Always striving through
Fighting to make it to the end
But it's never over from fast pace
To slowing down taking in the good
Leaving the bad behind
Not going that way anymore
Learning to say NO can't be a YES
Being pulled in different directions
Feeling ripped apart by many
Trying to stay whole be solid

Buying the next round for all
Loved for the night
Will wake up broken
No other moments of communication
Once last call is made
Rushing for the next drink
The tab is closed out intoxicated
Not sure how to get home safe
Low on funds paying for the fun
Realizing it wasn't fun anymore
Alone pondering all the destruction

Shared a few moments
Thankful they happened
Not meant to be hard to see
A chapter of life that ended
Some nights pretending
To be able to feel that way
Once more the heart flutters
New encounter and experience
Can't look back going forward
Head down plowing through
Should be living taking it all in
Treasured the moment
The past losing value over time
Embraced the future open hands
All new suspense to face over come
Grow and learning never ending
No limit dream big live it
Holding on goals to be achieved
Open the heart is a great start

More wrinkles on this face
White hairs standing out
****** hair with white patches
Wisdom with time
Letting go to get over things
Use to remember everything
Lost in the daze of life
Another phase with age
The heart melts in love
While the mind avoids
Being consumed by rage
Love for other more than ones self
Feeling complete can be deep
Losing it all can't cause numbness
Eventually the vision becomes real
If not you find another way to achieve
What the mind heart body desires

Woke up early
Went to bed late
Dk why this heart
Feels so much burden
This mind can't figure it out
Trusting God over man
The world's gone crazy out of hand
Crazy terrorising the city
Safe at home in bed
Cant live inside with fear
Need to rise not hide
Each word holding back tears
What happen...
Why has it become this way
How did you end up like this
A huge list of questions
No answers prefer solutions
Over come the problems

The clock says 11:11
Making a wish
Praying things will be okay
Dreams become a reality
Living life not feeling numb
Able to share show emotions
Feel without being judged
Not seen as weird for the truth
Show love feel equal
Tired of holding back
Denying one's self to be liked
To be accepted by people
Who struggle within not a peace
Finding closure by forgiving
Moving on by forgetting

Told the truth always honest
Someone is always mad
Easily offended walking eggshells
Give and earning respect
Always took risks failed
Crazy going through the struggle
Wild enough to keep trying
The fire within burns
Not letting others dull the shine

Things are not what they appear
Times are tough
Feel like disappearing
People stealing from you
All this hard work and effort
So many rude disrespectful people
Throwing their trash
Leaving the streets filthy
Times have changed
Not for the better
The norms have changed
Standing for the flag
The love for this country
Praying to God with faith
Respecting the law
Hard work grew up low income
Eventually leading to opportunity

Cant say anything words get twisted
Truth twisted into lies made out to be the bad guy
Without logic or reason others gang up attack
Times have changed not always for the better
Working for the moment
While others try to impose
Steal your moment dimming your light
Rain on your parade full of shame
Tried to bring them up with you
They failed you set in their ways
Now you moved on without them
Now trying to come back
No more second chances

How do some people live a double life
Struggling to live one barely getting by
Some have multiple lovers
Struggling to find one worthy of commitment
Everyone wants the perks without commitment
Writing from the heart others don't feel
Speak from the mind without thought others are offended
Took their feelings into consideration mine got ignored
Waited but moved on can't wait for others anymore
Wasted lots of time trying to catch up
Or made lots of effort to be denied what a huge waste
Did favors didn't expect anything in return
While others do favors trying to collect hold a grudge
Don't expect or want anything from others
Walked away no reason to stay onto something new and better

Sharing yourself with another being
Doesn't mean you become one
Sometimes you expect the best
Stuck with the worse of them
Trying to shine and rise
While sinking being pulled under
Now where to want to be no blame
Had to move on get away
From the pain not meant to stay
Struggle to find a way free
From this twisted way of life

Always sore and tired
Long days restless nights
Monday thru Friday
Working harder than most
Down time is relax time
At the bar taking in the scene
Talking to the bartender
A recovering alcoholic
Chatting with a friend
She lit up the bar
A dim dark room
He admired her
Her warm smile
Perky personality

His love grew for her
As she became distant
He knew something was wrong
She didn't look or feel the same
Her vibe changed from charged
To numb avoiding eye contact
He didn't know what the problem was
Or how to fix it make it right
An obsession becoming a distraction

On the tough side of town
Might look rough
But easy to stand out
Can't settle for less
Working for a dream
Getting worked in the process
Thought of other passions
Untapped skills and hidden talents
Not just an outlet to avoid stress
From opening shop
To shutting it down
Always looking out
The favor never returned
Always feel burned out
******* over for trying to help
Karma comes back around
The 3rd degree forgive and forget

Life can change and be drastic
Sometimes for the better
Others times it can be complicated
Meet the right sometimes the wrong
A kiss turned into love
Relationships that ends on bad terms
Tired of loss and starting over
From making moves to stuck
Hard to move or do anything
Expectation leads to disappointment
Pursuing the chase lost its thrill
Not fun anymore or the same
Lust mistaken for love

Always had their back
Now they are turning on you
Bitter taste of betrayal
Tried to make it right
Living all the wrong
Now trying to throw the pain
Spread the toxic vibes
Keep it alive to survive
Place the hurt on others
Told to move on but squatting
Left behind now trying to catch up
From lovers to a fling know as the ex
Friendship lead to brotherhood
The bond was like family cut ties
Now strangers cross paths
Memories of what use to be

When it was over
Couldn't think of anyone else
Moving on felt wrong
But it was the right thing to do
Lots of self destruction
Trying to end the pain
Making it worse not any better
All new encounter being heart broken
A bad experience from her love
The red flags ignored burning fire
Her bad vibes and attitude desired

Always helping others
End up ******* over
Didn't get the job hardest worker
Wasn't good enough gave it all
The girl chose someone else
Felt lead on given false hope
Betrayed by so-called friends
Over a girl who was never loyal
Others quick to blame than own up
Cant vent or talk to anyone
Writing to make sense of the insanity

From an alcoholic to a workaholic
Always distracted lost in work
Use to drink drown out misery
Not able to cope or understand
So much lost and taken away
Only if one could get it back
Do it differently make it right
Always moving forward back at one
Can't seem to get ahead so much bad
When things are well it's short lived

They don't like your writing style
Approve or agree let me be
Striving to move up
Make it to the next level
Surviving to get ahead
Stepping it up shaking it up
Changing the game
Emptiness without it going down
Everyone gets credit and praise
But you no matter what you've done
They'll notice the bad the flaws
Before giving you props
Not the boss working like one
A part timer working hard badass
Thought I was the one
Now everyone is tripping
Letting go falling hard