Trying to show love to good people
Eyes with perspectives seeking better
Focused on good doing improving
Always kept out looking in
Holidays a depressing time
Should be with family in comfort
Sharing a meal family function
Bring up old dysfunction causing stress
Made you feel bad for chasing a dream
Pointing out the flaws insecurities
Trying to be one's self without doubt
The tension escalates together
After ignoring one another all year
Breaking from the old family
Starting a new hoping the old would gel
Come together make new memories
Positive vibes instead of the old habits
Create a new book change the traditions

From the youngest to the oldest in the room
Times have changed told somethings are taboo has become socially accepted
Everything in the open
No longer private with thought
Opinions no one asked expecting to be praised
Everyone puts on a show
Loyalty gets you betrayed
Honesty is now rejected by lies
Hard working gets stomped on
Lazy praised given awards ******* up
Hating on the workers change the routine
Brown nosing the top while kissing the bottom

They tried to break your spirit
Took the crap not doing it anymore
Smiled at the Haters being genuine
Dk everyone is mad soaked in misery
Took on the burden not doing it
Dropped the nonsense walked away
Use to be disappointed stopped caring
Breaking away feeling free from crazy
Silent to keep the peace alive
Focused on things that need to be done
Do what you love with passion
Get away from those toxic vibes
Meant for better a life outside
Escape these 4 walls out of the dark

The fighter within swings back
Crazy enough to comeback for more
After a liver transplant full recovery
Bouncing back stronger than ever
Ego tripping leads power tripping
Can't stop this determination
Staying upbeat and positive

Made some moves can only go so far
Impatient trying not to rush
Plays out great in the mind
The outcome turns out differently
Going for the win stuck with the loss
More to learn from the loss
Gain strength and growth
Be better prepared for the next time
Once was sad got over it meant for better
Hard to trust around the wrong people
Seen good in others proved wrong
Never said anything everyone is talking
Feeling set up to fail trying not to struggle
Focused on more opportunities
Not using others to get ahead
Doing the work not talking

The smile shared with one another
Learning to be friends good times
Before it becomes much more
Know the person mentally
Get close not just physically
An emotional connection comfort zone
Safe zone expressing those deep feelings
More than a gleam in the eye
Keep the passion alive stay genuine
Let this love be true grow spiritual
The Connections from heart to soul
Be real not fade away glow
And grow to much more

Made out to be the crazy one
Told the truth called cut throat
Walk into a room the crowd goes silent
Not talking about anyone saying anything
Tried to be friends always excluded
It's better to do your own thing
Focused on the goal instead of everything
Striving and Thriving to get ahead
Most of all surviving on the journey
Use to struggle to pay my phone
Working hard for a place of my own
Open to new experiences limited opportunity
Taking chances multiple risk
Struggles for personal growth
They stare at like your crazy
Act like it does phase thick skin
Wanting to know why your being isolated
Not always going to get a reason
The logic doesn't always make sense
Question the insanity causing defense

Spoke up no one listens
Trying to blame what a shame
Made out to be the crazy one
Times got rough made things tough
Stepped it up even with setbacks
The dream was meant for more
Shat on by envious people
Didn't go against their indulgence
They are coming towards your success
Chopping you down a few notches
Resisting the negativity focused on goals
Surpassing toxic Positive to the core
Personal growth is the strength
Positivity fueled to do and be better

Burnt out and being flakey
All this energy for a demanding job
Giving more everyone settles for less
Exhausted not wanting to do anything
Trying to rest hard to relax in peace
Taking in the silence able to feel comfort
Able to hear thoughts instead of noise
Doing work a distraction from overthinking
Wanting new bored with the old
Doing things that have never been done

Woke up ready to go stand tall
Tlmade out to be the problem
Providing the solution to help
Returned the favor for motivation
Driven to make a changes for better
Tired made up rules that are bias
Meant to keep your character out
Not altering this personality to be liked
Accepted or not refuse to be kept out
More than my job title beyond the work
Another life outside of the chaos
Not into politics be your true self
Focused on being a better person

Warned by peers but looked the other way
Thinking you could offer good
Everything that was said is true
Only if they knew you're being true
Told the truth against a blank stare
A cold awkward silence was the response
They did you ***** dishonest words
Why do they expect you to feel bad
Asking WHY trying to make it right
It will never go back to being the same
No emotions turned away saying it will be okay

They assumed you're going to run
Just because they did you *****
Doesn't mean anything on your character
Not noticing or paying attention to them
Or what's being said behind your back
You're not going that way
Not feeding into the chaos
Never talking about them
A waste of time focus on being productive
Not use to being alone and have grown
Learned to focus on the work not drama
Work harder with your whole being
Than give into the distractions

The work more important than your emotions
Doing the right thing over what is right
Not there to argue take on egos
They don't value you but keep rising up
To the next level even if against the odd
Be yourself make it count everyday
Be genuine with others with an open heart
Don't hide who you are open to grow
One person was dishonest with your time
Not settling for less make progress
Someone who matters makes a difference

The odds against him
Not scared or backing down
Pushed back not getting punked
Proved them wrong time
And time again meant for better
Not settling for less another
Rising up against the crazy
Moving forward part of the struggle

Live life to the fullest
After a brother was executed
It was like living for two
After a liver transplant
You learn to live for you
Stay loyal and true to yourself

What did you want to learn
What are your weakness
Everyday trying to be better
Improve the situation
Going against the odds
Spoke up told the truth
Kept out of the loop
Prefer not to get involved
Doing the job and going home
Minding this mouth and business
Use to do extra now excluded
Isolated but use to being alone
Trying to be myself not what others say
Not all the lies others make me out to be
Open to change looking else where
Tired of the lies don't trust anyone
Being taken for granted mistreated

All the rage within is tiring
Spoke up told the truth honestly
Seen as crazy overreacting
Made eye contact the look of anger
Avoid eye contact made out to be afraid
Insulted by the lies seeking the truth
Odds against your determination
Trying to even it out push out corruption
Life lessons are hard to learn against evil
Discrimination regardless of medical status

He wanted romance but it got to crazy
He was loyal and honest showed loved
She lied and cheated it was lust
Remaining loyal to the wrong people
You thought you knew the person
Turns out your judgement was wrong
Opened up to a stranger expecting more
Stuck with less regretting every moment
Broken trust a failed attempt at love
Hard to trust after being fool
Genuine intentions crushed by betrayal
Physically burnt out constantly rejected
Mentally exhausted drained of caring
Not able to figure it out looping thoughts

Have you ever talked to a person and they don't care. It ***** to be ignored or being told they agree just to shut you up.
You proved yourself and do the work. While others **** up and brown nose to move up.
It's been rough when they make you out to be the crazy one you spoke up they don't listen. Then have the nerve to blame the team which they are not apart of because they **** off the higher ups.
The infuriating part is they didn't promote you and demoted you. You've been loyal and they failed you the betrayal is real intense fueling anger and frustration.

Being a writer is an adventure
Sometimes you want to change the ending
There's no going back to that moment
Mind blocked not happy with the outcome
Did everything right now it's wrong
Gave your all got nothing in return
From leading the pack to bunched in
What if things went this way
Or turned out right for once
Thinking what could've been said
Even if you could rewrite the story
Not going to change the outcome
Things happened accordingly

We had a romance now it's over
Worked the hardest got burned
Treated wrong did nothing but right
Tried harder than most went all out
Did everything possible to make it better
Looked at with hate feeling regret
Angered because the loss of self respect
Told the truth got nothing but lies
Moving forward no turning back
All the betrayal left with broken trust
Silence with an emotionless start
Feelings are numb no longer phased
The good times fade away all the pain
Lingering bad intentions trying to escape
Damage is done no longer fun lost virtue
Can't make it right love yourself again
Time to find another way start over new

Fire in the belly ready to burn through
Not going back or staying down
Rising up let go of the past
Going forward head up going strong
Avoiding another downwards spiral
Toxic people not the place anymore
Meant for better loose from anguish
Shame on this face disgust seeping out
Wrestling pain bad memories remain
Taking back control trying to live
Dealing with the unknown surviving
A life outside this building
Change the situation save yourself

Jab with lead had and reset
Power hand thrown and reset
Shift to the left out of the pipe
Shift to the right step throw a jab
Recoil and unload the hook
Weight shift to distribute power
Lower level explode up
Throw the the uppercut
So much to work on
Technique is keep to improving
Foot placement forward back
L step cause separation
Holding pads drilling through
Repetition going through the motions

Lost in the music being creative
Playing the bass making fussion
Jamming stay on key energy
Feeling the vibe soul is alive
Connecting with the other person
Sress melts away from within
Trying to stay on beat key note
Keep the count on time
Sounds vibrate the strings
Echo through the speaker
Hit the notes be precise
Stay on tempo consistently

Went backwards took a few L's
Did the work came up short
People trying to change the rules
Can't waste anymore time
Getting older trying to hang
Stay modern while everything fades away
It was your times it's changing
Constant changes hard to keep up
Things that made sense hold no value
No value is given more credit
Old rules are replaced with new
One best friend not many loss loyalty
Cheating is accepted the new norm
While right is overlooked excluded
Left in the void standing against wrong
Perks of a relationship no commitment
Lust is the new love broken trust
Honesty is rejected for ongoing lies

Always trying my to blend in
But end up standing out
Trying to be mindful keep the peace
The silence causes a mouthful
Coming up with new material
Over the internal struggle within
Focused on bettering the situation
Improve with personal growth
A new perspective on life
Stopped feeling into the bad
Focused on what's right
Not wasting time anymore
Taking on the hurt as punishment
Learn the lesson grow into better
Over lowering myself to be accepted
Good vibes on the rise big brown eyes
Focused on doing more making it happen

I respect your title wheres the worth ethic
Don't knock my hard work
You have a title it means nothing
Since you have no respect for the team
Blame last minute communication
Don't bring me down meant for more
Fighting for mine quick to square up
Squash this beef Don't care for drama
Since you chose to settle Gave up
Did the work quick to cut off liars
Turned my back betrayals not welcomed
Not looking ahead living in the moment
Spoke up got ignored its crumbling down
Now smiling in silence rising up

A lead playing a side kick
Behind the scenes hustling
While credit is being stolen
A villain in their story
The hero trying to survive
Do what's right stand tall
A moral code as a shield
Works hard in silence
Loud once the victory is achieved
Thriving on a new level
Striving to become a better
Not settling for average
From nothing to something
Much more than before

He enjoyed work made the most of it
Conversations with older individuals
Wisdom gained from every encounter
Fun stories shared don't fit in anymore
Everything changed got worse lost value
The people who made it work are gone
Now the lazy try to undo all the good
The high standards are now lowered
Trying to keep the rich history preserved
While the bad leads try to erase history

Always helping others
Time to help yourself
Ignored trying to be supportive
Once you do your thing
All of a sudden everyone needs you
Learning to say no
The sacrifice didn't have benefits
Feeling used and ******* over
Treated bad so much expectation
Turned to stone showing no emotions
Going numb with all the disrespect
False promise trying to rise up
Being knocked down sent backwards

Made out to be the bad guy
Why are they mad
Because no don't care
Trying to slander his name
Belittle his character
Hell never talk about them
They are not a thought
Never going to be a priority
For their devious acts
Not tolerating deceitful behavior
He doesn't care to be right or liked
The truth will conquer misleading lies

Not happy here
Tired of the lies
Being taken for granted
Time for a change
While most settled
Make time to date find love
Hang with friends what's left
Pursue the dream on hold
Set new goals and challenges
Out of the comfort zone
Unpause start those unfinished
Desires that linger

Hoping to find love
Tired of diluted feelings
Feels real not going to work out
Looking past flaws accepting
Every flaw need to be corrected
Each mistake puts up a wall
Holding a grudge hard to say sorry
Never forgiven kept at arms length
Siblings at one another like strangers
Showing love getting hate
Taking the bad instead of the good

Doing the work going strong
Not looking for approval
Doing it on another level
Don't take credit for my effort
Made it happen liked or not
Went for the promotion
Took one for the team demotion
Not going to find it got robbed
Time for a change feeling rage
Looking else where something new
Where I'm at chase the dream
Shady teammates
Never had my back

Picking fights in my mind
Fake scenarios playing out
What if this happened
I could say that what is the reaction
Should say this what's the point
This plays out different from what's happened
When it happens it doesn't play out
******* over a for a promotion
Set backs feel like a demotion

Made out to be the crazy one
Spoke up games being played
Don't care for the drama
Not in it for the glory
Doing what's right
You can be lazy
Your problem not mine
Doesn't phase me
Made out to be crazy
Don't pick a fight
Not being heard
Able to speak up
I have your attention
Now your mad told the truth
Time to walk away
Pointless conversations
Wasting our time
Bounce back from this
Head up high you'll be just fine

Not quick to judge others flaws
A body and face with scars
Made up stories due to the appear
I know what it's like to not have a job
Don't like to hurt others or get hurt
The hero in my story the villain in others
Told the truth and got hatred
Got told lies feeling disrespected
Stayed loyal to the wrong people
While the right moved onto better
Use to wait thinking they'd return
The last one standing from the crew
Single and no kids parents worried
Trying to grow up sad to see them age
Appreciate the times together memories

Asked a question
It doesn't sound right
Trying to follow the logic
Moral code set in place
Not letting others dictate
Did the work didn't complain
Looked out spoke out wasn't heard
Excluded kept out avoiding drama
Change and turn the page
Still learning and growth is desired
Not taking on the settling ego
Never settle for average be more
Hasn't happened yet in the works

Loud thoughts a quiet mouth
A racing mind full of emotions
Trying to find the words
Say it right Be professional
Opened up not use to be heard
Not use to being understood
Excluded appreciation for solitude
Focused on writing to calm the nerves
Organized the clutter that's pent up
Should've said this or done that
Lots of conversations looping
Had a moment to speak a load off
Dk if anyone heard but told the truth

A fan of the sport
Enjoy the moment
Over all the criticism
Negative talk bad behavior
Bounce back from the demotion
More to life than a job
Thought about dating
Traveling to new place
Break the cycle escape routine
Spend time with family
Find love with the right one
Be around the right people
The wrong drain fueling energy
Toxic vibes stay away
Walk away towards greatness

At the gym clearing this mind
Full of ideas that are ignored
Living with betrayal
Always honest recieving lies
Did the work got demoted
The drama not my problem
Stuck in the middle
Recieving the backlash
Made it fun now it's lost value
Instead of forward went back a few steps

Make it fun now it ***** going numb
Terrible leads dk what they are doing
A stupid title given not doing the work
Stepped it up and got set back
Don't care to react or show any emotions
Helped out and it all went bad
Forgiving yourself they did you *****
Trusted all the wrong people
See through the lies hard to trust
Never going to be what they say
Proving them wrong so over all the doubt
Better yourself let them talk
Be the one talked about not the one talking

On the road going home
So many bad drivers on the road
Staying ahead of the crazy
All the BS doesn't phase anymore
Thick skin numb to the core
Always giving and judged
While the people talking
Make it worse cursed his name
Spreading rumors making up lies
No where to go missing home
Hard to be around family
Need to be doing something
Help out make the situation better
The demotion is an insult
Phony friends not pretending all is well
A new route time for a change

Staring at the sky on a fresh night
The stars shines bright
Wanting to be among them
Lighting up the darkness
Taking in the silence trying to rest
Find love be positive make progress

He got in his 4 runner went for a long drive playing loud music. Work lost value no longer emotionally connected. Took one for the team this demotion was a knife to the heart. Pondering life and changes that needed to be made. Surviving a transplant trying to go forward Another detour went backward instead of forward. Not being heard to many false narratives others believe. He stopped arguing to prove himself.
Focused on his passions outside of this crumbling building. Rushing away from the the bad focused on the good. Try to be in the moment not ahead at the future or looking back at the past.

Talking to good people
Plotting new goals to achieve
Trying to move up go forward
Another road block and detours
Did the work and got ******* over
Spoke the truth being ignored
Gave it all and it's never enough
Taking it back finding it else where
Finishing old plans on the back burner
Lots of growth anxious to learn more
Apply what's learned feel valued
All the hard work and effort go unnoticed
Not used or taken forgranted
A change of scene pursuing the passion
New experiences over the burn out

Be this or I'll treat you different
Do that or you'll be excluded
Not trying to be you
Stand tall as myself
Even if I'm isolated
Left alone being criticized
Spoke up called them out
Now your mad for the truth
I'm tired of the lies
Not going to take that

The days are long never ending
Never enough bad leadership
Planning another move
To escape the evil ways
All the pain bad memories remain
Onto to better not settling for less
Healing up after surgery feeling drained
False promise the betrayal

The date ended it go weird
From friend to strangers
Love blurred with lust
Forgiveness over broken trust
Made the most of the moment
Now it's over not meant to be
Desired more hard to see
True love hard to fine
Blinded by starved emotions
Feelings of confusion from the heart

He waited in the restaurant
It was a blind date
They chatted online
The day came for them to meet
It was his first date in years
A nervous unsettling feeling within
She would walk in the door
Her hair black big brown eyes
They'd hug it out enjoy a meal
Getting to know one another in person
Both giving it a chance for more
After they met online they came together
Over being single trying to find love
Trying something new different