They have you nothing now they are mad you made the most of everything. Once you start bettering yourself they don't want you doing better than them. Anything you do bothers them no one cares or paying attention to them. They keep talking just keep ignoring them don't react because once you give them attention it ends up being a waste of your time.
It will fuel them to talk since they haven't done anything relavent.
Just keep doing your own thing from the bottom to the top don't stop. After being denied all you could do is keep working for it.

You want to matter but your forcing your way in. You got hurt so you don't let anyone in. Once your in if you don't like what you see you bail. Trying to fall in love with a drug addict who loves drugs more than you.
You don't love this person all you want is to change them. Thinking your love is stronger than the drugs she won't give up on. Thinking your middle name matters even though you claim to hate it. Thinking she knows you but you don't enjoy people's company thinking they are going to take in everything you say.
Sad how you are nice when you need something other than that you won't bother with anyone. All the smack you talked making it personal because you didn't get your way or thinking you could use their weakness against them to get them to do your evil biddings.
Idk what you think or how you feel but you can't treat people the way you do. You insult them thinking you deserve respect. Don't use people act like they owe you. Not able to debate an argument so you make things personal talk about things that have nothing to do with the situation.

He wanted to make changes someone always deflated his ego. He's not always liked took risks win or fail he did more than most. He wanted to be more tired of settling for less. He dram big and he hurt others to chase a dream. Worked harder than others so he could move up no one was happy for him.
They robbed him of his pride and joy all his efforts felt useless losing meaning and purpose. Trying to stay in tact but crumbling within

From protecting them and taking secrets to the grave not dead. Trying to make it through the week. Up and down with emotions everything but weak. Feelings can be deep mostly strong truth only if they know what he has been through. Should be a sleep but writing has been a safety net a way to process all this frustration causing confusion.

He wiped the tears said it will be okay
One bad week months of frustration
Doesn't define the rest of your life
New week new start new beginnings
Putting out god vibes to the universe
Trying to shine not be dull like the rest
Put out more energy not be sluggish
Finish strong take pride in work
All hustle grind no gimmick
The outcast for chasing greatness
Refusing to settle called entitled
Called crazy for having an opinion
Having a dream seen as delusional
Setting goals determined not stopping
A bad attitude for speaking up
Being ignored feeling insulted
Asked for courtesy to prepare
Given last minute notice set up to fail
Treated different from the rest
More double standards excluded

Some like to stir the *** and make excuses to take the pressure on them by blaming someone else. It's sad that the work environment is this way. Seeing good in others while they sabotage others and one another to get ahead.
Years of working and not getting the perks of a full-time employee. It finally happened so many on the inside are ungrateful. Once an outsider looking hoping to make it and make a difference.
Always a team player while most play like if they are contributing all they do is complain. While you try to keep things together and composed wanting to succeed tired of feeling like this is a set up and to fail is the worse feeling ever.
Sometimes you move on without them because they chose to settle they can't get mad because that was their decision. Why hate or get mad at the person who wanted more. Years at the bottom working to get back up to that next level.

Working like a boss trying to get paid for one. Been at the bottom moving to the top. Tired of taking on people who don't matter just another hurtle to get over. Once you pass them they'll hold a grudge never be happy for you. Never support your decisions because they think their way was the better way for you. Putting my trust in God to help me over come this anger this frustration over the years. It didn't happen right away when it finally did it was a true blessing.
Rebuilding yourself, reconstructing the way it's done. Always wanting to make it happen, move up to the next level. Trying to teach others share the art and craft help the next generation. Instead of them thinking it will be given. Always work for it going through the process rise up taking on each level. Listen to what's being said. observe what's going on take it in pursue the dream achieve those goals live the dream from within.

Being told not to complain not taking crap from anyone. Dealing with people who tried to shadow him. He didn't like how they tried to turn everyone on him because they couldn't get their way.
All the betrayal all the disrespect when he stood his ground the hatred great. He went along to keep the peace but part of him would die being among their ways. He didn't care to feel their egos or let take his kindness for granted.
He waa never called just to keep contact only when they needed something or they didn't bother with him. He loved family but tired of seen everyone being used and talked about. They think they are right because they own property how they treat people says more.
He stood alone lost in translation ready to argue and fight but remember he had nothing to gain and they had nothing to offer so he walked away. He regrets making time for them thinking theyd approve maybe accept him.

The water from the tank so soothing as he sat in the counselors office. He was going to talk with a professional that hardest part for him was trust. He would feel like expressing himself to others made him feel weak or they would use it against him. He was one that put others first before his own needs. He did good deeds for others and expected nothing in return. His name would be called he entered the office he sat in a chair but it was not like what he saw in the movies. It was a cozy and comfy environment. He had so much he wanted to get off his chest. The shrink would ask him questions and this therapy session would begin. He would explain all that bothered him but he could only say so much within an hour period. The problem was the shrink kept changing so how could he build trust and kept starting new relationships so he felt disconnected when all he wanted to do was fit in and belong with people overcoming his fears also be able to blend in but no matter what he was isolated and excluded.
He took time to figure himself out and so he can be a better friend but he needed a new crowd he was in the party scene. He would try to find himself without others defining him.

Tough times with family someone is always mad or holding a grudge. Hard to communicate everyone is right with their pride and ego. Not accepted or listening anymore. Branched out trying to associate with the right. Instead of welcoming the wrong. Open to change without denying ones self for others. Find a way to improve go forward without taking steps back.

They believe the lies and deny the truth
No one cares till it's about them
No respect or regards for others unless they agree
Once they oppose they impose
No one wants to be wrong or admit a mistake
Everyone thinks they are right even when they have no clue
Learn to understand before making changes
Don't judge because of circumstance people change
Most set in their ways most change if they want to but most won't

Learning to forgive is hard
Grew up around rude people
Most Never apologized
You apologized never forgiven
Being drained turns to shutting down
The anxiety clouds judgement
Stress makes it hars to focus
Thoughts looping seeking justification
Playing scenarios possible outcomes
Usually another ending occurs
Trying to prepare lighten the blow
Never expect what could be
Aftermath could amount to nothing

When it was over
Couldn't think of anyone else
Moving on felt wrong
But it was the right thing to do
Lots of self destruction
Trying to end the pain
Making it worse not any better
All new encounter being heart broken
A bad experience from her love
The red flags ignored burning fire
Her bad vibes and attitude desired

Use to get mad when people would get on my case when the lazy worker got away with doing nothing. Always open to learn and grow fix the mistake if possible. Running your area and getting it done don't need to be micro managed over all the brown nosing to move up.
They drop bad news on you not surprised anymore. When you have a good day just avoid everyone work harder than the rest. They'll find reasons to complain but not listening to the negativity.

Tired of arguing with family
Why can't we get along
Stop holding grudges
Why is it hard to say sorry
Why can't it be easy to forgive
Holding a grudge is easier
An excuse to be bias made a target
Justify the bad behavior doing wrong
All the misconduct needs to stop
Alienated for being different
One opinion doesn't matter
Trying to influence others perspective
Making allies against a common enemy
Taking a breath composing yourself older
Some never change remaining the same
Forgiving is easier than holding a grudging
Letting go instead of holding onto the bad
An open mind in a world of negativity
Staying loyal and true to family even through the dark times

Writing to understand these thoughts
Make sense of all that's going on
The feelings can be overwhelming
Expressing those bottled emotions
Being heard by your community
Knowing what your are trying to say
Annoyed when others twist your words
Trying to be genuine most of all myself
Not being what others say
Sick of assumptions false narratives
Staying centered true to self
Internal growth cleansing the spirit
Not what others made out to be
Approval from people who don't approve
Their opinion doesn't matter have value
Like your feelings mean nothing to them

We both wanted different things
What I liked you hated and chose not to understand
I would drop everything for you and you would not bother with me
I had your back you never had mine
Just because we are blood doesn't make us family
If I got close you pushed me away now I'm not wasting my time you are mad holding a grudge
It took a while to realize you are not good for me and let go moved on
I've changed many times but you are never happy with yourself so I stopped lowering myself to be accepted I love myself but you expect me to be someone new and you'll never change being the same old you. I helped you and you treated me so cruel. Once I said NO I became the enemy all the good deeds forgotten no you see me deep down to the core as rotten.

He enjoyed work made the most of it
Conversations with older individuals
Wisdom gained from every encounter
Fun stories shared don't fit in anymore
Everything changed got worse lost value
The people who made it work are gone
Now the lazy try to undo all the good
The high standards are now lowered
Trying to keep the rich history preserved
While the bad leads try to erase history

She asked him why did you stop talking to me? He responded because when I first started talking to you I seen someone unique and special. Now that I know you you're a follower listening to your friends. I thought you had your own opinion and views. Who are you and what have you? become I was deceived.  I seen you as someone else and I was wrong. Didn't mean to place a false narrative on you.
I showed interest you ignored me and once you found out I was older you treated me different definitely not mad but wasn't going to play these games. Then tried to pass me off on one of your horrible friends that tried to be controlling wasting more of my time.
I said you are a friend then got mad because I put you in the friend zone. Acting offended and upset when you already said there wasn't a chance of anything when you clearly made up your mind. I respected your decision by moving on now you talk about how this went wrong

Told to act a certain way
How to behave no way
No love for my parents by you
Now you're coming at me
Let me be one day you'll see
All you do is talk two faced snakes
Putting those labels on others
Projecting negativity why bothers
Changing up the narrative
Trying to use others to get your way
Walked away free where I'm accepted
So much neglect disrespected

He was the guy who was unnoticed sat in the back no one bothered or paid attention to him. He was use to that because when he was the center of attention good or bad eventually he would end up alone.
People talk bad about him because he stood up for his beliefs, and was use to rolling solo, a rebel at heart. He had a hard time trusting his life was an open book but learned to be selective because no one cares about you unless you are doing favor. After being used up in failed relationships found they don't want you but don't want you with anyone else. He was really crush to know that being happy for others but others would never be happy for him with all his efforts and accomplishments.

Sorry still living with the guilt
Ignored by people excluded by many
Be part of something fit in for once
A lost man finding away to resolve peace
Hurt his best friend over a girl
Been hurt by a formal friend
Hard to make the wrong right
Wanting to be forgiven another
Hard to forgive other no do overs
Reached out got ignored gave too much
Let it go now getting all the blame
Trying too hard never good enough
Stopped caring let it go
Had to restrain get over it
Lack of communication
Many assumptions are made

Missing that old life means you've grown and preparing for something more. Reject becomes easy to expect since no one could provide a reason. After being denied a few times life feels like you're living in denial.
Thinking of ways to exist and stand out just to be ignore talked about. Once you stop caring by focusing on what you love the world doesn't seem so dark. Trying to please people who don't like you that made up their mind about you. Tired of explaining yourself to people that aren't interested in your life.

Never afraid to start over keep building on what you know. Keep striving for more not settling for less. We use to be close now we can't be together. I pray you don't turn out like your siblings or parents. Felt pushed out not forcing my way in not use anyone believing or standing by my side.
Wishing you the best not my place I have no say. Your parents came at me sour not arguing or taking the corruption anymore. The world changes the day you stand up for yourself.

Who are you outside of work?
Tired of living up to ideal standards
Over others judgement
Working in the background
Eventually started to stand out
Working hard to get ahead
Yet still in the struggle
Missing family but with them fear of missing out
Like something needs to be done something is missing
Seen their True color now mad they see there's no games or playing on this end
Just walk away Not worth reviving something thar tried to destroy you
Kept a distance never said anything bad

He woke up ready to train go again. Today was Valentine's day he showed love all year he didn't need one day. He did laugh because all the girls, who said NO thought they can do better were feeling sorry for themselves. The nerve to be selective most of all be petty about being single. He called it single awareness day.

He was over hyping them up
Feeling like a **** up empowering BS
Never a brown noser trying to belong
Stopped putting forth effort
Energy never matched up drained
Cared more still shot down the most
Once he moved on seen as the enemy
A trader tired of being looked down on
Never seen as an equal not materialistic
Kept chasing the dream in his mind
Called crazy for having an opinion
Understood others while being written off

Not always liked or a favorite had an opinion why does it need to be explained while some spew out none sense that doesn't make sense. Stopped talking jokes turn into criticism everything becomes to real and personal. Can't joke or play all the double standards get it worse than the rest. Ready for the consequences thought about it not giving them a reason to speak. Had to cut the cord stopped empowering the wickedness. Everyone is ******* you getting punked by someone worse.

He wanted to cheer them up but they'd end up ruining his day. He learned to keep a distance stay away. He learned to match energy but some are soul ******* set in their ways. There's no changing their mind he learned this the hard way.
Stopped setting himself of to get hurt, lowered his expectations for others, and raised the bar for himself. He stopped looking for approval focused on what he likes and loves. Not letting anyone take that away from him.

Break away from the rest
Aim to be one of the best
Walking away from insanity
Staying sober loving solitude
Withdrawal from drama
Gaining life no more succubus
A life choice made to be saved
No turning back a clean escape
Dragged down by a miserable lead
Made moves away from dictatorship
Free starting over finally belong
Taking charge to get it done determined
The chosen one fills the void moving up
As everyone retires to enjoy life

Jab with lead had and reset
Power hand thrown and reset
Shift to the left out of the pipe
Shift to the right step throw a jab
Recoil and unload the hook
Weight shift to distribute power
Lower level explode up
Throw the the uppercut
So much to work on
Technique is keep to improving
Foot placement forward back
L step cause separation
Holding pads drilling through
Repetition going through the motions

The past ate him up an older man
Full of regret hard to forget things
Worlds collide their bad fell on his lap
Never meant to hurt them as well
Pursing a dream detoured goal
Destroying himself after failed efforts
Rejected by love replaced with hate
Not letting it infect his heart
Denying the wrong others shadow
Focused on right not argue or fight

Free from the anxiety holding pads
Taking combos trying to remember
Blocking low kicks to the quads
Pads blocking his face from high kicks
Learning to fight from a distance
Fighting inside smothers punches
The momentum could smack hard
Loud pops against the leather
Forgetting everything that's troubling
Wanting to heal be normalish
Focused on footwork coordination
Shifting body weight with pivots
Knee strikes to the midsection
Teeps to throw off opponents balance
Controlling the head working the clench