Lots of conflict in turmoil
Can't see eye to eye
Behaviors alter as defense
Broken trust caused by constant lies
Lack of respect for one another
Both have big egos clashing
Consumed by pride everything dies
From ******* face to avoiding one another
So much hatred can't be in the same room
Social with everyone but one another
Mixed emotions gone south hit rock bottom

Another kind of story to tell
Wild as hell not about that life
Loyal to all the wrong people
Thought it was right
All kinds of red flags
Turned out to be wrong
Found love didn't end well
Not lucky but blessed
Thankful and appreciate life
Friendships end over lusting ladies
Relationships end over power trips
Love comes natural not be forced

Flirting with bad ideas
Things happened over the years
Some can't be changed
Fade away over time
Not attached people come and go
Felt abandoned betrayed
Learned to let go of toxic people
Stopped embracing negativity
Got drained listening couldn't help
Gave advice to be ignored
Some set in their ways
Refused to see things differently
Kept a distance didn't get involved
While others ran back into danger
Not trying to fall back into bad habits
Helping a friend sacrificing got anxiety

The water crashing in the distance
Staring from the mountain top
The smell of wet sand cold weather
Nature calling set free from the insanity
Able to unwind escape the death grip
So much on the mind over time
Just want to be normal whatever that means
Grew up poor happy we had one another
Some had it all and rich Why so much torment
It never made sense made the most of life
Worked with what was given
Made the most of things

The morning sun felt right
Not to hot moisture in the air
Walking to clear the mind
Get out of the house
Usually a homebody
But been home for weeks
Shirts are feeling snugs
In the mid section area
Its a sign that comfort is too much
Some physical activity is needed
Need more than mental health
Struggling to find balance
From a wild social life to home
Always active to writing
Use to like crowds prefer to be solo
Now more selective always one sided
More giving than receiving
Feeling ******* over taken forgranted

Always on hold for others
Working to get hired
Holding down the open position
But it's not guaranteed
Doing extra take pride in work
Glad when others benefit
Making it easy for myself
Don't leave it for the next
Be the one who made it happen
The one who got it done
Smiled liked the tasks
Keeping this mouth shut
When it opens it leads to trouble
Not into the drama others cause
Minding my own business

Always on the go
No time to reflect
Process feelings
Reflect on emotions
So many encounters blocked out
Most experiences taken in for growth
Sometimes rude remarks don't matter
Other times people look out
Not easily influenced blocked it out
Not interested in being manipulated
Tired of being taken for granted
Just trying to be myself
That's all that's known
A late bloomer making up for lost time
Working twice as hard to get by