Being told not to complain not taking crap from anyone. Dealing with people who tried to shadow him. He didn't like how they tried to turn everyone on him because they couldn't get their way.
All the betrayal all the disrespect when he stood his ground the hatred great. He went along to keep the peace but part of him would die being among their ways. He didn't care to feel their egos or let take his kindness for granted.
He waa never called just to keep contact only when they needed something or they didn't bother with him. He loved family but tired of seen everyone being used and talked about. They think they are right because they own property how they treat people says more.
He stood alone lost in translation ready to argue and fight but remember he had nothing to gain and they had nothing to offer so he walked away. He regrets making time for them thinking theyd approve maybe accept him.

Going through the motions before the real thing most hate practice but practice is where you develop and grow your skills. Trying to find a new jujitsu gym not into the politics. Just want to train and grow in the sport.
He didn't care for politics, they were never in his favor. Over all the labels others tried placing on him. He was more than the baby sitter since these parents didn't take him serious. He didn't have a job but helped out got involved as he rose they kept him out. He would find his own way back on his own path. He was tried of explaining to people who didn't listen.
Being around people that didn't value him. He was burnt out from it all and lost it all thinking how to get back on track and do it right.

Talking about it is always hard but once you bring it to the light turns out you are not the only one going through it. The best feeling is when others understand. It gets easier to deal with. Stops you from empowering fear.
Feeling on edge over dumb possibilities that play out in the mind all these made up scenarios. Playing out in his head. Remembering a bad time and moment never wanting to end up there once again.

They'll hate you for speaking up he thought about the consequences. Just because you bully everyone doesn't mean you are right. Mind your business stop telling people how to live their life.
No one owe you or has to explain themselves to you. This argument plays out in the mind but the words won't come out. Makes sure you are right before you talk about anyone.
What hurts most is the people you valued and respect; don't see or treat you the same.
He was tired of the lies when he was honest. He seen them as an equal and they want nothing to do with him. They try to make him feel bad but he's been disappointed for year.
They like to get a reaction of people he learned to not give in show any feelings or emotions.
If others seen him overreact they'd assume he was making a scene or had the problem. Being provoked by them was a waste of time he'd walk away. They expected him to change and they made no effort to treat others right.

He didn't want people laughing or talking about him. He was private yet the people talking did worse. He wanted to find love so he waited. While others had meaningless relationships and kids that got stuck in the middle.
Not a parent but those kids come first their needs. Its about them now so some need to get over themselves. He would observe see the double standard as they try to justify their wrong doing.
He made a mistake they would prey on him like if was plotting. They tried to hold his flaws over his head especially when they've done way worse.
He wanted to be around family but they act like they have it bad and mad about something. Taking it out on family instead of confronting those who wronged them.
He was thankful to have a room and somewhere to stay. He didn't make a fuss or say anything. Some trying to pull rank talking like they pay bills when all they did save up.

He observed tried to understand but didn't get why others acted, or did the things they do. Some people can look you in the eyes and lie to you. Others have bright ideas trying to dump their work on you. Take all the credit dumping on the workers; who made them look good.
He dealt with self centered entitled ******; no matter, what happen it always became about them. If you didn't make it about them they don't care or give a **** about you. He protected them and loved them but didn't agree with their behavior and attitude.
He stood his ground after years of having their back. They didn't like him for having an opinion or speaking his mind. They'd throw him under to hide the fact they are doing worse.
He took a step back and walked away. He didn't care to be judged but that's their way of trying to be controlling.

Back on this writing project, trying to believe in it. Get lost in the story creating character some are too much finding the chemistry. Building up in the mind hyping things up. Slow down figuring it out over time.
Tired of them dulling his shine
Someone was always mad or offended
Tired of walking egg shells
All they did was talk about everyone
They were no better or worse off
He minded his business that's on them
Held them responsible for those actions
If a made a mistake being extra cautious. Never hear the end of it