Use to be excited about life
Waking up to work
From fun to a routine
Hiding emotions not get hurt
Being genuine being ****** dry
Fake friends fade away
Seeing through the act
Isolated staying away
Writing a safety net

He'd never snitch them out
They are quick to slander him
He had their back
He should've known better
They turned their back on him
They spoke bad of him
While he talked them up
Kept out looking in
Not allow left for something new

Trying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at the wrong time
Trying to do right its all wrong
Details that pop out
That catch the eye
Feelings that make your hair standTrying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at th
A nervous sweat overwhelmed

She passed on he lay in bed
Pretending to talk to her
He'd hear he motivate him
He wanted to be with her
He was mentally strong
But his heart broken
So many questions no answers
He didn't like being alone
But I was hard to be around ppl
He'd hold back the tears
Remembering the good times
Needing to live life
Break this vicious cycle

Falling hard
Falling fast
Not afraid to hit
Rock bottom
Dk anymore
Not sure what to say
What to do only if
Missed opportunity
Another chance to bounce back

Missing the old me
Can't go back neglect growth
From the heart of the party
To staying home saving up
From a circle **** of friends
Only one or two true and loyal
After a bad relationship
Learned to be alone
Picking and chosing lots of change
Don't want to be alone not fun anymore
Writing so much running low
Out of past moments to share
Need to live and enjoy life more

He arrived at the stadium
To see the show
Laughter was his outlet
Appreciated the story telling
He also loved comedy
Everyone takes life too serious
He loved to joke make others smile
He analyzed life made fun of himself
Told wild stories from his alchy daze
That could only happen to him
Dating was hard not getting any easier
From first pick to not considered

She stood at the lake
Looked at the urn
A life put to rest with nature
She said a prayer
He wanted his ashes
In his favorite fishing spot
Writing about death
An aunt with 3 months to live
Hospice grew up grew apart
Always Praying for everyone's health
Everyone's needs be met
Not losing hope or faith

Not always the hero
Or the side kick
He's a side story
No one knows
No one is talking about
He doesn't always get the girl
He's come close yet so far
He didn't have a family
But protected his loved ones

Use to be close
It's easier to stay away
Some days are easier
Not able to read minds
Trying to understand
Never been married
Only hear about divorce
Don't have kids around
Always babysitting is practice

Kicking back
Not sure how to act
Might have a heart attack
Someone talking behind my back
Mad I said it to their face
Need to be doing something
Mind starts racing
Driving myself crazy
Should've done that
Could've done this
The moment past
Everything happened so fast

Cant say much
Might blow up in your face
Once it's said
Others expect you to do it
Waiting for results
Watching and waiting for failure
Working behind the scenes
Don't like being watched
Being mocked taunted by watchers

Not always able to speak
But can write for days
Not a phase a clear mind
New mindset onto new
Can't do much ready to be set free
The past is over not meant to be
Let me be time to rise
Years of holding up others
Dead inside trying to exist
Rather be living than pretending
Not what others say
Know the truth not listening to lies
Free to think without being judged
Speak without others thinking less of
Have an opinion full of grace
Here comes more criticism
Out of my ear with ruckus
Out of my face not intimidated anymore

Why is it a dream
Why can't it be a reality
Working for it
Nothing comes easy
Never given for free
Only in your mind
It makes sense feels right
Getting it out into existence
Better than imagined
Feeling accomplished
Never satisfied still trying
Not pretending just doing
Hard to find balance
Stay centered focused

He called her sent to voice mail
He texted her and no response
He thought she was the one
He seen her in his future
She didn't feel the same way back
He asked her to be his gf
She talked about a career
A future of her own without him

In his dream she loved him
He got the job in that world
Working hard it all pays out
Another life without doubt
Became all he set out to become
Done it one way failed
Trying another way
Can't make mistakes
So many details and detours
Road blocks in the way
Starting over once again

Trying to find that joy
A toy from childhood
A show that made your mornings
Always heard father say
It was better before
Never knew what that meant
Till becoming an adult
Childhood gone but full of memories
As an adult memories are earned
Money to pay bills or buy stuff
A purchase translates
Into hours at work

Trying to stay whole
Filling this hole
Feeling it deep in the soul
Everyday personal growth
Open to learn wisdom
Taking in the environment
Seeing things in a whole new light
Hard to speak easier to write
More than one way good days ahead
Focused on another to get it done

Shedding a tear
All the fears melting away
Forgiving yourself praying for it
Been down for too long
Praying to be going strong
Feeling weak anxiety draining
Hard to breathe can't escape
All the betrayal letting go
Forgiving old friends
Hard to trust after being used
Being taken for granted
Meant well genuine agendas
The new facing the old
Letting go of pain
Disconnected from bad memories

Feeling podcasting again
Wish the little things
Brought joy
Always obsessed with work
Being responsible
No life outside of that
Been laughing at random stuff
Smiling sharing a funny story
Telling another angle of the event
Talking about the moment

Expecting them to go the distance
Finish the race one by one
Flaking and falling off
Going the distances trying finish
Feeling beat up over time
Wear and tear feeling the pain
Smiling feeling hollow inside
Not trying to run or hide
Barely getting by trying to survive

Keep on trying to find inspiration
Sky is the limit should be motivated
Hard to speak up go against my faith
Don't want to be seen as a hypocrite
Spread the word with a message
Been feeling like a mess
Can't go back to that life
Be who I was use to be
So much growth over time
Challenged to write without cussing
Cleaned it up not dating
Want to be the one not one of many
Not talking smack hard to be honest
Don't like to lie don't like holding back
Need to be informed before speaking

On the road hauling ***
On the go with music
Favorite band feeling the vibe
Trying to beat the traffic
Bad drivers on the freeway
Being careful insanity everywhere
Trying to make it home safe
Thinking about life
Focused on the road
Driving at night
Bright lights blaring

Too young to do that
Too old to do that
Age is not a limit
Do what makes you happy
Keep at it even
When others don't believe
Stay strong keep going
Wising up to grow
Can't stay the same
Overcome the pain
Every lesson a gain
Better for the next time