Not sure how to feel
But always thinking
Coped with these thoughts
Somethings need to be said
Set the record straight speak out
Doesn't always matter mean anything
Only time will tell about life
No longer the wild child anymore
From player to getting played
Seeking truth in a room of lies
Open to change always judged
Passing through no reason to stay
Thinking hard not afraid ask

Under the big tree mid-day
In front of the house
Enjoying the peaceful day
Reading a book on my favorite artist
A cool breeze in the shade
Good to be out of the house
The world has changed over time
Adjusting cant remain the same
Adapting get through unscathed

Being the voice of reason is hard when people have selective hearing. Usually straight forward will tell a person. Whats up and not tell them, what they want to here because as a friend you

Don't lie to your friend.
Being honest should be the best feeling because you don't have to remember anything. People who lie end up having to be, or act like someone they are not.

Never understood, how a people date when its one sided; meaning one is all in giving love. While the other waiting around till something better comes along. How and why are partners jealous of one another, instead of trying to function as a unit. Never understood the relationship concept being the 3rd wheel around certain couples.

I've always know my limits and what could be done. Most of doing whats right by doing what needs to get done. Always love my job take pride in my work. Make it better for everyone most of all easy for myself. Giving my all, everything not expecting or wanting anything in return.

It's hard to speak up this mouth can make or break a situation. Sometimes you say too much others are offended. I don't say anything getting provoked is infuriating. Things seem to get worse, but never get better.

If I have an opinion; it's usually ignores, so I choose to write. I've learned people are set in their ways, and want to change me. I know they've done way worse, and trying to compare like we are the same. I'm not the scapegoat.

Once I have an opinion, or speak up; I'm the bad guy. I don't judge others since I've made my share of mistakes got through addiction. I'm the last person, who should be telling anyone anything. My silence doesn't mean depression.

You change with time like going out is not the same or fun anymore. I don't care to drink or socialize in a bar. I prefer people, who can open up be honest without knocking back a few cold ones. Sobriety is like a badge of honor for me it's my apology to those I hurt.

As age sets in not the same
Seeing the next generation
Come into play some are accepting
Others denying setting their own trends
With times start their life ready or not
Struggle to figure it out from life lessons
People hold the past against the new

Not writing from pain
Old experience time for new
New memories been a while
The old ones are over
Being told you try too hard
Means you care want it more
New chapter new beginning

Being home for a couple weeks
Feels like a life time numbness
Not sure what time or day it is
Feels like a blurred together
Sleep days nothing to do
Wide awake at night not able to write
Can't call friends don't have many
Can't make plans or do anything
Haven't recorded the podcast
Not feeling it as if late
Finally got into reading material
Usually distracted by work
Learned to cope and slow down