Showed up to work ready to get it done
Too many are miserable with attitudes
He avoids people to keep from ruining his day
He's usually upbeat positive about life
Loud music while finishing his route
Writing on his down time clears his mind
Trying to live in the moment
Craving changing unsatisfied
Forgetting the past to be present
Praying all the sacrifice pays off
Overall the pain ready to heal
Enjoy a meal without worrying
Be in a healthy relationship with the right person
Tired of holding back biting the tongue
Speak without being ridiculed
Words being twisted used against you
All the wrong people empowered
Having no respect for others efforts
Wasting everyone's time One sided
Talking about entitled and delusional
While projecting on others trying
Never happy whenever others rise up

Free from the anxiety holding pads
Taking combos trying to remember
Blocking low kicks to the quads
Pads blocking his face from high kicks
Learning to fight from a distance
Fighting inside smothers punches
The momentum could smack hard
Loud pops against the leather
Forgetting everything that's troubling
Wanting to heal be normalish
Focused on footwork coordination
Shifting body weight with pivots
Knee strikes to the midsection
Teeps to throw off opponents balance
Controlling the head working the clench

Whats the problem? What's on your mind? Questions I've been asking myself. How can I do this better. Focused more on improving bettering your situation. Getting older feels like lots of time being wasted about to turn 40. Young at heart with the old man mentality.
Having a good time remembering the good old days. Lost in the present fear of the unknown. Taking it one day at a time not overthinking.
Slowing down remaining calm the athlete within refusing quit. A fighter with all heart that got him through the tough training and hard moments. Head down plow through the roadblocks

In his head he thought highly of them
Time pasted he hyped up others
So much change over the years
A lonely guy who wanted a family
Friends with kids and not happy
Still single waiting for the one
Looking for love while others lust
While others divorced calling it quits
Blaming young love for it failing
Starting a new relationship
The way he felt changed
Seeing things differently
Feeling hated by everyone
Unworthy of love wanting to fit in
On the outside looking in
All the resentment keeping a distance

We all have a family member that has everything and it's never enough
Talks about everyone but does nothing to contribute
Gives an opinion when no one asked
If asked says nothing and does not contribute to the conversation
Usually bullies their way to the top acting like their way is right
Most learn to not say anything and walk away
Because you'll end up in a one sided argument
They'll talk over you and debate justifying their wrong as right
Once you make a mistake they try to expose you take you down
Trying to turn everyone against you
They'll try to isolate you but failed you prefer being alone
Never been materialistic I respect people not possessions

Training on the beach
The sunshines while the breeze blows
Pushing your body lifting your feet
To keep from sinking in the sand
Hitting the pads and holding pad
The loud smack from the impact
A high punch to the face a strong defense
A low punch to the body bob and weave
Kicks are another dangerous factor
High kicks towards the head be on defense
Low kicks chopping legs pain from shins colliding
Reducing the power of the push from the feet
Hands up block your face elbows to protect the body
Knee strikes are never ending when done correctly
An elbow strike to the face all momentum
Training for the big fight a year round sport

You can't keep living off past experiences
Time to create new stories to tell
New experiences fresh encounters
Go on new adventures live life
Journey into new realms new people
Take on personalities that stimulate the mind
Let go of old friends that lost contact
Be in the scene get lost in the crowd
Stand out not losing yourself
Challenge yourself to do better
Be more stop settling for less
The growth results so much progress

See the world in the light
Another great writing session
Facing fears thoughts of confrontation
Overcome troublesome thoughts
Learning to love yourself again
Years of resentment from a broken heart
Rising up from the past that crashed
Healing over time memories fade
Staying in the present not going back
Time is moving fast healing this heart
Healing with a new mindset no regrets

You can't change the past
Things haunt your mind
Writing to reflect those wicked ways
Not able to run fast enough twisted daze
Not one to complain or whine
Make the most of life thankful
Work with what's given
Making the most of everything
Saved himself from the insanity
Staying sober kept him sane

Being my own man growing up
Not like my parents an individual
Being my own man standing tall
Trying to survive the struggle
Grew up around addiction
Bad habits over family love
No way to raise a child
Trying not to repeat history
Fear of the unknown a mystery
Writing to keep a clear mind
Facing the truth embracing reality
In love with the truth inside out
In a world of lies dieing inside

He woke up early started to write trying to be normal. Keeping up with his work load get back on track with his pad work. Waiting on the transplant made him anxious. He was tired of arguing and waiting around so he took up more to keep from over thinking.
Speaking up last year was humiliating being placed on the back burner. Treated like a liability was insulting. He's one of the best workers but felt discredited his health condition didn't slow down his effort.
He took charge because he was tired of waiting around. He was the one that got things done pursuing his goals and dreams working in private behind the scenes onto of everything he's already doing.

When he got sober no one seemed to care. While he got clean everyone drank and ignored him. Back when he was drinking he would ignore everyone because most seemed to have a problem with his drinking. He never pressured or told anyone anything others seemed to give him ****.
He moved on since he was tired of being excluded and held to some ridiculous standards that had nothing to do with him. Being quiet and observant so many people would cut corners or try to pull a fast one. His mind clear way sharp compared to before.

He woke up from a crazy dream not able to move.
Anxious about his transplant
Did everything the doctors asked
Now it's a waiting game on the sidelines
Went to work early thinking the schedule was the same I was extra early
Tired of picking up the slack
Last year alienated for having cirrhosis
Thankful for the help still able
Not crippled feeling the pressure
Now staying on top of this work load
Having weird dreams not able to understand
Always determined to do and be better

Trying to understand their logic
Putting myself in the situation
Using my imagination
Never been one to hate
Everyone is different for a reason
Not comparing myself to anyone
Working to better my situation
No time for criticism or negativity
Walked aways from toxic people
Had to cut the cord losing connection
Family loves not healthy too many terms
Conditions to be accepted dieing inside
Turned down personality usually charged
Diluted feelings to be accepted
Emotions ignored by double standards
The souls glow being dimmed by attitude
Fall in place destroy by hostile anger
Your character will be slandered
Evil trying to erase your existence
Being isolated no control of others narrative
Doesn't hurt use to being alone
Alive and well its close go home
A disrespectful mouth crosses boundaries
Getting out of line is dangerous comfort
Eventually pushing everyone away
Time will shift in shift in the favor of good

Dad in and out of prison
Mom lives with her mom
Back and forth to grandma's
Brother doing time for a crime
Blame myself for doing nothing
Said too much no one talks
Trying to unite casing divide
Materialistic pretending to be realistic
Bored with life imposing views
Disagree the rage comes out
Can't win gathering back up
Opposing leads to destruction of a rival

Love family not having kids
I can't afford With baby mommas drama
Trying to stay sober not smoke ***
Numb like a robot no emotions
Did wrong not justify it as right
Trying to start another argument or fight
Chose bad habits over doing what's right
No money for the kids feeding addiction
Running away from the problem
Instead of being responsible
Manhood always challenged
Doing nothing getting disrespected
Mom materialistic feeling abandoned
Dad never showed up anxious to meet up
The pretend dad made a new family
Excluded left out on the outside looking in

Don't agree if you object
Tell me what I want to hear
Then be dismissive opened trusted you
The silence cause by being fed up
Threw ideas your way tried to help
Always shutting them down
Quick to take credit work you didn't do
Made it about you knocking the team
Did it for the team so everyone can grow
Let's build of this idea creative input
Doesn't matter to you so you don't care
Others rising up determined to move up
You won't let them surpass your ways

Working harder than most
Never scared not backing down
DIY finding a way to get it out
Rise to the next level trail blazing
Pursue a dream everything mentally
Drained physically fighting to give it life
Others point out the wrong tear it down
Than give credit for doing right
Focused on mistakes drawing blood
Instead of blessing the effort
All the hard work mininalised
Standing tall alone hoping to unit
Trying to bring others together
While the division grows over time
Keeping everyone apart no love

Use to be scared not afraid anymore
Valued your negative opinion
Tried to put me in my place
Than allow me to grow
Questioned you intentions now your mad
Years of criticism being knocked down
Crazy enough to get back up for more
Staying away gave this mind peace
The mental struggle became a strength
Toxic voices have gone mute
Faded away in the spacey distance
Taking in the silence feeling calm collected
Never understood the logic in this beef
A once sided argument wasting time
Feeling disrespected devalued by an elder
What happened to being an example
A role model for those trying to make it
Move up in the world not knock'em down
Times are different changed over the years
Once came to you for advice
An opinion isn't always needed
Sometimes an ear helps you figure it out
The thought process might click
Make sense to the person opening up
Don't tell others how to live their life
Who to be let them be cozy in their skin

The love for family is strong
It's more than a pretty picture
You need to put forth effort
Don't complain or get jealous
When you get asked
But refuse to participate
It could be fun give it a chance
Don't let your bad attitude
Ruin a fun moment for others
How do you expect others to know you
When you close them out give the 3rd degree
Take interest in others
Don't be about yourself
Sometimes the road is lonely
The journey has people
Who love and care for you
You need to meet them half way
Let people be themselves open up
Don't try to force control the moment
Thankful for the new memories
Closer to cousins and new friends
Can't wait around need to live
Especially on borrowed time
Health is not great but still able
Thankful for the help pushing through
Love the team don't want to fail
Trying to do my own thing not lead

Always talking about growth and change
Sometimes the change doesn't happen right away
Working hard behind the scenes
Preparing towards the goals achieving success
It's about balance and maintaining success
What makes sense to you others find crazy
Results produced towards the outcome
Easy to see the ending do the work
That's between leading towards the dream
Take the steps to make moves to be happy
Even if you're alone stay sane deflect pain

Denied the right not going to argue or fight
Walking away it's going to be a war
Say something that might lead to regret
Miscommunication to be right instead of a solution
Insults making things personal
Invalid argument no results just personal attacks
Clearly wrong trying to justify things
Sad family is divided no one talks
Assumptions growing in the mind
No one is talking about you get over yourself
Making others take your side doesn't make you right.
It fuels a bad person to destroy others who have views and opinions

Writing from the heart allows you to feel
Thinking to much blocks  out emotions
Trying to do what's right be the best
Made mistakes learned for them to grow
Improving yourself over the years
Missing old friends the cord was cut
Meeting the right people on the journey
Thankful for deep conversations
Being told the truth not what needs to be heard
In a crowded room learning from others
Some add perspectives others self indulgent
People care a smile shows they care
The tough love is obstacles failure to get noticed
Take a breath blow out the bad take in the good
Not that person anymore or in that place anymore
Look up be proud and happy for the blessings
Sometimes head down ******* up ego can be a downer
Remember for doing right
Over being reminded the for wrong done

His love for her was strong but he had his doubts. Usually Minding his mouth because she was sensitive. She would pick fights and argue, he was alert since he didn't say or do much. She'd accuse him of cheating but he was always around.
When he went out it was rare; she would blow up his phone. Assuming the worse, shes the one, who made up all these rules that didn't apply to her. He trusted her and when she went out she would blow up his phone.
Asking why he didn't call her. He told her you wanted to go out have fun while he composed himself.
The relationship was difficult feeling like he couldn't do anything right. Time away was appreciated even though he had no clue, how to fix this failing relationship.
Struggling being told "I love you" after being emasculated and felt like his feelings didn't matter.
He knew it was time for a change. It was a power struggle to end things she wouldn't let it be over.
Eventually he'd shut down and she had to be the one to end it to feel superior. Being set free not sure who he was and what he wanted after being in a toxic relationship he had to reinvent himself.
Staying sober getting himself and his crap together because his friends bailed on him since it was hard to balance friendships and a relationship. Put in the middle of an awkward situation. Wishing everyone could get along and coexist with out being forced to choose a side.

When you change your diet it's rewarding
Going back to bad habits is self hatred and torture
You've grown and moved on self improvement
Saying good bye gets easier when you choose peace
Slowing down so much on the mind
It's all hype it breaks down once analyzed
Can't go back to back bad habits
Keep up the progress no longer toxic
They made up their mind so don't bother
You write your story control your narrative
Eventually things work out get better
Put your trust in God do not losing faith

He was down for his working to survive
Back up his crew when needed
Friends come and go like the seasons
No longer attached. Just let go of the past
Use to be a shoulder to crying on
Fighting for the weak, spoke for the voiceless
The weak got strong and turned their back
Called them a friend, and now they are a foe
Acting like they dk you hate you over a girl
Faded out, wasn't myself anymore
Went home, hoping to find peace
Lost direction, filled with regret left with doubt
No longer happy with the situation
Unable to move focused on distractions Needed closure more questions than answers
You want to know "why"  there's no reason
Trying to make sense of puzzle pieces
That won't link all these clues still not resolved

asked why you don't talk to so and so
I refuse to lower myself to be accepted
Never deny myself to be liked by others
Apologized and still treated different excluded
Not always forgiven, forgave, and moved on
Missed the good times living in the moment
Left with bad memories working hard to rise
Someone is always mad and won't forgive
Holding a grudge stuck in the past hating
Bad mouthing your name to appear better
Because they have no say or control over you
It bugs you've moved on trying to be better
Why can't they do the same, stuck in a loop
Family criticizes one anothers differences
Never correcting themselves first
Lots of talk, judgment, different lifestyles
No effort made echoing complaints
Fix yourself do the work earn a living
Before knocking on others, invest in yourself

Trying to do right be better
Going against the wrong
Taking on crazy being slandered
Not letting it phase this heart
Wanting to be normal
Always looked at treated differently

Working for your dream obsessively
Others piggy backing toxic behaviors
Making it seem like they are the mastermind
Taking the credit, she hasn't done the work
Always beefing with someone's ego
Foolish pride won't get a rise out of me
never been materialistic, no one own respect
Every day, paying dues putting in the time
One to appreciate people over possessions
Filling your mind with knowledge
Processing feelings on the page
Deep emotions trying to understand
Not chasing wealth focused on health
A new liver waiting on one
hopefully, a normal life
Time away from home missing corona
Missing grandma, the rock of the family
work piling up, ready to hold pads
Ready to get back on track
keeping up is about maintaining
Gave it to God, can't do this alone
mind worried about losing your spot
worked too **** hard to give it up

it's okay to get away easier to be alone
you don't think or feel like others
you have your own ideas and thoughts
not one to use or go through others
breaking away from toxic people
be the solution, not the problem

talk about what you did, dont blame them. I don't want to be responsible for others. I don't expect much from others they expect everything of me. I'm not sure what to do with Bartab. I'm not that person anymore, I'm trying to get back in that mindset again. it's hard when you're not in that place anymore.
scared to get fat watching what I eat

People made up their minds
No need to prover yourself
Over these made-up standards
These false ideals that are pointless
Gave my life to God following his rules
fueled by faith, no time for hate
stopped worrying about what was
Focused on what could be
working for opportunity taking risks
Love over lust survived broken trust

Over thinking mind can't rest
Wide awake should be sleeping
Watched movies to pass time
Writing scripts one scene at a time
Inspired by creativity story telling
Give others hope during the struggle
Surviving on all levels rising up
The underdog fighting to make it
Escape poverty for a better life
Dealing with new emotional inventory
Feelings from the past clashing with new
Mind open to change with a numb heart
Sacrifice gone wrong emotionally burned

Being able to talk about it
Pressure of your chest
Others understand for once
Able to relate not the exception
Everyone struggles mentally
Physically exhausted pushing through
Going through something
Staying sober dealing with feelings
Before taking a drink an overreaction
Writing to cope instead of being dramatic
Being able to express without criticism
One's self in a healthy manner
Have a heart without being called soft
Show feelings not be seen as sensitive
Be emotional without being called emo
Shedding tears while hurt be hard
Told to be hard show no emotions
Be down for yours never back down
No one cares not materialistic
Produce results final outcome

Not into parties love the family
Never going to live up to standards
An outcast looking in wanting to fit in
Some one is always mad holding a grudge
Talks down on you once a stand is taken
Others offended when questioned
Always the bad guy just trying to be
Gained thick skin desensitized emotionally
Feelings go deep dark overwhelming
Backed into a corner heart racing
Mind grasping to logic and reason
Being in an uncomfortable situation
Why is the guilt spiraling out of control
Never understood all the hype
One minute your loved scared to mess up
Next you are forgotten no one bothers

Always down other back out
They'll let you take the heat
Forget you when your into deep
Faded away from the crew
Now they act like they dk you
Making your own way
Not going against them
Don't need their approval
Felt disowned deserve better
Pushed out for speaking up
From friends now the enemy
Forgave them stayed away
Not wasting time going back

Let go of it all let the words flow
Free from bottled emotions
Looping emotions such a downer
Collecting trauma from the past
Happiness starting to show
Filling that empty seat give it life
Tell your story to inspire others
Tired of being silence holding hack
Did more than most came up short
Set up to fail in the light wanted it
Not ready so much to learn
Working twice as hard ready to shine
Behind the scenes to prepare
Find confidence ask many questions

In a room with others learning love
Finding peace against alcohol
Common goals to become normal
Whatever the hell that means
Angry not able to cope with emotions
Overwhelmed by feelings confused
Trying to find inner peace keep sobriety
Not take a drink it will make things worse
Under the influence ruins it everything
A curse to self destruction kamikaze
Trying to do right not fall into wrong
A trap everyone suffers a long process
The pain use to be please not it's torture
A new look on life learning from others
Many problems and mistakes cause growth

Use to be angry over betrayal
Learned to forgive and forget
Momma once said get over it
Treat people right earn respect
So many are petty over BS
Made a promise to not be like that
Do what you know and love
Feeling complete with a humble life
Not take things personal walk away
They don't know you only assumptions
Staying sober not going to relapse
Walk with faith no time for hate
Forgiving for inner peace
No time for an internal grudge within
Stop being jealous mad over the past
Trying to be around show love
Making it easier to walk away

Telling the truth gets you hated
So many try to cancel you out
Twist your words with lies
**** you off for having an opinion
Stand your ground for your beliefs
Standing solo a friend becomes a rival
Blood unites a family divided by anger
Still disconnected full of pride
wicked hidden agendas appear
Holding a grudge is the wedge
Love over material possessions
Divided by perspective, no fear of consequence
Grew up together now, complete strangers

The internet is a place where people go to complain or criticize things
Prejudge everything or anti supporters
They'll go pay for a movie to review it
Hoping their opinion matters, usually its clickbait
If an old movie of a cartoon live action, everyone gets mad no one is erasing the original
The studio will try to milk the franchise for the next generation.
Reboots are sometimes good. Other times, it doesn't work out accordingly.
People try to cancel something or influence a crowd to hate. It's easier to do than show appreciation for things.

Emotionally bankrupt for years of risks
Feelings burglarized by the people
Used by bandits for their own gain
Found love with a new crowd
Years of blaming deep within
silent scorn, they are dead to the heart
You'd rather wipe them away in your mind
Then, tolerate the bad behavior
criticism from the disrespectful masses
Living with pride can be lonely

Love yourself be kind to others
That's what make you unique
Who cares what others think
Too many people will tell you
Who they think you are
Facing egos that oppose you
Taking on assuming mouths
Ignoring bad attitudes for positive vibes
Avoiding scandalous behavior
Do good deeds help other
Treat people right with respect
Remain loyal it's a lost tradition
Be true in a world full of lies
Be selfless instead of selfish
Love with a broken heart

That safe space was the great escape
Hated being home too much hurt
The track focused on health
Away from it all love family
Tired of the arguing profanity
Felt unworthy doing so much
An older brother not a parent
Siblings full of hostility
Parents refusing to grow up
Couldn't stay down or live this way
Meant for more stuck settling for less
Pursued more came up short
With a new world comes a new mindset
Old ways of life clashing with the new
Trying new things forgetting the old

It ***** we don't talk anymore
We use to be close really good friend
Holding a grudge divided us
Things were said misunderstood
An apology not accepted
Forgiveness is wanted but not given
Friendships ends over ego and pride
Relationships destroyed in a power struggle
One lives a lie while being angered by the truth

Closer to the transplant
Did all the test for California
Now going to take more exams in Arizona
Waiting for a liver could take weeks possibly months
Almost a year ago it started
A doctor appointment for a check up
Finding out with high enzyme levels
Being diagnosed with cirrhosis
A phone call from a doctor with no bed side manners
You're sick we need to figure out
What wrong with you
You have cirrhosis or cancer
Thankful it was cirrhosis over cancer
The less of two evils trying to get healthy

Life is a blessing with growth
Change your mindset new perspective
Leave old ideas behind open to new
Emotional bankrupt bad investments
Feelings burglarized by imposters
True colors shined through
Causing friendships to fade away
Failed relationship to shattered dreams
Hit rock bottom a steady foundation
Buried by family slanderous talk
Hurts the most still love them
Still living life to the fullest
Made up rules in their favor
Once you spoke up or disagreed
They tried to make others hate you
Trying excommunicate your existence

Against the world keep your head up
Not always like or a favorite
Taking on the world it's not worth it
Easier to walk away from the chaos
Than being part of the insanity caused
Some like to argue don't say anything
Talk about you for being different
No one is talking about them
Be the one talked about not talking
A good head on your shoulders
A heart fuelled by hope and grace
Be useful instead of useless
Spiritual growth with positive energy