Anything you do ****** them off why not be happy in the process. Grew up with nothing working for more some had more it's never enough. Fighting to be heard to move up some get a pass to the front. They don't do anything with the opportunity. Stepped up wasn't ready or prepared trying hard than most. Not wanted or accepted is the worse feeling while trying to excel.
Told you don't belong because of what you look like because your skin tone or height weight why focus on physical instead of getting the person who does the job gets it done right. Years of being anti establishment as they try to make you into their product trying to be self made.
Open to learn and grow but not letting other take credit for your success. Trying to rise up for years not a poster child or a rep for something that doesn't think you are worth investing in.
Making personal investments growing past all those limitations all those people that didn't think you have it or what it takes out working everyone.

Writing it down get it out of your head. Not taking everyone's bad vibes focused on better the situation. They'll blame just cut the cord they'll never own up. That's why they are alone no one bothers with them. They refuse to say sorry or forgive an apology.
They'll treat you bad over mistakes when they do way worse acting like they are good when they terrible talking about everyone behind their back fake to their face.
Things are complicated don't make sense just because you dk they are quick to throw a false narrative or make you out to be the villain because you don't believe or understand no one explains these made up rules or expects you to know when they don't even include you or treat you like an equal it got old. You made them look good and they dumped on you it was insulting you forgave then while they continue with the terror.
Trying to tear you down because you don't follow their way. Walking a lonely road on the outside looking in is better than being on the inside wanting out because of the lies. Not one to live a lie or trust when you have to go through hell to be accepted or liked

Learning to prioritize things say what's needed to get it done. How to get there been seeing things as a leader taking charge how to grow and learn with a productive attitude. Dealt with bad leads that want to be the middle man that designate their work on others. Told myself to be active be part of the team. Not tell people what to do but empower them to make the right decisions with the choices provided.
So much to learn from this experience lead by example not make an example of others doing it as well. If I can't do it not going to make others do it. Willing to learn and quick to turn around teach the skills and technique to get it done.
Tired of people acting like no one can do their average joe job. Thinking they are too good but staying in the same place wasting everyone's time. Making gossip at work because people are moving up and advancing while they chose to settle. Everyone respects your decision have respect for those that want to move up.

You love family but they'll throw you under slander your name. Make you out to be the bad guy because you're  not there to defend yourself. Eventually  you. Fade out it will catch up to them because they'll remain doing the same stuff and catch up to them.
Soon they'll have to own up for their wrong doing. Being cussed out by an aunt was deep changed your life perspective. Uncles that say you visit grandma for money when you dont ask or expect anything from anyone. Cousins that talk but not doing anything to make it better.
Instigating trying to manipulate  how others see you. As you get older you stop caring what others think especially if they don't help or do anything for you.
Having fun with life while they hate on you because your doing what you want most of all your own thing.

Coaching was stressful being a corner man making sure the fighter was ready to go learned where the weaknesses are so that we could be better prep for the next fight.  Keep the mind sharp such a process writing about the experience on the road and on the Go.
A new feeling and experience when they do good that's on them when they fail its where we start and build on because so much transition breaking through to level up. Get to the next level not sure what to say and how to say it so the process leads to progress in the sport.
Not trying to lose or fail but that's where the growth begins. Trying to help in a new situation next level earning respect  building trust.

He made fun of himself and the setbacks. Being called a college drop out his mind racing. They talk about him he battled addiction. Hated sitting in AA it set him straight. The break up broke his confidence he had a few breakdowns making the most of things. He wanted it but kept working against everything that opposed him. His rebellion worked more than being a rule follower.

He was called a narcissistic because he didn't agree or was not giving these cruel people their way. They changed the narrative he kept to himself. The relationship was over why did his ex make false remarks. It was over she wanted more that was impossible for him to provide. It was overwhelming never good enough.
He knew she'd never be happy with him. It made him miserable denying himself feeling neglected by the one person that would ruin his day because things didn't go accordingly all he wanted was to be happy.
Be with someone he could trust be himself with out regret or doubt. He wasn't materialistic. His status would never be accepted or seen as an equal. Being told how to act and be made him numb hating himself because all the changing left him feeling like a shell of the old. The new was killing the old