Over all the physical pain
Can't block it out anymore
Trying to be focused live in the moment
Be present over being distracted
Be around family on borrowed time
Show love to the right people
Holding back because of the wrong
Not the one who got away
Never been the one just walking alone
She moved on got married to her one
Just trying to be friends without guilt
Not into mixed signal or games
Mixed emotions are confusing
Being the other guy doesn't settle well
A side guy not here to do right
When she keeps doing wrong

always been a lover in a deep fight
Minding this mouth, that's why I write
I don't need your approval LMB (let me be)
I'm never going to compromise myself
Give up on myself to be liked to be accepted
Friends become enemies left in the past
I'll always love family but doing my own thing
It's sad how tragedy brings everyone together
Grandpa was the glue I love and miss you
Now everyone is divided, holding a grudge
I've never been a materialistic one to help others
Always valued family time now
It's always awkward from traditions to an emotionless gesture

Fell out with friends use to be close
It doesn't mean, I don't love is over
Miss them moments when we'd hang
Sometimes the pride changes everything
Ego kills friendship no forgiveness
Numbs the love between people
Buds become enemies divided by a grudge
The safe space becomes a war zone
Wrote the drama down reflected life
If we could talk one more time
Grab a burger catch up forget the BS
Life is hard how's it treating you
Felt like a protector had to take a step back
I'm proud watch you grow from a distance
Walked away you don't need me anymore
Learned to be okay with that crazy

Artie was at his friend's house hanging out. When his cousin showed up and said "come with me." His cousin said "your brother they shot him, he didn't make it." The world around him went dark, he couldn't hear anything.
He told his friend he was leaving, and his friend told him, "if you need anything call me."
The ride home was quiet and awkward, he didn't know, how to feel, or what to say. He wanted to cry but didn't want to be weak. He knew his tears wouldn't bring back his brother. Things would never be the same it was a dark time.
Many factors chipped away at his heart and spirit. During this his mom would act the fool being intoxicated acting the fool. Making it about herself she had other child.
He knew it was difficult for a parent to bury their child but her bad behavior did not help. It would lead to her losing her children. Taken away by social workers and they were placed in a foster home. Divided ending up with family members.
Artie was the oldest pursuing his college education would be distracted not able to focus or concentrate.
His family divided in a relationship with a person; who was not the one, but he was one of many.
He felt his life was coming together but eventually crumbled down. He would survive being better than where he came from. Even though his hometown was part of his heart. He wanted to start over new escape this nightmare be free from it all. Have a normal family whatever that is. Be in love a relationship with the right person. He prayed to be free of the blame he placed on himself.

Ray would ask his coworker "why me?" Zoe response would be "why not?" Ray would vent bounce ideas of zoe. It helped him grow and come to terms with things because Ray's life wasn't bad but things got out of control. He liked a girl that moved on but never gave him a chance. Saying to himself, she would regret that day. He had dreams and goals trying to utilize his talents within.
Everyone told him it couldn't be done seen him as crazy, but they never tried why did their opinion matters why did they care.
Ray wanted to write comedy and loved MMA he saw contradiction in them. He realized he wouldn't be able to fight/compete his whole life. He'd come back to it doing things people didn't understand, but he didn't get others visions or hidden agendas. Tired of changing for others; while they made no effort to accept his perspective.
It feels like a rap battle he knew how to argue and debate while others make it personal and insult your being since they didn't have a steady foundation.

He got this off his chest its hard to speak up because he didn't want to get canceled but realized this was another way to say censored. He was tired of compromising himself for people that opposed him. He did his own thing never included or used people but did speak up against everything. He was mad that life was a check list be this way, or do that. People found more reasons to hate you than like you. This toxic society tries to tell you how to act and behave, if you don't listen you're complicated. His whole life he didn't feel accepted, or welcomed always proving himself.
They are threatened by you they spread lies and rumors to think they have you in check. He didn't empower them not giving them say in his life. He never talked about anyone that didn't think highly of him. He didn't bother waste his time with one sided mindset because they are set in their ways ready to attack not willing to listen.

Stupid people are reproducing its sad how others get ******* over working while some tale hand outs and its never enough. Why do the smart people empower complete morons. Their luck will run out. It's not right he knew life wasn't fair.
His health was on the decline but he kept coming back for more refusing to quit. Some gave up and settled for less. He believed in hard work even if it didn't happen right away.
He couldn't walk on the streets so many homeless. They made the city look ****** with shopping carts throwing trash on the ground. What's the solution; how do we fix this problems. It drove him crazy people lost self respect and pride for their city.
All these useless protests that lost credibility and money was stolen all this corruption. These people should be in prison, but people voted making crime a slap on the wrist while criminals are let go and hard working people get charges leading to life sentences.
What happened to the American dream before people could afford homes go to college get better jobs. Now college leads to debt and people lose that chance of getting ahead in life.