Use to love the idea of us but it's only about you. Said I love you can't deny these feelings for you. It's hard to move on, but you're quick to replace find someone new.
Sober minded not intoxicated by the manipulation. Came to terms even if denying you means tearing off a part of myself. Able to be a whole walking alone growing strong less thoughts of you. A feeble lie that use to believe was true. Forgiving within not being so cruel over a bad decision.

From one bad habit to the next. Gave up drinking now stuck on sugar it use to be an occasional thing but it became an everyday thing.
Changing up those habits. It became comfort after a few bad relationships and working jobs that lost value. From excitement to just going through the motions.
See things one way but it turned out another way. Working with what's given not too many chances or opportunities floating around
Took some chances and risks to end up back at square one. Ends up being frustrating making a compromise.

How long will this hate go on
Will we ever get along
So much betrayal broken hearts
Can't be fixed by an apology
From romance not able to do exist
Can't see eye to eye broken heart
Friendship over torn apart
From a dream coming true
Now a paralyzing nightmare
Now it doesn't mean anything

Writing at work during the down time
Never the same looking forward
Watched them grow old full of life
As they watched us grow up
Thankful for them now missing them
Hard to let go when you're not ready
Don't want to say goodbye
Everyday still in denial
Seen it with theses eyes
Till we meet again for eternity

She went out on him, and knew he loved her. She wondered if he would take her back. She made it so complicated to go back would he embrace her return.
After meeting in college both went in their separate direction. He chased his career while she settled down had kids now divorced. They cross paths once again so much change.

Use to post and was told write a blog. Never set out to make money off writing it was a way to express myself.  Tired of holding back letting go and living life is the way.
Always writing around things but been writing about them. From my eyes because that's what was seen or from these ears all heard and taken in.
Got the load off my chest just trying to be myself while others pretend to be someone else.