Can't stay stuck on the moment
Everything changed ready or not
Sometimes you don't want it to end
Other times it's over with no say
Rocky roads and failed friendships
Hurting one another giving one another space
Over time now strangers dk one each other
Everyone changes over a period of time
Things fade away over the years
Not doing that anymore or know that life
Not wearing a label from the past
Cleaned up the act not going back
Wanted to fix it make it work
Hard to do when it's one sided
Always the bad guy not playing the role anymore
Not giving up peace to please others
Stepping aside waiting on others
That don't share a dream or goal to achieve

When you don't care for the hype
Then a cross over occurs the blurred lines
Making what you love toxic internal struggle
It was already a love hate relationship
Trying to understand but this kept changing
Making it more complicated no longer making sense
Thinking it might get better but keeps getting worse
Being set up to fail trying to grasp success
Trying to heal in a place that cause the illness
The crowds never happy or it's never good enough
Burnt out and frustrated from all the criticism
Giving your all not getting anything in return
All those promises turn out to be lies
Agreeing but no intentions of honoring their word
Saying one thing but doing another
Staying humble while scumbags gloat
Doing the work while complainers Debate for a place than work for it

Didn't want it anymore burnt out
Found inspiration within the struggle
Young and dumb to knowing better
It all matters hard to pick and choose
Family love is tough growing strong
Meant to be something more
Forgiving yourself not living in regret
Older and wiser staying humble
Taking the lead role no one wants
Use to take the heat rising above it all
Taking on challenges never back down
Respect the process grow into greatness

Closed his eyes seeing it in his head
Growing thankful for the mentors
Some believe in your skills work ethic
One on your side feeling secure
Others deny your efforts against you
Ignoring the drama working harder
Chasing a dream means everything
Setting goals making them count
Tell your story set the standards high
Breaking through being denied
Trying to survive being kept out

Working hard years of going unnoticed. Others taking his credit using him as a work horse. Being ignored set aside by gossipers who do thing but talking like they do everything. Not caring to argue or debate anymore.
Things are changing they are giving him his props. It was unexpected but a rewarding feeling. Glad change was occurring in everyone's favor. Instead of feeding into useless egos. The team was united on the same page instead of divided.

He woke up early it was dark out. Drove out to the lake picked a spot. Put bait on his hook and cast out his line into the water. He waited for a fish to bite. He put on music through his ear buds and waiting for a tug so that he could reel it in. Taking in the scene staying calm trying to relax.
Thinking about life how he could've done things differently. How he could improve thinking too much staying positive that a fish would snap and tug biting the bate.
Sitting in the darkness as the like came out lighting up the day. He watched his reel that was locked in place then a light tug would get stronger rattling the pole. He began to feel it in slow not fighting since it might snap his line. He resistance began to lighten up reeling it in he could see the fish circling reeling it in closer pulling it out of the water grabbing it by the mouth. Glad to make the catch taking the light and hook out of the fish mouth then quick to release it back into the water.
A catch made such a rewarding positive day. The mind rejuvenated and emotional satisfaction after a day on the lake.

Being the voice of reason
Everything changing a new season
Thankful for the old times
Blessed with the new crew
Finally got props from the team
Usually working hard feeling pointless
Mentoring others that want to learn
Trying to help constructive criticism
Being pushed by corrupt leadership
Years of being used finally rising up
Learning everything possible
Can't wait around on anyone
From behind the scenes to a lead
Taking charge since no one wants it

He loved his family but didn't like them trying to tell him how to live his life. Especially they didn't have their stuff together.
He didn't have kids so he could go out with no curfew. Being single could be lonely but he had the freedom to date and see anyone he wanted.
Anything he did seemed to bug them. He had a type who knew skin tone would be a factor but old family traditions they wouldn't approval.
All he did was work he wanted a life outside of that before he'd work hard and they'd make him feel like it was a waste of time
Now he's working hard and actually getting props and the credit he deserves. He was cutting people he didn't agree but still respected them. While those opposers made everything personal because they can't debate so they slander his character.
He missed them but didn't belong he thought he made a mistake but things are better and feeling right. It's better than expecting the worse.
He was honest with people while they through lies in his path. Becoming detours because they needed to be the center of attention. He walked away and minded his mouth one of the best moves

The argument looping in the mind
How things should be said
Doesn't come out accordingly
Outside x factors changing things up
Asking is it worth it does it matter
Judges minds are made up not a debate
Proving yourself doesn't matter
Impossible to redeem ones self
Proving them wrong things aren't right
From close to stranger more heat
Fake attitudes the danger cut so deep
Dk how to act won't let one another be
One with the grudge sorry is not enough
Other trying to change dying with bad habits
The frustration taking it's toll breaking out of this death grip

So much on the mind staying pro
Focused on the work double time
Don't care for titles or politics
Work hard or harder take some pride
Please stop talking step it up
Sizing everyone up wasting time
Ain't no one bothering with you
Bad attitude no right to be rude
Pretending to care being petty
Everyone sees through the act
Talking down on everyone
Now your surprised others spoke up
Provoking others the tabs adding up
Thinking there's no consequence
Now playing victim heres the receipt
Sneaking up others are doing the work
Not doing any work the never to criticize

We have the same blood not the same
Seeing opportunities rising up
Blaming others and manipulation
Taking charge of others so much deceit
Forming an evil pack with a common rival
Judging everyone instead of talking it out
Holding a grudge acting like you're right clearly in the wrong
Staying strong an ego to feed
No one is saying your name
Talking about important manners

A nobody working behind the scenes
Working with a somebody
Remembering the glory days
Working harder Than before
They dk him or what he can do
Rose above the lies cutting ties
Proving them wrong not boxed in
Lots of self-improvement with growth
Not part of the rumors drifting away
From close to complete strangers
Fought for them stood by their side
Now against you attacking strong
Taking the blame in the name of love
Opened to change new mindset
Everyone remained the same negative

Finding passion in the ink
Emotions in the pages
Thoughts flowing coping with peace
Not carrying others burdens
Staying out use to being kept out
Not worth the fight would rather be writing
Too many imposing instead of informing
Educate instead of discrimination
Trying to understand not give into demands
Seeing others as an equal being respectful
Not empowering wild ideals
Keeping up original morals

Never one to fit in or belong
Kept out for not knowing Spanish
Held to another standard
While everything is in chaos
Said sorry it's never enough
Changed behavior over the years
Haunted by the past not there
Not the same person as before
Forgiving easier than forgetting
Life lessons over regretting

Stop enabling feeding their bad habits
It's hard to quit addiction with others
Avoiding people who drink
Can't be around it anymore
Not into drugs seen peers consumed
Some can't live without it
Unable to function without the fix
Bad habits uniting a friendship
Without toxic traits where's the bond
Could they coexist get along sober

Finding inspiration to write
Thankful for ideas those moments
Getting inspired to put out work
Deep from within not holding back
Pursuing a dream setting new goals
New standards honoring the original
Turn the negative into positive vibes
Learning open to grow into more
Lost in the process feeling productive
Made changes without toxic influence
Trying to be better improve over time
Over being misunderstood treated bad

Trying to be normal made out to be a monster
Lost in the crowd found in his writing
Brothers act like strangers not talking
A sister holding a grudge never forgiven
Being right in an ugly world
Children being neglected
Uneducated opinions being spoken

Seeing old peeps and new peers
An old life adjusting to the new life
Asking and wondering all possibilities
What if it could happen right for once
Why hasn't it gone down way past due
A good time left with past memories
Years of hiding in the back for peace
Brought to the front on the rise
Opened eyes to see opportunity
Taking risks new chances
Full of change turn the page

Bearing the heart and soul
Hoping to grow into much more
Baring the heart to be human
Denying emotions is the worse
Being different such a curse
Not meant to fit in striving forward
Found peace in silence solitude
Use to feel stuck slowly moving
Learned from all the betrayal
Working harder to get better
Fell out trying to bounce back
It was over long ago they left me
It was over once I couldn't be me
Busted open heart flowing
Everyday healing and growing

He worked harder than everyone
All they did was cause heat with hate
Throw shade causing a dilemma
All he wanted was to master his craft
Stay out of all the scandalous politics
Made up rules full of corruption
Contradicting double standards
Focused on the work with pride
Not saying anything words get twisted
Clear mind head on his shoulders
Getting older no time for games
Not causing others pain staying strong
Walking away from toxic peeps
Washing away the past breaking free
A cleansed heart from tough love

He admired her beauty but wasn't sure if this friendship could be more. If he made his move it might make things awkward and end a good thing. He was known for letting his feelings get the best of him. He got emotional felt foolish and weak thinking he was an equal but no where on the level.
He was a private person seen as a bad guy because he didn't take crap from no one. He spoke up it felt like the world was against him. If he bit his tongue it would feel like the world would walk all over him.
His love was heavy and deep but his hurt was stronger empowering him to keep pursuing greatness move forward.

He wanted to be someone else since everyone else had a problem with him. All he wanted was to be himself be left alone helping others feeling excluded because he didn't want what everyone had or wanted. Making him feel like he was a threat to anyone he came in contact with.
Asking "what's wrong with me" "why is he like this" but he didn't say, or do anything wrong. They came at him sour and twisted. He didn't need or have much but thankful for what he had. While they had everything still complaining, making others feel bad by pointing out their flaws. It didn't make sense he couldn't wrap his mind around things.

Letting it go feeling it flow away
The pain fades over the years
Numbness gains feeling
Pouring it out on the sand
Taken away by the tide
Washed away feeling natural
The ocean wind cleansing the soul
Wet sand in toes free feet breathing
Recharged away from work
Break through the routine

They believed in him he didn't always believe in himself. He looked in the mirror an older man with white hair. Asking what's his purpose trying to find meaning in his life. Things came and went with the season. Something's he fought for things he thought was worth it. while he let go of the damaged beyond repair trying to understand learn from the crazy by being better

Too strong showing no emotions
Those feelings going numb
So much betrayal from the deceitful
He couldn't look at them anymore
Never the same there's no going back
On a lonely journey chasing a dream
Healing from trembling aches within
They made him out to be a nobody
Tarnished his rep without redemption
He didn't defend himself or he was guilty
Walked away from lies because he knew the truth and what he wanted
Tired of being buried alive just trying to live be an individual without others trying to bring him down. Like if it's their call or like their say matters

The moments that changed his life
His brother murdered in cold blood
Watching one of his own place in the grave
Betrayed by his best friend that moved in on his girl
A friend he seen as a brother bad mouthing his character
The girl he loved lusting around
Seeing her with someone else
Ate his soul alive drained his good
Hurting trying to infect others with that misery
He let it die with him starting over learning to love again
Years of feeling nothing trying to get right with God
Walked away from a meaningless life
Pursuing a meaningful life with purpose

Years of being counted out
Being ignored hated every minute
No one listening feeling insulted
Being talked over not being heard
Told them what's up no one cared
Always excluded treat unfair
Working on the side lost in the hustle
Trying to get it together on the Dlow
No one gives credit but ready to take it
Being disconnected making a stand
Everyone latching on when things are good
Leaving you with their bad trying to drain your positivity

They have you nothing now they are mad you made the most of everything. Once you start bettering yourself they don't want you doing better than them. Anything you do bothers them no one cares or paying attention to them. They keep talking just keep ignoring them don't react because once you give them attention it ends up being a waste of your time.
It will fuel them to talk since they haven't done anything relavent.
Just keep doing your own thing from the bottom to the top don't stop. After being denied all you could do is keep working for it.

They come at you it's whatever
You spoke up against them your crazy
Avoiding the drama all the insanity
Faded out as they pretend to care
When your involved it's a problem
When they make calls keeping you out
Staying humble while everyone is still mad
Holding a grudge a one sided arguments
A conversation that was never had just blaming and pointing fingers
Size doesn't make you smart or better
Intimidating others doesn't get you anywhere
Having money doesn't make you a better person you can't by morals or respect
Don't BS people some see through the act too bad you lie and cheat selling yourself short
Knocking others doesn't make you a better person
Always excluded and ignored he learned to stay out of it not needing anything from anyone since no one was genuine

He was tired of being numb
Years of writing skinning the issues
Now gutting them talking about it
From thinking it was foolish
That's how it played out
His heart fooled believing one thing
But their actions told another story
He hated being wrong but it happens
Wanting it things turned out different
Accepting it was hard to take in
Feelings and emotions became unsettling

He fell in love with her soul turns out she was soul less another life lesson
Told her how he felt she became heartless
Jealous she had so many guy friends
Called her on it called him a player
She tried to say he called her a ***
So got mad held a grudge a big NO NO
All he wanted was her while she went with everyone else
Pain and misery remains rise above torment
Tarnished love not meant to be onto something better

Why was it an issue when he was going through something. Everyone had troubles and included everyone. It was no one's business but their own. He was a private person he didn't burden or bother anyone.
He enjoyed his peace cutting people off. Tired of jealous people comparing and judging others. Work for yours and do your own thing he strongly believed. He's been doing the work for years but not sure what to do with it. Writing on a few platforms speaking on his podcast. His outlets ways to express himself without his words being twisted giving others an excuse to talk because they had too much time on their hand

Why do people cheat? Some are married and kids. While others don't have that and want that. It's hard work to get a home some don't want that responsibility or never shown how to get there.
Some have it all and quick to look down on those who are working for it. Talk bad about others but have everything going on for them. It never made any sense. Like if their judgement will make the world better or forgive them for their wrong doings.
So many hidden agendas only in it for their personal gain. Never helping anyone just bashing people for not living up to their ideal standard they are not happy with

Grew up around the cholos
Told to be down for yours
Never had their **** together
Making up rules in their favor
Living by the rules of the street
Never cared for that life got in too deep
Some slanging to hustle easy money
Others banging to be territorial
Life or death life on the edge
Grew up hood always misunderstood
Called ghetto for keeping it real
Seen a crazy for standing your ground

He stood in the room with his oppressors
Not listening or interested in their opinion
He didn't acknowledge them because they shut him out
Trying to tell him how to act and who to be
When he did nothing wrong
This wasn't the first time
He never said anything about them
They called him ghetto and delusional
He forgave them this time he'd cut the cord
He learned his lesson this time around
They didn't talk to him he was use to being ignored
He was use to their worse so he wasn't surprised anymore
They had way more going on it didn't make sense why they came at him
They never helped quick to make things seem worse than what they are

He looked in the mirror asking "*** happened?" Lots of curve ***** and detours. He had one victory after many losses. He got too old for things the things that gave him joy lost meaning.
Putting others first made him feel worthless trying to be selfless. Doing what's right focused on bettering his life and situation. The crazy world he lived in killed him off. What's existing didn't make sense or matter anymore.

He didn't say or do anything but still ******* people off. They had more going on and came at him wrong. He didn't have much but thankful for what he had. Made the most of things he never made anyone a target he minded his mouth and business.
They came at him sour he just looked the other way when he checked them they would play the victim. Called them on their BS now they are mad sending more shady his way. He did his own thing not worried about anyone else that tried to make him doubt himself.
Wanting in his head and all they do is twist his words not listening or caring what he said it was insulting to try to tell him how to act and feel rather than understand what was going on.

He was the guy who was unnoticed sat in the back no one bothered or paid attention to him. He was use to that because when he was the center of attention good or bad eventually he would end up alone.
People talk bad about him because he stood up for his beliefs, and was use to rolling solo, a rebel at heart. He had a hard time trusting his life was an open book but learned to be selective because no one cares about you unless you are doing favor. After being used up in failed relationships found they don't want you but don't want you with anyone else. He was really crush to know that being happy for others but others would never be happy for him with all his efforts and accomplishments.

Not the same anymore
Ppl talking lies not able to trust
Actions that made things personal
Rather than seek revenge cut the cord
Claiming to love you but with another
Wanting to show love selectively
After causing hurt same bad behavior
Not rewarding toxic living with good
Empowering corruption manipulation

It was over but he wasn't scared to start over
He had so much knowledge gained from the experience
He didn't want to leave anything behind
Moving on was easy started over before
He feared his past would come back to haunt him
People reminding him who he was
The new wasn't given a chance
Trying to move on but can't constantly reminded

Feeling free coping with emotions
Sober in a toxic world
Honest in a cruel crowd
Being kept out but will shine
Somewhere else fine true love
All the betrayal made him strong
The hatred couldn't be consume him
Overlooked by family shut him down
Made him believe in himself

Feeling empty when he didn't read his bible. Always feeling like the world is against him. Being judged while being in the rut working hard trying to be invisible get through the work week. Found peace and closure alone most point out his flaws or tell him his wrongs.
He didn't ask or bother with people they always hurt his feelings or let him down. He didn't expect much of others but started expecting more for himself.
He use to joke about being the threat because most tried to come at him he'd check them. Now he turns away knowing better than to waste his time on things and people that did not respect or value his time.  Never talking about people but they always had something to say about him. Making things personal because they had nothing on him. As the threat making them feel insecure coming at him since he didn't give them their way. Giving him crap for not doing things annoyed with him trying to assassin his character to feel empowered.
Grandpa told him you don't have to say anything when you haven't done wrong others trying to include you in the drama that's none of your business.

Home sick for a place the heart craves
That's felt in the heart deprived
But never been there desired to escape
A place where you can feel
Relax without protecting your heart
Be yourself without criticism
Feeling at the edge ready to jump
The fatal fall that changes everything
Going forward not back staying strong
Escape into the dream set free
Lost in the moment feeling whole
The world makes sense at the time
Trying to make it a reality
Dead inside the dream lives on

He felt bad for not being there but didn't like all the slander spread about his name. From the old to new he didn't like change but he was changing. Thankful and glad to to be growing. He couldn't stay the same. While others hold onto his past thinking it will be a tool to be used against him.
Not his crowd anymore not part of that life. He'd fight for them and they'd fight against him in a heart beat waiting for the moment. They'd use the numbers against him rather talk to him individually.

He was over it his words being twisted. It's not what he was saying tired of false narratives. Because he spoke up they thought they could slander his character. He had his opinion to them it was no big deal but trying to use it against him.
They insult him and expect him to be okay with that. He had an opinion now everything turns into a personal attack. He stopped acknowledging them because the disrespect was only getting worse. He was definitely over one sided arguments making him out to be the crazy one.
Not going to give up on himself or compromise his efforts just to make people happy. They'd never be happy for him so why bother.

She told him I could've had you
Too bad it never happened
When he wanted her she had a bf
He was always single living life
Feeling everything yanked around
He wanted to be complete
Searching for cope and peace
The time he was in a relationship
She kissed him on the cheek
He was confused about love
Never had her  love but wanted her
Didn't know how to feel he has someone
It was unfair he remained faithful to his current love
Even though his chance for forbidden love came back around
He tried to stay the same so much change
Everything was different never the same
Still single no children never been married
Some friends had children and married
While others got divorced the young love failed them

In silence reading a good trying to educate himself. Thought others would teach him but had to do it himself. Taking in the info trying to process apply things to life. Lots of repetition wanting it more because they told him he couldn't do it.
Said it couldn't be done but he's been doing it without excuses. The things he loved brought him hurt so he tried to find what he loved doing things for the wrong reason trying to make them right.

Watching them grow avoiding the drama always on the go. Always a private person no one needs to know or tell my business. Don't like being responsible for others since they are quick to blame than own up.
He walked away as they act like they pushed him out. Made him out to be the bad guy to justify their cruelty. Making it one sided it's always about him never what they did.
He let them run their mouth it would eventually end up in their mouth. He left and not looking back let go of those feeling he use to hoarder away.

He gave up his dream for love and it didn't work out. Learning to love himself trying to get back on track. He's not far from success but knows it will take hard work to get there. Battled up hill battles and struggled to make it through make it to the end the others side no where to run or hide. He couldn't avoid his destiny when the people he loved became a distraction. More road blocks and obstacles he didn't need or want the toxic to destroy his vision.

Hard to trust after being done *****. He forgave them but they kept up the same scam. Giving him the silent treatment when they got caught up now they are mad at him for telling the truth. As they kept lying and blaming everyone else.
He didn't drink anymore but everyone with their failed relationships and bad habits trying to justify everything. More nonsense that didn't hold him down or back. He was not easily fooled their actions were louder than all the shouting and complaining. It was their life how is it anyone's fault for their actions. It was annoying everything got really bad instead of better. He made mistakes but learned not to say or do anything because of the negative influences that tried to mock his way of life. Provoke him to over react when he knew that he didn't ask for advice and not react nor empower toxic behavior