Rain comes my way
It can't keep the sun away
The weather sets the mood
Skies of blue only if you knew
Seasons change life is not a phase
That how we feel learn to deal with
Change might or day doesn't happen right away
With time it fades away like the tides wash them

No one cared if I quit but I did it for me
Seen good and bad in the world
I wish I could take away pain
Free ppl of their burdens
Get out of debt own possessions instead of being owned
Love and peace let hate die be among the decease
Doing what you dream instead of some 9-5
Getting by trying to survive almost cried along long night
Stories in music stories told relive moments growing old
Trying to stay humble not grow old and bitter
Keep working hard don't be a quitter
No more pain just want to heal
Be thankful for the meal served just right
Rest in a bed no more cold floor
One day things will light up
No more stressing being up all night

I may not be great in your eyes but I know there's ppl  who appreciate me
I'm understood if given a chance to share myself
Not trying to prove myself I wish there were more respectful and understanding ppl in my life
I joke to be much not willing to go against family
But I'm not their whipping boy
The standards I care to live up to are my own
I lived on my own since I was 16 and others think I owe them
I'm one who enjoys the company of others but if they are flawed why are they judging others
You want to say I'm a bad person but I'm stuck dealing with you
I don't see you going to great extenses to help other
You may have wealth but your useless only about yourself

Escape the looping thought process
No more obsession true confessions
That mean nothing now
Should've been said when the moment counted
It's not too late every side heard but the one who got burned
Hard exterior soft interior
Don't want to hurt
Learn the lesson
Move on to something beneficial
Thinking about yesterday should focus on today
Live in the moment don't go too far ahead
Words that should've been said
Instead of wish they were uttered

I dislike when others give me **** and not doing better
It ***** I have to lover myself id rather be hated then settle for less
You make all these rules it makes me not want to be around
Ive been noble while you act like someone else
You are not who you say your actions tell otherwise
I'm waiting this out eventually walking out not title
No oblgation just fantasties and fixation
I evaluated my life I've come so for you set me back
I'm emotional and sensitive not that you give a ****
All I wanted was to be with you be a man you prefer otherwise

Give my heart to someone else
Like you did
You found love why can't I
Your beauty on the outside
Damaged within
You told me secret so you could be free
No more caring the burden of broken trust
I believe in love not just a lust
A broken crush hard to trust
I tried to be perfect
while you let me down all the time
You say I do and wish you the best with the new
I'm glad to have known you
On my own on my way
My true love is my career
Being able to pave my way with out
Wasting my day but your never coming back

Met this girl
Could she be my mate
I don't want to rush
Let's start to build trust
Not into a cheap lust
My hearts reserved
doesn't easily develop a crush
I want to be loved unconditionally
No more false conditions
Hate living lies
Easy the pain of this damaged heart
I'd like to give my all
And my partner gives her everything
Someone I could trust
Not have to worry
She's doing right

Domes weak over powers strong
But strength puts weak to shame
Write on this page part if a community
Write on other pages it feels like a confess
I never gave up on love it's just not true
Haven't found the right one young love
Protect the heart show them you care
even if they arent listening
I'm alway believing in good when times are bad
I don't get hurt when I feel sad
I've coped over these emotions
I don't want to feel or be that way anymore
I've hurt the one I love but I caused it
She hurt me but I made it worse
Too many opposer want me to fail
Time and time again I've proved them wrong

It feels good to redeem myself
Lots of ppl are proud showing me respect
I've always proved myself worthy
Show I belong others thought I was weak I proved them wrong
Moving up and got a raise ready to bust my *** on a whole new level
From the worse to being one of the top workers
From the bottom to the top is where I see myself being

Dont rush no pressure
Trying to be yourself
Sounds like there is someone else
Don't what to make of the situation
All has failed building a foundation
Put on the spot nothing is what was thought to be
Things end mostly because no one will argee
Talk of love fear of commitment
Start over left overs make it complicated
Other plans idea mind of it's own
No hands holding on lose control
Stop wasting time not yours or mine
Walk way stay away things are messed up

Hard to sleep way too much on my mind
The truth keeps me from going blind
I respect you at your worse while you hate me at your best
Disrespected by kids who's parents are no better
Everyday is a fight but much more needs to happen
I'm trying to do right others attack with a vicous bite
They hate me my turn to stand in the spot light
I need someone to talk to no one around so I turn to writing
It's my freedom it gets out the crap that tars my heart from heartbroken to family dysfunction I've experience the worse the world has to offer
I'm ready to do well focus on to better but end up in the same spot or come up short for my efforts

He liked her but didn't know if she was the one. He had his doubts he just wanted to get it right this time around.  Not doubting his abilities but has been wrong in the past trying to bounce back from trials and tribulations.

That moment when an electric current
Hits the brain
It's like a pin drop with
An explosive sound wave
It's hard to speak hard to say
The words you code to say
All the bullying and provoking
Turns into a flash wave
Of boiling rage
Like a switch on and off
Worse when it's turned on
Muscles clutching
Try not to lose it
Control is lost
Once its restored
Never the same
Deep in though one shall remain

Looked into her eyes and got lost in thought
I wish I could tell her how I feel
Holding back she might not feel the same
Does she even know my name
Her smile makes my heart feel warm
My mood changes able to smile
Been thinking about her
What to say its been a while
Not sure anymore so much on the mind
Blinded by emotions but feels right
Find the words to say might make my day
Or rejected and questions of how and why this didn't play out
Just one night to take her out

Always had it together but it came a part
Asking what's next?
Been down before bouncing back
do it right this time around
instead of making the same mistakes
make all the wrongd right saving others hard time being saved by all the madness within
Knowing and doing don't always produce the outcome one seeks

Space between friends is okay
One day is fine you think give them time
A week passes you wonder if everything is alright
Almost a month no work you begin to think if you did something wrong
Make a call no answer the person usually answers right away
You wait for the call back still no word
You send a text still no response back
Still no word you'd help if you knew or do what you can
The time flys by you friends doing his own thing
Friends don't always grow together but grow apart
Forming their own circles new crowd with similar interests
The day you stop talking you have to move on
Everyday hoping to hang or unit
The day you do things aren't the same
Or don't feel right the days of childhood
Are a memory even though you'd rather live than forget

the rep i had was not true
you cant make me to be someone im not
you hate me over a girl that was never yours
i had fun while you complicated things
my friends mattered more i ruined my relationship
when the found love i got ditched
you alway complained and *******
ive grow alone we grew apart
i let you enjoy life getting married having kids
dont guilt me because i chose to live free
i like my life too bad you dont understand
or see life through my eyes
dont tell me how to feel i may not have a family
but respect your way of life
i may be out and wild not taking it light
pursue my career achieve success that makes sense to me
we are different ppl e are not the same or in the same crowds
i live life act loud  but do it all be proud

Hoping to get out a good message with the right words
A lot of time I write others stare
I usually don't care it's what I love
From time to time get the urge to share
Does it matter to me it means everything
Would they even care for my thoughts
Temped to be heard would I be understood
Or treated like I don't matter feel like I'm no good done more than enough
winning a crowd over is tough
One day they'll understand
Till that day write create make it better
Writing makes everything alright

Stirred in emotions
Wheels turning in motion
Never coped with these thoughts
Feeling human not a robot
Get it all out don't stop
Expose the beauty don't let it raught
Never get caught give up on the thought
Masked pain with a smile
Umask the smile find dark feelings of truth
Only if you really knew how I felt
Never go off what you know theres much more

Time for myself
Figure it out
I can share get help
Usually lending a helping hand
I understand them
But they have no clue about me
Hard to cope but open to suggestion
Tired of hiding repressed thoughts
Let them out be free feel restored
Control what you can
Don't let things get out of hand
Talk and vent there's things that you'd like to forget
Time for yourself
Time to relieve

Sober living for the better only the true stand tall by your side.
Most disappear because you see clear and they know that they can't take advantage of your kindness.
From the bottom focused on the top, keep at it nonstop
Told you it couldn't be done, aim to prove them wrong
They complain all work through it all
Don't fall with them or take you down
Talking to make fight with words
Once you beat them doesn't make it right
You know the plan focus on making it happen
Turn the dream into a reality
Never give up, being there isn't enough
till you make a difference
Sacrifice and satisfaction is never enough
So much more can be done
Don't stop!!! dig down deep give it your all and much more
Stuff never thought you had within
good or bad fight the struggle

My 1st date and kissing that one special girl
Moments thy live on in my head
My 1st present from a close friend and party
Never got gifts growing up got a party on my birthday
The thank you card from the girls I use to coach
The season ended we all departed to better
Lunch with my friends nights out together
Hangovers and memories that made it worth while
My dad coming to my games he'd rather work than be around
Buying comic books to make my collection grow
The day I went off to college my life and future was jus beginning
I'm grateful I could still find happiness even though others don't believe in it

He was one that could talk to everyone but everyone is so stuck on posting or texting. He could start a conversation and wanted to know people. Online dating people ignore you and don't take it serious he was one that would rather get rejected in person put forth an effort.
He was not into labels all he did was be a good person treat others right. He missed his friends everyone got older being responsible working to survive. Found love got married started a family.
He felt he was behind but would notice change some divorce. He was cut out once most of his friends found a partner he kept them in his memories. He learned to keep living make more memories. He had his share of failed love that made wait not rush into anything because most of the time he ended up with the wrong person.
As he got older it felt he was fading away, what he loved was replaced gone. now he needed to start over find new this routine got old.
Everything went away, he got tired of losing. The heartache was common everyone he loved left leaving him feeling ababndoned. Change was always hard as he got older he learned to adapt.

Glad to be writing again
I've had people tell me I ****
I almost gave it but writing another world
Its inspired to turn bad into good
Never give up start new
Not be defined by the past
Keep moving forward
Being cozy in my own skin
Not being consumed by anxiety
Face the problem no knife in the back when walking away
No longer talking but listening

Protect your family at means
Neglecting your own needs
Doing it for them working harder
Staying strong with support
Being positive through though times
At work hustling to provide
Be someone do good treat others right
Be better help others do good deeds
Staying sober is an apology a new life
Drinking never forgiven old ideas
An old life in the past let it be forgotten
A new life in the present new memories

Can't have the love its forbidden
She left you saying good ridden
Win her back it can't be done
She found someone no married
Her mixed signals got carried away
You thought she could be the one
But not today or any other
Formal liver forgotten in the past
No more love leaves a rotten heart
Starting over finding a new
The heart could use a jump start
Knowing she's gone but hoping she'd come back
Grew up with very little not sure how to act

who do you trust when fake face smile
behind your back they are flapping their gum
you could chew them out but want you to be the bad guy
give them reasons to talk
put them in their place they play the victim
walk away be the better man
they get this false hope of being superior
apologize but forgiveness is never meant
you cant respect or trust a person why be involved
everyone wants someone they can trust and respect
treat those the way you want to be treated
stay away because you think time suits them best
turns into an arguing protest which you want no part of
break a heart lose the bond
break the trust no longer friends
break the bond nothing is left but broken connection

The wolf pack my crew always in my heart
Her smile and kindness won't be forgotten
The black sheep's roam with my cousin
Love my family but can do Without criticism
Need to be me being alone sets me free
Thankful for those who believe and supportive
Never giving up on my goals and dreams
Regardless of detours and setbacks

Easy to rest not fighting with pests
Fueling their egos by giving them the time of day
Not worth my hate anyway I don't have to say
They might fade away but they are not contributing so they have no say and don't matter
They know you don't care what they do but try too had to get you to care what they say
Their nonsense means nothing to you anyway
They ignore you and you do the same
It's a shame you get to them without trying
They don't know the truth bull crap and lying walk away they slander you but it's better to be talked about instead of the one talking

Writing to find balance
Learning to say a pursue the goal
Mind is crisp the body ready to work
Thoughts of good and to be better
No more silent rage creeping up
Accepted the hatred by opposers
Can't please everyone or trying anymore
Challenged myself staying focused
Not letting bs hold bad desire
or making excuses to be lazy
Building up muscle strength
Finding the iron will to do so
The wheels are moving but a steady tempo works
Moving with a spirit with greater empowerment

I helped with your seed
Never noticed your greed
Think of pay back
Do my best to not over react
My pain and rage festers up
Build up explodes out
Isolated left in doubt
Worried how things might play out
Tired of fixing the wrong
Getting blamed for others
Standing up but stabbed in the back
Escape route of the attack

New begins time to get started
Today will make a difference
Moving forward talking to the new
My smile is the clue looking for the new
Out with the old forgotten like yesterday
Thinking about new poems to write
Creative juices fly no more stressing feel like crying
Write about love not hang with the hate
Wake up happy feeling great
I stay humble and do it
Everything new and fresh like tossed chicken salad
**** history already the outcome towards the future full of mystery
You could make faces same old crap don't phase me
You hate on me nothing new that's nothing amazing
She shows me love thankful and could only wonder
Hearts revived beating like thunder

The past can't be changed
The past can't be erased
Accepted what has happen
Move towards destiny
Be better with or with the one who hurts your heart
Broken spirits heal with time
Handle what suits you right
Let go of the wrong its a wastes of time
Give your all even if others don't see it enough
Strength is gained from loss
Courage builds character
New mind set forget the past
that's why it's history don't try to go back its already been done
Move towards the future full of mystery
No more loops break them set them straight
Toward new stop comparing to the past its nothing in the events of today

im the guy you rejected
but the guy your with doesnt treat you any better
you hate me because you couldnt change me
everything he says phases your heart
you claim to have feelings for me
you are with him and he doesnt make you feel special
i accept you flaw and all, i have deep talks with you
he doesnt call you at all, or ask about your day
we have more in common than her could ever imagines
he hates me over our connection
you ask for more but he wont give
i listen t you complain its annoying how you speak his name
i care about you but you have no shame
you slaunder his name but go back like a fool
you talk about leaving but dont go anywhere
im not in the person who hurts you but only want to know about you

See the day when the lock falls off
A tamed mouth loses control
Like falling into a black hole
All the secrets thrown back
Hard to forget when the wrong comes back around
Bailed to keep the piece
Left out to dry
Hurt friend down no need to cry
Take your ways compared feels like a wasted day
Took beatings for the mistakes but can't take them forever
Protected and saved
While others neglected enslaved
Sample of the finer line
Back to the slumps eating slop
Escape without being stopped

I could've been engaged but she wasn't the one
We talked about marriage it was too late
You ended us made it weird no trust or respect
How could this go on much longer
I'd rather it end now instead of divorce
This force changed up life too it's course
Not in love with you my heart was else where
You only loved me to changed me and force me to love you be someone I'm not when I had mixed emotions
My relationships secret and special in their own way
It's okay to look back but keep going forward
Be better for the next instead of adding another name to the exes a list full or regrets and doubts

Told you it couldn't be done
Proving them wrong
silence all the talk
Once it was done
They had nothing to say
Time for a change
For the better
hard to forget
move onto better
Never live in regret
Set out get it done
be the one
Alone get better
be number one
Fun or not, all in
been one hell of a run

its great to take control
say what you want
set goals achieve goals
become the leader of destiny
no more detours or road blocks
change your ways make things better
youll one day love yourself forever
never give up on your heart
believe in love d what you know is true
mind my own mind your own
clear mind sharp mind one day ill find my own

Don't make it crazy that's how I feel
That's not big deal but it feels so real
Deny my feelings to be liked
Stilled hated regardless of what's done
Thats no fun I can't hide or run anymore
I should be in the front no more giving up
What's mine frustration makes my teeth grind
Pain up and down my spine
Stare of cold it all gets old
Bold alone not made for the mold
Hypocrite you need to quit
All you say is not legit
I'm not demanding walking away
I'm focused on better days

Pictures on the wall
Moments trapped in time
Memories wishing that could be relived
Youth better times from the current reality
Time that won't be left behind in the mind
Events on the day pictures remind
Some with departed friends
Others with formal lovers
Better times different living
Places that won't be forgotten
Photos of the past think about how fast time passes

Always gave my all writing keeps the mind sane.
Finally pursuing the podcast a voice to be heard.
Not always heard but do know what I want to say.
Working hard to make it happen thankful for the listeners
Been changing the way things are done.
breaking out of the same old routine.
Thankful for the team and support.

they are my poison but the great addiction
experience their love is soothing to the soul
her kiss filled with warm passion warm and mild
you fall in love with her fashion the style drives you wild
her hand in yours feeling the connection
her love for you is an obsession
the truth becomes true expressions not guilty confessions
life without her makes you wonder
makes our heart beat like thunder
lay together you feel better
never wanting t to end hopng to stay together forever
you want to write her a love letter
she comes near all that troubles you makes you feel better

When I want tem close I'm pushed away
In need of space they are everywhere
Time alone to write clear my mind
Time in groups can be fun
someone always spoils the fun
Good times bad times make the most of them
Feel free be free don't stay stuck in misery

Writing with music usually makes it easier
It brings out the moments or makes you relive a moment
You aren't always satisfied with the work
Sometimes it brings out the best
I've always been proud to write
It's a way to reflect and cope
Not always trying to be the same
Everyday be better than yesterday
I don't always want to bother with ppl or in the best mood
I think of the lies growing up I'd like to say something
But it lowers others judgement

Why do we care what others think? Most of the time we are trying to please people who don't care or don't think to highly of what you think most of all what you feel.
Sometimes you avoid them for the sake of keeping the peace but they provoke and taunt while you respectful walk away minding your mouth while they run theirs like if you are the one starting something.
You'd like to argue fight back but lowering yourself to their level is what they one. Trying to make you look and feel bad since they failed bring down the world because they know you are better than them. They expect more but give nothing while others give everything but expect nothing in return.
That moment someone in authority disrespects you all respect is gone. You should be a leader lead by example instead of making example of others because you expect so much remember its a two way street.

The person I was is not who ive become
Id drink because I was in pain
Now I dont care to touch it
Id lust because I feared commitment and relationships
Now I get to know a person too bad they are twisted and ******* up
I take on others problems because I dk what to do with myself
Working because I dont like down time I feel I should be doing something. All I have is my word and thoughts id like them to mean something all my sacrifice to be much more

He tried to make a miserable person happy
It's a game he didn't want to play anymore
Trying different things and still failing
Eventually he quit and walked away
Not responsible for others happiness
Tired of inconsistent minds changing it up
Tired of being around toxic relationships
It made single life seem more blessed
Quicking wasn't an option walking away got easier
Loving the person and loving yourself Made self love have more meaning

Making those moves because everyone is moving use to care what they thought. They had problems and ruined my goodtimes and vibes with their effortless life and bad attitude. Feeling free from the bad open to much more.
How does my life become about them it doesn't. Sitting in the background learning and trying since no one else wanted it. Lots of talk and missed opportunity now grasping those moments.
Admired people seen them greater than myself. Hyped them up and got let down. Years of being judged and being looked down on. It got old cutting ties so that it could be stopped. Never said anything bad but everything was made personal. What's wrong with asking a question or having an opinion. Especially when the person asked.
Thankful for the people who took a chance giving pointers so that one day moving up was a possibility. Tired of people saying "it's not my job" get out of the way stop wasting everyone's time.
It's been a tough path dealing with people. Learning to be social again since being alienated by family was tough but it made it easier to be by one's self. You miss them but they are holding a grudge holding it over your head because they'd rather be right than happy.