Family is always fighting
One instigates all the drama
Stirring everyone up causing chaos
One is ready to strike everyone down
While another is standing their ground
Everyone can't be right opposing one another
Or cares to understand each others views
One can't argue with words a sharp tongue
Ready to get physical not able to speak
Some don't get involved staying neutral
Others pushed on a side dk what's going on
Gaining up on one to feel superior
Taking on the world not a fair game
Everything shatters fails no gain
Just divided shattered blades of pain remain
The silent treatment everyone goes numb Never talking again till the end of time

The wild one up all night drinking
Keep the crazy mind from thinking
Told the truth sober going insane
No one is listening spoke up
Under the influence blaming the liquor
From many friends to rolling solo
Years of being alone becoming unknown
Remembered for the past wild child
Living in the moment sober living
From over the edge to straight edge
Long days up all night writing
On the road joy riding cruising the street
Ink pad collecting deep thought emotions
Let ot go before it comes your happiness
Dealing with the stress leaves you restless
While avoiding it causes you to lose peace
Overthinking can run it all down
The vibes are mixed no middle ground

He wanted a life that wanted nothing to do with him. He knew he'd have to earn and work for it since nothing is given. He gave his all at work did his best gave his all. A social person but now a days everyone was into social media and texting.
He liked one on one interaction that was hard to find now a days. He was always honest even if they hated him for it. He respected people with the truth while others dissed him with lies.
The frustration was real things didn't make sense the new standards had lots of taboos and double standards. If he did it he got criticized and judged; while didn't no one said anything. He didn't buy into the hype he questioned it anything he liked got knocked.

He was always learning open to grow it was tough for others to accept him. He was use to rejection. He was always doing extra going the distance and beyond. He did it right knew it was the right thing to do.
He wanted to speak up but knew his mouth could ruin his chances and opportunities. He was kind and respectful even when things didn't go according to plan he told himself to work harder. Be better take it to the next level.
He looked in the mirror asked himself what happened? Where did it all go wrong? He learned somethings are beyond his say and had no control. He remained loyal to them, while they taunted him with a job title. He deserved, realized he's meant for more. Meant for better he didn't always settle because he knew things usually proving himself to the wrong people.
It was a tough time for him always lost in the translation. He was old school spoke when spoken to. Didn't date because his family would never approval; why put someone you love through that.

He felt lost without his grandpa the family was being taken over by bad leadership. Coping was hard so many imposed their way of life on others. Talking like if they are righteous and know what's best for others. All they was pry in others business when no one asked.
Sad what they've become than have the nerve to judge others. Putting them in the hot seat like they do to everyone else who tried to live an average joe life.
You'd think it would humble them but the greed for control makes them think they are superior.

Took all the pain to stay sane
Bad memories remain immunity
Our situation shattered circumstance
Inspired by frustration overcoming it all
Not enough for the judgemental family
Too much for the toxic world

He remembers when he didn't have a job but he would do chores or run errands since he had his license. He was mistreated by cousins who thought they knew better but stilled with grandma. They tried to guilt him about paying rent and help with bills. He would feel bad till one day he had a conversation with grandma and the truth would come out. It was him dealing with another family that would take from his shine some how make it about them.
He got use to being in the background most of the time it was a fight to be included. Making him feel not good enough, ready to walk away making himself available was a waste of his time. He never thought bad about family but they never thought highly of him. He had done stuff but he didn't want kids or to get married.
Divorces rates were high in the family and he didn't want to be another statistic. Children used as an excuse while failed relationships putting on a public front.