Friends come and go like the seasons
Formal partners another fall out
Moved on never looked back
Break up hurt becoming immune
Opening up to the wrong people
Hoping they'd love you
Feel the same way back
Betrayal is the worse
More painful from family
Trying to make things right
Not going well feels wrong
Not empowering those
Who trash your name
Ignore your opinions
They can't hurt you
Its already been done
Never letting them do it again
Stayed away feels like they want
As they taunt and provoke you
Took the high road hard to speak
The mind ready to speak hard to focus
Like defusing a bomb imploding within
Trying not to react staying calm collected
A war in this head taking its toll
While the struggle battles hard

The karma tab was running high
Sooner or later would due soon enough
All the lies will be destroyed by the truth
The hard working will surpass the lazy
Flapping mouths shut for causing drama
Those roadblocks will be removed
Gained from the detour strong from the journey
The wrong made right the light drowns darkness

Always working to prove yourself. Bust your *** because it's the right thing to do. He said to be active be more than before. Never settle for average be better than before.
Striving through being honest is easy while lies and complicated people try to bring you down so they won't get in trouble. Always down to work without fear so many people quick to pass the blame instead of owning up and fixing the mistake.
Helping the team even if they don't return the favor. staying positive around toxic negative people.  Some have a bad rep it doesn't matter let your work shine more than what others think. Don't use someone as an excuse to be lazy because you don't see eye to eye or not able to agree come to term. Just focus on the work not obsessing on trying to change on another.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

Without arguing everyone managed to get along. Everyone is going through something some listen others dk how to express their frustration taking it out on Everyone. Some love to argue others don't do well with confrontation. Trying ro make the most of it all. Everyday is a struggle some handle it better than others. Some just never own up and blame others for their bad decisions.

Walking away is easier when the person doesn't listen and made up their mind. Talking bad and trying to influence others trying to justify the misconduct know well what they are trying to do.
Sad times don't last focus on the good because things get better.

Sometimes disconnecting recharging from things that drain your energy is the best move. Loving people even though we don't agree or see eye to eye.

As you get older you can't keep doing the same stuff. You don't recover the same and the body goes through more changes even after puberty. The desire and rush fades away sometimes you ignore the delusions stay away from things because you don't agree or want no part of that nonsense. Years of fighting over meaningless stuff you turn your back walk away don't empower the BS. Do what makes you happy focus on being better sometimes you help others on the way other times you need to help yourself. As I get older it's like racing time.
Lots of reaching the top but breaking through on the glass ceiling is the hard part. Doing things that you'd never do or because they told you it couldn't be done. Proving people wrong but they don't care don't be distracted and blinded by people who don't care about you. Use you and take you for granted you deserve much more and better. Helping others can be rewarding but found most are not greatful and don't appreciate your efforts but the ones who do make your efforts feel worth your time.
Times changes don't like that I have to give up my values or beliefs to be accepted. Respect was a big thing if you didn't have it you're nobody. Now a days so many things don't make sense but that's what's trending. I've grown and learned to be happy with myself and work with what I have. It's been a tough road in denial of what the future has become but do respect the reality even if I disagree.
From my teens to my thirties seen and experienced so much you can't stay in the past things change all those road blocks and detours go away. Never too late don't lose hope because it hasn't happened yet.

Music brings back memories
Reminded of that person
An intimate moment together
On the road a long adventure home
Songs shared among friends
Flashback to better times
Upbeat bass matches the heart
A numb soul begins to heal
Hurt filled with hopeful melodies
Feeling emotions connected to lyrics

Had an idea faced criticism
Stolen ideas getting accepted
Ignored someone else said it now it's liked
Talking loud doesn't mean right
One sided argument doesn't mean anything
Destroying a public image for superiority
Gather in the masses that don't agree
Shares hatred unifies causing conflict

On the road on the Go
Who know what was ahead
The team took an L
At their best raising hell
From the bottom to the top
Win or lose going all in
All the rage in and outta the cage
Win together bonding
Lose together growing united
Support for one another
Picking each other up
Striving towards greatness
Working hard to be a legend
Determined to be icon status

I thought we could be together but you always rely on your friends but seem to tell me your troubles. I gave my honest opinion even though you are another person with your friends. You are like two people. I've learned to distance myself because you can't be your own person or be the person I thought. I valued the good times but need to stay away. You are strong independent but you are dependent on you peers that doesn't make sense but that's the reality. Always seen eye to eye but now we don't talk and from friends to strangers.

In the car from the street to a dirt road
The street leveled and calm more common
while the man made roads uneven and narrow
Speeding up a steep hill not sure it the top is leveled
The fear seape through the pores
So many scary thoughts racing in my mind
Going to the top the car losing traction
Not sure what's on the other side over a cliff
The tires kicking up dirt while a dust cloud follows
My heart gets a rush from the adrenaline
Hand holds onto the hand rail for dear life
Another steep drop overcome the fear
Cousin drives while I sit shotgun testing his vehicle against mother nature
watching the road up ahead being extra eyes
All new and fun another experience to enjoy
I toxicated by the thrill seeking adventure
Overdosed being an adrenaline ******
Nice change in routine something exciting and different for a change

Not agreeing with the labels
Playing the games anymore
Wasting time with the wrong ppl
Forgiving and moving on
Letting go of all the bad vibes
Since it does nothing just toxic
Needed space feeling smothered
Got close caught up with feelings
hopes up was mistaken hyped up
Made assumptions got hurt
Hearts not the same wanting different
Other things in mind the process

The tripod was not equal one took on more of the load than the rest. He brought ideas most would be denied or rejected. He got tired of being denied and rejected so he left and did his own thing. He took time to figure it out. He would remain determined he didn't have anything in his favor.
He kept working and writing while everyone worried about the public front they put on. He didn't care who was watching but did focus on writing and what he wanted to say for the topic. He always wanted to inspire and encourage others since no one heard his story because everyone wanted to Shadow him. They kept trying to dull his shine put out his fire but he kept burning determined to stay alive.
Playing many roles willing to learn it all so he can progress in the BS ranks they created. He was one to take charge and organize everything while they kept trying to change the schedule on him. Things didn't always fall in his favor but he was willing adapt and adjust. He was not going to be overlooked or ignored these changes lit a fire under him

The heart of a warrior beating strong
Fighting to be heard rise above hate
Tired of being ignored walked away
Taking a stand left all alone
Went against family seen as taboo
Family has been disrespectful for years
Talking bad on others they are no better
Running mouths that cause drama
Trying to expose others to hide wicked way
Called them on it now they are mad
Try to erase you for having an opinion
Cross you out for speaking your mind
Never used or took anyone for granted

Not everyone things or feels the way he does. Laying in his bed reflecting his week. Wondering what else is out there beyond the work routine. He thought about friends but doesn't have many he could rely on or trust.
Where to meet people since sober living was important to his way of life.
After being in a few bad and unhealthy relationships he thought it was easier being alone. He didn't mind being solo and isolated became a regular reoccurrence. Alone with his thought ideas why they didn't happen. How come he never tried or pursued those bubbling creations in the back of his mind.

Ending the night writing before bed making it easier to sleep. Over all the bad focused on good. Some pictures have him asking what else is going on. He remembers the good time followed by the bad hand in hand. More loss than gains in those moments.
This journey a long way to go, can't go back that means losing progress. Hoping it would change same old BS different day. Same hostility different crow that wants a say. Not easily manipulated or following the deceitful majority.
He learned to ask questions, and do his own thing. Before he cared which empowered people, who used him took him for granted. Now hes matching energy not get drained by those who chose misery over happy. He respected their decision so many impositions.

All this pressure feeling like why can't that be you. Others didn't give any effort but expecting more. Giving everything nothing in return such a burn. Helping because it's right incompetence picking a fight.
Held to another standard not trying to get played with these made up rules double standards.
He worked hard didn't take crap from anyone. Did his work and extra too much drama didn't care to be involved.
Some days they loved him others he got the 3rd degree. After a while he stopped caring getting involved. It was exhausting to give his energy while they didn't even try. He never talked about them but they had plenty to say. No one asked or was interested. Everyone had a life to live no time for critics.

The day you say "this is not for me" the world changes. All the people, I've encountered had fun with. Once the alcohol craving went away no one cares to stay. The party was over see who my true friends are now that I'm sober. Most went away but I won't beg them to stay a new chapter of life. Now they talk about me when I had nothing but good things to say. Deep down I knew I was better than them anyway. Focused on work no time for drama or fake friends being alone got easy. No longer afraid to be alone now a days it's all I know. I prefer to be writing over arguing and fighting. Sober because I hurt others most of all myself. Clean life things are easier and less stress since liquid courage made things worse. Sober living breaks this curse things are better can't complain.
No more hang overs but living life over and over again

He worked hard didn't get the job about to experience some down time. Tough times during this transition all the pain all the frustration. Didn't want it to change but everything is happening so rapidly. Lost the girl who was never loyal projecting her guilt on you. Friends in bad relationships not making time for this friendship. Trying to be happy others are miserable.

The cold windy breeze
Birds chirping in the distance
Leaves ruffling against one another
The clouds setting the mood making it dim
Nature vibes so intense; quiet compared to the city
Natures natural beauty so pretty
The city so loud best feeling to escape the crowd

A group of rejects who came together for the greater good. The black sheep composed hard to go back all ******* up. There's no going back, already failed once. Already know the outcome been there before. Feeling captured, by others false perceptions.
Those mistakes he's trying to forget while they are held over his head trying to manipulate and control him. He was frustrated with them all these double standards. He walked away this wont go away.
The change was hard because they kept bring up the past. He was never forgiven or accepted he learned to be okay with it since he wasn't hurting anyone. He didn't want to spread it so he let it die within himself.

Emotionally bankrupt for years of risks
Feelings burglarized by the people
Used by bandits for their own gain
Found love with a new crowd
Years of blaming deep within
silent scorn, they are dead to the heart
You'd rather wipe them away in your mind
Then, tolerate the bad behavior
criticism from the disrespectful masses
Living with pride can be lonely

Whats the problem? What's on your mind? Questions I've been asking myself. How can I do this better. Focused more on improving bettering your situation. Getting older feels like lots of time being wasted about to turn 40. Young at heart with the old man mentality.
Having a good time remembering the good old days. Lost in the present fear of the unknown. Taking it one day at a time not overthinking.
Slowing down remaining calm the athlete within refusing quit. A fighter with all heart that got him through the tough training and hard moments. Head down plow through the roadblocks

Family is always fighting
One instigates all the drama
Stirring everyone up causing chaos
One is ready to strike everyone down
While another is standing their ground
Everyone can't be right opposing one another
Or cares to understand each others views
One can't argue with words a sharp tongue
Ready to get physical not able to speak
Some don't get involved staying neutral
Others pushed on a side dk what's going on
Gaining up on one to feel superior
Taking on the world not a fair game
Everything shatters fails no gain
Just divided shattered blades of pain remain
The silent treatment everyone goes numb Never talking again till the end of time

He was always learning open to grow it was tough for others to accept him. He was use to rejection. He was always doing extra going the distance and beyond. He did it right knew it was the right thing to do.
He wanted to speak up but knew his mouth could ruin his chances and opportunities. He was kind and respectful even when things didn't go according to plan he told himself to work harder. Be better take it to the next level.
He looked in the mirror asked himself what happened? Where did it all go wrong? He learned somethings are beyond his say and had no control. He remained loyal to them, while they taunted him with a job title. He deserved, realized he's meant for more. Meant for better he didn't always settle because he knew things usually proving himself to the wrong people.
It was a tough time for him always lost in the translation. He was old school spoke when spoken to. Didn't date because his family would never approval; why put someone you love through that.

So I went to get a haircut the guy said he was booked till the end of time turns out the shop was closing not a regular but it ***** to see a business go under. I support momma and poppa shops. Glad to keep things small because once it gets too big things become diluted too many have their own ideas and make it grow or fail. Idk too much about business but make sure the consumer is happy with the service and product. Now a days too many don't respect the origins sabotaging the business instead of appreciating the opportunity.
I'm thankful for platform but over all the clickbait content. People should get off the computer enjoy life appreciate life instead of complaining or trying to cancel others. I'd like to see others succeed that's moving. Not take false pride in seeing others fail.

They laugh at the truth. He's single because his last gf didn't trust him. He was always with her yet she accused him of cheating. The bad communication and the ****** interaction became a distraction from the real problem. One was in love afraid to be alone. The other tried to care and love was hurt and things never got better.
Trying to end is was hard when you love you fall hard. When you end up with aperson you don't love but appreciate their company eats you from the inside out.
Trying to love like you've never been hurt. Being brave and bold no longer like the old. Cautious protecting my his heart trying to move on.

He was a rebel stood alone
Who listened to punk rock
Being the voice of reason
Usually too on the burdens
Everyone ran from or avoided
Spoke up someone was mad
Easily offended called on it
He held them accountable
While they blamed everyone
Wasn't easy to manipulate
Questioned the BS shook things up
Not always liked or a favorite
He was seen as a threat made a target
Going along not taking the nonsense
Doing what needed to be done
Didn't seek or need approval

At the end of the day he told himself to be better. Trying to live and learn from his mistakes. Tole himself never to be like that do it better be better than those who did you *****. Keep a clean head on your shoulders listen and learn.
After a while he expected too much from the wrong people. Leads are playing boss not a friend not getting personal.
Where trying to be the guy doesn't exist using use then dropping. Feeling like everything is a decoy. A set up all you want is to win but feeling like everything is a loss. All the drama all the toxic people trying to bring you down with them

He observed so much and saw through everyone's act. They'd drain his energy with their bad vibes overthinking being quiet. He gets he didn't have to share because they showed no interest, his life wasn't important. He was an open book they kept closing it and setting it aside. They latched on to the problems they caused making them seem important when all it did was burden them.
He lost a lot over time, he failed but kept trying. Fell hard able bounced back from all the insanity.

So many unexpressed emotions the fear of being seen different. Not too wild or crazy when it comes to being open with others but it's hard to be honest when others are too sensitive. So many dreams that mean something but not sure what they are trying to say. Always doing what I love so there's no time to hate. Listening to music can always express myself but it does help me relate. I think of ways to fit in don't always belong not always liked or a favorite. Bite my lip because I don't want anyone hating me or mad at me. It ***** others think they can walk over me they mistake my kindness as weakness. The music takes me away feelings in lyrics or sounds that give my soul life. Taking me away since I can't always be see with everyone but doing it alone and have grown