Crazy thoughts in a loud mind
Calm and collected on the outside
Fear of losing it all thankful for everything
Everything earned not given
Praying to keep sane strange pain
Pushed others away to heal
Not sure how to act
Remember for being wild
Use to speak without thinking
Now thinking too much not able to speak
Heart means well things go wrong
Love too much none in return
Cared so much smothering out life
Running out of ideas need to live more

Wake up can't sleep starting to over think
Things are okay what do you say
Missing out always kept out
Fought to get in now everyone's mad
Dealing with heat greeted by defeat
Not always a role model but standing tall
With those who are rejected and denied
A leader when needed to help others
Sometimes scared not backing down
Walking with faith fear no man
Can write words down not easily spoken