Love of family is strong
But relationships break them
Hard with family members
Soft with their partner
History doesn't help the present
Destroying themselves for love
One to change remaining the same
Hard to leave this insanity
Lust and love a diluted mixture
Start over again trapped going back
Embrace the new give up bad habits
Focus on what could be take a step
Let go of the what was move forward
Grow in the moment positive changes
Failed outcomes lead to opportunities

Ready for the new year
A new liver, ready to go
Recovering from the transplant
Going crazy with the downtime
Use to doing something that matters
Working to get ahead cash flow
Hard to spend ready to hustle
Trying to get all the things denied
On the sidelines observing everything
Need to get back into it rise up
The hardest part is starting
Told never get comfortable
Keep busy doing something
Finish things that got started
Stopped being distracted by drama
Avoiding negative people
Fueled by toxic behavior
Focused on the goals set the bar
Growing spiritually and mentally

I'm gonna chill even though I'm bored  out of my mind
Trying to think about it when it's easier when things are in motion
Ocwrthinking and having nothing. A clear mind
Back on his own forgot about the freedom use to the routine.
Change is good but hard to focus when the bad becomes normal
The mind racing not use to down time
Feeling like all the hard work is being undone long gone forgotten.

He needed help and got tired of waiting on people
His time wasn't valued or respected
Dealing with attitudes his "help" not morning people
He loved them feeling betrayed
Angry because they are not reliable
Telling him not to stress making it hard
Thankful and blessed not settling for less

Forgive Them and go on
All they do is talk loud
Creating problems for others
More excuses than solutions
Broken promises shatter trust
One lie is too many to tolerate
Better to turn away from evil
Trying to help begins to drain
Abused kindness is never enough
A favor never asked violated personal space
Another guilt trips spread hard
Always working for this dream
Every cent earned through hard work
Some given it all except work etiquette
Told to be a man provide for family
Pull your own weight rise above hate

Alone for the holidays to keep from getting sick
Family had conflict but feeling unites
Tired of everyone being divided
Tears shed and apologies made
Family is more important than a grudge
An open heart is stronger than a closed mind
Life is to short to be alone
Everyone is hurting wants closure
Find inner peace be able to relax
Too proud to ask for help
Hard up to ask not showing emotions
Don't want to be seen as weak
How long will this feed be drawn out
One keeps talking while the other lives life
Chasing a dream that makes sense within
No one understands or seems to get it
A hug is better than resentment toward a being
Being able to talk without getting attacked
Share without your feelings being used against you

Trying to get it right keep at it
Tired from getting it wrong
Everyone divided due to pride
Egos casting shadows of negativity
Thoughts of doing right not doing so
Acts of deceitful behavior

Growing older observing and listening
Seeing these kiddos become adults
Pray they are not like the parents