Years of shutting off emotions and feelings held on. Feeling numb and depressed because things didn't happen or turn out accordingly. Still in the pursuing a dream, doing what he likes loves trying to bring it together.
Looking for yourself in the work being part of the material. Who he was and what he's becoming in the future.

Writing about love and life so complicated when it shouldn't be that way. Feeling like the past has this death grip squeezing the life out of him. He was sorry but never forgiven. Not able to make those wrongs right. When he does better why is no one happy for him.
He's not a target when they come at him; why are they mad when he checks them for coming at him sour. He didn't let himself to anyone; most come at him with a vengeance once he checks them they are quick to play the victim. Years of holding it in time to let it out. All this burden weighing him down a distraction from the creative process.

His heart and soul began to grow
They couldn't dull his shine
Still growing not being limited
Trying to be himself not a product
Didn't want false mentors trying to shadow his growth
Saying they discovered him all of a sudden
When they didn't bother with him
Claiming to take him under their wing
Trying to take credit for his talent
His skills that empowered others to be great
Motivation for everyone, who was uninspired

He got emotional he could taste the stomach acid in his throat. Not sure how to feel someone always provoked him to get a reaction. After a while it felt like it wasn't worth it.
He wanted support had it a few times but didn't last long. Years of betrayal made him feel unworthy. Everyday he would prove himself someone would point out one flaw/mistake discrediting his hard working efforts.
He was a big dreamer so much on his mind. Hard for him to commit to others but learning to commit to himself. Asking what he wants or how can he do it with his flare added to the mix.

He loved the sport and coaching for it. Feeling aged out but missed so much. Times have changed everyone tries to be a brand or product instead of being invested in the sport. He didn't care for gimmicks just hard working individuals that give their all.
Drilling hard going through the motions. The urge within is deep learning and listening to improve. The thoughts are looping, piecing together all the technique.
His mind was ******* up after failed love being with the wrong person who didn't believe in him. He didn't have to prove himself when he did it was for all the wrong people.
He knew the highs and lows the dark side of the sport. Missing the mats getting back into it doing pad work. He was obsessed before lost his focus now he's focused trying to learn and teach others what he knows they can grow and improve.

You think about telling them but think of the man in the mirror staying humble. You lived your life let them live theirs. Wishing things went differently but everything happened for a reason tough changing of seasons.
Trying to help did more for them now they are talking bad about you. Acting like you dk some of their ***** secrets. Not even phased never thought it would happen wrong to think it would be different. Not the exception just another name on your list of people you ***** over.  Now tell the story differently making everyone look bad never saying what you did or have done.
People only hear one side of the story instead of the whole. Live learn and grow be better than those who put you down or talk bad about you. From an open book to closed off. Seen as mean bitter and cruel because not taking lip from someone who takes never helping anyone but themselves.

Stop blaming your parents they did everything they could you chose to do drugs. You've been given so many chances everyone is fed up. You got your way while ******* people over. You're a grown many I shouldn't have to be telling you. Yet you are quick to play the victim because your baby mommas' want nothing to do with you. They got tired of the lies and trusting your word that left everyone disappointed. It's your life we could only say so much you are your own person.
The drugs could only keep you wired for so long then you'll crash avoid what little responsibility that's left. Showing up counts especially when the standards have been lowered.
Always pray for those who are battling  addiction or an alcoholic. Getting clean is the hard part sometimes you have to isolate yourself and ask "what do you want?" How do I get there and avoid those that feed into your bad habits. It's a tough journey on a lonely road. You'd like people there but no one listens they'd rather tell you how to live your life than be supportive.

Making those moves because everyone is moving use to care what they thought. They had problems and ruined my goodtimes and vibes with their effortless life and bad attitude. Feeling free from the bad open to much more.
How does my life become about them it doesn't. Sitting in the background learning and trying since no one else wanted it. Lots of talk and missed opportunity now grasping those moments.
Admired people seen them greater than myself. Hyped them up and got let down. Years of being judged and being looked down on. It got old cutting ties so that it could be stopped. Never said anything bad but everything was made personal. What's wrong with asking a question or having an opinion. Especially when the person asked.
Thankful for the people who took a chance giving pointers so that one day moving up was a possibility. Tired of people saying "it's not my job" get out of the way stop wasting everyone's time.
It's been a tough path dealing with people. Learning to be social again since being alienated by family was tough but it made it easier to be by one's self. You miss them but they are holding a grudge holding it over your head because they'd rather be right than happy.

Finding another way doesn't make it wrong some have to do side stuff to help you get to the next level. Meeting people you wouldn't normally friend but you learn so much from others than your actual peers sometimes. Should've focused on this career more than partying and saving friendships that aren't meant to be.
Staying strong through those tough times. Feeling like you are built up so someone could come take shots at you. A cheap shot to try to keep you level and humble; who are they to do so. You respect them they clearly have no respect for you. Getting older makes you not want to pry or get involved since everyone makes a fuss but does nothing about it.

You want to matter but your forcing your way in. You got hurt so you don't let anyone in. Once your in if you don't like what you see you bail. Trying to fall in love with a drug addict who loves drugs more than you.
You don't love this person all you want is to change them. Thinking your love is stronger than the drugs she won't give up on. Thinking your middle name matters even though you claim to hate it. Thinking she knows you but you don't enjoy people's company thinking they are going to take in everything you say.
Sad how you are nice when you need something other than that you won't bother with anyone. All the smack you talked making it personal because you didn't get your way or thinking you could use their weakness against them to get them to do your evil biddings.
Idk what you think or how you feel but you can't treat people the way you do. You insult them thinking you deserve respect. Don't use people act like they owe you. Not able to debate an argument so you make things personal talk about things that have nothing to do with the situation.

The happy couple went to the library. She needed material for school they would look through the books by category. He was enjoying the time together. It's was young and new the puppy love was distracting but they were both in the moment.
She looked at him her eyes lit up, it took him away. He thought she was the one he sat down on the floor. she would straddle him. His heart would she kissed him it took his stress away.
They talked getting to know one another he opened up which was hard for him. No one listened tired of not being heard.

Being a man learning to trust himself. Use to be scared to mess up and make a mistake. Facing fears a new obstacle of people with their own situation able to adapt to the situation.
Trying to understand usually focused on the work not drama or people but those set backs become detours and distractions. Asking questions not getting the answers tired of the run around. Learn to do it yourself the best of your abilities if they want it done another way. They could explain the changes and how it should be done.
Years of being excluded treated like a no one. Has been rewarding those people made it easier to understand yourself speak up say what you want because they have nothing to offer you acting like their shady behavior did you favor. Working quietly rising to the next level

He decided to stay out of it work was way more important than drama. These thoughts are dark and deep could change the tone. Straight forward mostly honest getting no love or respect. Just stayed quiet observed listen to the what was going on.
Always tired demeanor changed working through staying honest and true. Things got wild so personal things got cruel.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

Changed his mindset because everyone makes drama and can't get along. You can't say anything but they think they have the right to judge everyone. They get use to disrespecting everyone acting like people owe them. Would rather be an outcast than pretend to be someone else. Not going through them for other things that go on. Strongly dislike when other people's crap becomes others problems which has nothing to do with them.

Been writing for years don't need much to be happy. Making the most of things and what's given. So many haters and doubts quick to turn on you once they don't get their way.

Talking about you no one is talking about them. Trying to get the best of you while they are at their worse. Knock you down while you put out your best not competing or comparing just working hard. Focused on the task staying strong growing in the craft.

Reaching out to those mentors and those who remained loyal. Those that stayed true that's hard to come about now a days. Earning your place so many think it's given. Helping the team keeping them united. While everyone is divided due to personal issues.

Taking life to serious lighten up. Lots of ups and downs. Saving up wanting to get out enjoy life. Break the cycle of the everyday routine. Seeing others for their true colors cutting ties and keeping a distance. Would never do that to them and why do they think it's okay.

Not worth getting worked up over easier to talk about it. Process everything thankful for the friends. That listen able to share with open up without feelings and emotions being thrown in your face. Lightened up over others actions and behavior not responsible for them. Been responsible for how I communicate participate doing the job in and out make that money. stay strong positive through those difficult moments.

Some like to stir the *** and make excuses to take the pressure on them by blaming someone else. It's sad that the work environment is this way. Seeing good in others while they sabotage others and one another to get ahead.
Years of working and not getting the perks of a full-time employee. It finally happened so many on the inside are ungrateful. Once an outsider looking hoping to make it and make a difference.
Always a team player while most play like if they are contributing all they do is complain. While you try to keep things together and composed wanting to succeed tired of feeling like this is a set up and to fail is the worse feeling ever.
Sometimes you move on without them because they chose to settle they can't get mad because that was their decision. Why hate or get mad at the person who wanted more. Years at the bottom working to get back up to that next level.

Always working to prove yourself. Bust your *** because it's the right thing to do. He said to be active be more than before. Never settle for average be better than before.
Striving through being honest is easy while lies and complicated people try to bring you down so they won't get in trouble. Always down to work without fear so many people quick to pass the blame instead of owning up and fixing the mistake.
Helping the team even if they don't return the favor. staying positive around toxic negative people.  Some have a bad rep it doesn't matter let your work shine more than what others think. Don't use someone as an excuse to be lazy because you don't see eye to eye or not able to agree come to term. Just focus on the work not obsessing on trying to change on another.

A hopeless romantic couldn't wrap his mind around why it failed. She said NO but ended up with someone else. He said too much but never made broken promises. Or said nothing all that energy from the emotions imploded from within.
All the things he could've said but couldn't get the words out. His mind seen so many ways that played out. His imagination made him happy but did cause conflict when he came back to reality.

From a safe space to feeling stuck and trapped. Get out of the mind been reflecting all these awkward situations. Dealing with people usually excluded don't want to do that anymore. Trying to trust seems like it's the wrong people. Worried about everyone trying to help with mistakes some choose learn the hard way. Asking for ideas and perspective from peers. Trying not to think or overthink it. Held his head up all he wants to look down with frustration disappear. It wasn't fun anymore losing it's intensity. He thought about quitting busted his *** to get there. Most know someone or related to someone with lead role.
Trying to move up onto new the next level. He wanted while most was given everything. Hearing NO was common but didn't settle. Did it because they didn't think he could. No one was happy for him. They had the wrong idea about him.

You trust and respect them they don't value you. You worked for yours while one is juiced in the higher ups gave him everything. The other was a great work but been selective on efforts. He did value his team seen himself as a team player playing a major role.
Took one for the team but not taking the heat for someone with bad instructions. Followed the leads orders to get the job done all the wrong tools were provided.
The lead given his spot with heat because his bad rep is toxic. Sad you can't get ahead or trust anyone. Mistakes were made let's fix them and learn from them. Trying to man up own up do what's right. Outsiders will talk but they don't know they aren't there.

He wanted to have a beer after a long day of beer. One is too many and a lot is not enough. Trying to relax indulge in pizza without feeling guilty. With age taking health cautions. Wanting to date but afraid to make the same mistakes. Love too much or not enough feeling like it's a lost cause rather than health and something serious.
Hang out with someone that is accepting not insecure and jealous. Supportive of one another not opposing becoming rivals. It hurt so bad still recovering. Trying to make moves get out there even if rejected. Be yourself even if they aren't being genuine with you.
New obstacles from a lead that did nothing to a lead that is trying to pass the heat instead of owning up. Staying sober through the frustration and betrayal. Hard to trust since two conflicted employees have you stuck in the middle. Focused on your work and area giving your all doing your best.

Cutting ties some pretend to care about you. You confined in them and they blab your secrets to justify their wrong doing making you look bad because have done worse using you as a decoy.
You respect them but they have no respect for you thinking you are a joke not taking you serious once you cut them off it's the best way. Free from all the toxic attitudes being alienated for being different having an opinion. When you don't follow they'll be threatened make you out to be a target. They'll try to make others see you differently because all their antics have no power or say trying to empower themselves by knocking you.
Don't talk about them or say anything because they'll try to make nothing into something. No one wants to argue be talked over ignored by people that are one sided and narrow minded. They have their way it's not enough dk why they are mad or complaining for. They think they are better than you but don't act like it. It will come back to them no one is talking about them or cares what they are doing. They aren't helping others why should they say or think they could dictate others lives.

Working harder than the rest. Mentally prepping a new process to stay sharp on top of the task. All the drama doesn't matter. Started believing stopped doubting because some useless lead doesn't believe in you.
Being the guy instead of letting others steal credit for your hard work. Working behind the scenes not taking NO pursuing a dream stepped it up. Standing out making a difference for those that believe in you gave you a chance. The hard work is how the favor is returned.

Putting forth effort so much energy that needs to be matched. After a failed relationship or two learning to say what you want what you're looking for. It's not a one sided venue anymore. Lots of trial and errors in the process.
Learned so much from failed friendships that made one doubt his judgement because he seen greatness within them but got their worse. Why did they think it was okay to try and BS everyone because they aren't getting their way or what they want taking down others because they are not happy.
Get back in the grind years of being told NO being told it didn't matter. Did way more than most staying strong through those tough hurtful moments. You shared your passion pursued it while others sat back waiting for you to fail or step aside riding others tails to step out steal the spotlight.
Bouncing back from all the crazy always trying to be better make this situation better than before. Love family but they aren't supportive or believe in you. You believe in yourself stay motivated stay stronger than the rest. You hurt the most but hide it. The pain can be intense masked becoming immune to everyone and everything. You lead while everyone is giving up quitting ready to walk away. Digging down deep stepping it up be the guy not leave it for the next.

Letting it go because holding onto things consumes you becomes a distraction that ends up being a waste of time. So many toxic people that's why it's easier to role solo. Keeping secrets for others too bad they are quick to spill mine making gossip. Never talked about them but they are quick to point out others flaws, no one is talking about them. So they cause drama to feel relevant to feed their insecurities.
Able to rest relax sad how you can't be honest with people they'll destroy you and think they did you a favor. If you spoke up they get insulted play the victim debate why their actions are justified when clearly it's all BS. They won't listen to others and expect others to hear them out. They'll get the same treatment on how they treat others.
It's such a downer and drains everyone involved. Everyone is hurt no one wins what's the point of all this everyone is worse off instead of better. You forgive them and moved on. While they are stuck still holding that burden trying to use it against you.

Being called the boss for getting it done. Trying to be well rounded and social with peers. Speaking up for what is needed to get the job done. Asking and working for it has been the mindset. Training to be someone new, be someone much more than before.
Playing with the guitar feeling the vibes setting the tone. Trying to match how you feel what you think. Trying the moment to share your story, asking "who you are," "what have you been through." Does it matter will it help someone make a difference.
Feelings used to fill this page. Years of knowledge that comes with age trying to connect use to being excluded and a reject. Telling it everything to your notebook another voice deeper tone. Always doing some kind of writing for others that's well thought out composed.

Working like a boss trying to get paid for one. Been at the bottom moving to the top. Tired of taking on people who don't matter just another hurtle to get over. Once you pass them they'll hold a grudge never be happy for you. Never support your decisions because they think their way was the better way for you. Putting my trust in God to help me over come this anger this frustration over the years. It didn't happen right away when it finally did it was a true blessing.
Rebuilding yourself, reconstructing the way it's done. Always wanting to make it happen, move up to the next level. Trying to teach others share the art and craft help the next generation. Instead of them thinking it will be given. Always work for it going through the process rise up taking on each level. Listen to what's being said. observe what's going on take it in pursue the dream achieve those goals live the dream from within.

Being told "get over it" because that person refused to say "I'm sorry" or admit they are wrong. You told them how they made you feel and they seen nothing wrong with what they said or did.
Trying to blame it on you because they'll say you're sensitive. Tell you you're the problem because they refuse to own up.
Call you entitled as a poor kid becoming an adult working for everything. Left alone and they'll call you a narcissist because they can't get to you so they try to get others to see you differently.
Already use to being alone makes you care less what others think. You stop seeking approval. Doing your own thing all this hassling and negative remarks are from people that use people act like it's their right to do so.

Being honest with people is not hard. Some can't handle the truth because they are living a lie. Quick to throw others under because they are doing worse.
Thinking they are doing you a favor running their mouth when no one asked. Everyone has problems what makes yours more important than others who are working for theirs. Sick of those who make no effort trying to look down or talk bad about others.
Make sure you're at your best before saying anything to anyone. Dealing with those kind of people is frustrating and insulting at the same. They point out the obvious while doing nothing to contribute talking to people like are someone.

Some friend slandering your character trying to take a girl off your hands. Thinking you can take and touch something that's not yours. A friend wouldn't do that sad to think. Trusting the wrong people hyping them up to be left disappointed.
Not a cheater and it's not welcomed. A person that cheats will get friends to lie and cover up their shady actions. No one wants that pressure or responsibility. If you can't stay loyal and true stay single because it just hurts and wastes everyone's time.
Don't have kids if you can't support them it's the worse when a child feels like it's their fault because the parents aren't there. Unworthy of love being left discouraged watching one parent drunk and the other working hard to provide. Be there instead of picking and choosing when to be a parent. It's a lifestyle not pick and choose when it's convenient.

Stopped internalizing everything something's are best forgotten. Let because all they do is distract you from everything. Everyone works or does things differently. Not sure how to work with use to working around the problem. Taking the problem on straight up could cause conflict but usually focused on what needs to be done in a timely manner.
Usually one to rush things but not in a hurry she said yes but don't want to miss or ruin the opportunity. Been hurt before thinking long term instead of short. Asking questions not just going in blind. Trying to get to know a person not learn by trial and error on the go. In denial over all the deceit this person has displayed. Working hard working to make a difference

Some people get comfortable disrespecting others but once someone speaks up or says anything they are quick to play the victim. Talking about others like it's their right.
Once you call them on their crap they are quick to turn it into a debate to justify their actions. Quick to knock others flaws never looking at their own.
Love family but they are the worse who needs enemies when family makes you out to be the bad guy for speaking up standing your ground.
Years of being treated different once you break free of their death grip. They'll never treat you the same or act differently towards you. They expect you to change but never make any effort to think what they've done but quick to make you look bad for what you've done.
They have eyes like a snake two-faced cutting the cord and staying away from them makes it easier to enjoy life. You got your path there's no overlap or getting along because one made it no one could be happy for you.
They expect you to give up your dream so they could feel adequate about themselves. Have to keep moving no stopping because win lose or draw keep going gain from the experience.
They taunt your mind making you disgusted because you trusted them seen good in them when it was all an act. They try to alienate you because they rather destroy your character than let anyone rise and shine greater than them.

Waking up sore not young anymore
Pushing hard fighting back
Not recovering the same
Immune to all the pain
Hustling strong to stay sane
Been broke before never again
Wide away body tired and sore
Mind racing wheels turning
Tender laying in bed trying to rest

Watching people come and go took down the welcome mat. Saved their place I wasn't worthy of a place at their table. They slandered his name he never spoke bad about them. Making him look bad in front of a girl who was into him so that this scumbag could make his move.
A true friend wouldn't do that. A huge sign of disrespect and broken trust acting like they are loyal and true to your face. Violated trust means no more openness closed off pushed out.
If a person chooses to be single don't belittle them because you chose to settle. Acting like you're better than everyone talking about others like it's their right. Done with people like that family hurts the most. You have their back and they are quick to knife you in the heart. If they do that to family I get why no one is close to them. Or why they don't have any friends.

Haven't been journaling taking so much in. Writing is how to let it out reflect something's are beyond your control. Being a team player caring the load is exhausting. Doing your part isn't enough. All the extra is what becomes a factor. Sometimes they'll love you other times they'll push you out discredit your hard work and efforts making them feel worthless.
Learning to be a leader and communicating is hard.
Usually one to plow through do it alone. Trying to connect is hard especially after years of being detached from everyone. Giving everything not expecting anything in return.
Working till the job is done not leaving it for the next person. Thankful ppl are grateful instead of feeling starting over from zero doing it all over again. In bed not able to sleep not comparing or worried about others. Life feels alright but why does it feel like something is missing. Trying have a social life or relationship. It's complicated with trust issues formal friends that slandered ones name a character. Dating the wrong female who'd cheat then blame everyone to justify her actions of wrong doing.

Walking through the cemetery
On a cold rainy day soaking it in
Praying for family and friends
Reading books to relax his mind
Not obsessing over writing ideas
Racing the clock at work to finish
They'd rather shut it down
Instead of giving it a chance
They'd rather tell you than listen
Try to punk you out for answers
Not saying anything to fuel this fire
Let it burn out on it's own
Making it personal with insults
Making issues over abandonment
Instead of solving the problem
Being the cause of drams
Mostly in conflict with solution

Asking why and getting lies
Avoiding eye contact
From being loving to distant
Mad seeing one another with someone
No one wants to talk playing games
One open and honest the other lies
Reached out hand slapped away
Cutting off ties no sign of hope
From friends to rivals no one knew
So disconnected no one has a clue
People instigate ruining the friendship
While one wanted a relationship
Everyone departed to another life
Some got married had kids
Others achieved success working
Finished school got their dream job
Living in their dream house

Beautiful memories between them
All that remains is a crime scene
Evidence that was once love
Damage feelings broken emotions
Left over from all the carnage
The anger from the betrayal
Running up the tab of pain
Soon the receipt would come
Both would be stuck paying
Contribution to something tarnished
Harsh words exchanged to cut deep
Nothing lived just bleeding out
The soul slipped away lifeless
Two corpses remain infected by death
A cold case of the flatline relationship

Loved them to be rejected
Closed off hiding in the shell
Being funny made out to be mean
Honest with words many are laughing
Walked away no reason to stay
Let them win and they are still mad
Couldn't make them happy
Caring for others with this heart
Hoping love would be returned
Not responsible for their actions
Energy and emotions are not matched
Taking so much draining the soul
Gave feelings ripped off and cheated
Emotions shutting down going numb
Never goes right or according to plan
Deceived by beauty the soul is tainted
Getting closer wanting to be loved
Pushed away being tested set up to fail

Over being lied to over and over again
Believed in changed nothing did
One sided relationship just lies
Quick to blame causing pain
The growing problem can't be fixed
Fake cries to escape left unresolved
Instead of providing solutions
Not playing shame game anymore
Make things worse this love is cursed
Never owning up making more drama

Being called sensitive for caring
The only one doing it
While others mock your efforts
Talk down on you no one asked
Like if they are doing you a favor
Already proved myself
Fighting for self worth
Working harder than most
Not going through people
Just doing the work taking pride
Putting in the time growing
As they knock your existence
Not seen as an equal times
Taking back the respect
All the credit that was taken
Do the work soul ******* parasite
Pretending to have it together
Stop BSing everyone truth hurts

Embraced being told off
Blocked out all the bad
Being isolated over drama
Excluded being talked about
Rebelled from the toxic crap
Stopped taking the blame
Had no say or control things happen
Finding confidence within
After squatting being trampled
Stood up for moral integrity
Made a stand the tone changed

Times have changed old traditions fade. While the new so called norms are imposed. Looked out for others while everything was for their own personal gain. Breaking away not nothing with anyone. Pursuing a dream trying to match energies. Always on everyone's terms and time not respecting his efforts.
Seeing things not liking the changes because it was an obstacle now it was gone and didn't matter. Stopped empowering judgemental people. No longer listening to toxic. They'll point out the flaw before giving you props.
Find ways to discredit you so they can feel secure. Not talking about anyone but they'll dump foul language on your name. It faded away finding love and strength going forward. Not living in the past or that person anymore. Someone new not memories of the past.

They went to high school together
He had a crush but never a chance
Giving her the nickname big head
She always had a BF never be single
The week of heading off to college
He wanted to kiss her make his move
Instead of taking action he asked
He ran into her she was grown
She wore overalls and a sweater
That's what he remembered most
Now a mom that's her child twin
Crossing paths not sure what think
How to feel those distant emotions
Both leading different lives departing

Focused on the end beat clock
Lost in the process to get there
Knowing what needs to be done
Get it done in a timely manner
Trying to live up to the hype
Maintain the high standards
The young inherits the elders work
The next generation taking over
Glad to see them retire enjoy life
Applying the passed down knowledge
From the bottom to a lead role
Mentally prepared for the task
Feeding the spirit feeling empowered
Emotionally determined to make it

This love was wrong
Could never be right
Another argument at night
This mind is strong blocking it all out
While this hear is weak
Fear of being alone disconnected
Hanging in there empty inside
A failed lover fading passion
Cheap romance won't advance
Scars run deep down to the core
Strangers who dk each other anymore

Sorry for your loss losing a loved on must be hard. Seeing close friends hurt is hard to watch. Wanting to help not sure how or what to do. Being supportive isn't enough. If taking pain was a power I'd like to use it to make people better. Sad for them trying to understand more questions than answers.
Learning to be around during those tough times. Anxiety takes over when bad is going on. Feeling overwhelmed when people argue or cry not sure what to do. Would like to help but not sure how. Always praying for others health and their needs are met.