Too old to be doing that
Too young for all that
No one is happy for you
While pointing flaws
Prefer to be alone
Helping others to grow

Silent to keep the peace
Causes internal struggle
The war within never ending
Moral code as a shield
Too many people easily influence
Standing alone being a man
Walking solo not into crowd
Too old for hype aged out
Popularity leads to a lonely life
Once it's over still alone
Left with thoughts what if
Different outcomes failed risks
Not able to change the ends

Digging down deep to find closure
A text from an old friend
A smile in the past in the future
Calls from yesterday for better days
Dreams of a past lover never forgotten
Taking risks due to bad communication
Watching movies to pass time
Writing to compose the boredom
Sleeping to recharge heal the body
Music to rest continue to heal

Recovery is boring
Mind numbing mind pacing
Thoughts vicious cycle looping
Not able to drive asking for a ride
Trying to trust others
Can't rely on anyone
Depending on others is hard
Hate waiting on others
Not trying to argue
Keep the peace internal struggle
Trying to unite family
Everyone divided for too long

Some people change for the better
While others are stuck with trauma
Room to grow time to improve
Not easy to get over things right away
Working harder told you don't belong
Looked down on like it couldn't be done
Treated different all the doubt used
As motivation to get strong
Improving to be better at work
Proving them wrong changing it up
Most of all to yourself taking credit
Stop with the discredit always working it
Because they refused to give you props
All the roadblocks fade onto new challenges
The journey is full of detours
Make the most of it and learn

Hurting the people you love is the worse feeling
Mistakes made due to frustration
Overreacting to pent up emotions
Enraged feelings that should've been tamed
Tired sleep deprived focused on doing right
While everything is going wrong
Feels like the world is crumbling
Trying to help feeling trapped
Scared to move the struggle within
Might be the problem the turmoil burning

Never thought she'd call but it was a change
The homie was mad but got a text didn't expect that
The change that goes on over the years
Prayed those grudges would fade
Be friends instead of strangers
Some talks are hard to have
While others need to be done to make it right
Sorry doesn't take away the hurt
Living with the pain isn't right
Try to make the wrong right
It hurts to lose a close friend
People go through stuff d
Doesn't make it right
Always changing can't live with the torment
Drop the burden like the apology that was given
To know they are okay and to hear from them gives peace
Find closure for the new year
A clean slate to start a new story
Most of all just finish what was started