Not mad anymore
Thought about it
All angles perspectives
Took it apart analyzed it
Observed detail put it back together
Cleaned out the gunk a clear mind
Hoping it run better than before
Sometimes parts need to be replaced
Took the bad out focused on the good
New pieces new beginnings starting over

Talking to myself
Writing dialog thinking for two
Things that could be said
Mind brewing conversations
Bubbling thoughts coming out
Characters developing life like
Seeing it in my head
Emotions stirring within
Feelings with reactions

Music in the heart
The soul feeling the best
Able to relate connect
Unexpressed emotions being sung
Bottled up feelings released
Not alone sharing a moment
Years of experience changing
Encounters filled with growth
Melody flowing through
Heart begins to heal empowered
Magical sounds taken away

Comedy in the heart
Making jokes for laughs
A heart warming smile
Talking about funny moments
Random comments awkwardness
During a serious intense time
Lighten the mood uncomfortable
Sketch comedy fun one liners
****** expression grins snug remarks

Forever in this hurting heart
Use to be close not friends anymore
I called reached out got ignored
Seen you as my best man
Women came between us
Prayed to be forgiven
Sober because I hurt so many
Clean living clarity of mind
Not making those mistakes anymore
We don't talk so you'll never know
Leading to fading in the background
Saved your place on this end
On your end replaced
Labeled as the bad guy
Not about that life anymore

Praying for normal
Change occurs everyday
Over the years over come fears
But things change over time
Never going to be the same again
Friendships full of broken trust
Relationships tarnished over conflict
Both right too proud to confess
Would rather fight than forgive
Apologies don't matter due to actions
One is sorry the other still talking bad
The other wont forgive the betrayal
Holding a grudge once a family
Now strangers with a past
No one made effort to keep it alive
Egos let it die than make it right

Wrote it all down
Poured it out
Untapped resources
Feeling better coping strong
Played with the idea
Not always going to be right
Made many mistakes
Would like to make them right
Been wrong about people
Questioning my judgement
Seen good but proved wrong
Love is given love is taken away
Still surprised it happened
Not surprised when it ends right away