Always a student of the game
Open to learn something new
Open to grow be much more
Write for years feeling complete
Another never ending process
Part of the daily routine
Amazed by old material
Never one to let it inflate an ego
Could feel the tension frustration
While reading trying to remember
What inspired this or cause the reaction
What was going on during that time period

Older now sober and clean
Pictures of a younger time
Use to be fun and use to be wild
Moments of life some treasured
Others pushed out let go of the bad
But it happened for a reason
Always a chubby kid now heavier
Pictures slender and slim who knew
Forgotten friends another time period
Never ending moments can't shake them

Pictures of old friends
And of exes mean growth
Seen so much going on
Been through some stuff
Over the years over come fears
Friends are gone left all alone
Family is forever closer than before
When someones not mad
Holding a grudge over joke
Made personal taken too far
Sent a text to keep connected
Called to reach out on friends
Got ignored could've said something
Understand busy with life
No response a sign got the hint
Never gave up on the friendship
Stayed loyal and true in relationship

Flowing on the beat
Feeling the vibe alive
Chilling alone with music
Coming up with lyrics
Might say something deep
From the heart of truth
Honesty seen as ruthless
Wisdom with age over time
Always changing it up to improve
Working for the moment
One line at a time to empower
Motivated by faith and grace
Won't be taken down by hate

There's no secret just keep working
Work for it nothing is given
Don't care to prove anymore
Set up to fail trying to make it
Mind needs peace not influenced
by others pretending to be somebody
Didn't know about lofti beats
Started to feel them within
Able to show emotions set a time
Grown up living it up daily
Still haven't made it so close
Yet it feels so far away to touch
Hard to walk away always determined
Took a different path
Didn't expect to get there
Right away or follow the norm
The ideal standards of others
Working with what's given
Thankful for the blessings
Earned it putting in time
Working to make it happen

Mind is like a puzzle
Hard to crack the code
A maze getting lost an enigma of life
Seeking answers more questions
Not always getting the answers
Want out trying to solve it
Figure it out move on go forward
Tired of being stuck starting over again
In the same place trying to get there
Made mistakes learned the lesson
Not doing the same dumb stuff anymore
Sober with clarity of mind
Not walking hung over trying to recover

Thoughts are cluttering good vibes
Stress building up venting with writing
Staying home quarantine stay safe
Outside wearing a mask to hide emotions
Thinking of a plan starting over
Change for the outside be prepared
Hate letting others down
They keep setting themselves up
Set up to fail when times are bad
You are the first one they call
When things are well all of a sudden
No where to be found must be nice
Another drunk call or text with more drama
Feeling insulted like an after thought
Not good enough to be included regularly