Woke up put on music
Writing to my favorite songs
Music touches the heart
A playlist composed of classics
Feel accomplished with efforts
Stopped focusing on bad
Quit expecting the worse
Focus on what's right
Pursue what's working
Makes sense feels right
Never force love it feels natural
The right one will come
Trust and respect hand in hand
Trust is hard with no respect
Connect with a person feels great
So many disconnected impersonal
Trying to grow with someone genuine
Be with someone worthy go the distance
Who enjoys one another's company
Not using or taking one another for granted
More than ****** stimulation but mental grow
Open to one another's flaws not quick to judge
Not hold a grudge because things get tough
Or get mad things don't turn out accordingly
Trying to understand the complicated issues
Be right with one another no sabotage
Be fair over this one sided affair
Loyalty and trust is a must to survive
Without communication how can we connect
Fuction as one when it's always about you
A relationship is a game for true
Working to make better even though it hurt
Always gave it was never enough
Wanted to run times got tough
Came back for more so much pain
Passive aggressive ways no more love
Set up to fail couldn't take it anymore

As she grows up
From a child to young lady
A special place in the heart
Laughter that brightens the day
The things she says
Brings huge smiles
Smart for her age
Learned to not be selfish
Slowed down live in the moment

Writing my thoughts
Telling my stories
Break the curse
Thinking of another verse
Another night to get it right
Writing makes it easy to sleep
Deep slumber over restless nights
Not focused on loop thoughts
A clear head while lying in bed
After a night of peaceful rest
Recharged more natural energy
The stress made it easy to walk away
Slowing body instead of suffering through
Heal health is everything
Take care of mental health
Phyiscal health slow steady motions

The young man woke up excited
He waould be going to a magical kingdom
This was an outlet to escape his harsh reality
Enjoy the day smile without faking it
Feeling forced to be all extra, be normal
Time out from the reality the great escape
Hanging in there, stress all time high
Trying to mind his own at peace
Someone always needs something
Offered to help got ignored was not need
Now he's trying to find his own
Be left alone, enjoy life, over worked for days
Work helped get over this mess phase
Making money meant less trouble
At work perserved in a bubble
Said it's time to have fun not stress
Had it all or had worked with less
Doing what needs to be done
Price that comes with money
Happiness is what's best

To see a mother become a grandma
As a child seen some stuff
Parents not ready to grow up
Watching them get older
From youthful to grey and white hairs
Always been distant but feel closer
Trying to make it be better for everyone
Wanted to make it help to help the family
Working to better situation get to the next level
Always a struggle part of the growing process
Learning about about life most of all living it

Walked away from it all
Never well received
Always struggling to be heard
Once I've made it more problems
Not always welcomed or well received
Told the truth honest meant well
Others lie and threatened by change
People in the ear telling you otherwise
You've done it and already know better

Time off to compose figure out the next move not staying the same. Keep working on being better those that broke you wont keep you down. Proving them wrong because they assumed the worse. While they did worse playing games, two timing playing the blame rather than owning up. Kept out of the group everyone ditching once they gor what they wanted. Taking credit when you helped them out putting in a good word while their word meant nothing held no values all the lies and manipulation.

Grew up around domestic violence
Not letting emotions get the better of
Feelings of hurt not expressing
All the compromise for others
Toxic people causing problems
Looked out for others with troubles
Now all alone hard to connect
Forgiving is hard so much betrayal
Never forgiven multiple apologies
Some trauma hard to shake
Can only take so much
Push to the limit crashing down
Buried under all the chaos

Not sure about the next move
Thought about it lots of pondering
Still cant figure it out
Made moves came up short
Gave maximum effort
Barely getting by hanging in there
Feared making the wrong choice
Things don't always turn out right
Headaches anxiety coming strong
Ups and downs riding the wave

Being honest with people is hard
Most are easily offended
Quick to criticize, don't like criticism
Hate taking on the numbers
Everyone's bold in a crowd
Talks big online hide behind a screen
In person nothing is said or uttered

Working hard
Wanting to quit
Determined to be better
Coming back for more
Trying to be the one
Not one of many
Smiled continued to contribute
Positive attitude in negativity
Took pride in work
Earned every cent
Working twice as hard
Made sleep easy to enjoy
While others coasted

Not able to post
Site was acting up
Thinking what to say
Not matching emotions
Mixed feelings dk anymore
Things don't make sense
Not the same as before
Change for the better
Within feeling worse
A broken curse escape
Healing heart to grow

Biting his lip over the third degree
He knew better so he backed up
Tempted to fall back into bad habits
Craved alcohol but avoided the taste
Use to be chaotic but now in peace
Felt attacked use to fight back
Walked into confrontation made it worse
Now staying away from it all
Not great with speaking words
Able to write them out better for peace
Held on a different level gave his all
Expected nothing but gave everything
The mind sorting it all out
Comprehending the environment around
Observing eyes that made it easier
Found closure within

If writing can take the pain away
All the stress and anxiety
Stays for days while friends go away
Get in a romantic relationship
Forget about past friendships
The mind screams over memories
Tried to fit in got rejected
Avoiding others use to being alone
No need for approval moved on
Now others are in the way

Ready for change
The new is year is near
Everyday is new
Wake up start fresh
Never too late
Be good to people
Do what you love
Whatever it is be great

Use to be scared to share my thoughts
Afraid to be criticized for efforts made
Told the work was not good enough
Try more than most pursue the dream
Even  with failure a lesson is learned
One step closer to making the reality

Found out the new
Going to be an uncle
Not always the best son
Or a good big brother
But the joy of new life
Love family not always close
The good times bring everyone together
Those tough times unite one another
Come together get stronger