Music opens my mind
Using my imagination to remember
Songs take me to a better time
When life seemed simple made sense
The song I first kissed a girl to in my heart
Music taps into that moment great memories
Music on the track a second home
While training found motivation
Driving home with music blaring
My first slow dance in a college dorm
Fun songs at a kick back drinking with friends
All these moments are golden
Atreasure within the heart

Always nervous
Stress in the shoulders
Walking around tense
Trying not to stress
A mindful mouth
Unease with family
Prefer to stay home
Trying to be involved
It can be overwhelming
Conversation is tough
Being ignored gets old
Silent then asked why so quiet
Once a word is uttered
Someone talks loud like
If what they are saying is more important

Always the weird one for being different
Called crazy for having an opinion
Stood up for what's right meant well
Twisted by others seen as doing wrong
Went into the world faced new obstacles
Still can't find a place an outsider
Looking in trying to belong feel complete
Without denying ones self to belong
Old friends become strangers grew apart
Missing their companionship that became hatred
That betrayal hurt the most so much deceit
Seen them like family showed so much love
After a few mistakes cutoff tried unworthy
Even if their was redemption still not forgiven
Move on from this unfortunate turn of events
All held over head like a bad storm of dark clouds

Train makes nosie in the distance
A freeway full of buzzing cars
Sounds of the hometown
All normal feel right
Hard to leave this place
Don't like change will adapt
The city evolved grown
A small town over populated
Friends grew a part
Now strangers on the go
New situations to live
Overcome addiction
Fall into bad habits
Recovery from darkness
Life in sunlight
Old faces replaced
A chapters ends
Start a new
Let life begin

Moving on to better
Can't stay in the same place
Another worried face
Focused on one path
Ended up on another
From free spirit and broke
Now responsible chains of work
Same old routine on repeat
Wondering if it means anything
Loyal for years in too deep
Get off this one way street
Jack of all trades another phase
Working hard to gain
Mostly giving and no returns

Always reaching out to old friends
Denied and ignored over dumb mistakes
Made many in the past battled addiction
Drank to cover up pain and hurt
From a lost sibling and loved one
Use to party hard and hurt people on the process
Those self destructive ways are over
Apologized not forgiven but changed behavior
Took an oath to never drink again
Did it for others now doing it for oneself
The party scene is no longer fun
Stopped looking for love in all the wrong places
Use to be emotionally invested attached to others
They come and go like the season with out reason
Fought to be included still pushed out
Accepted rejection the old version has passed on
While the new continues to learn and grow
An older man can't play the young man's game
The mindset changes the body aches with time
Had many close friends who are now distant
New friends that appreciate the growth and effort
Never one to replace friends been easily replaced
From the kid who came over everyday
Hated being home with family issues
Being around good people felt right
Being an adult isn't easy lots of failure
Life lessons that have helped grow over time
Being hurt finally coped with it all without fear
Dealing with all the anger and frustration
Hurt others and didn't mean to disappoint
Not always like by others
Not trying to live up to others standards
Just trying to be who one set out to be
All these high standard and double standards
Respectful even when treated unfair
Value people over material possessions

If you are cheating
Don't expect me to cover up lies
Not backing up liars
You lie to others eventually do it to me
Seen you steal and you took from me
Wish I never turned a blind eye
Never said anything about you
You had so much to say about me
Fake to my face knife to my back
Loved you like family threw me out like trash
Hard to trust there's so much lusting
Broken home actioning up don't make it right
Thankful for all I have worked for mine
Willing to help not one to complain
Snapping out of daze over the phase
Over the betrayal good will prevail

Her smile melts hearts
Those jeans others notice
Driving fast hauling ***
Wasting gas on the road
Freezing cold dressed warm
Different worlds crossed paths
Mutual respect personal friendship
Warm loving filled with emotions
Opposite personalities matching humor

Untold tales from the past
A failed love that never began
The guy doesn't always get the girl
Everything played out and over now
The hardest worker with ambition
First one fired over drama
Who never got hired
Politics never in his favor
Tried to move up but limited
Only moving side to side
No where to run or hide
Found safety in writing
Got it all out of the system
Moving on let it go
Able to function better

Being told get a life
Prefer simple over complicating things
Don't need much to be happy
Getting criticized but said nothing
Wondering where is this coming from
Being a hermit okay with solitude
Use to be a planner everyone flaked out
Learned to do things alone
Things that want to be done
Not taking on others frustrations
Haven't burden others not comparing problems
Needed to vent writing is the listening ear
Changed so much it's never enough
Happy with some decisions made
Others are mad but never around
I respect opinions not always agreeing
What others have to say
Thought it would help
Use to take it to the heart
Too many voices blocking out the feelings
Hiding in the mind to escape
Not showing any emotions
Sometimes hurting but rocking a smile
Emotional eating feeling sick after
Other times starving to clean out the system

Each day feeling further away
The master plan unweaving
Didn't go accordingly
Woke up older wiser than before
So many life lessons learned
From wild child to composed
Reserved more selective
Holding back any actions
Feels like others judge
Made to look crazy in phase
More determined anxious than ever
Staying clever focused on being better
Always putting other first
Give them the best try to bring it out
Over taking on the worse
Set in those wicked ways

Analyze everything
Over thinking things
It doesn't feel right
The vibe very unsettling
Doesn't make sense
Actions don't match
What's being said
Silence leads to a loud mind
Speaking up makes it awkward
A friend tells the truth
Not one to lie prefer honesty
Following the train of thought

He didn't believe in denying himself
To be liked to be accepted
Not listening to the doubters
Rejected labels a natural leader
Not a follower worked harder
Busting his *** never a kiss ***
His work stood out no excuses
Not a brown noser full of lies
Not seeking approval of others
left for dead overlooked yet again
underestimated still doing more

Never enough still going strong
Crazy enough to go back for more
Walked away from overwhelming
It's on the back of my mind
How to fix the problem
Embrace solutions
Make it better for all
Being an example for the rest
Lead by example take pride
Not make an example of others

Always dreaming
Always believing
Use to be wild
There's no re-dos
Not a game that can be reset
Live learn grow
Adapt and adjust stay strong
Keeping going forward
Things go wrong stay strong
Eventually level out with time

He waited for the call
It never happened
He became anxious
Not always chosen first
Only got the job by default
Gave his all gained nothing
Burnt out going strong for days
Making the most of the situation

Not buying into the hype
Spoke up not a follower
Hated for the truth
While others praised for lies
Thankful to be working
Know what its like to be broke
Grew up low income
Learned nothing is given
Earn your keep go strong
Shared blessings with others
Stayed efficient and consistent
Rode through the bumps in the road

Someday thoughts over flow
The pen puts them on the page
A day without writing
Such a scary thought
The ideas filled with randomness
What needs to be done to feel complete
How to get there in a timely manner
Writing checks the insanity
Try not to criticize others
Opened to learn live life
Stories that need to be told
Shared a life a significant other
Memories full of life remembered
Treasuring youth days never getting old
Hard to let go of things that bring a smile

Use to be broke as a joke
Now thankful to be working
Grateful to be doing something
Called names and given labels
Moved on not stuck on the past
Things happen so fast not attached
Before they get started departed
Comes to an end no need to pretend

Driving on the road alone
Traffic not so bad driving fast
Walked in the store real quick
Grabbed what needed on the way
Now staring at the new art pad
Not sure what to draw first
But ideas floating around the mind
See her face a loving smile that shines bright
Not able to explain the beauty that's felt
Drawing is soothing not great at shading
Emotions come out defined from within
With the pressure of the pencil
Could be deep and dark full of detail
Or light with shades forming a picture
Every line detail needs to be done right
Affraid to mess up start over again
Might do it better or might turn out worse
A creative heart makes sure it comes out great
Won't let go till it's done correctly
Once it's sent out for the world
Peace within since it feels right

Been going strong all summer
Glad for the three day weekend
Sleep in late still plan for day
The summer heat go away
Year round heat needs to give
Always one sided giving all in
Gave the best stuck with less
Expected more got the worse
Not surprised more disappointments
Thought of another outcome
Trying to hard got nothing
Said nothing got taken for granted
Spoke up someone is always mad