He always wanted to change the outcome. No say or control just saying be better next time the moment passed. The bounce back took a while hard to shake these hard feelings rough emotions questioning what is wrong and where did it all go wrong. If he was able to pin point that moment be able to let go let loose. His mind was his safe space but sometimes an escape room with looping thoughts with no hints on how to exit within a timely manner.
So many questions but not enough answers that matched what was being said.

All you wanted was to make it
Share that moment with everyone
All they did was ruin it look down on you
From caring too much to not giving a ****
You valued them always much love
Now all they do is hate on you
The disrespect made it easier to step
Not giving them a reason to talk
No longer enabling them to have a say
Staying away doing more than before
Free to do whatever not married
Able to enjoy life no kids choices were made
He worked hard trying to get paid
Made more so about anyone anymore
Stayed out got more confidence
Brought in feeling drained not the stepping stone
No longer the scapegoat found closure
Being a rebel alone getting it done
Making it fun over complicated drama

He wrote to stay sharp
His face showed no emotions
Thinking of his next move
Writing to focus distracted by others
They came at him but he didn't react
He didn't respond to the negativity
Staying positive focused on growth
Stood talk tired of being brought down
Let them do their thing much respect
While focused on his not phased
They made it he was happy for them
He made it got ignored but use to it

Working to pursue a dream
Lots of body aches and pains
On this journey to somewhere new
Can't stay stuck in the old looping past
Doing less work for him talked about
Doing too much still had them talking
All the pain faded but still intense
All the drama no longer welcomed
Taking over trying not to fail
Not be consumed by angered frustration

Determined to make it through the day. Enjoy the next three days off composing ones self and coped with all the anger frustration let it all go. Not worthy of holding onto letting go of those that disrupt his inner peace.
Watching them crumble before his eyes. Staying composed not quick to surrender to evil now a peacemaker instead of the chaos of others.

New ways of life adapting and adjusting to the change. New chapters a new book can't keep reading the same book the ending will never change. Knowing the outcome time for a new outlook perspective on life.
New friends missing the old cut off those ones wishing they'd stay.
Everyone moved on finally doing the same. Holding on and squatting won't get you anywhere. Just falling behind trying to catch up. Matter make a difference so much opposition.

Of course "you think you're better than me. Why don't you act like it." He said in a heated argument. He didn't have much but worked hard and thankful for what he had. He'd rather do his own thing than bother with everyone's drama and criticism. He became immune to being alone he found peace. When people called or texted him they wanted or needed something it did rub him the wrong way. Giving his all and expecting nothing in return was more demanding when all he wanted was to be left alone.

The weight on his heart he loved his family
Not sure how to make the wrong right
Someone was always mad with no given reason
Holding a grudge till death the only way
More silent treatment with hate filled glares
The cold shoulder with icy vibrations
Sorry isn't enough giving a bad attitude space
Not dealing with tempers or putting up with temper tantrums
Living life no need for a guilt trip
Pursing love and passion not feeding egos
Waiting around to be accepted will never happen

He wanted to control his narrative so many rumors that circled round. They cut him off and pushed him out made it on his own. There was no going back  do or die. The world was dark and cruel he kept chasing the light.
He zoned out from all the bad and toxic. Kept doing what he liked and loved. Stayed true to himself since everyone was going through something. He respected their situation while they tried to ruin his moment because nothing was happening for them.

He fought to get in now that he was in he wanted out. He felt disconnected from everyone turns out he was wrong. Hyped them up in his mind seeing good but getting the worse. He gave his all and did his best.  He was different and meant for more tired of settling.
Being used made him better but he knew his hard work would help him ride to the top the next level. He stopped doubting himself and just did what needed to be done

It was over for them and just beginning for him. Picking up all the slack everyone had other plans while he was stuck in the middle of it all. Know for his work didn't care to talk or say much never cared for the politics of the job. They fought for themselves trying to make it seem like they looked out for the majority.
Stayed strong and sober because it got to him mentally wanting to drown out the misery. Needing his spirit recharged so much drama. He tuned out focused on the work and did the extra because it made time fly by faster.

The 10 hour shifts got to him he wasn't surprised anymore. He just stopped caring and did what needed to be done. The language barrier kept him out but he made the most of the situation. He'd rather work than pretend to understand what everyone was saying but after a while he stopped caring. He went numb the people he valued made him feel like nobody.
Another day of proving himself and not backing down. He made it fun made the most of things now a days it didn't matter just get it done and go home. From being fun to being mocked not able to do anything. He got quiet and let them talk eventually those mouthy people would get caught up in their own foolishness.
The numb mind blocked it out feeling nothing showing no emotions. It was all his he took instead of waiting for it to circle back around. Everyone talked big but no one did anything about it.

He was at peace use to being alone excluded from everything. Working quietly behind the scenes he got a random text and knew something was up. No one ever calls or texted him unless they needed something on of the worse feelings.
He didn't know why he thought this would be different free from drama as it squeaked back in his life. It wasn't his style or for him anymore. He minded his mouth and business now being asked a favor. He preferred to no be involved just fade away blend in with the background.
He was use to being solo working in a team held him back team work was only used in their favor he was stuck alone rushing when it come to doing his own stuff. Kept out and excluded didn't bother him anymore. Dealing with fake and phony their true colors came to the light. He wasn't worried because it would all comeback to them.

He walked away starting to feel better. Now a lonely person, after all the cuts starting to heal. Moved on with no regret gaining back self respect. Clearing his mind of doubt, stayed away from the chaos back on track.
The dream that plays in the back of the mind. Staying sober cut off old intoxicated chums.
He had no common interest other than being alcohol fueled. Relationships over friendships couldn't get any of them right

He sat in the back observed and listened to everything on it was all new to him. He didn't like being the center of attention because someone would try to knock him for being different.
Keeping a low profile and working behind the scenes felt more common. Writing his thoughts and ideas enjoying the creative process hoping to do something with it.
He liked to working with others being a team not let the guy who did nothing take all the credit for the team effort. Making nothing into something building off ideas

He was dropping those burdens gaining momentum. Feeding his soul instead of the soul suckers that drained his well being. His voice grew weak not saying much or arguing with others.
Turned his back walked away from the carnage no longer cleaning the crumbled crumbs for others.

Breaking away from the haters
Cut the cord and no regrets
Doing your own thing an individual
Love family feeling drained
Walking eggs shells getting attacked
Ready to make noise silent the crowd
Pushed out ready to move up and out
Onto new stuff doing it for you
No longer on the back burner
Missed opportunities circle back
Holding back its all coming out
Years of being ignored skipped over
Being at the bottom starting to move
Wasn't able to before walls are falling
Seeing new over the same rules

He watched his brother be buried part of him went in the grave.
He didn't trust anyone he wanted justice
Who executes another being in cold blood
More bad than good at that moment
Hard to trust anyone his failed relationship
Brought out the hatred trust issues he no longer wanted to be that person anymore
He stopped caring what others said or thought since he had his own agendas
All those distractions he stopped empowering them. The loud noise went mute white noise it didn't matter anymore.

He wiped his tears stood up to his fears
Family was his strength and weakness
He was taking on the world
Rather than have his back they squared up
He didn't want to go there if he did there was no upside
Someone was always mad holding a grudge he wasn't surprised anymore
He said nothing all they did was talk loud it didn't make them right
He smiled and they hated him for it
No longer self destructive and drinking
Not eating his emotions away staying clear of his bad habits
Staying away from others toxic traits they try to project on him

He was the oldest trying to be his own man so many trying to shadow him and knock him. The worse is when it was his family. Talking about him behind his back never to his face. He learned to not say anything because everything got made personal.
He made suggestions had an opinion. Now they try to bury him take him out in the numbers. He wasn't scared to be alone so much bugged him. He never said anything to or about anyone. But they has so much to say against him. He was human as they tried to make him out to be a monster. Thought he was someone else all he wanted was to be himself.
Focused on work since it was so demanding and writing it gave him peace and closure when everyone else was burdening others with their frustrations instead of dealing with it.

He liked her but didn't know if she was the one. He had his doubts he just wanted to get it right this time around.  Not doubting his abilities but has been wrong in the past trying to bounce back from trials and tribulations.

He vented about things to clear his mind. All he wanted to say was **** and mind your business. Tired of everyone talking about each other instead of to one another.
Walking eggs shells as everyone did way worse pretending to be better than you. That's on them no one bothers to make it right. They'd rather hold a grudge than make things better.
Everyone talks loud when you aren't around but when you walk up they stare with an awkward silence. He smiled and said hi even when he got the cold shoulder.

He loved his sibling wish he was closer. Everything was always terms and conditions so he stayed away. He just wanted to get along. He didn't care for mind games or the jokes that were packed with insults.
He was older and knew better than to lower himself to that level. Family divided mad because you hung out with a sibling uncomfortable being put in the middle of drama that had nothing to do with you.
Not feeding egos all the pride keeping everyone apart. It was foolish to impose on others thinking your way is best for others life.

Told be the lead but didn't like being responsible for others. It's always argument or fight he learned to do it on his own. Give his all and expect nothing in return. Pushing through even when he was burnt out. Growing up in the struggle learned to go without. Told to speak up don't hold anything in.
This helped him open up and write sometimes clear his heart. Told it was all in his head focused on the work not the drama. Getting older feeling less phased by gossip. Not talking about anyone and minding his business.

Trying to stay intact loving them hard
Never had your back the betrayal
Unless you're doing favors
In their favor wasting others time
Sad to see them go if their not happy
Better to say good bye than hold on
Wishing them the best nothing less
As they move on did his own thing
He focused on the work every detail
Trying to improve the situation
Making the wrong right with family
Forgiving others hard to trust
All the verbal attacks behind his back
Spoke up now everyone is mad
Open to change with some criticism
Taking advice suggestions that bubble
In the back of the mind cycling away
Memories fading not holding a grudge
Not open to being told how to do so

The love he desires was hard to find
Someone he could trust not a lush
A real connection with someone true
Instead of meaningless lusting
Tired of one sided being treated cruel
He remained loyal yet faithful
Even though accused of cheating
Taking all the blame to make it work
Immune to the pain becoming numb
Knowing its over not playing dumb
Heart letting go moving onto growth
Mind blocking the distracting denial
Focused on the truth ready to improve
Be better without compromised love

Feeling free use to being excluded
Breaking away from haters
Who won't let you be
All the hypocrisy going on
Trying to tell you "you're wrong"
Not a follower or **** up
Someone use to be thief see
Where the son gets if from
But quick to talk about everyone
Paying his own way no support
Being compared tough love
More like no love walking solo
Unless you're doing favors

He was neutral being placed on a side taking a stand. Realizing it was none of his business all the drama and chaos had nothing to do with him. Everyone silent because no one can talk about it or hold a grudge like if the neglect of others will give you an upper hand. Demanding respect from people you I do nothing for doesn't make you a better person.
Talking about people not knowing their struggle or what they've been through doesn't give you the right to judge.
Sad to see everyone divided instead of united. Taking the blame to end it isn't enough. Saying sorry and not being forgiven what's the point. He'd rather be at work than with family so much guilt and burdens.

He was tired and sore tired of everyone talking about everyone. He gave his all while others act like they do everything acting like they help everyone. Its for their own selfish gain. Doing way more than the person running their mouth.
He didn't care for all these made up rules others made. Be this way do that and they don't even do it. A bunch of noise being made that doesn't help others benefit. He just focused on the work he didn't care about gossip or work politics.
He was thankful and grateful for his job. It was very demanding. He busted his **** took pride in his work. He didn't speak Spanish so he got the 3rd degree. Being Mexican born in the US they see you as privileged and lazy.
He did those impossible jobs and jobs no one wanted to do.

He looked in the mirror noticed the wrinkles and the white hairs that stood out more than the blacks. Feeling his muscle mass be less dense his body stiff losing flexibility a life of crazy from others he didn't care for.
Minding his mouth because everyone took everything personal.
He was done with everyone and everything that opposed him or tried to assassin his character due to a conflict of interest. It didn't bother him anymore, he knew who he was and didn't need anyone tell him otherwise

Everything was tough so he walked away but he had no peace since it was in the back of his mind. Siblings taken away by social services and father back in prison. A mother that would have to work to get her kids back. While he tried to pursue his education wanted to help his family but couldn't do anything to help. Eventually he'd put everything on hold and come back home. His dreams haunting and taunting him because he was close but yet so far. Everyone would be united fall back into places. Back to the child hood home for his parents and one sibling everyone grew up. Seem to be doing some chose a relationship and others focused on bettering their situation.
He watched them make mistakes but could since it wasn't his life or gave them advice warned them but no one listened to him because they thought they knee better but when they tried to tell him they crossed the line because he already made those mistakes and learned.

He stopped empowering the crazy that fueled the family hatred. Everyone wanted him to be or act a certain way. Focused on his goals and dreams he stopped making excuses anxious to get it done make it happen. He could see himself graduating with his college degree its part of his journey he started but life took him away from it. Working part time but doing fill time jobs.
He met so many people on his journey met the right ones. That would connect him with the right in the right direction. He got support instead of trying to prove himself to be accepted. Learning about mutual love and respect instead of everything being so one sided. Working hard waking up sore with lower back pain. Trying not to stress out over things he has no say or control over.
He always had writing to see it put things into context sometimes things would happen and didn't always know how to act or respond. He learned to walk away instead of carry the burdens of the world on his shoulders.
Someone was always mad or holding a grudge he wasn't responsible for their happiness. They chose to behave and act that way. He did his best to not hurt others or get hurt.

The things that mattered to him treated him like he didn't matter. Taking one for the team but the team never had his back. Being called spicy if he opened his mouth. Not saying anything made him feel provoked. Speaking up would lead to more criticism. Trying to do his work and go home home. He thought about dating but that pool is shallow waters and slim pickings. Told to stack paper he knew money couldn't buy happiness.
After a few failed relationships he was okay with his own company. Learned to be more selective and not rush things. He wanted things to come natural not be forced.

He was inspired to pursue his dreams after placing them on hold. He wanted to help but had nothing to offer. He learned that he would have to help himself first. After being insulted by someone he thought highly of. Always assumed the worse or expected him to fail.
Bouncing back knowing he's not seen as an equal but working harder than those whom judged and labeled him. He was never materialistic and treated people right that said more than possessions. In the trenches making moves while others say back watch him do the work once he made it they wouldn't give him any credit. He had a chip on his shoulder but it never went to his head.
Everyone would point out the flaw and mistakes rather than give him any credit. He'd cross things off his to do list while others would add ideals or standards that kept him out of had nothing to do with but expected him to live up to these standards.

He knew he'd be excluded for not agreeing seen different for having an opinion. Usually a push over and taken lightly this time he stood his ground.
Why should he give up who he is to be liked to be accepted when everyone else made no changes or a difference to help others. He was tired of all the expectation of others.
They didn't care what he thought or how he felt. Like anything they said or did was more important. He cleared his mind showing no feelings or emotions wore a bold face as they bad mouth him to anyone who would listen. They looked down on him because he didn't give up on himself since he didn't do anything wrong.

Not everyone things or feels the way he does. Laying in his bed reflecting his week. Wondering what else is out there beyond the work routine. He thought about friends but doesn't have many he could rely on or trust.
Where to meet people since sober living was important to his way of life.
After being in a few bad and unhealthy relationships he thought it was easier being alone. He didn't mind being solo and isolated became a regular reoccurrence. Alone with his thought ideas why they didn't happen. How come he never tried or pursued those bubbling creations in the back of his mind.

Always thankful and grateful for everything. Over the same routine stressing to get it done over all the extra. Trying to stay sane become immune to the physical pain. Sleep deprived striving though the long days and slow weeks. Music making things move along.
An outcast rebel going strong doing what they said couldn't be done. Taking pride on the work from the bottom to the top. Saw himself there to be denied. Now he's there again wondering how long this will last.

Walking a tight rope to survive
You look down ready to fall considering all the obstacles
Asking is it worth it
Does it mean anything
Does it even matter
Bad people pretending to be good
While the good ones get treated bad

Family always argues or fights. Some follow the rules while others think it doesn't apply to them. Making a standard while others place bad around you to justify the insanity. Stuck between things that have nothing to do with you.
Lots of arguing and blaming some own up while others blame everyone but themselves. Pride and ego keeping family divided. All these made up rules and boundaries but expect so much from others.
Fighting to be yourself be an individual others don't get you or understand so they try to cancel you out.

They don't respect you but Dk your story. What you've seen and been through. Talking to you like you're waiting for them to tell you how to live your life when they aren't even living the life they set out to live.
Not one to compete or compare with others that aren't doing what one is pursuing on the journey.
Forgiving others even if they are still angry its better to walk away. Being around them as they destroy everything in their path soon it might be you. Hard to trust anyone marking others soon you might become a target.
Being brushed off ignored by everyone gave you room and space to do your own thing working harder and grinding to the fullest

Being called crazy for having a dream only you can see it makes sense in your mind. Having an opinion being different seen as delusional. They aren't helping anyone but themselves why are they talking.
You forgive them and move on because those burdens weigh down your heart. Give yourself peace and closure over holding a grudge. Reading the bible helps fill the empty within. Loving them even if they don't love you back. Staying strong moving through the bad everything will be okay get better. Praying for them because they are set in their ways. Trying to do things with God's way trust the plan. The internal struggle and faith find balance

Its okay to be different what's not okay is for others to impose their view talk about everyone because they didn't get their way. Not being able to get w reaction so they try to turn others against you.
While you remain loyal and the same not giving into those wicked ways. Staying on your standards not lowering yourself to be accepted. Doing what needs to be done not making excuses.
Staying clear of those toxic talkers that never have anything good to say more problems than solutions. They'll blame you because they don't talk to you. Make it seem like you started everything. All because you had an opinion and spoke your mind. It wasn't what they wanted to hear now they made everything personal. All you can do is cut the ties smile be happy on a new journey without those doubters.
Make it about you after years of putting others first while being used and taken for granted. Only you can do it for you. No one else is going to do it for you. Make the most of things and work with what you got.

From the bottom to the top not use to this push. Use to fight to be heard struggle to have a say. All these barriers are gone faded away. Thought one way told to be another. Staying grounded and leveled while others were keeping you down unless you became part of their scam otherwise they wanted nothing to do with you.
Provoked and pushed to hard once you struck back the tone changed. Getting older been doing this getting better trying to overcome being the whipping boy doing others work for years don't need a voice telling you what to do. Especially when you're the one doing all the labor taking on the duties of the unwilling to cooperate.

Everyday being told what to do how to act be free without others trying to cancel one out for having their own goals and dreams doing it your way. Being told NO working for that moment treated it, like it was real, like it was life. Now the moment is here not afraid no backing down.
From crowd being kept out now its open feeling free from all the made up standards hype done pretending limited faded memories.

Writing without cussing is hard not talking about a girl but flirting with the situation playing with hypothetical scenarios all these possibilities that never happen. Asking how could this be avoided or what could've been done differently. Multiple factors but one true outcome that works itself out.
Trying to find inspiration use what's given making the most of everything. Not holding on to everything but letting go a clear mind to ease a pacing mind thinks too much. The heart on an emotional rollercoaster no sure how to feel or react to Everyone everything that's a change from the everyday routine

Older tired trying to make it not get fired. Stay sharp while being yanked in multiple directions. A new boss that appreciates your hard work and efforts. No lead but a new one is being brought over in the process.
Focused on work while others think less of your efforts. Always proving yourself just trying to match energy and be enough for once. Over the obstacles trying to get there even if they are meant to build character shape you.
Asking how much more what else does one have to encounter to find peace and closure wanting more to get lost in it. Not feel like it's over again, how do one get it back dreading starting over. Function without saying now what?

He didn't want to argue or fight with anyone anymore. It doesn't have to be this way not holding a grudge or mad just trying to live and enjoy life.
All the physical and mental pain was enough trying to heal be better. No more childhood pain just moving forward away from the hurt. Not in that place or that person anymore. Cutting away the toxic letting go of those stuck on the past.
Releasing the dead weight since its not helping but holding you down stuck in the same old place. Slow progress is better than staying still.
Recycled thoughts reworded hoping to encourage inspire others. Another way other chances opportunities instead of the same false hope expecting change while working for new onto fresh new perspectives experiences gains from new encounters.

Times are changing from close to disconnected by betrayal not able to trust or rely on anyone. Straight up to your face cold to you behind your back.
Out of respect said it to the persons face its an insult when words circle back around. Can't pretend things are fine when the person violated your trust all the disrespect is unforgivable. Walked away not saying anything the lies playing victim once caught up.

Getting older working with the youth use to being in the back behind the scenes now being brought to the front of the things. He didn't care to battle egos or be caught up in power trips.
The older employees are retiring, it's hard to watch them go. As they grow gray leaving you to move up on with life. Being their replacement feeling the pressure to maintain the high standards.
From a rookie moving to the next level the glass ceiling broke before it was as good or as far as you could go. Always on deck ready to go. There's an open way not sure which way to go.

He loved his family they never talked all they did was talk about one another. Instead of building each other up all the hatred knocking on another.
Everyone goes through stuff but you can't tell people what to do or how to live their life. All you could do is warn them they won't listen choosing the hard way sometimes is the eye opener.
Being the oldest watching your siblings grow set in their ways not telling them anything then quick to judge you for not giving them their way. Trying to destroy you because they didn't get things their way