Had an idea faced criticism
Stolen ideas getting accepted
Ignored someone else said it now it's liked
Talking loud doesn't mean right
One sided argument doesn't mean anything
Destroying a public image for superiority
Gather in the masses that don't agree
Shares hatred unifies causing conflict

Not everyone things or feels the way he does. Laying in his bed reflecting his week. Wondering what else is out there beyond the work routine. He thought about friends but doesn't have many he could rely on or trust.
Where to meet people since sober living was important to his way of life.
After being in a few bad and unhealthy relationships he thought it was easier being alone. He didn't mind being solo and isolated became a regular reoccurrence. Alone with his thought ideas why they didn't happen. How come he never tried or pursued those bubbling creations in the back of his mind.

Friends come and go like the seasons
Formal partners another fall out
Moved on never looked back
Break up hurt becoming immune
Opening up to the wrong people
Hoping they'd love you
Feel the same way back
Betrayal is the worse
More painful from family
Trying to make things right
Not going well feels wrong
Not empowering those
Who trash your name
Ignore your opinions
They can't hurt you
Its already been done
Never letting them do it again
Stayed away feels like they want
As they taunt and provoke you
Took the high road hard to speak
The mind ready to speak hard to focus
Like defusing a bomb imploding within
Trying not to react staying calm collected
A war in this head taking its toll
While the struggle battles hard

The heart of a warrior beating strong
Fighting to be heard rise above hate
Tired of being ignored walked away
Taking a stand left all alone
Went against family seen as taboo
Family has been disrespectful for years
Talking bad on others they are no better
Running mouths that cause drama
Trying to expose others to hide wicked way
Called them on it now they are mad
Try to erase you for having an opinion
Cross you out for speaking your mind
Never used or took anyone for granted

He observed so much and saw through everyone's act. They'd drain his energy with their bad vibes overthinking being quiet. He gets he didn't have to share because they showed no interest, his life wasn't important. He was an open book they kept closing it and setting it aside. They latched on to the problems they caused making them seem important when all it did was burden them.
He lost a lot over time, he failed but kept trying. Fell hard able bounced back from all the insanity.

At the end of the day he told himself to be better. Trying to live and learn from his mistakes. Tole himself never to be like that do it better be better than those who did you *****. Keep a clean head on your shoulders listen and learn.
After a while he expected too much from the wrong people. Leads are playing boss not a friend not getting personal.
Where trying to be the guy doesn't exist using use then dropping. Feeling like everything is a decoy. A set up all you want is to win but feeling like everything is a loss. All the drama all the toxic people trying to bring you down with them

Talking about it is always hard but once you bring it to the light turns out you are not the only one going through it. The best feeling is when others understand. It gets easier to deal with. Stops you from empowering fear.
Feeling on edge over dumb possibilities that play out in the mind all these made up scenarios. Playing out in his head. Remembering a bad time and moment never wanting to end up there once again.

All this pressure feeling like why can't that be you. Others didn't give any effort but expecting more. Giving everything nothing in return such a burn. Helping because it's right incompetence picking a fight.
Held to another standard not trying to get played with these made up rules double standards.
He worked hard didn't take crap from anyone. Did his work and extra too much drama didn't care to be involved.
Some days they loved him others he got the 3rd degree. After a while he stopped caring getting involved. It was exhausting to give his energy while they didn't even try. He never talked about them but they had plenty to say. No one asked or was interested. Everyone had a life to live no time for critics.

The fighter within wants to strike, a mindful mouth keeping the peace. Dealing with people that are full of it. They tread on others and think they could spread their toxic into your area.
Your personal space dealing with talkers, they haven't done it riding someone else's coat tail acting like their rank means something. Always working hard and the people talking haven't done, or dk what you can do.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

Tired of arguing it's a lost cause
Another grudge help against you
You said NO they treat you different
Had an opinion now the conflict is stronger than ever
All this false hope and expectation
Leads conflict there's no respect for one another's differences
Trying to do it your way other peoples ways become roadblocks
No clue what's going on getting all the blame.
Many angered by pain with old hurt
All the extra causing others misery

Everything has changed everyone full of rage
All the hate won't make you great liked for the wrong reasons
Instead of doing what's right choices were made
Actions said more than words put on a side when it's not your fight
Walking away isn't enough the backlash gets everyone
Beaten and defeated still being provoked by a winner that is unworthy of the victory
The slaunder of your character makes them feel empowered
Not beat because focused on other matters which lead to something more productive
For not being like they are always saying your name
Unworthy of your time you give them your back if you still up their voice would shake and the fear in their eyes avoiding eye contact
The cold look in your eyes the emotion is gone
The game is over the tone has changed

asked why you don't talk to so and so
I refuse to lower myself to be accepted
Never deny myself to be liked by others
Apologized and still treated different excluded
Not always forgiven, forgave, and moved on
Missed the good times living in the moment
Left with bad memories working hard to rise
Someone is always mad and won't forgive
Holding a grudge stuck in the past hating
Bad mouthing your name to appear better
Because they have no say or control over you
It bugs you've moved on trying to be better
Why can't they do the same, stuck in a loop
Family criticizes one anothers differences
Never correcting themselves first
Lots of talk, judgment, different lifestyles
No effort made echoing complaints
Fix yourself do the work earn a living
Before knocking on others, invest in yourself

Family is always fighting
One instigates all the drama
Stirring everyone up causing chaos
One is ready to strike everyone down
While another is standing their ground
Everyone can't be right opposing one another
Or cares to understand each others views
One can't argue with words a sharp tongue
Ready to get physical not able to speak
Some don't get involved staying neutral
Others pushed on a side dk what's going on
Gaining up on one to feel superior
Taking on the world not a fair game
Everything shatters fails no gain
Just divided shattered blades of pain remain
The silent treatment everyone goes numb Never talking again till the end of time

I use to look for pop and reaction
Most don't care once you speak
The truth doesn't fail so many lies spread
Doing the work minding this mouth staying out of the drama too many talking
Minding ones business able to be alone
Focused on the work progressively
Walked away from it after being denied
Wanted it moving on looking else where
No longer care to be around lazy
Overlooked disrespected by useless leads
Being the hardest worker isn't enough
Well rounded open to grow constantly learning
Dealt with conflict not playing games or bothering anymore
The lead steals credit does nothing while everyone contributes
Behind the scenes being a major key to productivity

Training on the beach
The sunshines while the breeze blows
Pushing your body lifting your feet
To keep from sinking in the sand
Hitting the pads and holding pad
The loud smack from the impact
A high punch to the face a strong defense
A low punch to the body bob and weave
Kicks are another dangerous factor
High kicks towards the head be on defense
Low kicks chopping legs pain from shins colliding
Reducing the power of the push from the feet
Hands up block your face elbows to protect the body
Knee strikes are never ending when done correctly
An elbow strike to the face all momentum
Training for the big fight a year round sport

He kept pushing through now he was alone. Waiting and walking among peers felt like he was missing out or could be doing more. Not going up on his individualism refused to be another face in a crowd.
He felt things that had become so distant. Friends and social interaction wasn't the same it seemed better this time around. He usually went to work and home to sleep.
He'd work hard writing while listening to podcast. Faded out of all the family drama. He was free no kids or relationship to limit him. He did try to take on family values but too many rules are made that keep him out feeling excluded in a room among loved ones.

Ending the night writing before bed making it easier to sleep. Over all the bad focused on good. Some pictures have him asking what else is going on. He remembers the good time followed by the bad hand in hand. More loss than gains in those moments.
This journey a long way to go, can't go back that means losing progress. Hoping it would change same old BS different day. Same hostility different crow that wants a say. Not easily manipulated or following the deceitful majority.
He learned to ask questions, and do his own thing. Before he cared which empowered people, who used him took him for granted. Now hes matching energy not get drained by those who chose misery over happy. He respected their decision so many impositions.

Woke up ready to go stand tall
Tlmade out to be the problem
Providing the solution to help
Returned the favor for motivation
Driven to make a changes for better
Tired made up rules that are bias
Meant to keep your character out
Not altering this personality to be liked
Accepted or not refuse to be kept out
More than my job title beyond the work
Another life outside of the chaos
Not into politics be your true self
Focused on being a better person

The emotion poured out no longer holding it in or holding back. He respected others but they treated him like he didn't matter. He did favors but once he said no or wasn't able to they treated him like the enemy like he was going against the family. He forgave them but they continued to hold a grudge no longer taking their drama he was out of the circle. All he wanted was to belong but he realized he was better off without. He hated the fact he had to give up who he was to be accepted. He would not lower himself to be accepted, they denied him and his ideas. He was hated for asking questions and for telling the truth. He thought they'd value and respect honesty too bad everyone was fake living lies. He never criticized but they always judged him for being different. He wasn't a follower and didn't owe anyone anything. They owed it to themselves to be better be more instead off settling for less.

The tripod was not equal one took on more of the load than the rest. He brought ideas most would be denied or rejected. He got tired of being denied and rejected so he left and did his own thing. He took time to figure it out. He would remain determined he didn't have anything in his favor.
He kept working and writing while everyone worried about the public front they put on. He didn't care who was watching but did focus on writing and what he wanted to say for the topic. He always wanted to inspire and encourage others since no one heard his story because everyone wanted to Shadow him. They kept trying to dull his shine put out his fire but he kept burning determined to stay alive.
Playing many roles willing to learn it all so he can progress in the BS ranks they created. He was one to take charge and organize everything while they kept trying to change the schedule on him. Things didn't always fall in his favor but he was willing adapt and adjust. He was not going to be overlooked or ignored these changes lit a fire under him

He worked hard didn't get the job about to experience some down time. Tough times during this transition all the pain all the frustration. Didn't want it to change but everything is happening so rapidly. Lost the girl who was never loyal projecting her guilt on you. Friends in bad relationships not making time for this friendship. Trying to be happy others are miserable.

From the youngest to the oldest in the room
Times have changed told somethings are taboo has become socially accepted
Everything in the open
No longer private with thought
Opinions no one asked expecting to be praised
Everyone puts on a show
Loyalty gets you betrayed
Honesty is now rejected by lies
Hard working gets stomped on
Lazy praised given awards ******* up
Hating on the workers change the routine
Brown nosing the top while kissing the bottom

I thought we could be together but you always rely on your friends but seem to tell me your troubles. I gave my honest opinion even though you are another person with your friends. You are like two people. I've learned to distance myself because you can't be your own person or be the person I thought. I valued the good times but need to stay away. You are strong independent but you are dependent on you peers that doesn't make sense but that's the reality. Always seen eye to eye but now we don't talk and from friends to strangers.

As you get older you can't keep doing the same stuff. You don't recover the same and the body goes through more changes even after puberty. The desire and rush fades away sometimes you ignore the delusions stay away from things because you don't agree or want no part of that nonsense. Years of fighting over meaningless stuff you turn your back walk away don't empower the BS. Do what makes you happy focus on being better sometimes you help others on the way other times you need to help yourself. As I get older it's like racing time.
Lots of reaching the top but breaking through on the glass ceiling is the hard part. Doing things that you'd never do or because they told you it couldn't be done. Proving people wrong but they don't care don't be distracted and blinded by people who don't care about you. Use you and take you for granted you deserve much more and better. Helping others can be rewarding but found most are not greatful and don't appreciate your efforts but the ones who do make your efforts feel worth your time.
Times changes don't like that I have to give up my values or beliefs to be accepted. Respect was a big thing if you didn't have it you're nobody. Now a days so many things don't make sense but that's what's trending. I've grown and learned to be happy with myself and work with what I have. It's been a tough road in denial of what the future has become but do respect the reality even if I disagree.
From my teens to my thirties seen and experienced so much you can't stay in the past things change all those road blocks and detours go away. Never too late don't lose hope because it hasn't happened yet.

He watched films, and wanted to create his own the characters, unique people he wanted to be like. He like to write dialog, say things he wish he said In the moment. He didn't like people talking about him so he did what was important. He learned fast that others will have something to say, regardless what is said or done.
Writing caused him drama; how did so much bad end up with what he loved. His thoughts being used against him trying to debate the topic but its a passing idea or thought always open to grow. His mind wanted others try to find ways to flip it against him all he wanted was to express himself.
Not talking about anyone but how the situation made him feel and asking how did it end up this far after a while it didn't bother or get to him anymore.

Lost in the music being creative
Playing the bass making fussion
Jamming stay on key energy
Feeling the vibe soul is alive
Connecting with the other person
Sress melts away from within
Trying to stay on beat key note
Keep the count on time
Sounds vibrate the strings
Echo through the speaker
Hit the notes be precise
Stay on tempo consistently