Don't want to feel this way
Meant well seen as wrong
Stayed open to be closed out
Listened to others vent sad stories
Shared funny stories to be fun
Now being ignored use to being denied
So close never happened
Went down according to the plan
Need to come up with a new way
The old way failed so much sacrifice

Writing to get it out
Out of the system
Trying not to burn and crash
Said some stuff didn't feel right
Wrote it down things made more sense
Such a process with writing
The word play and deep thoughts
Wild emotions come out raw
Processing it all don't always cope
So many outlets don't always get out
Doing too much at once
Overloading the system
Never enough  trying to do more
A personality too much for others to handle

Go so far over time
No turning or looking back
Can't stay stuck in the same place
Rose up can't go back down
Highs and lows use to them lows
Starving for those highs
Won't stay down still pressing
After being knocked over
Never too late will find a way
Made it there sent away
Hard to get close or attached
Bounced around been everywhere
Sent to another location

Been doing it for a while
Dk anything else
Care more than most
Give it all earn that sleep
Thoughts and emotions run deep
Keep moving on these tired feet
Smiled and pushing through
Helped out till time runs out
Working for the long term
Stuck with the short term
Not surprised burned again
Stayed calm and worked harder
Eager more determined than before