Dk if I make sense but let the words flow
Passing ideas and thoughts to be written
Each page some thoughts and emotions
Not always she how to feel or how to act
Made many moves to improve so much effort
The people doing nothing talk the most
Rather be alone learned to stay away from drama
Can't come around be  involved with toxic ways

Writing life if life was ending
What can be said before fate is near
Always faithful and positive
So much negativity around
Adapt and adjust so much broken trust
Sad how things turned out
Really working hard to change
Learned they played out accordingly
An open heart closed out from the world
Closed minds not open to change but expect it
Free thinkers criticized for thinking differently
Always been a chubbs while everyone was lean
Worked hard lost pounds not on drugs
Took more risk got more criticism
Never talk about anyone who does nothing

Sent away trying to find a place
Don't always belong focused on work
Sometimes the people love you
Or times they could careless for you
Sometimes the route is manageable
Other times you show up to do your work
Also do others work on top of yours
More writing not arguing or fighting
This mouth means well but causes trouble
Taking all the blame all the heat
Not even a lead or in charge making calls
Always one minded to more stuck with less
Dk what's deserved but willing to work for it
Never been a favorite just being the anti-hero
Never the same so many moments never again

Never talked about anyone
Said it to their face straight up
Never give them a reason to talk
Talk smack to matter knocking others
Doesn't make things right
Or make you a better person
So many trying too hard
Feels like a lost cause why bother
Thoughts that stand out
Bouncing around shouldn't be said
Different tone when written down
Writing before work block it all out
Some days are great made it through
Others are overwhelming getting by
Can't wait for them to end come home

Not much of a planner
Some create vision board
Not one to expect much
Hours put in and saving for a purchase
Always around when times are tough
When things are well no where to be found
Always working hard feel like shutting down
Giving up on everything what little that's earned
Always feel blessed and thankful for things
But ask is it worth it or wanted anymore
All the scrapping by All barely moments

Always taking whatever came
Worked with what was given
Use to have a say now takes it
So many years of change
Hard to trust anyone that lies
Should've been next overlooked
Made an effort to be better
Always in the struggle
Did more than most still ignored
Treated bad for having an opinion
Years of frustration thinking people care
Thinking they'll do what's right
Make a difference it's a waste
And doesn't matter the hardest working
Would like to complain vent to management
But say be quiet work harder
So much giving and compromise
What happened where did it go wrong
Can't change the past to fix the present
All these events hard to pin point a moment
Some days are easy others are hard

We use to be best friends
Till it all came to an end
Over a girl that had been around
Who was playing everyone
Said sorry still getting cold silence
How to make the wrong right
Keep things normal or tried
Everyones asks what happened
An dynamic duel always hanging
Brought out the best in one another
The older called  him on the crap
Had one another's back