Writing in a notebook
Posting on hello
Mindset changing
Trying to do it right
Things went wrong
All the wrong reasons
Life changing like the seasons
Sometimes for the good
Working through the bad
A family divided feeling sad
Cousin on the street too proud
Too stubborn to listen
Acting like rules don't apply
Another exception no expectations
A people person with others
Family is always complicated
Not blaming but praying

Can't get close to anyone
Will get abandoned
Can't trust or rely on anyone
Always doing as much possible
Left doing it all and easily annoyed
Trying to make it through the day
Through the shift dealing with people
Not my crowd feels like no allow to say
Or do anything have an opinion just work
Fighting hard going strong things are bad
So many things going wrong
Flirting with all this frustration
Trying to understand
Don't expect anything from others
Demanding too much from myself

How can people treat others bad
Over skin tone everyone bleeds
Over material possessions
Where is the love and respect
Lost in their ways not open to change
So much hate can't get close
Hard to trust anyone now a days
No one can forgive stuck on it
Not easy to get over the past
Don't want to be mad anymore
Don't want to **** anyone off
Just trying to love without getting hurt
Live life without regret or holding back
Can't joke or play with anyone now a days
The new way of life trying to adapt
Hard to adjust things don't make sense
When there's so many double standards

An open book to read
Nothing to hide
Always sent aside
Picked once or twice
Being wanted felt nice
Already knew still surprised
Dealing with the cards deal
Learned to fold walk away
Lost it all tried to get it back
Holding onto what's left
Working on new being better
Always thankful and blessed
Grew up with nothing
Can't settle for or be less

Couldn't take her out
Things had to happen in order
A sequence in mind
The plan ruined took too long
It never happened
Then she found someone else
Always a debate hate being late
Showed up early don't like to wait
Wanted her love to be mine
Just wanted love to be equal
Matched energies the vibe
Radiates feeling the glow alive