He fell in love with her soul turns out she was soul less another life lesson
Told her how he felt she became heartless
Jealous she had so many guy friends
Called her on it called him a player
She tried to say he called her a ***
So got mad held a grudge a big NO NO
All he wanted was her while she went with everyone else
Pain and misery remains rise above torment
Tarnished love not meant to be onto something better

Why was it an issue when he was going through something. Everyone had troubles and included everyone. It was no one's business but their own. He was a private person he didn't burden or bother anyone.
He enjoyed his peace cutting people off. Tired of jealous people comparing and judging others. Work for yours and do your own thing he strongly believed. He's been doing the work for years but not sure what to do with it. Writing on a few platforms speaking on his podcast. His outlets ways to express himself without his words being twisted giving others an excuse to talk because they had too much time on their hand

Why do people cheat? Some are married and kids. While others don't have that and want that. It's hard work to get a home some don't want that responsibility or never shown how to get there.
Some have it all and quick to look down on those who are working for it. Talk bad about others but have everything going on for them. It never made any sense. Like if their judgement will make the world better or forgive them for their wrong doings.
So many hidden agendas only in it for their personal gain. Never helping anyone just bashing people for not living up to their ideal standard they are not happy with

Grew up around the cholos
Told to be down for yours
Never had their **** together
Making up rules in their favor
Living by the rules of the street
Never cared for that life got in too deep
Some slanging to hustle easy money
Others banging to be territorial
Life or death life on the edge
Grew up hood always misunderstood
Called ghetto for keeping it real
Seen a crazy for standing your ground

He stood in the room with his oppressors
Not listening or interested in their opinion
He didn't acknowledge them because they shut him out
Trying to tell him how to act and who to be
When he did nothing wrong
This wasn't the first time
He never said anything about them
They called him ghetto and delusional
He forgave them this time he'd cut the cord
He learned his lesson this time around
They didn't talk to him he was use to being ignored
He was use to their worse so he wasn't surprised anymore
They had way more going on it didn't make sense why they came at him
They never helped quick to make things seem worse than what they are

He looked in the mirror asking "*** happened?" Lots of curve ***** and detours. He had one victory after many losses. He got too old for things the things that gave him joy lost meaning.
Putting others first made him feel worthless trying to be selfless. Doing what's right focused on bettering his life and situation. The crazy world he lived in killed him off. What's existing didn't make sense or matter anymore.

He didn't say or do anything but still ******* people off. They had more going on and came at him wrong. He didn't have much but thankful for what he had. Made the most of things he never made anyone a target he minded his mouth and business.
They came at him sour he just looked the other way when he checked them they would play the victim. Called them on their BS now they are mad sending more shady his way. He did his own thing not worried about anyone else that tried to make him doubt himself.
Wanting in his head and all they do is twist his words not listening or caring what he said it was insulting to try to tell him how to act and feel rather than understand what was going on.

He was the guy who was unnoticed sat in the back no one bothered or paid attention to him. He was use to that because when he was the center of attention good or bad eventually he would end up alone.
People talk bad about him because he stood up for his beliefs, and was use to rolling solo, a rebel at heart. He had a hard time trusting his life was an open book but learned to be selective because no one cares about you unless you are doing favor. After being used up in failed relationships found they don't want you but don't want you with anyone else. He was really crush to know that being happy for others but others would never be happy for him with all his efforts and accomplishments.

Not the same anymore
Ppl talking lies not able to trust
Actions that made things personal
Rather than seek revenge cut the cord
Claiming to love you but with another
Wanting to show love selectively
After causing hurt same bad behavior
Not rewarding toxic living with good
Empowering corruption manipulation

It was over but he wasn't scared to start over
He had so much knowledge gained from the experience
He didn't want to leave anything behind
Moving on was easy started over before
He feared his past would come back to haunt him
People reminding him who he was
The new wasn't given a chance
Trying to move on but can't constantly reminded

Feeling free coping with emotions
Sober in a toxic world
Honest in a cruel crowd
Being kept out but will shine
Somewhere else fine true love
All the betrayal made him strong
The hatred couldn't be consume him
Overlooked by family shut him down
Made him believe in himself

Feeling empty when he didn't read his bible. Always feeling like the world is against him. Being judged while being in the rut working hard trying to be invisible get through the work week. Found peace and closure alone most point out his flaws or tell him his wrongs.
He didn't ask or bother with people they always hurt his feelings or let him down. He didn't expect much of others but started expecting more for himself.
He use to joke about being the threat because most tried to come at him he'd check them. Now he turns away knowing better than to waste his time on things and people that did not respect or value his time.  Never talking about people but they always had something to say about him. Making things personal because they had nothing on him. As the threat making them feel insecure coming at him since he didn't give them their way. Giving him crap for not doing things annoyed with him trying to assassin his character to feel empowered.
Grandpa told him you don't have to say anything when you haven't done wrong others trying to include you in the drama that's none of your business.

Home sick for a place the heart craves
That's felt in the heart deprived
But never been there desired to escape
A place where you can feel
Relax without protecting your heart
Be yourself without criticism
Feeling at the edge ready to jump
The fatal fall that changes everything
Going forward not back staying strong
Escape into the dream set free
Lost in the moment feeling whole
The world makes sense at the time
Trying to make it a reality
Dead inside the dream lives on

He felt bad for not being there but didn't like all the slander spread about his name. From the old to new he didn't like change but he was changing. Thankful and glad to to be growing. He couldn't stay the same. While others hold onto his past thinking it will be a tool to be used against him.
Not his crowd anymore not part of that life. He'd fight for them and they'd fight against him in a heart beat waiting for the moment. They'd use the numbers against him rather talk to him individually.

He was over it his words being twisted. It's not what he was saying tired of false narratives. Because he spoke up they thought they could slander his character. He had his opinion to them it was no big deal but trying to use it against him.
They insult him and expect him to be okay with that. He had an opinion now everything turns into a personal attack. He stopped acknowledging them because the disrespect was only getting worse. He was definitely over one sided arguments making him out to be the crazy one.
Not going to give up on himself or compromise his efforts just to make people happy. They'd never be happy for him so why bother.

She told him I could've had you
Too bad it never happened
When he wanted her she had a bf
He was always single living life
Feeling everything yanked around
He wanted to be complete
Searching for cope and peace
The time he was in a relationship
She kissed him on the cheek
He was confused about love
Never had her  love but wanted her
Didn't know how to feel he has someone
It was unfair he remained faithful to his current love
Even though his chance for forbidden love came back around
He tried to stay the same so much change
Everything was different never the same
Still single no children never been married
Some friends had children and married
While others got divorced the young love failed them

In silence reading a good trying to educate himself. Thought others would teach him but had to do it himself. Taking in the info trying to process apply things to life. Lots of repetition wanting it more because they told him he couldn't do it.
Said it couldn't be done but he's been doing it without excuses. The things he loved brought him hurt so he tried to find what he loved doing things for the wrong reason trying to make them right.

Watching them grow avoiding the drama always on the go. Always a private person no one needs to know or tell my business. Don't like being responsible for others since they are quick to blame than own up.
He walked away as they act like they pushed him out. Made him out to be the bad guy to justify their cruelty. Making it one sided it's always about him never what they did.
He let them run their mouth it would eventually end up in their mouth. He left and not looking back let go of those feeling he use to hoarder away.

He gave up his dream for love and it didn't work out. Learning to love himself trying to get back on track. He's not far from success but knows it will take hard work to get there. Battled up hill battles and struggled to make it through make it to the end the others side no where to run or hide. He couldn't avoid his destiny when the people he loved became a distraction. More road blocks and obstacles he didn't need or want the toxic to destroy his vision.

Hard to trust after being done *****. He forgave them but they kept up the same scam. Giving him the silent treatment when they got caught up now they are mad at him for telling the truth. As they kept lying and blaming everyone else.
He didn't drink anymore but everyone with their failed relationships and bad habits trying to justify everything. More nonsense that didn't hold him down or back. He was not easily fooled their actions were louder than all the shouting and complaining. It was their life how is it anyone's fault for their actions. It was annoying everything got really bad instead of better. He made mistakes but learned not to say or do anything because of the negative influences that tried to mock his way of life. Provoke him to over react when he knew that he didn't ask for advice and not react nor empower toxic behavior

He always wanted to change the outcome. No say or control just saying be better next time the moment passed. The bounce back took a while hard to shake these hard feelings rough emotions questioning what is wrong and where did it all go wrong. If he was able to pin point that moment be able to let go let loose. His mind was his safe space but sometimes an escape room with looping thoughts with no hints on how to exit within a timely manner.
So many questions but not enough answers that matched what was being said.

All you wanted was to make it
Share that moment with everyone
All they did was ruin it look down on you
From caring too much to not giving a ****
You valued them always much love
Now all they do is hate on you
The disrespect made it easier to step
Not giving them a reason to talk
No longer enabling them to have a say
Staying away doing more than before
Free to do whatever not married
Able to enjoy life no kids choices were made
He worked hard trying to get paid
Made more so about anyone anymore
Stayed out got more confidence
Brought in feeling drained not the stepping stone
No longer the scapegoat found closure
Being a rebel alone getting it done
Making it fun over complicated drama

He wrote to stay sharp
His face showed no emotions
Thinking of his next move
Writing to focus distracted by others
They came at him but he didn't react
He didn't respond to the negativity
Staying positive focused on growth
Stood talk tired of being brought down
Let them do their thing much respect
While focused on his not phased
They made it he was happy for them
He made it got ignored but use to it

Working to pursue a dream
Lots of body aches and pains
On this journey to somewhere new
Can't stay stuck in the old looping past
Doing less work for him talked about
Doing too much still had them talking
All the pain faded but still intense
All the drama no longer welcomed
Taking over trying not to fail
Not be consumed by angered frustration

Determined to make it through the day. Enjoy the next three days off composing ones self and coped with all the anger frustration let it all go. Not worthy of holding onto letting go of those that disrupt his inner peace.
Watching them crumble before his eyes. Staying composed not quick to surrender to evil now a peacemaker instead of the chaos of others.

New ways of life adapting and adjusting to the change. New chapters a new book can't keep reading the same book the ending will never change. Knowing the outcome time for a new outlook perspective on life.
New friends missing the old cut off those ones wishing they'd stay.
Everyone moved on finally doing the same. Holding on and squatting won't get you anywhere. Just falling behind trying to catch up. Matter make a difference so much opposition.

Of course "you think you're better than me. Why don't you act like it." He said in a heated argument. He didn't have much but worked hard and thankful for what he had. He'd rather do his own thing than bother with everyone's drama and criticism. He became immune to being alone he found peace. When people called or texted him they wanted or needed something it did rub him the wrong way. Giving his all and expecting nothing in return was more demanding when all he wanted was to be left alone.

The weight on his heart he loved his family
Not sure how to make the wrong right
Someone was always mad with no given reason
Holding a grudge till death the only way
More silent treatment with hate filled glares
The cold shoulder with icy vibrations
Sorry isn't enough giving a bad attitude space
Not dealing with tempers or putting up with temper tantrums
Living life no need for a guilt trip
Pursing love and passion not feeding egos
Waiting around to be accepted will never happen

He wanted to control his narrative so many rumors that circled round. They cut him off and pushed him out made it on his own. There was no going back  do or die. The world was dark and cruel he kept chasing the light.
He zoned out from all the bad and toxic. Kept doing what he liked and loved. Stayed true to himself since everyone was going through something. He respected their situation while they tried to ruin his moment because nothing was happening for them.

He fought to get in now that he was in he wanted out. He felt disconnected from everyone turns out he was wrong. Hyped them up in his mind seeing good but getting the worse. He gave his all and did his best.  He was different and meant for more tired of settling.
Being used made him better but he knew his hard work would help him ride to the top the next level. He stopped doubting himself and just did what needed to be done

It was over for them and just beginning for him. Picking up all the slack everyone had other plans while he was stuck in the middle of it all. Know for his work didn't care to talk or say much never cared for the politics of the job. They fought for themselves trying to make it seem like they looked out for the majority.
Stayed strong and sober because it got to him mentally wanting to drown out the misery. Needing his spirit recharged so much drama. He tuned out focused on the work and did the extra because it made time fly by faster.

The 10 hour shifts got to him he wasn't surprised anymore. He just stopped caring and did what needed to be done. The language barrier kept him out but he made the most of the situation. He'd rather work than pretend to understand what everyone was saying but after a while he stopped caring. He went numb the people he valued made him feel like nobody.
Another day of proving himself and not backing down. He made it fun made the most of things now a days it didn't matter just get it done and go home. From being fun to being mocked not able to do anything. He got quiet and let them talk eventually those mouthy people would get caught up in their own foolishness.
The numb mind blocked it out feeling nothing showing no emotions. It was all his he took instead of waiting for it to circle back around. Everyone talked big but no one did anything about it.

He was at peace use to being alone excluded from everything. Working quietly behind the scenes he got a random text and knew something was up. No one ever calls or texted him unless they needed something on of the worse feelings.
He didn't know why he thought this would be different free from drama as it squeaked back in his life. It wasn't his style or for him anymore. He minded his mouth and business now being asked a favor. He preferred to no be involved just fade away blend in with the background.
He was use to being solo working in a team held him back team work was only used in their favor he was stuck alone rushing when it come to doing his own stuff. Kept out and excluded didn't bother him anymore. Dealing with fake and phony their true colors came to the light. He wasn't worried because it would all comeback to them.

He walked away starting to feel better. Now a lonely person, after all the cuts starting to heal. Moved on with no regret gaining back self respect. Clearing his mind of doubt, stayed away from the chaos back on track.
The dream that plays in the back of the mind. Staying sober cut off old intoxicated chums.
He had no common interest other than being alcohol fueled. Relationships over friendships couldn't get any of them right

He sat in the back observed and listened to everything on it was all new to him. He didn't like being the center of attention because someone would try to knock him for being different.
Keeping a low profile and working behind the scenes felt more common. Writing his thoughts and ideas enjoying the creative process hoping to do something with it.
He liked to working with others being a team not let the guy who did nothing take all the credit for the team effort. Making nothing into something building off ideas

He was dropping those burdens gaining momentum. Feeding his soul instead of the soul suckers that drained his well being. His voice grew weak not saying much or arguing with others.
Turned his back walked away from the carnage no longer cleaning the crumbled crumbs for others.

Breaking away from the haters
Cut the cord and no regrets
Doing your own thing an individual
Love family feeling drained
Walking eggs shells getting attacked
Ready to make noise silent the crowd
Pushed out ready to move up and out
Onto new stuff doing it for you
No longer on the back burner
Missed opportunities circle back
Holding back its all coming out
Years of being ignored skipped over
Being at the bottom starting to move
Wasn't able to before walls are falling
Seeing new over the same rules

He watched his brother be buried part of him went in the grave.
He didn't trust anyone he wanted justice
Who executes another being in cold blood
More bad than good at that moment
Hard to trust anyone his failed relationship
Brought out the hatred trust issues he no longer wanted to be that person anymore
He stopped caring what others said or thought since he had his own agendas
All those distractions he stopped empowering them. The loud noise went mute white noise it didn't matter anymore.

He wiped his tears stood up to his fears
Family was his strength and weakness
He was taking on the world
Rather than have his back they squared up
He didn't want to go there if he did there was no upside
Someone was always mad holding a grudge he wasn't surprised anymore
He said nothing all they did was talk loud it didn't make them right
He smiled and they hated him for it
No longer self destructive and drinking
Not eating his emotions away staying clear of his bad habits
Staying away from others toxic traits they try to project on him

He was the oldest trying to be his own man so many trying to shadow him and knock him. The worse is when it was his family. Talking about him behind his back never to his face. He learned to not say anything because everything got made personal.
He made suggestions had an opinion. Now they try to bury him take him out in the numbers. He wasn't scared to be alone so much bugged him. He never said anything to or about anyone. But they has so much to say against him. He was human as they tried to make him out to be a monster. Thought he was someone else all he wanted was to be himself.
Focused on work since it was so demanding and writing it gave him peace and closure when everyone else was burdening others with their frustrations instead of dealing with it.

He liked her but didn't know if she was the one. He had his doubts he just wanted to get it right this time around.  Not doubting his abilities but has been wrong in the past trying to bounce back from trials and tribulations.

He vented about things to clear his mind. All he wanted to say was **** and mind your business. Tired of everyone talking about each other instead of to one another.
Walking eggs shells as everyone did way worse pretending to be better than you. That's on them no one bothers to make it right. They'd rather hold a grudge than make things better.
Everyone talks loud when you aren't around but when you walk up they stare with an awkward silence. He smiled and said hi even when he got the cold shoulder.

He loved his sibling wish he was closer. Everything was always terms and conditions so he stayed away. He just wanted to get along. He didn't care for mind games or the jokes that were packed with insults.
He was older and knew better than to lower himself to that level. Family divided mad because you hung out with a sibling uncomfortable being put in the middle of drama that had nothing to do with you.
Not feeding egos all the pride keeping everyone apart. It was foolish to impose on others thinking your way is best for others life.

Told be the lead but didn't like being responsible for others. It's always argument or fight he learned to do it on his own. Give his all and expect nothing in return. Pushing through even when he was burnt out. Growing up in the struggle learned to go without. Told to speak up don't hold anything in.
This helped him open up and write sometimes clear his heart. Told it was all in his head focused on the work not the drama. Getting older feeling less phased by gossip. Not talking about anyone and minding his business.

Trying to stay intact loving them hard
Never had your back the betrayal
Unless you're doing favors
In their favor wasting others time
Sad to see them go if their not happy
Better to say good bye than hold on
Wishing them the best nothing less
As they move on did his own thing
He focused on the work every detail
Trying to improve the situation
Making the wrong right with family
Forgiving others hard to trust
All the verbal attacks behind his back
Spoke up now everyone is mad
Open to change with some criticism
Taking advice suggestions that bubble
In the back of the mind cycling away
Memories fading not holding a grudge
Not open to being told how to do so

The love he desires was hard to find
Someone he could trust not a lush
A real connection with someone true
Instead of meaningless lusting
Tired of one sided being treated cruel
He remained loyal yet faithful
Even though accused of cheating
Taking all the blame to make it work
Immune to the pain becoming numb
Knowing its over not playing dumb
Heart letting go moving onto growth
Mind blocking the distracting denial
Focused on the truth ready to improve
Be better without compromised love

Feeling free use to being excluded
Breaking away from haters
Who won't let you be
All the hypocrisy going on
Trying to tell you "you're wrong"
Not a follower or **** up
Someone use to be thief see
Where the son gets if from
But quick to talk about everyone
Paying his own way no support
Being compared tough love
More like no love walking solo
Unless you're doing favors

He was neutral being placed on a side taking a stand. Realizing it was none of his business all the drama and chaos had nothing to do with him. Everyone silent because no one can talk about it or hold a grudge like if the neglect of others will give you an upper hand. Demanding respect from people you I do nothing for doesn't make you a better person.
Talking about people not knowing their struggle or what they've been through doesn't give you the right to judge.
Sad to see everyone divided instead of united. Taking the blame to end it isn't enough. Saying sorry and not being forgiven what's the point. He'd rather be at work than with family so much guilt and burdens.

He was tired and sore tired of everyone talking about everyone. He gave his all while others act like they do everything acting like they help everyone. Its for their own selfish gain. Doing way more than the person running their mouth.
He didn't care for all these made up rules others made. Be this way do that and they don't even do it. A bunch of noise being made that doesn't help others benefit. He just focused on the work he didn't care about gossip or work politics.
He was thankful and grateful for his job. It was very demanding. He busted his **** took pride in his work. He didn't speak Spanish so he got the 3rd degree. Being Mexican born in the US they see you as privileged and lazy.
He did those impossible jobs and jobs no one wanted to do.

He looked in the mirror noticed the wrinkles and the white hairs that stood out more than the blacks. Feeling his muscle mass be less dense his body stiff losing flexibility a life of crazy from others he didn't care for.
Minding his mouth because everyone took everything personal.
He was done with everyone and everything that opposed him or tried to assassin his character due to a conflict of interest. It didn't bother him anymore, he knew who he was and didn't need anyone tell him otherwise