Writing everyday not sure anymore
What to do with it who will benefit
Thought there was an audience
Doing it to help pass the time
Sometimes a moment replayed
A rewind to the moment trying to repeat
Always wanted to get personal and deep
No one cares or feels the same
Unless you're doing favors or taking crap
Tried to connect feeling more disconnected
Sent away even though this heart wants to stay
The mind said ***** it be better
Find yourself be better somewhere else
One day make great money for the future
Be able to own a house achieve another goal
Should be living in the moment living for now

Put on some music
Flowing over the beat
So hard to hear this voice speak
Told add bass to that voice
Not trying to be mean or intimidate
Just trying to keep moving forward
Saying this because it needed to be said
Thinking too much
The words won't come out
Not trying to hurt anyone
Not trying to get hurt
Tired of being blown of seen as a joke
Had to get firm seen as over reacting

Always seen as crazy
For having a dream
Doing things wanted it more
Took risk only one trying
Never been done before
The bar wasn't set that high
Family in an out of prison
Went to college the first to pursue it
Had a wild life over the years
Learned to be an adult
The transition is hard
Hard to learn one way or another

Don't like to feel this way
Not about acting this way
Forgiven with faith and grace
The way of the world market
People won't forgive or forget
Sorry isn't enough treated different
Begged to be forgiven not fair
Had to cut ties and stay away
Dk how to make it right
Died inside tore this heart open
Broken to help make the wrong right
Breaking myself over you
Values your friendshipl
Your tender heart
So you could be a whole

Trying to be the good guy
Stuck playing the antagonist
Never meant to hurt anyone
Didn't mean to use anyone
Tried to be genuine honest and noble
With no hidden agenda
Always valued people
Never about materialism
Another mouth running
Once its shut a new victim
Didn't lust over anyone
Always showed true love
Wanted something more
Not just a one night stand
Promised your momma
I'd keep an eye out
Hard to honor your word
All the danger back at it
Another stranger just keep lusting

Always wanted to make it
Can't take it but work for it
Not worried about others
Stopped comparing competing
Working on a solo projects
Sharing with others for feedback
Like to bounce around ideas
Use to be more confident
Overcome all the smack talking
Rise about above all the doubt

Not that person anymore
Dk who you are anymore
Not living in the past
Focused on the future
New memories in mind
Lots of missed opportunity
Rushed for a term rush
Started thinking long term
Made a plan set some goals
Can't wing it anymore
Never given a chance
Took a risk made a moment
Writing more to keep the peace
This mouth can cause trouble
Things always end up worse
Better to give up it on its ruined
Never gets better left tarnished