It was 2003 and it was prom time for the seniors. Everyone had a date pairing off. He asked a few girl but they left him hanging.  He saw potential in them and they wasted his time.
His best friend decided to help him. By asking the girl he has a crush on out for him. Great friend but bad for the relationship.

Writing has been an eye opener having those honest moments with yourself. Doing a self check what's wrong and what's on your mind?

Made cuts some people are welcome but shut you out. You shut them out and walk away. Tired of contributing to one sided relationships. Already taking on a load and about to add more stress.

Sitting in AA and a support group trying to be normalish. Mental health can be saved once you drop the burden of the earth. Asking what you want what makes you happy. Make goals and achieve one step at a time.

Hard to be a winner when everything goes wrong. It's okay to enjoy a celebration. The pursuit of life is about maintaining keep doing the work

Thankful for the people who told me to do something that they should've been doing. I didn't get mad, but seen it as an opportunity to learn and grow.

Don't tell me your doing something turns out you don't contribute. Talk about people because you are threatened everyone has moved up. while you remain stuck in the same place.

How does a person slander others behind their back and fake to their fake acting like they are loyal and true. I don't welcome or tolerate people who BS everyone. Your act runs thin everyone knows the truth.

Going to be a long day
Short staffed at work
No overtime allowed
Not able to get coverage
Everyone wants a job
Not everyone wants to work
Cared too much got overwhelmed
Didn't care felt terrible
The team young hard to motivate
On and off days occurs more than normal
Dealing with different personalities

Showed up to work ready to get it done
Too many are miserable with attitudes
He avoids people to keep from ruining his day
He's usually upbeat positive about life
Loud music while finishing his route
Writing on his down time clears his mind
Trying to live in the moment
Craving changing unsatisfied
Forgetting the past to be present
Praying all the sacrifice pays off
Overall the pain ready to heal
Enjoy a meal without worrying
Be in a healthy relationship with the right person
Tired of holding back biting the tongue
Speak without being ridiculed
Words being twisted used against you
All the wrong people empowered
Having no respect for others efforts
Wasting everyone's time One sided
Talking about entitled and delusional
While projecting on others trying
Never happy whenever others rise up

Free from the anxiety holding pads
Taking combos trying to remember
Blocking low kicks to the quads
Pads blocking his face from high kicks
Learning to fight from a distance
Fighting inside smothers punches
The momentum could smack hard
Loud pops against the leather
Forgetting everything that's troubling
Wanting to heal be normalish
Focused on footwork coordination
Shifting body weight with pivots
Knee strikes to the midsection
Teeps to throw off opponents balance
Controlling the head working the clench

Whats the problem? What's on your mind? Questions I've been asking myself. How can I do this better. Focused more on improving bettering your situation. Getting older feels like lots of time being wasted about to turn 40. Young at heart with the old man mentality.
Having a good time remembering the good old days. Lost in the present fear of the unknown. Taking it one day at a time not overthinking.
Slowing down remaining calm the athlete within refusing quit. A fighter with all heart that got him through the tough training and hard moments. Head down plow through the roadblocks