Praying for lost ones
A formal friend that shared memories
An ex that once was able to tolerate
Failed love no changing the outcome
Silent treatment from siblings hurts
A friend who's health is in decline
Wanting to reach out not sure how
I'm sorry I hurt you meant well
Too bad it all went wrong
Got sober that was my apology
Had to do it for me since things ended
Getting mentally strong this heart torn
Fading away from that toxic scene
Left alone isolated with thoughts
Lonely nights writing it out
Words ran deep hard to sleep
Letting pride get the better of thing
Sorry won't fix the wrong
Altered behavior wasn't enough
Coexisting made it tough
Reaching out being ignored
Not worthy stance was made clear
Tired the grudge being held over head
Faced the truth everyone so ruthless
Miss you all wishing you the best
This hurt will fade over time
Gave it to God prayed for better days

Being the voice of reason
Made him numb detach feelings
Focused on the task not the problem
He loved too much expecting equality
Ending up disappointed feeling betrayed
No one has his heart or cared as much
Usually in the back working hard
Saying how he felt got him hurt
The worse is when he catches feelings
Gets a crush on a person of interest
Never thinks the same it's complicated
Or feel the same way back

We don't talk or know each other
Everyone thinks assumes the worse
No one gets along not able to coexist
Everyone has problems
Don't dismiss one anothers thoughts
Respect feelings try to understand
Years of denying to be accepted
Bend over backwards standing solid
Working harder than before
Gave up on complicated things
Got over being lied to
Forgiving others for the betrayal
Even though never forgiven
Everyone talks bad feeding into it
Focused on the good staying positive

Lots of growth after cutting the cord. Not what they said we are not the same. You have your life respect it. Let me live mine. Don't tell me how to interact with my kiddos. Don't attack my personal life because your life is better. I'd think you'd be happy not plowing down others to feel secure. Not in control taking power only for your own self interest. Pushing people out alienating them manipulating others. Not empowering the corruption feeding the toxic behavior

Doing your thing
No one cared it didn't matter
Or be happy for you
Keep motivated working
Stay strong inspired to go
All the dramas not worth it

Writing for hope staying real
Voted off the island moved on
Use to fight for them stood tall
All they do is oppose him
Knock his story for being different
Shadowing others with theirs
No one knows how to act or care
Disowned and have grown
Happy for lucky people and drama could be sucky

Everyday is a new day
Make the most of it
Ready to ask her to lunch
But she was a no show
Ready to go she wasn't there
He didn't prepare there she stood
He practiced what he wanted to say
Then his mind got overwhelmed
Chose to do nothing about it
Not able to express himself
Writing in on the page for hours
Seeing it one way but it turns out another
His imagination gave him closure
Found peace not infatuated with anyone
Deep bold statements off the top of the head

He shared his pain not inflicting it
Hoping others would understand
Been an outcast not meant to fit in
Many people suffering over the past
Not always going to have a say
Make the most of things
No control beyond your grasp
Take on what matters worth your time
Pick your battles wisely
Not always emotionally invested
Hard to get attached or close
Free from the bad focused on the good

Tired of being told how to live
By people that settled right away
Who don't take their own advice
Use to care too much being excluded
Hoping they'd be accepting one day
More rules on how to behave
While their kids ran a muck
Doing things expecting favors repaid
Telling them how you feel and think
They can't comprehend it's dismissed
Turning everyone trying to control
Not playing walking away from this
Been there before didn't care for it
Not empowering hatred staying strong
A trail blazing leader not a follower
Use to being alone people go away
Hard to get close with an open heart
Not attached expecting them to stay
Live life on the go not waiting around

He read poetry in his room
Hoping to find love escaping doom
Peace and closure feelings ran deep
Made it easy for him to sleep
Laying in his bed clearing his head
All the loss had more meaning
All the victories short lived feelings
An internal struggle that was real
Another short deal now healing
Giving it all is never enough
Getting older making it tough
An adult heart conflicts with childhood
Not the same from the neighborhood
Come so far people can't forget the past

He worked hard finally appreciated
Dealing with people that work
Makes sense things are better
Instead of dealing with lazy people
Talks of sabotage for a career
For someone who wants to move up
Talks of becoming a lead to a lead
He knew that this was a big move knowing this persons a top prospect
Keeping things balanced going strong
A major role compared to before
Ignored treated bad no one's listening
An outside looking in not the place
Not going to find it in another person
Never materialistic seeking wisdom
Neglected feeling like a nobody
Determined to become a somebody

Near death determined to live
Do more over the same routine
The list grows on borrowed time
Writing from the heart staying true
Loyal to all the wrong people
Doing what's right causing a fight
Picking up the slack taking charge
Keeping things on track getting ahead
Learning to socialize deal with people
Be fair understanding the situation
While dealing with others problems
Keep them motivated and inspired
Usually focused on the work
Not about the drama anymore
Since it impacts the production
Learning to deal with others feelings
Understand others than ones emotions
Talked about moving up growing still
Not at the bottom anymore thriving
Looking up going forward rising up
Not going back or settling for less

Doing your job picking up the slack
Learning to socialize doing my part
Some don't care dump it on others
Being a teams player taking bumps
So much pressure from all
Do too much they expect it
Have an off day can't let up
They'll assume you're being lazy
Trying to put out the same energy
Slowing down plowing through
Burnt out earning every cent
Pushing through drained from it all
Given chance not letting anymore down
A new role living up to the hype
Since no one else wants it or cares

Not about being right or wrong
How you treat others in a disagreement
Don't alienate slander their character
Not able to influence or manipulate
So you try to turn others on them
The person is use to being alone
Being excluded for being different
Not losing faith going all out
Letting others dictate your faye
People come and go like seasons
Loyal is closer than blood
Respect take you farther than chaos
No one is talking about you
Stop talking about others
Putting them on blast it's not your life
You're not helping anyone making it worse
You're not doing anything for anyone
So you make others look bad
Count your blessing be thankful
Stop making an example of others
A mouth of lies leads to ears that can't heard
Shutting people down for having an opinion
Knocking them doesn't make you right

Part of life is done no going back
It hurts so bad the betrayal
A knife to the heart for trusting
The disappointment eats at you
Feeling closed off from the world
Seek new start over fresh beginnings
Ready to shut down fade away

Keeping contact not a memory
Reaching out can't get enough
So she won't forget me move on
Was scared to try didn't want to hurt
Not trying to hurt anyone
Instead of careless dreaming
Worried for others kept out
Things are going well not worries
Someone is dealing with health issues
Out of touch disconnected
Plugged in when times are bad
Working to better the situation
Other things neglected thrown off
Find balance be centered for once

You believed in me
When no one else did
Trying to move up to far
Working hard to get better
Always there giving it all
Caring more than most
Fear of missing out dreaming big
Keeping busy from the drama
Lost in the work not obsessing
Overcome doubt cut the toxic cord
Starting over sounds insane
Rebuilding wiser than before

Now that you are gone
Things will never be the same
The glue came undone
And will never stick right again
Never the same just memories
Pain sad to see you go
Your light helped everyone grow
Focused on the good over the bad
Seen it through made it to the end
Thanks to your influence

He ran into an old friend. She smiled but couldn't place her face. He thought I know this person he observed her name tag. Then it clicked an old school colleague. He realized everyone was getting older most hide their age but she was very natural some white hair. He realized he didn't look the same from high school. Did she remember him recall his face or was he just another stranger from the past that's forgotten.

Blood doesn't make family or true
All the humility bleeds out scars up
Pride battles the ego internal conflict
Destroys another the struggle within
The old life gutted with a knife
Changes over time healing growing strong
Going through the crazy to stay sane
All the hurt and pain fades away
Working hard to finish strong
Took the test open opportunity
Presented itself chasing the dream
After waking from the nightmare

Those toxic ways are not love
Laying next to a stranger
Not knowing who you are
What you've become is no longer fun
This lust will never amount to love
Forcing broken failed love
The respect gone amounts to nothing
Trust will never be whole only divided
Loathing one another's presents
Not able to be in the same room
No communication just arguments
Sick of the lies nothing was real
Easier to hate each passionately
Instead of making the wrong right
No terms or conditions more problem
Easier to stay away the only solution

New plans and ideas to rise up. From the bottom to the top spoke up tired of being silent. Knowing having an opinion causes enemies instead of bringing gaps. Not taking the crap anymore took a stand even if it meant being alone.
Hard to sleep with "what if" on the mind? Asking "when?" And is it truly worth it. So many ideas the heart dk how to feel or what to think anymore this mind racing on the redline.

He worked hard making moves ready to take the test. This would be a factor in his future working towards his goals. Wanting a day shift so that he could focus on his training. Changing up his diet incorporating more greens. Resting staying sharp and focused on his passions. Lots of change occured he was working for it. Had plans hoping they'd work out be put into motion.
Changed his focus at ease over come pain and agony cause by his family. He valued them but they didn't respect or valued his opinion. Anything he did didn't matter unless they made it about them. Not like them and will never be like them.

He had to write and post a podcast for his therapy session clear his mind and open his heart. Let all the good vibes energy flow out instead of keeping it in. Living his best life moving on going forward not waiting around just doing not saying mostly all action.
Keeps on writing his story from one level to the next. Encounters socially awkward but just as weird maybe weirder.

Years of experience and knowledge leading to this moment. Every insult creating strength. Every mistake pointed out worked harder towards perfection. Trying to do it right the first time with maximum effort. They told him he didn't belong it made him better not settling for less.
His experience over the years he was ready but never given a chance. When he took it everyone that doubted him rooted for him. His dream was to compete on those mats jujitsu on the back of his mind get his blue belt train harder no surrender working to cross things off his Todo list.

He blocked out the haters they told him NO it made him want it more. He was obsessed eyes locked on his goals his success so many detours he didn't lose faith eventually he got there and was thankful. It didn't happen right away when it did he was grateful never looked back he just sees the people who doubted him and proving them wrong. Shutting down those that mocked him after being injured and depressed anxious to get back on the mats. Being harassed for missing practice because he had to work. Taunted by people that had it given to them while he had to work for his way. Never fit in or cared for gym politics but one who focused on the technique and drills.

He loved her but it was over. She didn't believe in his dream. She told him he wasn't good enough it tore him up from the inside out. The anger didn't resonate with him. He did what he loved while everyone else gave up on their dreams.
He was pursuing it behind the scenes working his craft. Getting better educating himself trying to apply what was being learned to better his situation. His family didn't get or understand him since he didn't listen to NO or like being told that he couldn't do it. Giving his all even though it wasn't good enough staying positive working it from all angles and directions eventually it would work out fall into place.
He wanted to write stand up and sitcoms tell his story. He took those steps shared with friends and did his podcast that gave him a voice. He broke free of his family they called him delusional and kept him out for being single and not having a family. He was smart didn't want to do that with just anyone.

He loved his family but they don't support him or believe in him. It was hard to cut the cord but he did keep a distance. Pursuing his dreams on the low low playing new roles feeling blessed new mindset for the future. Living in the moment new people and new encounters the right people.
Some looked at him like he mattered they believed in him.
For once they valued him and appreciate his efforts this was all new to him. He felt his growth empowered onto new things and moving forward with life. Not stuck or feeling like life was on pause waiting around. New opportunities and chances.

He asked her out she agreed but they needed to plan the time and place. He was anxious to go being patient trusting everything would work out part of the plan.
The last time he dated was college. He met people and didn't commit because it was never an option. He wanted more struggling to find balance while pursuing the career. He didn't end up doing any of it just an average Joe working a job back home a lifer resident in his home town.
Wanting to escape his city had his heart. Hated being home missing it while he was away. Thought he was missing out showing it love not getting any back in return. At the local dive bar with the regulars some left home and others never been outside of the circle the neighborhood the only thing known.

He wrote about it then it played out one of the weirdest feelings that made sense for once. Usually facing obstacles taking and L even will all the effort invested.
Learning to keep going strong since no one else seems to want it been getting love and less hate. All the trust and confidence instead of being set up to fail. Told NO getting ******* over not backing down or afraid been doing this for years no more fear the tears just hard work plowing through
Trying to make it to the next level pursue a dream with extra activities finding balance trying to have it all without sacrifice years of compromise trying to get back on track things on pause on the back of the mind

Writing in the break room everyone decides to be social on this day. Trying to be social everyone is busy. The day could be so random surprising the out come. Liked his new location the people say hi and know his name. His other job feeling like an outsider looking in trying to relate.
Not always understood a worker someone giving his all. Even if they liked him or not. Plenty of years to work not waiting to retire.
Around bad leads leading by example working every cent nothing is given. Looking out for others being selfless learned to cope with the process what's going on taking situations. Do more than most not settling for less.

He woke up ready to get it done. Bust his *** in a timely consistent manner. Getting older making moves on the down low. Tired of the bottom working towards the top. Years of staying down, after hitting rock bottom.
Insulted for being judged without being known. Overlooked being skimmed over the hardest worker in the room. Not one to **** up seen as a threat. Standing out being noticed to not used properly. Spoke up got mistreated said nothing being a solution solving problems.