They believed in him he didn't always believe in himself. He looked in the mirror an older man with white hair. Asking what's his purpose trying to find meaning in his life. Things came and went with the season. Something's he fought for things he thought was worth it. while he let go of the damaged beyond repair trying to understand learn from the crazy by being better

He wiped the tears said it will be okay
One bad week months of frustration
Doesn't define the rest of your life
New week new start new beginnings
Putting out god vibes to the universe
Trying to shine not be dull like the rest
Put out more energy not be sluggish
Finish strong take pride in work
All hustle grind no gimmick
The outcast for chasing greatness
Refusing to settle called entitled
Called crazy for having an opinion
Having a dream seen as delusional
Setting goals determined not stopping
A bad attitude for speaking up
Being ignored feeling insulted
Asked for courtesy to prepare
Given last minute notice set up to fail
Treated different from the rest
More double standards excluded

He felt lost without his grandpa the family was being taken over by bad leadership. Coping was hard so many imposed their way of life on others. Talking like if they are righteous and know what's best for others. All they was pry in others business when no one asked.
Sad what they've become than have the nerve to judge others. Putting them in the hot seat like they do to everyone else who tried to live an average joe life.
You'd think it would humble them but the greed for control makes them think they are superior.

Going to be a long day
Short staffed at work
No overtime allowed
Not able to get coverage
Everyone wants a job
Not everyone wants to work
Cared too much got overwhelmed
Didn't care felt terrible
The team young hard to motivate
On and off days occurs more than normal
Dealing with different personalities

She told him why didn't you ever ask me out? He was puzzled and never knew that was an option. He didn't consider it since the guys she dated was nothing like him.
He didn't cross that boundary line. He didn't date close friends or within his circle of peers. He didn't date friends family members or exes of people he hung out with.
This would anger them and they would distance themselves. Mad holding a grudge if the friendship failed how could it be a relationship. He had a hard time opening up since his feelings would be used against him. Staying single because his emotions would get the best of him. Dating was fun at the beginning it was easier to get physical than get to know a person.

Hard to trust when they are spreading lies. You forgave them but they aren't forgiving you. Trying to explain while being ignored and talked over. Giving them silence so they have no reason to talk as they continue to run their mouth.
Might make a fussy broken trust thought highly of them. Not going to let them talk down on you. Always been loyal and honest. While the lies and deceit are being served to everyone strong. One talks about leaving while the other points out everyone's flaws. Giving people crap but not doing any of the stuff that's being complained about.

Writing about the arguments in his head. Things he wish he said or should've said. He was part of a group of rejects a leader; who got no respect. A number 2 guy who got mistreated but a great worker. The number 3 guy in the group was a wild card who hard working took charge of his area and time. The fourth member has yet to be hired. The sub is a fit but will the district hire this person who filled that void.
This team was younger some had health issues but the insurance would resolve the conflict. The boss let them do the work and didn't get on anyone's case. Everyone was willing to do the work just needed to have the right tools to get the job done.

Woke up feeling great fully revived
Things are not perfect but are great
Feeling the music it can take me away
The vibes within come to life with satisfaction
Live in peaceful not complicating things
Once was mad but let it go
So many bad vibes not empowering them
Love so many not letting them get the best of my heart
I forgive, but learned it's best to stay away
Learning to love myself again
Years of giving myself to the wrong people
Someday I'll be loved appreciated by the right person
Hopeless romantic to feeling hopeless not giving up on love
Love again like I've never been hurt
Feeling all these emotions usually blocking them out
Years of being with the wrong people praying for the right

He loved his family they never talked all they did was talk about one another. Instead of building each other up all the hatred knocking on another.
Everyone goes through stuff but you can't tell people what to do or how to live their life. All you could do is warn them they won't listen choosing the hard way sometimes is the eye opener.
Being the oldest watching your siblings grow set in their ways not telling them anything then quick to judge you for not giving them their way. Trying to destroy you because they didn't get things their way

Feeling regret made a stand
Taking the insults had enough
Hoping to transfer soon start over
Looked out now filled in willingly
Now feeling left out being rebellious
Called them out proved a point
Wasn't the one got hired
Told there was better candidates
Got insulted gained thick skin
Told the job was a stepping stone
Working harder than everyone
Trying to make it through probation

He sat in his closet writing about the world he once knew. A life he use to live thought about going back. He wanted to finish his education a college drop out that became a custodian. He use to be a team player now he's a rebellious lover who doesn't bother with anyone.
Working hard to better his situation make his grandparents proud he owed that to them. They believed in him when he didn't believe in himself. He thought about what he wanted to major in what would make him happy and doing what he loves. He was always open to adjust and adapt on whatever he was doing

Writing everyday like its a matter of life and death. Sometimes it comes easy feels natural. Other times seek deep inside asking why? Trying to relate usually misunderstood another side nothing to hide. Taking things apart reconstructing them trying to make sense of it each piece plays a role. Rewired trying to make it work when others are quick to replace. Wide awake not able to sleep nerves are calm before needed a drink to unwind easier to open up closed up and closed off holding onto too much.

Being told "get over it" because that person refused to say "I'm sorry" or admit they are wrong. You told them how they made you feel and they seen nothing wrong with what they said or did.
Trying to blame it on you because they'll say you're sensitive. Tell you you're the problem because they refuse to own up.
Call you entitled as a poor kid becoming an adult working for everything. Left alone and they'll call you a narcissist because they can't get to you so they try to get others to see you differently.
Already use to being alone makes you care less what others think. You stop seeking approval. Doing your own thing all this hassling and negative remarks are from people that use people act like it's their right to do so.

Some days I dk what to write other days the words flow right through me.
Sometimes I feel like I write the same thing from another angel
other times the word play can be changed up
I always think about what I want to say and how I'd like to say it it can make a huge difference
Things I'd like to say but no one is listening
Thoughts so deep and dark don't want to offend or be misunderstood
Always holding back because the truth is like a blade cutting deep drawing first blood
Told myself to write every day and night
I feel off when I don't make time to write
Post or pen to the pad clears mind instead of holding it all in

Avoiding that wicked person who always complained trying to take others down because life is miserable. Always negative over dumb things they are that petty.
They are fake to your face while talking about you behind your back. Giving an opinion no one asked.
Talking like they are a somebody but really a nobody pretending to be a somebody. Talking so much they believe their own lies and will go against you if you question them or challenge their way of thinking. They won't just attack you their try to erase your existence.
He didn't like those kind of people what ***** most was he had family members that behaved this way. It was terrible behavior that inexcusable.
He learned to be honest and to treat people right. He got quiet and walked away from the pain all the frustration that would ruin his day.

Being punched by an older man
Who was lazy he called him on it
He lost his job over the altercation
Working hard doing more than the rest.
Never enough time barely getting by focused on getting it done. Next day start over playing the game trying to beat the clock.
Being the chosen one can't let up the pressure is on not afraid to try; while most hide instead of stepping it up. Learning to lead and being an example tire of being talked down to letting others steal the credit.

He sat at the bar with a buzz chilling with his cousin. He admired the bartender her beauty young hot body blonde. He enjoyed the night a colleague from work would swing by for a drink. Enjoying pizza and great company. He was older wondering if he still had it.
His coworkers envied him because he has hair and single. While he wanted to be in a relationship with kids. He lived a lonely life and made the most of things. He had been a wild one but it got old dull most of all boring.

He took pride walking into enemy camp now a days he prefers to be alone writing and listening to music. He'd like friends but thankful for the few loyal ones he has. He could be himself open up vent without his feelings being ignored or belittled since he was okay being vulnerable while others seen him as weak and preyed on his because they assumed he wouldn't do anything. Trying to relax is hard so much on the mind. Overwhelmed too much at once thinking about dating, after being in failed relationships learning to be alone. loving yourself after feeling unworthy devalued being with the wrong person.
Failed friendships all the gossip when he told them straight up. Everything came around when he called them on it they had the nerve to be upset trying to flip the script. He valued them and they trashed him that's what hurt the most.
He worked hard flustered they hired the lazy guy over him. He hung in there toughed it out worked harder asking if he was in the right place or was it time for him to move on. He love the community of people learned so much because he was open to learn and grow.
His dreams made sense to him while others caller him crazy. Saying no one like him can do it so it made him want it more. He never wanted to give up, who he was to be accepted told himself make the most of things even if they ****. Make it better, don't settle for less make the most of what is given.
Always willing to adjust to the encounter adapt to the situation. Pondering the next move brainstorming ideas

He asked why can't we be friends? She said if you get with someone I might get jealous. Who knew there was someone else on her end. After things crumbled she did everything she said she'd never do. She claimed she didn't want kids or to get married. she did all that with someone else.
She wanted a relationship but not with him. After being lead on he learned the lesson and moved on.
He became a workaholic so he could better himself. Relationships were complicated. He was told put yourself out there so much rejection and he could see through the act trying to get to know a person. He stayed true to himself when trying to get to know a person.

Training for a fight that may or may not happen. At the park working on drills and conditioning to go the round and the distance. So many outside factors causing a fuss. A job opportunity that seemed promising but hasn't been a pleasant transition. Trying to move up to the next level and maintain keep building up. The idea of starting over is overwhelming.
Giving up the old for new trying to remain the same but everything changes. The mindset and body something are containable while others are a lost cause. Stuck on them wondering how and why things turned out the way they did. Not going back but staying away from that insanity.

Called ghetto for standing up for myself
Told the truth everyone is mad
The lies continue to fester and pester
Easier to walk away everything lost value
Only in it for the insurance for medication
Called a super hero for bouncing back
Trying to be normal after surgery
Always seen as different standing tall

What is normal?
Parents with bad habits tough love
Siblings growing up opposing another
When things are weird on my end
Be in a healthy relationship for once
Not be with someone controlling
Who tries to change everything
Or fixed to be passed off
Be able to open up and feel safe
Without words being twisted
That's why I write to express emotions
Able to have a voice with feelings
Instead of fighting for a spot to belong
Love family, but words cut deep

His dream was a nightmare to others
Working harder than most barely getting by
Never too late make time for it
Write your story no one can do that for you
Dealt with those who accept things
Quick to ask a question
If it sounds weird clarification
Had an opinion got blocked
Didn't mean to trigger a guilty conscience
Put out the truth it got real
Defensive liars ready to strike
Opposed for being different
Observing the situation
Analyzing the vibes

Hard to open up show emotions
He had an opinion his words flipped
Emotions used against him
Silences stirre the truth within
Always feeling alienated by peers
Excluded his opinion not validated
Be a certain way live up to ideals
All he wanted was to be himself
Treated like he did something wrong
Working twice as hard feeling cheated
Rsing up feeling brought down

Rich or poor doesn't matter when you dk who you are anymore
Love and live life Sometimes you fail and wander lost not my cause
Keep trying but so far from where I set out to be
They want you to argue for them but they are the ones talking about you
My skin color doesn't come with a stereotype
My reality is not taboo my way of life is changing from child to man
My *** and gender are not to keep me superior
Don't care for labels
My beliefs and religion are not the same

He danced with his loneliness while they looked down on him. He loved them but held onto all those horrible things they said. He thought who do they think are; what gives them the right to think, they could talk to him that way.
He was always respectful minded his mouth. He didn't get involved hed provide a solution but it just lead to more problems. Sad and disturbed by the harsh reality. He seen them ***** ppl only a matter of time till he took the knife of betrayal.

He didn't expect much of others
But gave his all with everything
He opened up no one cared or listened
After a while he was closed off
Wasn't sure what he could do anymore
Joked with people that are too serious
Too serious around jokes that are insults
The dreamer knew what he wanted
Dk what he was looking for in a partner
She was pretty but insecure too needy
He made a mistake chose phony friends
Over a relationship that could of been more
Too much misery dieing to escape feeling drained
Never good enough to keep this love
Spent money on gifts that were belittled
Compared to an ex that was the standard
It wasn't meant to be not trying anymore
A mother cussing over a spoiled daughter

Wide awake thinking about the day what's next? Staying clear of drama things that hurt him or made him mad. He didn't feed into toxic vibes or empower negative idiots.
He sat in his room writing thinking about the plan before jumping into action. Having an idea instead of assuming the outcome usually trying to make it through the day.
Dating is fun but he was private everyone tried to tell him how to live and who to be he didn't like that. Mean while dealing the younger generation trying to tell him when he had done way more. Everyone was quick to judge he didn't say or do anything to anyone.
He gave relationship advice to help but he was single. Gave parent advice for the kids best interest but the parent only card about feeding those bad habits. He meant well positive intensions while they tried to throw him under making him the scapegoat.