Being a coach is hard
Winning isn't everything
It all stats during practice
Arrive early to prep for the team
The ones who want it show up on time want it
The best players show up late
Running bases conditioning for the game
Batting cages to help with the swing
Playing catch helping the team work as a unit
Till the day of the big game
Slide to the base with technique practiced
Cutoff play to make an out
Team functions without doubt
Play hard play right win or loss giving it your all
Coach does right by the team no need to fight
Lets win and take the season play and do
What the team does best play softball

We fight and argue
But love one another
Together in that time of need
Talk back and forth
Everything is alright
We might not talk
Nothing bur love
Separate worlds but one family
We may not agree
Family love is deeper that any foolish beef
Good time we laugh
Bad times we fight
Family united everything feels right

You kick to gain speed
Lean side to side make a turn
Lean back scrap the board to stop
The rush on a board
The fear off falling
Uphill you burn out kicking
Down hill you hall ***
Hoping not to land hard if fly off
Tricks are hard could barely ride
Some extreme take it to new heights
Kick flips practice till you land them just right
Clean stairs ride with pride
Skate boarding is hard keep that in mind

Get lost on the trails
Bumpy rides and turn
Be careful wipe outs happen
Bumpy rides full or wild turns
Jumps and twists taking risk
Dangers and risks shake off the stress
Bike of blue
Together as one having fun
In the forest nature can't keep mr back
Ride fast get past fear
Up hill down hill take on any skill
Bike riding has a thrill
Not afraid in the zone body aches
Bike galling don want to hit the breaks

It's around prom time so I thought I'd share my prom night experience. Getting a date failed I had for possiblities who ever said yes would've been my date. I went stag hung out with my best friend and his date
On the way to the prom we got lost so we missed majority of it. The prom was at some mansion after prom we stayed at a hotel. I drank a few and passed out. Now the story has a twist the date my friend had didnt workout but ended up having another night with his dates friend.
She had to drop off her date do that's how these two ended up hooking up.
I hung with this girl who didn't have a date she out drank me and passed out. The next morning was awkward my best friend and the new hook up were busy so I had to wait to go home.
I went home all of shame hung o er and no action but I was in HS I didn't expect much

Claim to have feelings with someone else
Did the time felt replaced
Did favors denied was accessed
Questioned role and where the truth stands
Your way or no way
Didn't pay but took a hand out
Don't like or need until plotted in the scheme
Respect loss kept around till something better came along
Treated you well but let your baby mama run you down
Express frustrations at the people who hurt you
Not the ones helping you out
No feels sorry for you
Like no one takes your crap
Figure it out you can't bs time has run out
Talk behind others back
Mad because others said it to your face
Courage you lack mistaken anger and rage

Hit the gym hard
Squats for legs strengthen those quads
Bench press for chest gets the pump
Hit it right make it tight
Isolations with dumbbells
Form is everything
More reps with less weight
Maxs out test of strength
Heavy weight less reps
Finish strong last set
Stretch to warm up
Stretch to cool down
Cardio for the heart rate
Gym time best time
Progress body change
Mind set ready for more

Noticed that smile
Juicy lips covered in lipstick
Her skirt with heels
Classy a little flirting won't hurt
Flower in her hair beauty everywhere
As her name and number
Once you call hard to let her off the Line
Shes short and petite
you want to know
What she thinks
Her colored eyes
Black hair the right length
Not afraid to express what she thinks
Never change her presences make the day

Ive given it to god he will provide
Praying for true love and someone worthy
I ask to move up at work tired of feeling stuck
A raise so I can have a little extra
Confidence to be myself achieve greatness
That my schedules font have a time conflct
Work for my living invest in myself
School to gain knowledge to make life better
Jujitsu on my 1st passions an injury will not keep me down and out.
Return to coaching softball pushing my girls to be the best it comes from within
These are on my mind  theyve helped me grow become a better person

Been waiting for so long
Don't let no one anyone take it away
Enjoy the accomplishment from hard work
It may not be much but it's something
Everyone's standards so low decide to aim high
Take pride and credit for efforts made
May not be much but everything at the moment
Feel the truth know right from wrong!
If wrong is done make it right
Follow the believe within
Never give in but try to understand
Different for a reason not like everyone else
Being the same is plain just another face no name
Stay true to the moral code
They way go live up to the standards that feel right

I remember the 1st time I seen her
A breath taking smile and short
Hair full of curls
I didn't what to say
Only if I wasn't shy
I'd do my best to say hi
My friend knew her so we were introduced
After that hurtle everything felt easy
She asked me my name I found out hers
She asked about my piercings and if they hurt
I asked about her she played sports
We talked and learned about one another
Close for a while but we grew apart
She's no longer around
Take certain moments to the heart
Like the day we met I'll always treasure

I don't think in going against anyone all I want is to be happy. I've found love in doing things even though others hate on me or judge. I haven't been writing but it kept calling me to do so!
I think about how I stick my neck our and get ******* over but that's got to change. I don't hang out with many ppl but the ones who are their for me I truly appreciate. I BBQ'd on Friday ppl like the grub so that made my day, I practiced with my cousin I help her get better with get softball skills. We could play all day but she got tired it was a change of pace.
I enjoyed wrestlemania my cousin and I had fun bonding with one another. We watched classic cartoons from our childhood. Life's good I'm avoiding the ppl who **** me off and don't do anything for me and have the nerve to be judging me.
I'm enjoying classic music I got myself a chuck berry album. I want to get ray Charles next! I watch YouTube videos for music

you dont like what they say just walk away
the madness against you fades away
you wish you could stay but meant for better
you move away write them a letter
saying i did what you said could be done
id stay and fight but not going anywhere arguing
i left my memories on your mind
you faded in my mind its like i went blind
i dare not allow you in my life
we dont breathe or speak one anothers name
you point your finger and blame
while i make it focused on fame
you have disaapeared beause i do not show you the time
i disappear i disappear when i comeback
ll the bad judgement will be proved wrong
i learned to no care so i grow strong
i disappear in the world without fear

I'm older looking for a healthy relationship if I ever start dating again. I've had my share of crazy and wild girls. There are different type of relationships casual dating, friends with benefits, the person you argue with and rely on make up *** to masked things right.
I'm looking for someone with common interest and I could communicate with most of all able to be myself don't go trying to change me now. I've been open and honest s great quality but its wrong because I guess the girl I dated use to like being lied to
It's easy to have *** with a person the hard part is getting to know a person and being able to understand them. Communication is the key because I don't read minds

Everyone journeys to be more but stuck in the struggle
Some desire love while others chase dreams
Careers that others told them would never happen
Obsessed and determined to more
Stuck with less deep down you can be the best
Limits and held back all you want to do is breakout
Feeling good others poison the mind with doubt
Stand tall others want to see you fall
Broken within hide the pain keeping busy not lost in thought
Shattered memories remain that one wants to relive
With the good comes the bad everything will be fine
Be happy over sad moments stuck in tim

Watching the fights inspired me to train! Throwing the softball makes me want to coach.
I have a coach mentality I train myself hard and push others to be better and more
I want others to bring out the best in me I usually work it out of the person.
As I age I don't want to be judges so I don't bother with others
The ppl who judge but with the same flaw or worse
I don't talk I let actions do the work I not the time who drops what I love to please others
Weights are worth my time don't waste my time keep me waiting

Being a coach has is responsiblity
When the team wins they celebrate
But you keep them focused for the next game
You push them to be better prepared
The coach takes on all the weaknesses making them a strength
When the team fails the coach know the job wasn't done right
A loss means the coach needs to push and not fail again
If the coach hates losing the team should feel the same way
One common goal and work out the kinks everything will fall into place
No hard work goes unnoticed so earn it and it will get a positive outcome

Things are taken or walk away
I believe on day
Theyll find there way back
Sometimes things happen
before you're ready
If not maybe next time
Things happen when times are tough
Good enough but never enough
Love might be great career detoured
Or love failed money is great
Keep trucking don't lose hope
Everything you hoped for falls into place
Live on your own or live like will
And it shall go accordingly
Take time make time

Working hard to fund my hobbies
Proud my hard work is starting to pay off
Work is better I'm there to do my job get paid
Not everyone appreciates what they have
I have my own car the freedom to leave whenever
I'm being responsible hoping to one day find true love
Sobriety makes the world clear living the straight edge life makes sense
I'm loving life thankful and blessed
I'm challenging myself to be more
Do more create opportunity grow as a person

Everyday is a struggle to be better
Speaking up against morons
Achieving other accomplishments not keeching off old success
Something new letting go of the old
Found someone new don't want to make the same mistakes
Success with hardwork not expecting a hand out
Change because nothing stays the same
Pursue your dreams never give up on them
Never settle for less or be denied what's yours
I've learned to not rely on anyone or hold your breath
Lost in my work not making time for what I love
Id pursue love but want a sure thing not tryong to hurt or hurt others
Its easy to not care harder to care when you get use to things slilping away
Working hard to get it all back hoping to reclaim all that was lost

Sleep deprived feel alive
Seen a live band saving others
The chosen one selected to be the DD
Up late work early finding balance
Over things bein imbalanced
Responsible always working
Making time to do it all
Waiting for the call hoping
Things change for the better

Not like the rest feels like I dont belong
Walking this quest not settling for less
Always been different so hard to be the same
Girls claim to want me but with someone else
I like to read treated like if im doing something wrong
I aim for success while others keep telling me I dont belong.
Not wasting my time trying to be accepted
Ill just be kept out on another
Im a nerd dont care what you hear
Man child living life not going out acting while
Sober living never giving it up feels so good living it up
Started dating havent found anyone worth my time
Take care of myself doesnt make me gay
I dont like how I lower my standards to belong
Always been me not giving that up
Never thought drugs were cool
I mind my mouth it doesnt make me stuck up
No time for baby mamas drama
Im single making myself happy I dont need anyone to do that for me
Im not having kids I cant afford being responsible for myself
Always seen as someone im not get to know me
Instead of assume not letting bs or the past influence my mood
So much space
Out of my face
That special place to call home
And feel like I belong for once

Roll the ball down the lane
Hit a pin or two
Shoes for rent
Scores are kept
Roll a spare
Three holes feel with fingers
Sometimes a gutter ball
Keep trying for a strike
Get your roll down till it feels right
Play all your frame
Love it so much keep playing the game
Play in teams or do it alone
The scores at the end says it all

Stay up late and write
I'm the freedom writer
Everyday it gets easy to say
Everything you wish you could
You think it's coldhearted
but needed to be said
I keep you away out of my head
I don't get close that's my only choice
Writing has become my voice
I show respect treated like a reject
Went my way because of detours
Crossing paths another roadblock
This time not giving up my way

Forget how to write
No thoughts make sense or sound right
Thinking what to write
Every minute day and night
Type or write down things that sound inspiring
Empower the read with golden words that are rich
Feel dark inside hoping the read can relate
Connect or trigger a memory
Make the world seem less lonely
Only if others could see
Understand other than things they already knew
Change for understanding over passing judgement

Gave it my all another part of me died
Block it out but it starts to leak through
The ones you dislike cross your path
The ppl you around are never there
When you do good no one notices
You make mistakes everyone points out the flaw
The lazy get handed what the hard working deserve more

Walk in the door
Notice all the sports themed wall
The barber shop full of gossip
Waiting your turn
The barbers says next
Sit in the chair
tell the barber how do the hair style
He covers you
Snips and trims
Razor cuts and high fades
Shows you the work with a mirror
Pay your fee leave a tip
Dusts you off sends you on the ways
Come back haircut can fix you any day

You lived her but not ready to be a step father
She moved out of state haven't heard from her till now
you want to tell her how you feel she was married now she's divorced
You don't judge her but she left you feeling abandoned
She called you after years of being ignored
You respected her till she got with the guy you despise the most
You could love her but couldn't get over she's a single mother who stripped for a living
Many factors that canceling  out not meant to be
Not sure how to act or respond but life does go on

Trucking around music playing loud
Took me weak acting like they are proud
Cheated on by false promises misled love
Saying they live but don't want to be with the person
Sticking around how perverse this is going to get worse horrible ending
Not faking love or pretending wish this were real but don't have time for fake
I treated you well and loyal accused of wrong doing those are your uptight actions wrapped in wrong coming out
Send this out to those who I looked out for and they stabbed me in the back
That's my fault for being over trusting moving too close and turning my back
I'm not over reacting could of said worse
Be responsible stop blaming others for you being cursed

I have a hat
Ugly but I treasure it
Given to me by an old friend
It wear it almost everywhere
It means something I truely care
I've been told throw it out
Makes me love it more
It's my hat I wear when I coach
Been through so much together
We grow old together
Like a hermit crab shell
Its a perfect fit
I might wear a new hat
But the old feels like home

The moment you let go of the pain
You forget about her the hurt is all that remains
Im usually emotionally unavailable but im tired of being closed in
I do it to myself I pull the plug on everything
Im over starting over ive gone so far
My favorite part of the day is when my favorite song plans on the radio
Driving fast wind in my face
Blowing away my frustrations thats the time im free
I feel like me when I work up confidence to be witty
Meet new people grow as a person
Tempted to get a number make a night happen
Get away see what happens

The past should defy you but live in the presents
Everyday is a new day a fresh start
Learn from your mistakes do your best not to make the sameones
I wake up saying today ill be someone make a name for myself
I love softball be a coach help the girls
I coach be the best in the league
Improvement and get better hope the make the high school team.
I like to do MMA bag work do it right be sore but a move towards goal achieve greatness be the next champ be
the trainer whole shares all he knows
respect and love helps the sport grow
Years of getting beat up now its time to move up
Always writing stories writing down moments of my life I feel grown up more mature
Success is the cure to defeat I'm not talking but doing my thing
One day take what I love to another level mainstream main event I'm doing what I love that's the main thing

I think about returns the only reason I left us to recreate myself
I'd like to stay the same but as time goes on I have to change with the times
I always change it up my workout bores me
I need a fresh different workout
Relationships get stale right away they don't see into my world they see ways to change my world take the vision away to mold into theirs
Mma is great I take an *** kicking to make others better
I coach I hear others frustrations but would rather do something about it than hearing them complain
I've never got a DUI I got silly drunk but no longer want that rep
I'm not being with anyone lays ting is degrading after a while
I do have standards I don't aim low or take what I could get
I'm struggling for a career not a job that brings me up then demotes you
I'm one who works with and inspires kids not trying have my own
I'm not who you see but take time to know me

Always focused on being awesome
Not sure how to be with one when im use to flirting with the world.
I speak my story I share my life in words
Feels good to be me once again no more hurt and regret
Live life and forget all the past
Let it drag you down the world will pass you so fast
If you didnt do wrong just grow strong
If you did love yourself dont let it turn to hate
Dont let failure it rejection dictate fate
Free your mind body and soul of burden
So you could be free enjoy the world live life
Knowing you loved with time youll find love and try again
Live life give more and the gain will be greater
Destiny will happen sooner or later

The 1st time rafting
Wear the safety vest
A helmet in case a person falls over board
The rapids tak you for a ride
Water much colder than anyone could imagine
Basics are taught along with safety rules
Use the paddle to Guide the raft
Paddle enjoy the ride
The sun shining beating everyone down
Battling the water to keep things in motion
Mountain view and nature site
On the journey experience the outdoors to the extreme

Ive learned so many life lessons why do they feel like punishments. Ive made mistakes I walk eggshells trying to be right keep my name outta ppls mouths but they still keep talking ****.
I want to fight back im tired of being a used and taken for granted.
I help my family give my all even if its not enough. ive set the bar but no one cares to meet the standards. I dont say anything but im seen as stuck up. I filter myself to be seen as someone im not eventually the truth comes out. I want to be loved and accepted but I hate becoming someone im not someone I dont understand.
Im able to show my world but others dilute my vision.

I like my frame
They match me well
I wear them with style
Others are hung over
Hide the black bags
Wear them on a drunk night
That's not right
Shades worn on summer days
Watching the game
Performers rock them on stage
Keep them cool and coordinated
Wear them with proud
You could wear them to stare
Look around but look cool

What the hell is a soulmate
Can't even find a date
Not worried about a relationship
Ends before it starts
No reliable friends to comfort or aid
Time out together night on the town
Always remembering the goodtimes
Dance with the ladies
Drink with the fellas
Make out with money made out with women
Greater times better times
Live with changes love is on the line
Not after the easy life
but live the life that means the most

Woke up made time for a workout
Id like to have a life outside of work
Tired of feeling like I'm missing out
Going strong trying not to stop
Once you're there the tempo is different
Changing the way its done a new mind set

Writing has become my voice and way to express myself lots of personal growth. I learned to communicate treat others right. I'm very hard working determined but I've crossed paths with people who had more going on but ungrateful. I have to work for mine give my all do twice as much to get by.
I've been freed from all the hurt and the vicious death grip. A failed relationship that bruiser my ego but it happened so I can grow. I was too stubborn to change because I don't like change. I had a go no where job I love but crossing paths with a lazy coworker would become a conflict of interest. I was beaten up and fired for calling this out on their laziness. Like I said I worked for mine why is this person getting  paid to do nothing. Iasked "why me" a good friend would say "why not you are meant for something great."
I held onto this doubt and what I felt not one who likes change but able to adjust and adapt to change.

Driving along say this jack rabbit playing in the street
Need for danger in and out of traffic
Playing in traffic taking life risks
Not scared or fearing death
Taking a pick eaten by a snake or be road ****
Jack rabbit seeks a thrill emotionless eyes
In and out trouble take a shot make it double
Jack rabbit quick jack rabbit slick
Fur wild and wild adventure get crazy
Head lights blaring green lights send cars speeding cause of death
Jack rabbit don't need luck risks or be a key chain someone else's good luck but it won't run out
Not today not going to be road **** rabbit
Rabbit pier and rush beat traffic and being hunted

The time alone
You could catch up on your show
Read a book entertain the mind
Squeeze in a workout
Silence filled with rich relaxation
Alone time has foundation
Write or draw leads to creation
Most fear being alone
While others embrace the freedom
Restore the peace within
Sounds like a win

If things workout be a step dad or get to stepping
Trying to be a boss tired of idiots above me
I've been good I can be better see more for myself
Elders dont want to give it up their time has passed
Self respect means trusting yourself not lusting
I've faced my fears hoping success is near by
Doing alright not straying too far
Not giving into temptation even if frustration is too overwhelming
Be better give your all over coming up short
Overachieving to come up average
Made my choice blockin out the voices that tell me otherwise

Woke up from the nightmare
Makes it hard to sleep
Stuck in deep thought
Feel cold and hot who'd thought
The message is not always clear
Question the fear
What's gone is now here
Dreams not so clear
Sometime living the dream is the reality
wake up knowing thats far from the truth
dream of the possiblities become the living
They sometimes remind you when you want to forget

I never know till I try
We have great love but no more than friends
One feels more that the other
Not able to express these emotions
It might ruin what is but is this risk worth the outcome
This can be a great gain or a tragic loss
Both determined parallels not determined to intersect
These thoughts of neglect hard to forget
Something more but settling for less not trying to obsess
Consumed by work one another kept apart

Over my neglected childhood
Hating thing about my failed relationship
The things that mean so much should be, not once was
I've developed a voice through writing it speaks
Makes things clear puts it in perspective
New views and perspective something new and fresh
Why settle for the same'ol stuff and expect less
Molds never applied or cared to fit in
Pushed out the fear of change and truth
Accept the unaccepted one day it will change
Use to things not going my way one day you feel my emotion experience change not in your favor
New new new keep on trucking it will be found
Happy now it's turning around coming back after being all around

The game has changed all the bs rules girls make
Its a game but I break the rules
Im simple I know what I want
Girls claim to be over their over the ex
But everything you do reminds of him
Im over healing them till something better comes along
Im over being emotionally invested with a person who thinks about someone else
Im friends with the damaged girls I see their potential but their broken heart side lines them.
Ive been hurt but mostly over being the other guy.
I fall in love she friend zones me or cant be my friend.
She falls in love but always makes me into a project trying to change me.
I didnt hurt you dont treat me bad
She praises the guy who hurt her
She wants him back like hes the one who got away
He chose to leave stop waiting move on
Guys who try get ignored for someone who dont want you

Feeling insecure don't bring others down
Sleep deprived workin the night shift
There for others also the oldest brother
Trying to survive stay alive making a living
No time for living it up not giving it up
Deep in though and what not
Writing is like a drive mid way through
The wind blows away the thoughts
On the road emotions roll off the road
Never too late haters always make time to judge
Heat of passion old school music and fashion

I once got lectured by a personal with an std I think that's the last person who should be giving *** advice.
This couple asked me for relationship advice and I'm single what would I know.
The last time I went on a date this girl made me take her out I thought you asked the girl out.
My last girlfriend didn't understand its over maybe she thought I mean I was over being alone
I told my friend I don't drink he offered me a beer.
This girl told me she liked me and got a boyfriend a week later.
Called a girl the wrong name and she never called me again

I think its ridiculous we no longer talk
All I can do is remember the good times
The laughter and smiles we had together
You'll always have a special place in my heart
I wish youd forgive and forget
I wish things between us didnt end in regret
One more day together like the good old days
Its not about being right
What we had wasnt wrong
Being my friend felt right
Now your gone now im obsessing how to make the wrong right
Eventually well see one another
wish you the best im a friend forever always be loyal
Years may past thoughts of you cross my mind