Still writing scared to be alone
A people person not always favored
Still pursuing a dream short lived
Over being side tracks constantly
The detours feeling close but farther away
Use to be annoyed by missing it now
Onto better but stuck on the same old
Trying to achieve the American dream
Some have lived it happy for them
Others struggle pursuing opportunity
Learning to forgive to move on
Find inner peace within this thick skin
Somethings are hard to forget
Can't change the past live in the moment
The future has yet to happen

He had a big heart for life
A passionate soul warming smile
Still caring for others feelings
Even if they did him *****
He meant well no hidden agenda
When things went wrong
A loving heart beautiful soul
Forgiving still kept out
Not forgiven by others
Made mistakes multiple flaws
Most of all not able to forgive himself

Always protecting people
Who don't like you
Betrayed left hanging
Did favors looked out
My fault for having expectations
Being open to all the wrong people
Dropped once something better comes along
Been writing for years
Learning to express without holding back
Not trying to hurt others
Been getting hurt for years
Minding this mouth don't like drama
Taking criticism should've been firing back
Straight up to their face always behind my back

Use worry what other people though
Dressed nice people assume
Seen as gay for taking care of yourself
Called people on the lies
You're the **** face for the truth
Working out the scale causing stress
Some days clothes fit loose other tight
Body image can't get it right
One way in your head
Others telling you that ain't right
Worried about being enough
Some times too much
Depends on the person
Educated told you think
You're better than everyone
Dumbing ones self down for year
Scared of being alone
Spending more time isolated
The inspiring one who ends up hated
Not trying to be a threat for being bold
Become a target for the insecure