching movies on vhs   that would later becoming DVD. Playing video games with friends and siblings. It got extremely competitive playing Golden Eye or Mario Kart. Video games use to be fun now a days it's a job to complete a mission.
Use to be confused when my dad would say it use to be better before. Trying to stay modern but everyone is asking what's next instead of making the most of things. Before the internet was an escape but now a days it's become a reality for some.
I remember calling people to make plans chat it up now a days people text and still don't connect so much miscommunication. How do you get to know a person if they won't open up or won't give you a chance because of the assumptions made. Trying to hold onto what is know but losing yourself to keep up.

Leaving home to pursue a degree
Away from home missing family
Experiencing the world lots of changes
Freedom to learn and grow mentally
Emotionally struggling with transition
Hard to express love show emotions
Never grew up not being heard
Having a say published for speaking up
Trusting others is difficult
learned to be alone sent to the back
Older now doing things on the go
No one will do the work for you
One must do things by ones self

Not able to drive feeling depressed
Relying on others is the worse
Years of being free to do whatever
Hate being limited due to the transplant
Not able to lift more than 10 pounds
Dropping stuff ***** not able to bend
Dealing with the worse people
Saw good but proved wrong yet again
Poor judgement once again
Being aided to do laundry
Not on my terms or time
On theirs is the worst waiting around
Something special and important
Not taken serious seen as a vacation
Kindness abused hope being drained
Sleep deprived by snoring and arguing
Rushed when it's your time

At the gym clearing this mind
Full of ideas that are ignored
Living with betrayal
Always honest recieving lies
Did the work got demoted
The drama not my problem
Stuck in the middle
Recieving the backlash
Made it fun now it's lost value
Instead of forward went back a few steps

Not always going to be liked
Not always going to agree
had an opinion, and now everyone is mad
told the truth, now you're holding a grudge
looked out for you now you're coming at me
I wish we could coexist
Talk be civilized find a common ground
Instead of going at one another

He was free from everyone's nonsense
Sick of the double standards the lies
Told how to act and who to be
Not doing it being apart of it anymore
Wishing everyone would get along
Made out to be the problem
Against the wicked glad to break free
Better to be alone than around phonies
Not going to fake the shadiness
Accept the wrong justify it as right
Pretend things are well
Keep the peace after being insulted
Accept the two faced people
After being talked about
Not going to respond fuel the fire
It's easy to stay away than accept
All the hurt pain and frustration

Niko went to the bar and chatted it up with the bartender Penelope. They talked about dating and she wanted to help him come up with a solution. He would find out she had a be.
He would sit at the bar and talk without having a drink his sobriety was key. He made mistakes and hurt people not being intoxicated kept him from being a wild one.
Penelope was a beautiful girl a caring person. Niko was not use to pretty girls showing concern she was nice on the eyes and easy to talk with. She appreciated his honesty he said some funny stuff that was true.
He told her that he wanted to take her out once he got full time at his current job. It never happened and that opportunity to ask her out was gone. Things didn't line up or turn out the way Niko planned it.

Always trying my to blend in
But end up standing out
Trying to be mindful keep the peace
The silence causes a mouthful
Coming up with new material
Over the internal struggle within
Focused on bettering the situation
Improve with personal growth
A new perspective on life
Stopped feeling into the bad
Focused on what's right
Not wasting time anymore
Taking on the hurt as punishment
Learn the lesson grow into better
Over lowering myself to be accepted
Good vibes on the rise big brown eyes
Focused on doing more making it happen

Closer to the transplant
Did all the test for California
Now going to take more exams in Arizona
Waiting for a liver could take weeks possibly months
Almost a year ago it started
A doctor appointment for a check up
Finding out with high enzyme levels
Being diagnosed with cirrhosis
A phone call from a doctor with no bed side manners
You're sick we need to figure out
What wrong with you
You have cirrhosis or cancer
Thankful it was cirrhosis over cancer
The less of two evils trying to get healthy

You dk my story or what it took for me to get where I'm at. The sacrifices made for a job. Subbing for 7 years lots of time conflicts giving up jujitsu.
Saving up for school to finish something that was started. Being called a college drop out ridiculed by family. Trying to have saved money for a car that might mess up or go on the frits.
Held back on dating saying once I'm a full time permanent I'd ask this girl out but this cockblocking job. The girl I wanted to ask out is now married. We talked about things I was able to open up and share never made my move. I had an opportunity but never took the risk.
Now working to keep up with health insurance because finding out you have cirrhosis is no joke. You have to diet and change your lifestyle the fear of dieing. Trying to be strong through this wait the transition. Life on hold waiting for the procedure hoping to be normal enjoy a meal without fear.
Not use to special treatment or expecting to be babied. Grew up with tough love No one did anything for you. If you want it you get out there get it your **** self. Not use to waiting on, or relying on others patients is tough.
Some days I want to cry and scream
Other days I feel numb and empty inside
Learning life's not fair not always about you
Being criticized by family and friend making you want to shut them up prove them wrong

He waited in the restaurant
It was a blind date
They chatted online
The day came for them to meet
It was his first date in years
A nervous unsettling feeling within
She would walk in the door
Her hair black big brown eyes
They'd hug it out enjoy a meal
Getting to know one another in person
Both giving it a chance for more
After they met online they came together
Over being single trying to find love
Trying something new different

Watched highlights and missed it
Went to see his nephew play
The mindset came back he missed coaching
On the field thinking about things
Resting his body ready to explode
On the mats was his escape
Cautious because of his strength
Trying not to hurt others
Forgetting his troubles unwinding
Focused on technique coordination
Rumors spread he was hurt
The gym owner asked he was insulted
Annoyed how work conflicted with training
Had to work he was born poor
Taking on struggle trying to grow
Everything he had was earned not given

Been writing over all the fighting
You don't understand me stop trying to change me
Been loyal and true while you are evil and cruel
Woke up to be great you always late don't need the nonsense or the hate
Over all the fakeness fake to my face
Think you are real I see through the front

Poetry is not dead
The beauty within
Defines the world you live in
Some days are hard
Some days are blessed
Open to grow more than the rest

Suppose to be fun but it's not the veteran musicians expect your results they don't care how you feel or what you think. Still a beginner taking on years of experience. Not backing down playing frustrated trying to keep up learning on the fly. Trying to play at professional level that's become second nature.
Working on tempo struggling with the tempo lost with the tempo deaf  tone with the change up it all has a consistent flow need to study and analyze the song to make sense of it all.
Trying to let all those feelings and emotions come out vibrate fluxate with the creative process.

All the rage within is tiring
Spoke up told the truth honestly
Seen as crazy overreacting
Made eye contact the look of anger
Avoid eye contact made out to be afraid
Insulted by the lies seeking the truth
Odds against your determination
Trying to even it out push out corruption
Life lessons are hard to learn against evil
Discrimination regardless of medical status

You want to matter but your forcing your way in. You got hurt so you don't let anyone in. Once your in if you don't like what you see you bail. Trying to fall in love with a drug addict who loves drugs more than you.
You don't love this person all you want is to change them. Thinking your love is stronger than the drugs she won't give up on. Thinking your middle name matters even though you claim to hate it. Thinking she knows you but you don't enjoy people's company thinking they are going to take in everything you say.
Sad how you are nice when you need something other than that you won't bother with anyone. All the smack you talked making it personal because you didn't get your way or thinking you could use their weakness against them to get them to do your evil biddings.
Idk what you think or how you feel but you can't treat people the way you do. You insult them thinking you deserve respect. Don't use people act like they owe you. Not able to debate an argument so you make things personal talk about things that have nothing to do with the situation.

No one takes pride in your work they are quick to snitch you out throw you under. Not falling for the bait or putting up with the hate. Team work to get it done usually one sided the truth is everyone bitter divided going to write about it.
Hard to remember so much that needs to be done have some fun and write it all down a check list racing time feeling calm after making it half way through.

He wanted to be someone else since everyone else had a problem with him. All he wanted was to be himself be left alone helping others feeling excluded because he didn't want what everyone had or wanted. Making him feel like he was a threat to anyone he came in contact with.
Asking "what's wrong with me" "why is he like this" but he didn't say, or do anything wrong. They came at him sour and twisted. He didn't need or have much but thankful for what he had. While they had everything still complaining, making others feel bad by pointing out their flaws. It didn't make sense he couldn't wrap his mind around things.

Did the work came up short
Need to come up with a new game plan
Too much on the mind
Pent up frustration so much confusion
Fear of the unknown trying to grow
Change isn't always for the better
Coming up short working harder
Working smarter lots of talk
Should be listening to one voice
Lost in faith not running from hate
Another debate make sense of it all
Show too much emotions worked up
Going numb not able to express feelings
Burning up from within

Made out to be the crazy one
Spoke up games being played
Don't care for the drama
Not in it for the glory
Doing what's right
You can be lazy
Your problem not mine
Doesn't phase me
Made out to be crazy
Don't pick a fight
Not being heard
Able to speak up
I have your attention
Now your mad told the truth
Time to walk away
Pointless conversations
Wasting our time
Bounce back from this
Head up high you'll be just fine

In my mind I find peace make sense of everything
I hate to fail but come up short
Try to stay on time and consistent with all the resistance
I'm getting older everyone feels more distant
All I do is listen to people who set me up to fail
All I want to do is make it and prevail
One to fight and Bite now all I do is tuck my tail
Not arguing with useless people who take me for granted
So numb I feel life less feel my soul leave my body
Mistake for dead emotionless in my head
Stare off into the distance block it out
The sounds around me becomes white noise
Feeling trapped can't escape over all the hate
Faced my fears no one knows wipe the tears
Smile like the hurt isn't there
Hide it all be strong for others
In the end it catches up you want to leave it behind
comes back not ready for the attack
Hard to breathe what's next
can't keep living of the same good deeds