Meeting new people ***** you make time for them but they have no room for you. Things change after getting sober. You see people are married but not happy or bound together by children. People come and go like the seasons so.e you'd like to stay while others you're glad to let them leave freely.
Looking in wondering asking why but once your in it feels like you're better off without. Some people do drugs and drink becoming dependent on it. You'd like to see them get better but they made their choices you respect them by moving on. You can't go back because they have to want help

The unsung hero continues to do what's right
Always honest and it makes others not like him
His heart meant well with no hidden agendas
He helped the elderly held doors, respectful, mild manner values that are lost in today's society
They thanked him for his efforts but he was just doing his job. He thanked them for the appreciation
He respected the women he encountered even though most did not know their value and settled for less he'd help them if they were in danger most walked into the burning fire
He backed up his friends when most left him hanging he felt disrespected but forgave them
He never did anything from people while others his lies and disappeared when they were up to no good
He never seen them differently or judged them but if he made a mistake they threw the book at him
He stood by his word and honored it if he made promises
Was always there and reliable even when they would send him packing once the assignment was over
He lived and learned from the experience thankful even though things didn't turn out accordingly he did learn something new from every encounter

Dark and deep from the head to feet
Closed my eyes and seen us together
Great in my head but the reality a blur
No where near the truth it ends ruthless
Kept trying to make it work by lieing to myself
Thought I couldn't do without better off without
Lost in your ways had to rediscover myself once again
Letting go was hard once I surrender this toxic wave
I was freed and saved moved on with my days
Years passed struggled over come the daze
Happy you moved on while I stayed stuck
Once I did the same angered hatred came my way
Free of the guilt of not being loved
My problem is loving the wrong person
All this faith for love ends with betrayal hate
Ending it before it could grow to much more
Not the bad guy but in your story I'm the worse
Failed love is a curse wish you the best
While you play victim and red wishing less
Not more pondering being depressed

Tired this time change being loyal and still haven't got hired sometimes determined to bail. The people are great but it has it's days. Feeling weak trying to find strength within. I know there's more out there use to being ignored and kept out when you are doing good more negativity. Sometimes things are bad and you are being ******* yourself no one bothers with you.
A fight to fit in and belong eventually you give up on them but it feels like you give up on yourself. Its like these fake rules and standards are made to keep you out. Spoke the truth once as they **** you off mess with you off everyday.

Last write of the night they ask what bugs you most
When family talks bad about one another and can't get along
The intensity wrong the pride going strong but the family will survive
Once a best friend sad it came to an end over a chick that played everyone and even played herself
Said sorry so many times but it won't ever be right back in the days we use to be tight
Had to cut the cord for you treating me bad that doesn't make you right
Never forgiven or with your shady ways
I use to be self destructive set in my ways not like that anymore
No more bad habits trying to live instead of lose it all so much I worked for
Too bad I'm not dead inside from being around others who made me feel like a no body destine to become somebody
Friend to foe these bad vibes need to go no killing my good deeds over your negativity
Wanted something more do who you are anymore in your eyes I'm the bad guy in your story stop spreading lies
Admitted my wrong now your trying to shame me thought you were better now I stay away and whatever
Told myself grow do more for your life do better work with what you got adjust and adapt focused on pursuing a dream
It means everything to me and means nothing to you killer me off write me off use to be close now you pretend not to know me

So many unexpressed emotions the fear of being seen different. Not too wild or crazy when it comes to being open with others but it's hard to be honest when others are too sensitive. So many dreams that mean something but not sure what they are trying to say. Always doing what I love so there's no time to hate. Listening to music can always express myself but it does help me relate. I think of ways to fit in don't always belong not always liked or a favorite. Bite my lip because I don't want anyone hating me or mad at me. It ***** others think they can walk over me they mistake my kindness as weakness. The music takes me away feelings in lyrics or sounds that give my soul life. Taking me away since I can't always be see with everyone but doing it alone and have grown

An emotional eater because it hasn't happened yet
Worried how long and when it's going to happen
Sad because everything was going
Now it's just at a stand still
Feeling stuck while waiting
Looked in the mirror
Someone new mentally overwhelmed
Skin is dark with jaundice
Brown eyes with yellow tint
Praying for change a miracle
Once argue now walking away
Prayed for them I don't owe them
And they don't own me
Enjoy your unwelcoming home
Told to bring food no generic brands
So much for hospitality
Would rather be outside than take off shoes to be in the carpet

Hard to sleep writing till the tiredness kicks in
Arguments in the mind the voices in the head so loud doesn't make them right.
Ease the pain release the tension so many thoughts stuck in suspension.
Till the mind goes clear and feelings go numb. So the body can rest and pain goes away.

They told him it was pride he forgave them and moved on. They kept it up all the bad attitudes and mouthing people behind their back. He told them straight up to their face he wasn't running but when he stood up against them, they knew they had no power or say over him.  
He moved in the light while they'd sneak around in the darkness. He wasn't afraid of the dark it was second nature.

It would never be a one on one. They'll slander his name bad mouth his reputation trying to influence others to see the worse when they dk him. That's why he chose to be a lone wolf not able to trust anyone over all the lies when he was loyal and true now a days its a lost value.

A great training session he went hard. He wasn't a great fighter but did like the competition. He learned to slow down focus on technique and form. He had heavy hands lots of strength full of power. Learning to do it from both sides of the pads and gloves. He had fun with it. Made it easier for him to sleep at night

What did you want to learn
What are your weakness
Everyday trying to be better
Improve the situation
Going against the odds
Spoke up told the truth
Kept out of the loop
Prefer not to get involved
Doing the job and going home
Minding this mouth and business
Use to do extra now excluded
Isolated but use to being alone
Trying to be myself not what others say
Not all the lies others make me out to be
Open to change looking else where
Tired of the lies don't trust anyone
Being taken for granted mistreated

Not into parties love the family
Never going to live up to standards
An outcast looking in wanting to fit in
Some one is always mad holding a grudge
Talks down on you once a stand is taken
Others offended when questioned
Always the bad guy just trying to be
Gained thick skin desensitized emotionally
Feelings go deep dark overwhelming
Backed into a corner heart racing
Mind grasping to logic and reason
Being in an uncomfortable situation
Why is the guilt spiraling out of control
Never understood all the hype
One minute your loved scared to mess up
Next you are forgotten no one bothers

He always put others first once he talked about making moves and moving on they'd turn on him. He did what they wanted but needed to do it his way. It always led to conflict and fall outs because of conflict of interest. He was use to being the bad guy because everyone has to be right never admitting their wrongs.
He was done always for them they shook him down. If he ever asked for help or a favor they'd treat him like a nobody after. Made him feel useless and invisible. While they sponged and leeched doing all the things they told him not to do.

They laugh at the truth. He's single because his last gf didn't trust him. He was always with her yet she accused him of cheating. The bad communication and the ****** interaction became a distraction from the real problem. One was in love afraid to be alone. The other tried to care and love was hurt and things never got better.
Trying to end is was hard when you love you fall hard. When you end up with aperson you don't love but appreciate their company eats you from the inside out.
Trying to love like you've never been hurt. Being brave and bold no longer like the old. Cautious protecting my his heart trying to move on.

Walter was always protecting those who hurt him. He was always up beat and positive once he started talking about no one seemed to believe him.
Walter was a family man that grew up with tough love. It felt like he has to earn the love of his parents and family to be accepted. He wanted to be himself without compromising his growth. It was important to be an individual not just another face in the crowd.
He respected the normals, and values that he grew up with, but didn't agree with some. He picked and chose what he liked because some were restricting and limiting him.
Walt was tired of holding back putting his life on pause because something was missing. He decided to live and hope it would all fall into place.

Got knocked down bounced back up
Like a weeble back up not staying down
Knocked over by alcohol struggle within
Back up with sobriety clarity of mind
Broken hearted popped up with faith
Rejected made out to be weak denied
Standing tall stronger than before
Health derailed with cirrhosis
Back on track staying active
Doing what's right to win the fight
Writing unexpressed emotions to escape
Sharing feelings able to cope
Freed from internal burdens

He got cut it use to huet his feelings but gets it now. He wanted to do and be better but couldn't with the wrong people. He loved them but they couldn't agree or compromise. It was better they depart to go their separate ways. One focused on work and improving.
The other developed habits talking about everyone trying to use that negativity to influence other perspective on him.
He was rebel that got used had trust issues. Preferred to be alone opened up trusted the wrong people.
It was a vicious cycle learned to stay out not get involved focus on what needed to be done. He knew it wasn't given had to work for it.

I've always been the creative type. I trust my work with others but it keeps being set aside or being alter my vision deluted. I think of taking a stand so that I can get what exactly what I'm looking for.
I'm not the directing type I can do great things but keep limiting myself. I've written many scenes that I can piece together but coordinating the actors and a set is all new to me. I've seen my friends work but its not my vision working production is a process in many aspects
I usually trust others judgement I need to get better and have confidence in myself. I don't want to be sneaky and go behind peoples back but waiting I'm not gaining or learning anything.
Starting and getting it done matters most to me this plotting and what if or what could be scenario gets old. I hear one thing but they do another so its kind of hard to settle or expect anything. I see more but dealing with less.

A group of rejects who came together for the greater good. The black sheep composed hard to go back all ******* up. There's no going back, already failed once. Already know the outcome been there before. Feeling captured, by others false perceptions.
Those mistakes he's trying to forget while they are held over his head trying to manipulate and control him. He was frustrated with them all these double standards. He walked away this wont go away.
The change was hard because they kept bring up the past. He was never forgiven or accepted he learned to be okay with it since he wasn't hurting anyone. He didn't want to spread it so he let it die within himself.

The karma tab was running high
Sooner or later would due soon enough
All the lies will be destroyed by the truth
The hard working will surpass the lazy
Flapping mouths shut for causing drama
Those roadblocks will be removed
Gained from the detour strong from the journey
The wrong made right the light drowns darkness

Leaving home to pursue a degree
Away from home missing family
Experiencing the world lots of changes
Freedom to learn and grow mentally
Emotionally struggling with transition
Hard to express love show emotions
Never grew up not being heard
Having a say published for speaking up
Trusting others is difficult
learned to be alone sent to the back
Older now doing things on the go
No one will do the work for you
One must do things by ones self

Whats the problem? What's on your mind? Questions I've been asking myself. How can I do this better. Focused more on improving bettering your situation. Getting older feels like lots of time being wasted about to turn 40. Young at heart with the old man mentality.
Having a good time remembering the good old days. Lost in the present fear of the unknown. Taking it one day at a time not overthinking.
Slowing down remaining calm the athlete within refusing quit. A fighter with all heart that got him through the tough training and hard moments. Head down plow through the roadblocks

Denied the right not going to argue or fight
Walking away it's going to be a war
Say something that might lead to regret
Miscommunication to be right instead of a solution
Insults making things personal
Invalid argument no results just personal attacks
Clearly wrong trying to justify things
Sad family is divided no one talks
Assumptions growing in the mind
No one is talking about you get over yourself
Making others take your side doesn't make you right.
It fuels a bad person to destroy others who have views and opinions

Why are you so negative? You push people away? You are a good person but you let your temper get the best of you. Always busting mine but you are never satisfied with anything. You make faces and rude, I understand you are upset but if you don't communicate I can't fix the problem don't be fake to my face that's where I draw the line don't tell me one thing and say another to other people. I respect you have seniority but don't act like you don't your job perfect. Everyone makes mistakes has bad days. We are suppose to be a team everyone wants to take the credit and throw the blame my way. I'm still new but learning not afraid to try and fail because that's how you get better. Being part time does **** but I work like a full time person because I want it and make sure they notice when I'm gone. I respect everyone's opinion and situation what annoys me most is how no one says it to their face. How they bad mouth each other but don't bother to talk it out. No one owns up but blames and points the finger. I work to be among the group but I don't belong I already accepted that not trying to please anyone just focus on work get it done and go home. It's been frustrating because I can be somewhere else or go somewhere different be happy instead of dealing with attitudes and egos. It's Friday enjoy the weekend back to the grind monday.

Don't use people or take advantage of them.
I appreciate others respect their differences.
Willing to listen to problems and provide a solution.
I can't always vent but pour my heart into my notebook.
The only way I can feel get in touch with myself.
Helps me cope figure it out do what's best.
I've learned to move forward not stay **** in transition. Sometimes it's beyond my control so work with what I got and make the most of things.
Not afraid to grow and learn keep putting forth an effort. Might come up short but determined for more pursuing greatness

He sat in his closet writing about the world he once knew. A life he use to live thought about going back. He wanted to finish his education a college drop out that became a custodian. He use to be a team player now he's a rebellious lover who doesn't bother with anyone.
Working hard to better his situation make his grandparents proud he owed that to them. They believed in him when he didn't believe in himself. He thought about what he wanted to major in what would make him happy and doing what he loves. He was always open to adjust and adapt on whatever he was doing

Trying to understand their logic
Putting myself in the situation
Using my imagination
Never been one to hate
Everyone is different for a reason
Not comparing myself to anyone
Working to better my situation
No time for criticism or negativity
Walked aways from toxic people
Had to cut the cord losing connection
Family loves not healthy too many terms
Conditions to be accepted dieing inside
Turned down personality usually charged
Diluted feelings to be accepted
Emotions ignored by double standards
The souls glow being dimmed by attitude
Fall in place destroy by hostile anger
Your character will be slandered
Evil trying to erase your existence
Being isolated no control of others narrative
Doesn't hurt use to being alone
Alive and well its close go home
A disrespectful mouth crosses boundaries
Getting out of line is dangerous comfort
Eventually pushing everyone away
Time will shift in shift in the favor of good

Arms are heavy Hard to breathe
Feel like stone limited movement
Fighting back trying not to overreact
Pressing forward not backing down
Trying to change it up burnt up
Going the distance o much resistance
Giving your all in offense
Trying to time it out on offense
Finding another window for the round

A young child watch his parents be consumed
One on drugs while the other an alcoholic
Both with bad habits that would cause a broken home
The week would be fine and he dreaded the weekend
Pay day so this addictive cycle would take its toll on the family
People change under the influence a child watching these behaviors took away from childhood
Feeling useless and not able to help but blaming himself because of his parents even though he did nothing wrong
Worried for them made it hard to focus that he didn't like being home
He got involved with sports even though it was too expensive once season ended
He discovered the track challenged him to get those laps in
His best friend and him would go everyday being in high school self conscience even though all their life they had been heavy set
He jogged the track imagined him going somewhere better different outside his home town things never changed in his city
The more he worried the more he appreciated the track
At the end of the night he'd get home and knock out hard since when I didn't exercise it made sleep hard to do
He knew there was more out there and experienced it
Sharing his world with others wishing they could go see what his eyes saw
His world welcomed everyone even though it was hard for others to accept
He wanted to change the world make a difference but can't carry the burden of the world anymore
Dealing with his own demons that tormented him