He was reliable others flaked stuck stepping it up. Running out of things to say choosing peace over arguing stopped comparing, everyone does their own thing. Minding my mouth and business making remarks to be funny but making people mad. Not hard to do just having an opinion. Writing to tell stories get out. Trying to heal be a whole over the empty pass that tried to steal joy of the present. Not use to people being nice but it's the best feeling ever. Doing the right thing even when no one is looking is rewarding.

The girl next door everyone liked her so you had no interest. Pretending not to care but there was emotions that remained hidden. She seemed to like everyone expect you. You heard her complain about her bf and going back to the exes that continued to hurt her.
You got hurt because there was nothing you could do. Acting on those urges would lead to losing her as a friend. Felt like everything went wrong trying to protect her. Eventually you fade out focused on those rare good times. That brought joy from a tough child hood. Memories faded away moving hard to do but became second nature.

Done with manipulators
Over being used being talked about
No one is talking about anyone
Learned to mind your mouth
Stay out of the drama not feed into it
Focused on the work not the people
Always under pressure trying to be normal
Doing extra trying to be resourceful
Jokes about being the chosen one
Just trying to be part of the team
Play off one another everyone has strength and weaknesses build one another up
Not take swings or set each other back

He closed his eyes to relax compose himself. While his opponent used muscle burning out. Being yelled at "why are you closing your eyes?" Staying collected waiting for the moment to counter and strike back from defense to offense. Trying to take control of the situation bounce back from all the criticism. He could see those haters faces knowing his time and moment would come where they'd be quiet because he proved them wrong.
Being told no but was doing it. Being disrespected but still having respect for people who ran their mouth. Knowing they aren't better that's why they keep talking. Knowing the sport trying to improve grow within stay involved even as age limits movement. Trying to stay active and healthy for the most part challenging the mind to do more the body to never quit keep pushing through all the tiredness.
From a bad team to making his own liking when people bring put the best in him instead of the worse. He wanted to grow with that team if they won he would feel proud to be part of it. But if things went wrong he'd get back into his lab come up with new ideas and drills to be much better learn from the mistakes improve on the good new strategies a new game plan for the next match.

From trying to be a team player to handling business and going home
Over all the gym politics some people had help where he had to work to pay for his classes
Work took him away from practicing what he loved.
His so called team gave him crap lots of time conflict and restrictions
Trying to enjoy himself excluded by those arrogant practitioner.
Feared another injury trying to get better feeling like a tackling dummy
Trying to perfect the technique use what was learned apply what's being taught
Wanting to work and compete but it felt like an off season. Learning it'd out there you have to seek it no one will get you there you have to want it.

Changing things up time management
Making the most of what's given
Wish people would talk to one another
Instead of talking about each other
Over taking on egos that are two faced
Not empowering people condescension
Saying one thing actions cause conflict
Seen through the act left in confusion
Trusted the wrong people left in doubt
Spoke soft to see who's listening
Calm collected maintained
Talked loud many with a lack of interest

The day it ended tears were shed
Wondering where and why it went wrong
Thought it was a happily ever after
It was over no second chance
Never forgiven eyes of hate
The hardest part is forgiving yourself
One day but not in this life time
Addicted to her love can't get that fix
Detoxing going without healing overtime
The self destruction didn't help situation
Making things worse pushed everyone away
Blocking it all than facing reality
Distracted by work keeping positive
Felt worthless and unworthy
Seeking to be whole never going back

Written on by family proving them wrong is easy but they'll never give you props. Those made up standards no one is living up to over all the talking.
Be this way do that most are not happy just going through the motions.
Breaking bad habits changing to avoid falling into the vicious cycle. The fear of being like people that loathe you.

He liked her but she told him she was busy. He got the hint and kept a distance. Someone was always mad or holding a grudge trying to turn him into someone he's not.
Be this way or you'll get treated different. Or you're this way so let me treat you bad. Trying to justify their misconduct. In your business instead of tending to theirs. They'd rather push you out destroy your happiness than be accepting allowing you to grow.
He'd smile they'd stare at him with intense anger and hatred. He preferred to be alone sick of others assuming rather than just asking. Trying to narrate his behavior dictate his mood. He wanted them to stay, but it's easier; if they just left.
Becoming emotional detached was more common than getting your hopes up. Tiredof being disappointed and let down by people he thought cared about him.

Stopped complaining and comparing just living
Not taking on other problems that are ignored
It's okay to be excluded like being alone found peace
Grasped closure within staying clear of drama
Once cared stopped listening to foolish demands
Quit playing others games empowering indecisive behavior
The silent treatment is rewarding not punishment
Out of the loop is better than pretending things are okay
Solo projects doing your own thing is everything

She got a bf the guy; who liked her missed his chance. Never took the risk thought there was time. Things change so quickly from flirting to seeing and hearing she's with someone else. A hard pill to swallow take in without any regrets.
From good friends to complete strangers. Those feelings lead to num emotions. Hard to breathe take it in. Being a man not showing things got to him. Deep down it was taking its toll on his heart.

Joking about an ex if she came back
Years of misery not finding peace
The life he wanted came up short
Happened for someone else
Feeling cheated going strong
Focused on truth not accepting lies
Trying to be the same keep it together
Everything changed learned to adapt
Able to adjust never feeling enough
Giving everything to get things done
Hard work paying off moving up
Good things happening new roles
Not feeling robbed by sneaky fakes
Wished her the best moved on
Doing what's best living life
Taking in the moment to the fullest
Making them count full of potential

He was friends with the errie darkness
His heart was feeling the soothing cold
Taking in the deep silence feeling relaxed
Away from the world that rejected him
Walking through the life alone
Told never go against the family the family that betrayed his trust
The black sheep that go disrespected
Writing about those who wronged him
Being honest with liars and cheaters
Saw good in others They proved him wrong
Getting older seeing things differently
Looking out for others
The cheater tries to talk to you about  being loyal
They'll gaslight you easier to walk away

Free from the death grip
Escaped the burdening weight
No longer empowering the evil
Healed from being emotionally crippled
Taking back control feeling free
No longer in the chaos walked away
Not responsible for others actions
Those emotions that dictate behavior
Feelings that are wild with no respect
Never an equal over being ignored
Fighting for a place still don't belong
Family has love but feels forced
Blood means nothing truth is everything

Stopped comparing living life
Got tired of complaining just doing
Not my crowd it's okay to say
Never going to see eye to eye
Never come to terms or agree
Working hard to survive
All the talk not listening anymore
Walked away tired of waiting around
Had your back take your knife back
A stabbing pierce of betrayal
Seen what you stand for
Can't be apart of that and you

Always wanted to be normal
After a failed relationship its easier to be single
The silent treatment from family because communication is limited
Working hard to better the situation
From many friends preferring to be alone
Change and growth learning those life lessons
Trying not to complain make the most of things
At the bottom moving uo in ranks
Not a lead but helping make progress

Trying to do right everything went wrong
It went from a crush to a fling
Not knowing where things would end up
It was over before things got started
A ***** secret hidden from the world
Why can't it be in the open
The love felt had so much pride
On the outside looking in what if
Why can't we be friends anymore
How did this start where did it go wrong
Scenes in the mind stuck on a loop
Trying to remember for understanding
So many x factors not there anymore
Not in that place there's no going back

He helped everyone didn't expect much
Or want anything in return
Use to being disappointed by expectation
Knew what it was like to be set up to fail
Use to wear his heart on his sleeve
Doing his own thing thing
If others benefit it was a bonus
Starting  over learning the basics
Building on a leveled foundation

If I said sorry would you forgive me
I admitted I was wrong why can't things be right.
Use to be a close friend now you see me as a worthless stranger
Just because we are blood doesn't make us equals
You think your better than me oppose our differences
The love became betrayal loathing one another
Use to talk now we are on nonspeaking terms
One sees it as a game the other refusing to play
One giving love the other turning everything into hatred
Talking loud doesn't make it right
Talking about the person instead of to them doesn't fix things
Everyone thinks they are right both wrong full of pride

He didn't clash with people but some treated him bad he took it. The day he spoke up everyone would try to come at him. He didn't overreact or lose his cool because they came at him acting savage so he stayed civil. They wanted him to make a scene turns out no reaction was the best solution.
He wouldn't let them twist his words or make him feel bad pick at him thinking he was weak. They try to insult you and expect you to be rational you trust them but you feel squeezed you know they wouldn't do the same for you.

Trying to feel it see it before trying to make it a reality. Sometimes it can't be seen but does happen. Wondering about that life even though it doesn't happen right away. Was it worth it does it matter anymore. Weighing in on all the burdens the sacrifice that would be made.
Giving up what he loves thinking something better will turn up giving up things that mattered asking what priorities will contribute or cause backsliding moving forward is hard after being anchored down. Free of the back breaking weight learning to move without feeling tormented by the past wanting to move without an coming back to claim him like abandoned territory because someone new came into his life taking him serious not playing games.
Meet new friends that don't talk **** because he was trying to bring them along but they decided to peel off to do their own thing that blew up in their face.
Find a partner family will accept instead of being put in the middle having to play peacemaker while his relationship went to crap trying to keep everyone happy. Making time for everyone but they never made time for him. Expecting him to care for their feelings while they belittled him for opening up speaking the truth.

Putting his body through hell
Taking the punishment to clear his mind
Waking up with a sore and tender body
Lower back pain that rang through the nerves
In the mirror seeing a swelled face that took a beating
Flirting with pain obsessed with the agony
The tortured soul finding pleasure in the insanity

Running into an old fling he knew they could never be
They actually talked and civil one wanted in while the other was kept out
Getting answers why and where did it go wrong
His love for her would come back but didn't get his hopes up
She was hurt trying to find herself years of being lost
Being with the wrong people because she couldn't be single
The men she hurt became strangers
Played itself and distanced himself from her

Being the man taking a stand
Hiding your emotions down for yours
Not letting emotions cloud judgement
Chasing opportunity rising up
Can't stay down pursuing a dream
Lost in the technique repetitive drilling
Practice like it's real means everything
Creating with words exploring ideas
Vibrating emotions on heavy bass string
Every page taking the bleeding ink
Trying to be normal never on to fit in
An outsider looking in wondering where
Where does he fit in where does he belong

They told him it was pride he forgave them and moved on. They kept it up all the bad attitudes and mouthing people behind their back. He told them straight up to their face he wasn't running but when he stood up against them, they knew they had no power or say over him.  
He moved in the light while they'd sneak around in the darkness. He wasn't afraid of the dark it was second nature.

It would never be a one on one. They'll slander his name bad mouth his reputation trying to influence others to see the worse when they dk him. That's why he chose to be a lone wolf not able to trust anyone over all the lies when he was loyal and true now a days its a lost value.

He worked on his footwork feeling like death was coming after him.
Distracted working drills to stay alive
Keeping his mind occupied sharp
Working with his cousin going through the motions
Life has been rough but staying tough
Around a tough crowd that doesn't get along
Dealing with rejects as he chose to be a social outcast.

Stayed away feeling kept out because you run your mouth talking about everyone. You dk their story or situation expecting everyone to explain themselves while you debate all your faults and failures to justify everything. Others have no choice and wear the labels place on them.
It's rare when someone who says NO and denies all the crap. Not taking the group ******* or letting a group of moronic followers influence. Eventually all the egos will conflict with one another. The struggle for power to be right. Making everyone miserable because they want to run the show.

The love was infatuation thinking it was real she wasn't the one. His heart stuck on her. She didn't value or appreciate him he wanted her even more. He couldn't get enough he made excuses for her but he hated being wrong thinking he could fix something that was beyond repair.
He seen her with other men and it gutted him from the inside out. She was lusting a  girl with freedom that took everyone and thing for granted. She didn't explain why it was over but you could feel it. She was cold and heartless after being affectionate open to you. Stirring your feelings and emotions causing confusion and anger due to the lack of communication. Not having a say not responsible for her feelings that left everyone emotional. She cried because she couldn't explain her actions the reasons for her conduct towards lovers who she lusted after leaving them in torment

Loving family unconditional even if they cuss you out. Disrespect you because they dk how to cope or deal with their emotions. Letting their feelings get the best of the situation wanting you to talk to them not willing to listen.
Acting like they are better than you thinking they have the upper hand being ignorant. Expecting you to lower yourself to be accepted. Asking your opinion but real want you to side with them say what they want to hear. Dealing with the problem stop looking for excuses. Complaining about a bf that is egotistical but staying loyal looking like a fool. While a brother who cheats on a girl he doesn't like follows everyone not having an opinion of his own. As an older sibling watching this insanity they have the never to call you the crazy one for being single wanting a healthy relationship not emotional crutch of a partner.
He told his story straight to the point seen as wild or crazy realizing he was wrong or made mistakes still owned up.

Thanksgiving should be about family but with mine there is always drama some act like the world is about them while others complain but stay in that situation. People never change I respect  you've moved up. Just because you treat people bad doesn't mean you have the right to do it.
Some accept it while others won't tolerate that conduct. Not into one sided relationships sick of how people talk about others behind their but kiss *** to their face. Seen them better than myself but they act the worse because you have an opinion you spoke your mind. Trying to tell you how to live when they aren't even living up to the imaginary bar set for others.
We all have that one sibling who thinks because they are tall and thicker than everyone acting like they could beat everyone up talking to everyone disrespectful and expecting respect. After a while you shut it down not empowering that nonsense.
Trying to see people as an equal but some think they can step on people to rise up or use others then drop them like it's hot. Annoyed with phony people who believe in their hype all that talk and not backing it up. Been trying to move up by working hard sick of people putting up road blocks who do nothing for you. Making it about them when they try to steal your credit. Act like they are the mastermind when they are basic and boring trying to steal the spotlight.

The dating pool has been like jumping into a shallow puddle of mud. Taught to be a provider times have changed. Relationships don't hold value all the perks but no commitment. Being used then set free wanting more but stuck with less. An open relationship would not work one wants to be the one not one of many.
Asking what do you bring one relies on looks not contributing. Not equal one constantly gives and its never enough while the other continues to take and can't get enough never happy or satisfied. Ruining things once control is lost when they cheat blaming others for their actions.
Judging isolating people who don't agree or give into their commands. Taking advantage of the weak once someone strong comes along they are mistaken a threaten fool trying to take others down for defense.

Writing about it is the best feeling
Experience it makes it more rewarding
Things don't happen right away
Turned out better than expected
A late kiss that finally happened
Asking a girl out and she says yes
Not sure how to feel or react
Getting the job years of subbing
Treating it serious now it's happening
Working out seeing results come together
Due to dedication hard work motivation
After years of things being plateo
Finally rise up to the next level
Not getting a crush to end up let down
Trying those feelings that are unsettling
Appreciated ones company being alone
Processing making sense of things
Exploring ideas the creative process

Things didn't happen right away
Not sure what to expect or how to act
Not always the first pick or get the girl
Didn't get his hopes up came up short
Usually ended up disappointed
Lost in his hopes feeling overwhelmed
Emotions got the better of him
Betrayed by family still showing love
Hurt by his best friend hard to trust
Stayed away got sober friends faded
Blamed for cheating his girl cheating
Called bad names an unfaithful luster
Trying to expose the shame of yesterday
Did it matter it was all in the past
Taunted by the tormenting present
Pulled back by the past fighting regret
Living in the moment escaping anguish
Focused on the future new goals rising up

He stared at her and she didn't age. He felt like that scared nervous boy from high school. Trying to say something funny but came off socially awkward. She told him about his husband. He respected that he did many bad things a home wrecker was not one of them.
A flashback that had taken him back. Many things he had forgotten those memories came back, he'd  remember things that got blocked out.
He was lost in the reality working to survive, creating to escape all the frustration. Asking what he truly wanted still pursue his dreams, even if they were a secret.

He didn't expect much of others
But gave his all with everything
He opened up no one cared or listened
After a while he was closed off
Wasn't sure what he could do anymore
Joked with people that are too serious
Too serious around jokes that are insults
The dreamer knew what he wanted
Dk what he was looking for in a partner
She was pretty but insecure too needy
He made a mistake chose phony friends
Over a relationship that could of been more
Too much misery dieing to escape feeling drained
Never good enough to keep this love
Spent money on gifts that were belittled
Compared to an ex that was the standard
It wasn't meant to be not trying anymore
A mother cussing over a spoiled daughter

Called a bias for not being around it
Trying to understand or be cancelled
Told the truth being fed lies
Trying something new being called crazy
Being told stay in the routine
Breaking away from the old way of living
Trying to rise up never settling
Taking on new social standards
Not playing the race card others abuse it
Some use their body while others work
Some have money others work for it

Living his life didn't need the criticism
Walked away because it wasn't fun
It wasn't genuine anymore it was fake
Hyped up to be drained from good vibes
Many reasons to stay asking is it worth it
Thinking about moving onto to new
Got clean staying sober around druggies
Not giving into temptation open mind to learning
The addiction to alcohol avoiding it
Love for needy girls that don't love him
Stripping him down to feel secure
Failed love that's become luat unhealthy
Emotionless around closed off people
Feeling bad for showing emotions
Actually dealing with these emotions
Growing up around toxic masculinity
Trying to be a man told to open up
Then having it being used against him
Woman's love like seasons the same
Grew up old school norms that make sense
Not understanding these new ideals
All the taboo has become socially accepted
More ways to be excluded kept out
Another obstacle to pass through

Taught to be down go after it
Not to snitch everyone is telling
Loyal and treated like a cheated
Staight up made out to be a liar
Hustling not looking for handouts
Working to make it happen everyday
Pursuing the dream make it reality
So many waiting to be given everything
Cheaters get caught up not worries
Lies lead to the truth exposed on the light

Getting older the young athlete within
Struggling to stay relevant not healing
Working harder to come out even
Pushing through to make it to the end
Loving the sport but the body tender
Giving everything and taking way more
Moving slow not the same anymore
Being tough isn't enough taking a beating
Relying on technique to survive

Sad how some mock others for their believes
Some will toll you trying to get a reaction
The stupid smirk on their face pointing out the problem
That doesn't help how about providing a solution
Once you call them on their misconduct they try to come at you
Trying to be a bully online not saying anything in person
Once you learn who they are and what about you don't bother with them anymore.
Respecting their decisions it's okay to not see eye to eye
Sad how they disrespect everyone and expect respect
Looking down on others like its a right
Not contributing talking acting like the world evolves around them
Quick to place the blame for their short comings
Your way doesn't work for you why would you think it's better for others
From close to distant because no one communicates and thinks they are right
Rather than talk things out they'll make it personal.
Trying to cancel you out erase your existence for being different
Thinking they could beat you up bit not doing anything just running there mouth like always
Trying to turn everyone it doesn't matter anymore use to being alone

Facing yourself everyday toy test yourself
To see if you got it or if you want it still
An older body not recovering right away
From a youthful athlete to an older being
Challenging yourself relying on heart to finish
The older warrior within pushing forward
From the bottom fighting to stay in the middle
Building off what's already know

The women he dated some stuck on an ex
Living in the past not able to move on
Another full of lust mistaken for love
Always honest with words deep with truth
Showed them love given lies never seen as an equal
Soon to be exposed the harsh reality
Mixing up names loyal to one person
Not meant to be a player seeking long term
Infatuation drained his soul not given an answer
Seeking reasons sometimes a fling becomes nothing more
His love for interracial brought shame to the family
He seen beauty in multicultural while family stuck in old traditions
Escape old ways unlearn relearn to love again
Women are not the same the ex is not the standard
Waiting thinking they'd come back they've moved on time to do the same
Weird how they come back once you've moved onto new
Doing well before you met them their chapter is over. If you reread the chapter you all ready know the outcome
Scared to get hurt holding back just open up
Need to get out there stop fearing change
Use to be social everyone is sensitive making stuff up you can't say anything

He use to walk into enemy territory with a smile. They came at him but he settled the score behind the scenes. He use to take pride in serving those who did him a ***** a receipt. The betrayal become personal He looked out for them and had their back.
He found out they'd bad mouth him slander his character. This bad boy rep did him a favor rather than changes others perspect of how they seen  him. Everything against him was frustrating he knew not to go against family but they had it out for him. He never dated an ex of a friend or relatives.
All these made up ideals kept him out or tried to change him just to be accepted. It wasn't worth it so many people had more than him and still ungrateful. He was less fortunate but still thankful Pursuing his dreams and crafts to enhance his talents.

He wasn't taken serious seen as a joke. They think he's a push over once they crossed the line they'd be surprised when he checked them put them back in their place. He was over all the insults backhanded complements.

From analyzing everything to living in the moment. Getting away from those burdens that try to weigh you down. Doing your own thing while others are stuck in their burdens. Being consumed by misery burned out from the routine
Seeing everything as a blessing an opportunity rising up instead of letting everyone rip tear down the dream. Focused on good rather than expecting the worse. Trying to stay sharp being distracted living up to old standards that keep you at your best.

Hiding a smile because they'll come at you because they are miserable. Not welcoming or associating with toxic energy. No longer feeding into those bad vibes. Not one of them pushed out all the carnage left from stepping aside should've spoke up. It would've been a pointless conversation because their way is not right bit I'm their mind they can do no wrong. Just because they have the right to do so doesn't mean; what they are doing is right.
Got the cold shoulder the silent treatment didn't mind because it doesn't stop you from living life. They have no say or control over you because they don't agree. You don't hate them bit know how they are as they loath you for having an opinion speaking your mind.
Taking about everyone but once you call them out on their actions it becomes a debate like if it's justified. In everyone's business trying to make others look bad to feel better about themselves. They cheat the system now trying to impose their ways when you have no interest to empower their toxic ways of living.

Learning to love again after being betrayed
Living separate lives theres no going back
One gave everything it was never enough
The other forcing instead of letting it be natural
Writing to express all those bottled feeling
Confusing thoughts make sense of things
Scared feeling vulnerable with change
Wanting to love freezing up in the moment
Afraid to leave but meant to grow
New moments training for hours
That one moment lasts a few minutes

Part of you dieing embracing the new
Missing the old changing with age
Asking if the sacrifice was worth it
It didn't happen before was stressing
Now it's all going down overwhelmed
Inspiring others to do more
Stop setting for less focus on progress
Always changing for the better
Sad people still see you the same
And made no effort to never change
Lost weight to get healthy feeling better
Not always social over backhanded complements
Pursuing a dream reinventing yourself time and time again

Meeting new people ***** you make time for them but they have no room for you. Things change after getting sober. You see people are married but not happy or bound together by children. People come and go like the seasons so.e you'd like to stay while others you're glad to let them leave freely.
Looking in wondering asking why but once your in it feels like you're better off without. Some people do drugs and drink becoming dependent on it. You'd like to see them get better but they made their choices you respect them by moving on. You can't go back because they have to want help

He wanted to be happy seeing his parents struggle hurt him. All the bad habits that tore the family up. Why did this happen? Why couldn't the family be happy? They didn't have anything but did have each other as they got older everyone grew apart and angry. Everyone would rather be right than happy.
He minded his mouth because it would lead to an argument. Putting his guard down and took a beating. Watching everyone be bitter and self destructive all he wanted was to be happy.
Leaving everyone and thing behind to be sober. Wondering how much more pressure on his heart Why his racing brain would spiral out of control and crash. Trying to relax but feeling like a failure. Things go wrong with family friends and work aking how could he fix it make things right.

Always at work the fear of missing out
Once he was there felt like he didn't belong
Everyone is older wondering where the time went
Letting go of the childhood trauma no longer a road block
Escaping the fear of failed relationships
Moving onto new ideas meeting new people is hard
It's easy to have a fling better to get to know a person.
It's hard to open up when everyone is closed off
Accepting others that are quick to assume  change you refusing to change themselves
Had it all and lost it all lots of transition over time