Told to act a certain way
How to behave no way
No love for my parents by you
Now you're coming at me
Let me be one day you'll see
All you do is talk two faced snakes
Putting those labels on others
Projecting negativity why bothers
Changing up the narrative
Trying to use others to get your way
Walked away free where I'm accepted
So much neglect disrespected

The water from the tank so soothing as he sat in the counselors office. He was going to talk with a professional that hardest part for him was trust. He would feel like expressing himself to others made him feel weak or they would use it against him. He was one that put others first before his own needs. He did good deeds for others and expected nothing in return. His name would be called he entered the office he sat in a chair but it was not like what he saw in the movies. It was a cozy and comfy environment. He had so much he wanted to get off his chest. The shrink would ask him questions and this therapy session would begin. He would explain all that bothered him but he could only say so much within an hour period. The problem was the shrink kept changing so how could he build trust and kept starting new relationships so he felt disconnected when all he wanted to do was fit in and belong with people overcoming his fears also be able to blend in but no matter what he was isolated and excluded.
He took time to figure himself out and so he can be a better friend but he needed a new crowd he was in the party scene. He would try to find himself without others defining him.

Never afraid to start over keep building on what you know. Keep striving for more not settling for less. We use to be close now we can't be together. I pray you don't turn out like your siblings or parents. Felt pushed out not forcing my way in not use anyone believing or standing by my side.
Wishing you the best not my place I have no say. Your parents came at me sour not arguing or taking the corruption anymore. The world changes the day you stand up for yourself.

Letting it go because holding onto things consumes you becomes a distraction that ends up being a waste of time. So many toxic people that's why it's easier to role solo. Keeping secrets for others too bad they are quick to spill mine making gossip. Never talked about them but they are quick to point out others flaws, no one is talking about them. So they cause drama to feel relevant to feed their insecurities.
Able to rest relax sad how you can't be honest with people they'll destroy you and think they did you a favor. If you spoke up they get insulted play the victim debate why their actions are justified when clearly it's all BS. They won't listen to others and expect others to hear them out. They'll get the same treatment on how they treat others.
It's such a downer and drains everyone involved. Everyone is hurt no one wins what's the point of all this everyone is worse off instead of better. You forgive them and moved on. While they are stuck still holding that burden trying to use it against you.

Arms are heavy Hard to breathe
Feel like stone limited movement
Fighting back trying not to overreact
Pressing forward not backing down
Trying to change it up burnt up
Going the distance o much resistance
Giving your all in offense
Trying to time it out on offense
Finding another window for the round

Some is always mad because you're living. Most of all offended for having an opinion. Hater upset because are breathing prefer to be alone than caught up in the hype. Not phased by the drama don't care to be involved. Doing your own thing instead of listening to all the gossip. Won't be influenced by the passive aggressive that choose to be selective about showing interest in you and your life.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

The things you fight for when you have to give them up is one of the tough decisions to make.
The stuff you go through for it but do you really need it sometimes it's worth it other times it's a huge waste of time.
Doing it was a process but worth it after it was all said and done.
Things changed what felt right doesn't provide the satisfaction or gratification.
Move on to something new because growth is always occuring.

He was being social reaching out to old peers hoping that he could chat it up be himself. It was fun to catch up instead of being kept out. Taking on bad attitudes not feeding into bad vibes.
Motivation by the uninspired when around them. With the overachievers not feeling on that level working twice as hard behind the scenes working in private.
Being positive around negative people staying out of the drama being more private but feeling isolated by those that he cared for not feeling like an equal among them.

Talking a good friend about his plan. Ready to do more feels like it's not enough. A late start a late bloomer on the rise and on the go. His first relationship was a one nighter that got complicated. Trying to finish his degree but it finished him. Plotting to go back not over worked or burnt out. Trying to balance out coaching and get back into training made himself available which made everything seem like a waste of time.

Beautiful memories between them
All that remains is a crime scene
Evidence that was once love
Damage feelings broken emotions
Left over from all the carnage
The anger from the betrayal
Running up the tab of pain
Soon the receipt would come
Both would be stuck paying
Contribution to something tarnished
Harsh words exchanged to cut deep
Nothing lived just bleeding out
The soul slipped away lifeless
Two corpses remain infected by death
A cold case of the flatline relationship

Working harder than the rest. Mentally prepping a new process to stay sharp on top of the task. All the drama doesn't matter. Started believing stopped doubting because some useless lead doesn't believe in you.
Being the guy instead of letting others steal credit for your hard work. Working behind the scenes not taking NO pursuing a dream stepped it up. Standing out making a difference for those that believe in you gave you a chance. The hard work is how the favor is returned.

The emotion poured out no longer holding it in or holding back. He respected others but they treated him like he didn't matter. He did favors but once he said no or wasn't able to they treated him like the enemy like he was going against the family. He forgave them but they continued to hold a grudge no longer taking their drama he was out of the circle. All he wanted was to belong but he realized he was better off without. He hated the fact he had to give up who he was to be accepted. He would not lower himself to be accepted, they denied him and his ideas. He was hated for asking questions and for telling the truth. He thought they'd value and respect honesty too bad everyone was fake living lies. He never criticized but they always judged him for being different. He wasn't a follower and didn't owe anyone anything. They owed it to themselves to be better be more instead off settling for less.

The fighter within wants to strike, a mindful mouth keeping the peace. Dealing with people that are full of it. They tread on others and think they could spread their toxic into your area.
Your personal space dealing with talkers, they haven't done it riding someone else's coat tail acting like their rank means something. Always working hard and the people talking haven't done, or dk what you can do.

He watched films, and wanted to create his own the characters, unique people he wanted to be like. He like to write dialog, say things he wish he said In the moment. He didn't like people talking about him so he did what was important. He learned fast that others will have something to say, regardless what is said or done.
Writing caused him drama; how did so much bad end up with what he loved. His thoughts being used against him trying to debate the topic but its a passing idea or thought always open to grow. His mind wanted others try to find ways to flip it against him all he wanted was to express himself.
Not talking about anyone but how the situation made him feel and asking how did it end up this far after a while it didn't bother or get to him anymore.

The past ate him up an older man
Full of regret hard to forget things
Worlds collide their bad fell on his lap
Never meant to hurt them as well
Pursing a dream detoured goal
Destroying himself after failed efforts
Rejected by love replaced with hate
Not letting it infect his heart
Denying the wrong others shadow
Focused on right not argue or fight

Changing his mindset; way of life, too many assume; who he is rather than get to know him. He focused on that work trying not to complain get caught up in the drama. It rubbed him wrong when people who claim to no like one another being all fake and phony with one another.
Would rather be alone then pretend to be someone others made up about your reputation. Let them make a fuss my reaction or emotion focused on doing your own thing.

He loved his kiddos but didn't get along with their parents. All they do is talk about everyone. No one asks or cares what they think but they run their mouth. Fading away from all the forced interaction don't care to associate anymore.
All the disrespect trying to talk about your life they know nothing about with false narratives that they project. Fading away no longer connected but they'll try to blame you. When they started the drama not part of them or one of them anymore learned to be okay with that.
Being talked over and false assumptions is not the way to treat anyone. Not listening so they try to turn everyone against you. It did hurt at the beginning now immune to all the crazy. They do their own thing you respect it but once you do your own thing they impose not interested and don't care anymore. Had to find more positive people to grow and be myself arounf.

Sometimes you look for redos and think how you could've done it right. You'd like to change go back to that moment but you don't belong there you grow. Eventually you feel like you've out grown everything nothing feels right or makes sense. Grasping that moment then it fades loses all value. People come and go like the seasons everyone changes some for the better others just settle. You work to invest in a dream it makes sense to you while others think you're crazy. Pursing a dream leaving others behind you are not the same but others will never see you different. They remember from the past and assume they know your future. You went the distance alone while you start back at the beginning after many mistakes. It's hard starting over stuck in a bubble sometimes you want to be part of the world other times you hide in your bubble. You don't know your place or where you belong once you find yourself and figure out where you belong. Many years of trying to fit in working with what thrown in my direction another time consumer another detour once it ran out stuck asking what's next.

He admired her beauty but wasn't sure if this friendship could be more. If he made his move it might make things awkward and end a good thing. He was known for letting his feelings get the best of him. He got emotional felt foolish and weak thinking he was an equal but no where on the level.
He was a private person seen as a bad guy because he didn't take crap from no one. He spoke up it felt like the world was against him. If he bit his tongue it would feel like the world would walk all over him.
His love was heavy and deep but his hurt was stronger empowering him to keep pursuing greatness move forward.

Seeing the world through yellow eyes
Losing weight too rapid
Not losing faith staying strong
Trying to remain in control
Losing a grip on reality
Things went bad but better now
Skin looking orange remaining humble
All the things you want to do
Before it's too late fighting till the end
Don't let others dictate your fate
Analyzed every scenario possible
Doesn't matter just be in the moment
Doing it makes possibilities
Take a risk and chance on yourself
With or without support chase the dream
Keep progressing the heart filled with joy
Don't let it become cold as stone
A free thinker not imprisoned by old traditions
Modern day ideals are road block
Will not corrupt your genuineness

At the end of the day he told himself to be better. Trying to live and learn from his mistakes. Tole himself never to be like that do it better be better than those who did you *****. Keep a clean head on your shoulders listen and learn.
After a while he expected too much from the wrong people. Leads are playing boss not a friend not getting personal.
Where trying to be the guy doesn't exist using use then dropping. Feeling like everything is a decoy. A set up all you want is to win but feeling like everything is a loss. All the drama all the toxic people trying to bring you down with them

He kept pushing through now he was alone. Waiting and walking among peers felt like he was missing out or could be doing more. Not going up on his individualism refused to be another face in a crowd.
He felt things that had become so distant. Friends and social interaction wasn't the same it seemed better this time around. He usually went to work and home to sleep.
He'd work hard writing while listening to podcast. Faded out of all the family drama. He was free no kids or relationship to limit him. He did try to take on family values but too many rules are made that keep him out feeling excluded in a room among loved ones.

Ups and downs more lows than highs
An ex moving on not the same anymore
Just a fling doesn't mean anything
A friendship over due to betrayal
The world such a blur hard to process
Comprehend felt one way seeing differently
Dreams on hold growing old over time
Working a job that has an opening not hiring
Filled the void irritated so annoyed the lies
False hope with broken promises
Focused on the work not the drama

Respecting people are on different levels but not going back down. He had no problem working. He had problems with lazy people that tried to talk him down because they chose to flat line. He refused to sink to their level when drama had nothing to do with him. He preferred to mind his business do his job the best of his abilities. He didn't make anyone look bad because they made their choices and had to live with the consequences.
He told himself if he moved up he'd always be active and involved with the team his title meant nothing because the work needed to be done consistently, persistently, kept at a higher standard not settling for less.

Thanksgiving should be about family but with mine there is always drama some act like the world is about them while others complain but stay in that situation. People never change I respect  you've moved up. Just because you treat people bad doesn't mean you have the right to do it.
Some accept it while others won't tolerate that conduct. Not into one sided relationships sick of how people talk about others behind their but kiss *** to their face. Seen them better than myself but they act the worse because you have an opinion you spoke your mind. Trying to tell you how to live when they aren't even living up to the imaginary bar set for others.
We all have that one sibling who thinks because they are tall and thicker than everyone acting like they could beat everyone up talking to everyone disrespectful and expecting respect. After a while you shut it down not empowering that nonsense.
Trying to see people as an equal but some think they can step on people to rise up or use others then drop them like it's hot. Annoyed with phony people who believe in their hype all that talk and not backing it up. Been trying to move up by working hard sick of people putting up road blocks who do nothing for you. Making it about them when they try to steal your credit. Act like they are the mastermind when they are basic and boring trying to steal the spotlight.

They looked down on him when he was broke. He said one day he'll make good money and be more successful than them. His hard work and dedication was paying, which made him happy.
Saying one day he'll be someone because they made him feel like a nobody. Like he wasn't good enough. It made him strong and tougher than the rest.
He didn't expect a handout, or want others to invest in him. He had to invest himself work harder to get closer to his dream. Push through crazy to get closer to achieving his goals. Sad he lost people along the way, if they were true, and loyal they wouldn't of gone anywhere.
He was always loving and supportive happy for others because he seen them as people; who made it, but it was never enough for them.
The day he turned his back was the day he couldn't take the criticism anymore. They insulted him by thinking their way was the right way when he believed in God's way and plan because he failed and made many mistakes doing things his way.
Why would he trust their way some success, and material possessions didn't make them better people, or accomplished. It's about how you treat and help others that made a difference. Trying to be the person he needed growing up.