Always told the truth called ruthless
Hated for honesty while others lie
Loyal to all the wrong people
Seen their true colors had to cut ties
Sending love rejecting  hate by toxic ppl
She cheated trying to blame
Instead of owning up its over now
Once cared not taking the manipulation
Moving forward with life not back
Investing in the future not drugs, and alcohol
Working to help family not steal by use people
Over the false promises empty comments
Over the two-faced attitude ****** remarks
When you don't get your way

Made out to be the crazy one
Spoke up games being played
Don't care for the drama
Not in it for the glory
Doing what's right
You can be lazy
Your problem not mine
Doesn't phase me
Made out to be crazy
Don't pick a fight
Not being heard
Able to speak up
I have your attention
Now your mad told the truth
Time to walk away
Pointless conversations
Wasting our time
Bounce back from this
Head up high you'll be just fine

Been bossing it up working for it. Not always going to be liked, or the favorite. Not about being right but doing what's right. Seen pride before my eyes an older man not asking for help but had the help.
The younger crowd had no problem helping. Even if he did talk down to them and act like everything evolved around him. Making example of others instead of leading by example.
The worker took pride in his work and didn't like to be micro managed or told twice to do something that needed to be done or got done.

Avoiding that wicked person who always complained trying to take others down because life is miserable. Always negative over dumb things they are that petty.
They are fake to your face while talking about you behind your back. Giving an opinion no one asked.
Talking like they are a somebody but really a nobody pretending to be a somebody. Talking so much they believe their own lies and will go against you if you question them or challenge their way of thinking. They won't just attack you their try to erase your existence.
He didn't like those kind of people what ***** most was he had family members that behaved this way. It was terrible behavior that inexcusable.
He learned to be honest and to treat people right. He got quiet and walked away from the pain all the frustration that would ruin his day.

He couldn't rely or depend on her; after she got her way, or what she wanted, she'd disappear. Calling when things went bad, but once things went well never heard from. How does a married person talk about an old fling; acting like she's single. trying to justify her actions like she's the exception and rules don't apply to her. He was the scapegoat and enabler. He learned the hard way staying away

You want to matter but your forcing your way in. You got hurt so you don't let anyone in. Once your in if you don't like what you see you bail. Trying to fall in love with a drug addict who loves drugs more than you.
You don't love this person all you want is to change them. Thinking your love is stronger than the drugs she won't give up on. Thinking your middle name matters even though you claim to hate it. Thinking she knows you but you don't enjoy people's company thinking they are going to take in everything you say.
Sad how you are nice when you need something other than that you won't bother with anyone. All the smack you talked making it personal because you didn't get your way or thinking you could use their weakness against them to get them to do your evil biddings.
Idk what you think or how you feel but you can't treat people the way you do. You insult them thinking you deserve respect. Don't use people act like they owe you. Not able to debate an argument so you make things personal talk about things that have nothing to do with the situation.

He was free from everyone's nonsense
Sick of the double standards the lies
Told how to act and who to be
Not doing it being apart of it anymore
Wishing everyone would get along
Made out to be the problem
Against the wicked glad to break free
Better to be alone than around phonies
Not going to fake the shadiness
Accept the wrong justify it as right
Pretend things are well
Keep the peace after being insulted
Accept the two faced people
After being talked about
Not going to respond fuel the fire
It's easy to stay away than accept
All the hurt pain and frustration

Use to get mad when people would get on my case when the lazy worker got away with doing nothing. Always open to learn and grow fix the mistake if possible. Running your area and getting it done don't need to be micro managed over all the brown nosing to move up.
They drop bad news on you not surprised anymore. When you have a good day just avoid everyone work harder than the rest. They'll find reasons to complain but not listening to the negativity.

He didn't want to argue or fight with anyone anymore. It doesn't have to be this way not holding a grudge or mad just trying to live and enjoy life.
All the physical and mental pain was enough trying to heal be better. No more childhood pain just moving forward away from the hurt. Not in that place or that person anymore. Cutting away the toxic letting go of those stuck on the past.
Releasing the dead weight since its not helping but holding you down stuck in the same old place. Slow progress is better than staying still.
Recycled thoughts reworded hoping to encourage inspire others. Another way other chances opportunities instead of the same false hope expecting change while working for new onto fresh new perspectives experiences gains from new encounters.

Not always liked or a favorite had an opinion why does it need to be explained while some spew out none sense that doesn't make sense. Stopped talking jokes turn into criticism everything becomes to real and personal. Can't joke or play all the double standards get it worse than the rest. Ready for the consequences thought about it not giving them a reason to speak. Had to cut the cord stopped empowering the wickedness. Everyone is ******* you getting punked by someone worse.

Everyday a fight to be heard
A struggle to be seen as an equal
Being kept out and silenced
An internal struggle within
A loud mind a quiet mouth
Words flow out with emotions
A way of expression able to feel
That love was an addiction
All the hurt is healing up
Found inner peace and closure
Learned to go with out
Not be included
Do your own thing
Its okay to be alone

Feels like time is running out
Always starting over from the bottom
Focused on the top tired of being kept out
Not always where I belong trying to figure it out
Working twice as hard to barely come out even
Done what's right things don't turn out right
Made mistakes never hear the end of them
Far from perfect and no where near perfection
Learned and growing results are not showing
Happiness within is not enough struggle within is tough
Gave my all came up short crazy to come back for more
Work hard to shut them up not lettting up
they find an excuse to run their mouth
Tearing myself a part within changed my ways
Not falling back into bad habits or looking back

When family bickers and complains
Don't want to bump heads deal with egos
Always the guy but never in the position to be that guy
Thankful to be working
Only when they need something the go to guy
Most of the time he gets ignored feeling like an outcast
Not the flashy guy but the guy who worked for it

Free from the anxiety holding pads
Taking combos trying to remember
Blocking low kicks to the quads
Pads blocking his face from high kicks
Learning to fight from a distance
Fighting inside smothers punches
The momentum could smack hard
Loud pops against the leather
Forgetting everything that's troubling
Wanting to heal be normalish
Focused on footwork coordination
Shifting body weight with pivots
Knee strikes to the midsection
Teeps to throw off opponents balance
Controlling the head working the clench

You dk my story or what it took for me to get where I'm at. The sacrifices made for a job. Subbing for 7 years lots of time conflicts giving up jujitsu.
Saving up for school to finish something that was started. Being called a college drop out ridiculed by family. Trying to have saved money for a car that might mess up or go on the frits.
Held back on dating saying once I'm a full time permanent I'd ask this girl out but this cockblocking job. The girl I wanted to ask out is now married. We talked about things I was able to open up and share never made my move. I had an opportunity but never took the risk.
Now working to keep up with health insurance because finding out you have cirrhosis is no joke. You have to diet and change your lifestyle the fear of dieing. Trying to be strong through this wait the transition. Life on hold waiting for the procedure hoping to be normal enjoy a meal without fear.
Not use to special treatment or expecting to be babied. Grew up with tough love No one did anything for you. If you want it you get out there get it your **** self. Not use to waiting on, or relying on others patients is tough.
Some days I want to cry and scream
Other days I feel numb and empty inside
Learning life's not fair not always about you
Being criticized by family and friend making you want to shut them up prove them wrong

Break away from the rest
Aim to be one of the best
Walking away from insanity
Staying sober loving solitude
Withdrawal from drama
Gaining life no more succubus
A life choice made to be saved
No turning back a clean escape
Dragged down by a miserable lead
Made moves away from dictatorship
Free starting over finally belong
Taking charge to get it done determined
The chosen one fills the void moving up
As everyone retires to enjoy life

Told to act a certain way
How to behave no way
No love for my parents by you
Now you're coming at me
Let me be one day you'll see
All you do is talk two faced snakes
Putting those labels on others
Projecting negativity why bothers
Changing up the narrative
Trying to use others to get your way
Walked away free where I'm accepted
So much neglect disrespected

From protecting them and taking secrets to the grave not dead. Trying to make it through the week. Up and down with emotions everything but weak. Feelings can be deep mostly strong truth only if they know what he has been through. Should be a sleep but writing has been a safety net a way to process all this frustration causing confusion.

He was a kind heart with a witty sense of humor
Most didn't get him so he came off as socially awkward
Trying to bless an ego ruins the good deed
Some try to control others by breaking them down
A helping others is a blessing but asking for help is hard
That feeling when a person collect acting like you owe them
Owning you because a favor is needed
Hurt because something serious was seen as a vacation
Seeing good in a person trusting them to find out you're wrong

I respect your title wheres the worth ethic
Don't knock my hard work
You have a title it means nothing
Since you have no respect for the team
Blame last minute communication
Don't bring me down meant for more
Fighting for mine quick to square up
Squash this beef Don't care for drama
Since you chose to settle Gave up
Did the work quick to cut off liars
Turned my back betrayals not welcomed
Not looking ahead living in the moment
Spoke up got ignored its crumbling down
Now smiling in silence rising up

Things have changed never the same from how he remembered them. He sees his parents they have white hair. His best friend married and kids. He seen more for himself but ended up being an average joe. He went to college, but things didn't panel out accordingly. After a unhealthy relationship, he decided to stay single better himself.
He took detours and the scenic route eventually arriving to his destination. Lots of falling but he kept getting up. Tried came up short  learn from his failed attempts. He kept an open mind willing to learn grow as a person.
He thought his best friend would stay close; they'd get old together, but all they did was grow apart living different lives wanting opposite from one another. Once he sobered up the world seem, so different; a clean mind made him listen observe things didn't always appear what was being said.

Never afraid to start over keep building on what you know. Keep striving for more not settling for less. We use to be close now we can't be together. I pray you don't turn out like your siblings or parents. Felt pushed out not forcing my way in not use anyone believing or standing by my side.
Wishing you the best not my place I have no say. Your parents came at me sour not arguing or taking the corruption anymore. The world changes the day you stand up for yourself.

Pushing back against the lies
Being mentally abused by opposers
Emotionally scared opening his heart
Physically exhausted coming up short
Busting his **** still denied his efforts
Told the truth seen as crazy out of line
Had an opinion considered delusional
In the trenches doing the hard work
Others observe trying to sabotage
With the team taking on the pressure

Thinking too much can't rest or relax
Missed his family felt out of place
Trying to make it right
Another grudge treated differently
Kept out meant well looked out
The mistake held over head
No going back no longer the same
Dk how to make it right
Said sorry not forgiven
Altered behavior labeled by the past
Sober for them now its for ones self
Got clean seeing more clearly
Not arguing learning to listen
Speaking when spoken to or asked
Wondering when and where it all went wrong
Can't go back doing what's right in the moment
Reached out and ignored not feeding egos
Pride got the best of us not talking anymore
Not fighting for a dieing friendship that's one sided
Called selfish while being selfless
Entitled while working for it

Some like to stir the *** and make excuses to take the pressure on them by blaming someone else. It's sad that the work environment is this way. Seeing good in others while they sabotage others and one another to get ahead.
Years of working and not getting the perks of a full-time employee. It finally happened so many on the inside are ungrateful. Once an outsider looking hoping to make it and make a difference.
Always a team player while most play like if they are contributing all they do is complain. While you try to keep things together and composed wanting to succeed tired of feeling like this is a set up and to fail is the worse feeling ever.
Sometimes you move on without them because they chose to settle they can't get mad because that was their decision. Why hate or get mad at the person who wanted more. Years at the bottom working to get back up to that next level.

Every word written
Knocking out the bad
Someone is always hating
No reason to be mad it's normal
Let them focus on being great
Told you you're no good
Turns out they are doing worse
Valuing life feeling worth more
While they care about money
It's never enough with the greed
Helping loved ones doing good deeds
From close to distant barely talking
Sobered up now trying to do right
You mad can't go without that fix
Two kids focused on those bad habits
Love them like my own be better
Get your head out of your ***
Listen for the popping sound
When you pull it out
Sat on the side lines pondering
Things seem to get worse overtime
People setting only for their gain
Not about the family selfish ways
Sad how they talk about everyone
No one is talking about them
Made it about them again

Working like a boss trying to get paid for one. Been at the bottom moving to the top. Tired of taking on people who don't matter just another hurtle to get over. Once you pass them they'll hold a grudge never be happy for you. Never support your decisions because they think their way was the better way for you. Putting my trust in God to help me over come this anger this frustration over the years. It didn't happen right away when it finally did it was a true blessing.
Rebuilding yourself, reconstructing the way it's done. Always wanting to make it happen, move up to the next level. Trying to teach others share the art and craft help the next generation. Instead of them thinking it will be given. Always work for it going through the process rise up taking on each level. Listen to what's being said. observe what's going on take it in pursue the dream achieve those goals live the dream from within.

The things you fight for when you have to give them up is one of the tough decisions to make.
The stuff you go through for it but do you really need it sometimes it's worth it other times it's a huge waste of time.
Doing it was a process but worth it after it was all said and done.
Things changed what felt right doesn't provide the satisfaction or gratification.
Move on to something new because growth is always occuring.

He was over hyping them up
Feeling like a **** up empowering BS
Never a brown noser trying to belong
Stopped putting forth effort
Energy never matched up drained
Cared more still shot down the most
Once he moved on seen as the enemy
A trader tired of being looked down on
Never seen as an equal not materialistic
Kept chasing the dream in his mind
Called crazy for having an opinion
Understood others while being written off

Learning to eat serving sizes not indulge because of stress. Divide up the meal not consume it all in one serving. Lightened load less stress focused on the change up. From the bottom to the top working on being better.
Looking back but never going back
Better in the moment forget the past
All the change was rewarding
Finally made it while others gave it up
Breaking rules knocking down walls
Rising up against the odds going strong
Striving towards greatness over the tardiness
Friends turn rivals not making it personal
Stayed loyal withing true to self
Taking on another fake persona than before

We all that family member that doesn't care how you feel or think.  Doesn't think highly of your choices or decisions.
After they bad mouth your way of life Always mad because you'd rather be your own person than follow.
Not one to follow or pretend to be cool after being insulted and disrespected.
Moving on better off alone then be filled with doubt

He wanted to cheer them up but they'd end up ruining his day. He learned to keep a distance stay away. He learned to match energy but some are soul ******* set in their ways. There's no changing their mind he learned this the hard way.
Stopped setting himself of to get hurt, lowered his expectations for others, and raised the bar for himself. He stopped looking for approval focused on what he likes and loves. Not letting anyone take that away from him.

He was the guy who was unnoticed sat in the back no one bothered or paid attention to him. He was use to that because when he was the center of attention good or bad eventually he would end up alone.
People talk bad about him because he stood up for his beliefs, and was use to rolling solo, a rebel at heart. He had a hard time trusting his life was an open book but learned to be selective because no one cares about you unless you are doing favor. After being used up in failed relationships found they don't want you but don't want you with anyone else. He was really crush to know that being happy for others but others would never be happy for him with all his efforts and accomplishments.

Tell your story live it to the fullest
Believe in yourself when others do not
Keep going strong see opportunity
Most settled the have the nerve to complain
Another road block with haters
Detoured with doubters in the way
Taking on the journey full of growth
Learned from those encounters
Gained from every experience
Need more inspired role models
Observed who not to be like do better
Loved the wrong people left with regret
Hated by people that got called out
Excluded not alone wiggle room to be free
Life goes on with or without any say
Made it through the day time to reflect
Another moment in time spent floating
Taken away from the numbing pain
Able to heal feel whole again

Please and thank you can go a long way while so many entitled try to take what does not belong to them. Some work hard put in time, so many try to walk all over everyone. Learning the value of a dollar, every cent earned worth all the physical labor that went into it. Giving everything because things need to be done tired of all the complaining by the lazy workers that still manage to be bitter.

Somedays you win
Take a beating, love to fight
The victory short-lived
Asking what's next mental stimulation
Looking for a challenge
Never accept defeat out
Sometimes, you lose focus
Gain experience open to learn
Life has plenty of lessons
Focused on the blessings
Live in the moment be present
Don't be consumed by the past

Never cared for political views
Respect everyones faith and beliefs
Be a good person treat one another right
The community divided more than ever
It's not about being right anymore
Build trust with vulnerability
Try to understand different perspectives
But doing the right thing be better
Instead of united being supportive
The imposition causing hate to rise
Have an opinion gets you attacked
Stay silence the internal turmoil burns

The past ate him up an older man
Full of regret hard to forget things
Worlds collide their bad fell on his lap
Never meant to hurt them as well
Pursing a dream detoured goal
Destroying himself after failed efforts
Rejected by love replaced with hate
Not letting it infect his heart
Denying the wrong others shadow
Focused on right not argue or fight